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pulsar tiger
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I told my mom to saw we have to go to a funeral, she said she’d js lie slightly

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Okay

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She’s getting married a few days before we go to Tunisia

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So on the letter she wrote we go gifted the holiday as a wedding gift

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She could’ve just said she’s getting married there

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And today we got a letter back

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The teacher denied the leave request

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And

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If we go then the days will be marked as unauthorised absence and we can get a penalty notice or legal actions can be taken

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I’m only missing 4 days of skl

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Not counting in 2 INSET days

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And I did some research

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Said since it’s not 5 days the fine isn’t immediately given

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The headteacher already said no tho so they can decide if they fine us

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But if I miss any days within like 3 weeks afterwards then it’s an immediate fine

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Which I think would be £450 all together

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Bc £80 per parents and child

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And there’s 5 of us

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Kid in my skl missed 6 days of skl to he go to wales

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Maybe he just said he’s sick idk

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Don’t think he got fined tho

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But whatever

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My cousins lying and saying it’s a family emergency

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Bc she’s also coming

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But she’s from a dif skl

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Oh but my youngest sis is missing 5 days bc she only has 1 INSET day

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So if her headteacher doesn’t approved

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Then the fine will be issued

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Tbf not my problem

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I told my parents we r gonna get fined

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Told them I think it’s a bad choice we r going

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Even tho I love missing skl

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But it was their choice so

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Also

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I’m meant to go out tmr w my friend, haven’t gone out w her in like a year. I got into an argument with my mom yesterday tho and she said I’m not going. So idk. I think I’ll still get ready and js see

copper spear
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ok

pulsar tiger
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I think im gonna help dye her hair

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It’s red rn

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So she might have to bleach it

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But she wants to go like darkish teal

chrome knoll
pulsar tiger
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Idk if she bleached it tho

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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It might mix with the red

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Happened to me before

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But I think teal will suit her

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pulsar tiger
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Then I’m gonna dye my hair for Tunisia. I wanted to go blue again, my mom thought I was going red

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Tbf I tried to go red, kept asking my friends if we can go wash it out and stuff they kept saying to wait. Had the dye on for 2 hours and the red ended up mostly orange on my highlights

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So I decided to not go red again

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Kinda wanted pink highlights

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But I want a colour that will hold

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My mom says blue will run green, I’m bc that’s the first colour I had

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But it lasts longer

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Plus pink would wash out pretty quick and my mom kinda limited me from dying my hair

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I think I last dyed it December

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And she said if I dye it now I can’t dye it to Tunisia

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Wait now idk what colour to do

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I’ll just see what dye they have

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Or ask around

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Most of my friends told me to go back to blue

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I think js my mom said red

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But I’ll probs ask and see what colours the most picked

pulsar tiger
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I have like no life bro

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Went to skl yesterday

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Came home and just slept until 10pm

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Oh yeah but omw home we stopped by some shops and I was alone in the car and tired so I lay eon across 2 seats

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And go a nosebleed

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And had no freaking tissue so I had to use layout paper

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pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
pulsar tiger
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Don’t think I’ll get the gym membership, dad just stoped talking about it. I think once I’m 16 i wanna get a part time job but my dad said the pay is absolute shit so, I only want it to have money to spend by myself like on what I want

pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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my mom stopped talking about gym memberships

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and i had the same idea for when i was 16 for the same purpose 😭

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stand strong 👊

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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i turn 15 on easter 😭

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pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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april 4th

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dw ill have the birthday huddler role!

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pulsar tiger
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But damn military program

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Do you at least enjoy it?

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pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
pulsar tiger
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Like good sick

chrome knoll
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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i was amazed when i was little and found out my birthdays would fall on easter a lot through my lifetime

pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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if you do 3 years and join the military you join a higher rank and with more paygrade

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i plan to do 3 years

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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even though i wont join the military, but doing three years will give me other benefits, college credits and a good resume about this program + letters of recommendation from my instructors

chrome knoll
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when's your birthday tho

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now im curious

pulsar tiger
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i like that u wanna go to the gym

pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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i didnt wanna go to the gym tbh

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i liked doing calisthenics, weight lifting was never my thing

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butt

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buttt

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i admire wheover does that

pulsar tiger
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That makes sense tho, people have different preferences and stuff like that. But yeah, just wish I could actually go. But I feel like I’d be very awkward there so I’d only really go if someone I knew signed up too lmao

pulsar tiger
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But overall people are great sometimes

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Gym or not

chrome knoll
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that look weird on the outside but are really nice

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(aka most of my friends)

pulsar tiger
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That’s great then. Two of my friends go, tbf you wouldn’t take them as the gym type but they go every day

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Which really surprised me

chrome knoll
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but having friends that would go every day with you is just amazing too

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cause mine would be once in a while, they are kinda lazy

pulsar tiger
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Ohh, tbf I wonder how people don’t get tired of the gym so I do understand them going once in a while, but i guess you don’t really achieve too much going once in a while. Tbf the main reason I even tried to sign up was bc they told me they go. They invited me to come for one day but a day pass was £12 while membership was £40 so my parents said there’s no point going for a day and membership is better but won’t get me it😪 but it’s fine I guess, once I make my own money I can go and for now I can use the things at home, once I mostly finish my recommended routines/exercises

chrome knoll
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my dad goes 3 times a week

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and he completely changed

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actually i saw some videos and going every day is bad for ur body if ur new to it because you arent used to it

chrome knoll
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probably wont be big money but will be enough

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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But I gotta wait like 11 months to make my own money

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pulsar tiger
# chrome knoll i agree

I think my friends do arms and back on Monday and Thursday, legs on Tuesday and Friday, swimming on Wednesday and Sunday. Saturday is like a rest day

chrome knoll
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are you able to do gigs? I used to make like 36 bucks a month from walking my aunt's dog and i made 40 bucks from babysitting her kids

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you wont earn big in the start as you can see from me

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but you are earning and thats what matters

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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It’s still something

chrome knoll
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but i really liked it

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took the dog out for like 1 hour and had fun with it

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then go back

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get some snacks

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and go home with money as well

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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I genuinely love animals so much

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but yeah

pulsar tiger
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i still love pets, not all animals

chrome knoll
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i have like 20 bucks rn

pulsar tiger
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but im saving it for a trip

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but it might get cancelled

pulsar tiger
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pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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its like spain for your european mind lol

pulsar tiger
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Woah that’s sick, I don’t think I know anyone that’s been there, tbf idk where it is but I’ve heard it

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pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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like if you thought of a beachy, peaceful, warm and welcoming place with amazing food, that is florida

pulsar tiger
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Hopefully it doesn’t get cancelled then

chrome knoll
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i prefer it over monster cause i dont feel anything with monster

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
chrome knoll
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thats hard

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i liked a lot the winter one, the acai one, and my pick rn would be a red one

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wbu for monster

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
# chrome knoll wbu for monster

Good question. I’ve only tried like 11 flavours, I started drinking them I think last summer and only buy them when I go out or before skl bc my parents don’t let me have it. At first I really like ultra peachy and this might sound basic but ultra strawberry dreams and ultra Fantasy ruby red is so good

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I love the can designs

chrome knoll
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what 😭

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you are like an expert

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i had a straberry shot, ultra and viking berry

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thats all

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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Once I live alone I’m buying it like every day

chrome knoll
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thats my thing

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i love the shamrock shake

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they should make it permanent

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pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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pulsar tiger
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Tbf if I had money

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That would be me

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But I’m broke

pulsar tiger
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pulsar tiger
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That looks sick, idk if I have it here

chrome knoll
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because of saint patrick's day

pulsar tiger
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Ohh makes sense

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I haven’t been to McDonald’s myself so I haven’t checked

chrome knoll
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i love going to starbucks

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i only drink one thing

pulsar tiger
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I’ve only been to Starbucks once and I’ve only had a strawberry açai. It was so good tho I wish I could have it again

pulsar tiger
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I’m allowed to go outJoy

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I don’t think we r dying her hair tho bc it says the hair dyes coming tmr

pulsar tiger
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Got this monster

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Also she got me a shinso funko pop

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Was genuinely so happy, I love shinso

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She also let me try red dead redemption 2

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Peak

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I got to chapter 2

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Died a few times but it’s okay

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Her manga collection so far is so peak

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My only goal in life

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Tbf I myself need a bigger shelf

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I have like no freaking space

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Gonna try hang out with her again once she dyes her hair I think

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And spend the day out instead

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Wait lemme count how much money I’d have if I didnt buy all the anime stuff

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£201

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Not counting in manga bc I got given all the mangas I have, and not counting in some stuff I got for free or as gifts

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And not counting in the £15 Funko I got for my cousin

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Can’t wait to give her it

pulsar tiger
pulsar tiger
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Okay what

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So I came on Netflix for the first time in ages

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The first thing I see

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‘Girl from nowhere. The reset’

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Excuse me

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I’ve seen it on TikTok but I thought it wasn’t fr

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So we haven’t gotten a season 3 of th original girl from nowhere but we got this

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It’s only 6 eps tho so it’ll take js 6 hours to watch

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So I’ll probs watch it

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I only came on Netflix to look for a religious horror

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Idek why

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I’m religious myself

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And then I see this

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Nvm there’s only 4 eps

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Others two are coming out 4th April and 18th

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Whatever I’ll just watch it

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The og manCri

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Then the new ones right beside it

pulsar tiger
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But gfn is so good man

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Minnie and the four bodies Leon scared me when I first watched it years ago

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I heard it was based on an actual story but idek

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Still pissed there’s no season 3

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I think this is the truth

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Idk I saw this on a video

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The actor that played nanno got tired of her role

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So the director or smth made ‘girl from nowhere the reset’ instead

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Tbf season 2 ended with yuri and some girl ‘killing’ nanno and then they part ways. The camera zooms out and nanno is on the rooftop watching them

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Gosh that’s so ass tho, that they just left it there

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But whatever if it’s true then I respect the actors decision

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At least it’s still set in Thailand with actors form there and the language in Thai ( or whatever u call it, I’m not sure)

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The intro lowk good

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I think the intro music is similar to the past seasons

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This might actually be good

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But first EP starting off deep icl

pulsar tiger
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I’m on the 3rd EP and imo the ‘gfn the reset’ is like

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Way more mature

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I guess the past seasons had like a limit that they went to but this one doesn’t I guess

pulsar tiger
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I’ve started tougen Anki

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I love most the character designs

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But it’s fan service.

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Otherwise it’d be so good

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But it is good either way

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pulsar tiger
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Bro?

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I had a best friend for 10 years

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2 years ago

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Something happened with another friend, she left the fg but said she’d still be my bsf

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Obv didnt happen, we stopped talking and grew distant

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We haven’t spoken for a whole year or two

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Just this year she’d occasionally smile at me bc we have history together

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And today she suddenly sent me a snap

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It was a memory form 2 years ago of us

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So I said smth, she responded

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Then she suddenly said she misses our friendship

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So I just said fr

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She said smth and I just reacted

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Then she mentioned a day when we went out, she was like ‘oh I wonder if our names are still there’

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And I just said like imagine and said the day was nice and all

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She mentioned her vape

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As once it was in a video on accident

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We just laughed abt it

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And then she said she has a new one, convo went on, I asked how as yk she’s underage

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She said a few things

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Now suddenly she said ‘we could go out if you want’

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And I’m like really surprised

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I’ll be honest, I do miss her a lot, and she has changed quite a bit

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She got me into a bad habit but whatever

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I haven’t deleted any of our pictures or videos for some reason

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I would like to be friends with her again but at the same time the thought kinda stresses me out

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And smth feels off abt it

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Maybe I’m just paranoid

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I just told her I can’t bc my parents r working so I’m home alone w my siblings

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Mostly true

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My parents only have it off on weekends obv, and Monday as it’s a bank holiday

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Idk how to feel abt this.

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I’ll just respond if she says smth

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But I’ll probably go watch smth rn

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I have to finish tougen Anki

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And start a few more things

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I also want to watch the horror ‘mama’ today

pulsar tiger
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Aw I love Rokuro

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It’s lowkey sad though. His gf(I’m pretty sure), his safe harbour

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She died from an illness as right in front of him

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And her last words were ‘ur always so cool so stay like that’ but like he only felt strong around her

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And he now wears her scarf 24/7

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But now he’s like super anxious

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Like he always thinks he’s dying and hides instead of fighting

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He’s such a sweet guy

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Sad that she’s dead tho icl

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She was so pretty, even tho she’s js a side character

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He’s a neurotic

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I think he’s my fav

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I think he’s abt to unlock his blood release shi

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Bc a girls abt to die infront of him while he’s hidden panicked

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And got the flash back of his gf dying and stuff

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I can’t find a pic of them together

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Or of Rokuro with just black hair

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But it’s these two

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Lulu and Rokuro

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Lowkey wish lulu was a main character

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Rokuro to the right

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Yeah I think he’s my fav

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I love the tougen Anki characters design tho

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They’re all so sick

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Or most

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No man

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His blood release is his girlfriend

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Dude that’s lowk sad icl

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Woah nvm

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Wait his whole outfits changed😭

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Nvm she turned into like a cape around him

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With those fans

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Uh

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🪭

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That

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Still looks super sick icl

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Aw him and his girlfriend used to love dancingCri

pulsar tiger
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Bro what the hell

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So oni and momotaro fight

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Main character vs some ‘insane’ momotaro

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His designs sick btw

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And

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He died and his assistant came to him and said ‘why’d you go and die. Your daughter was just born, wasn’t she?’

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That actually broke my heart for some reason

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Tbf it showed a bit of his past n shi but I cba to explain

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That’s actually so sad tho

pulsar tiger
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Someone said smth to me

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And I thought they said high school

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For some reason

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Idk where school came from

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But they didn’t say school obv and I realised js nowblurrycry

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Should I have even mentioned it

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Idk

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It’s probably not that important anyways

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And I didn’t do anything abt it

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Man I lowkey suck at this mod thing

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Whatever tho

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Why did I even respond to them in the first place now I look stupid

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I shouldn’t have even said no and left it

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I’m not doing good in this at all

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I only brought it up bc it’s obv better to be mentioned sooner than later

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So why do I feel so stupid bringing it up

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The hell am I doing anyways

pulsar tiger
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Why can’t I js communicate w people likeee

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How is it that I can’t even handle online interactions

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How does that work

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It’s so stupid

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Lowk should js go bc wth

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I feel so freaking down but anyways

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I need to actually like

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Do smth

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Idk

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Fml

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I think I’ll end up staying up most the night

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Maybe I should just start turning dnd off

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Maybe I’d be able to do more then

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Whatever, or I’ll just leave at one point

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I need to find smth to play, most these games I used to play w other people

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And when I try ask to play I get blanked

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But its alr

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I’ll js find a time consuming game or smth

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I don’t do anything

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I feel so useless idk

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I’ll js go play or smth

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Maybe draw as that seems to take up time

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I’ll see

pulsar tiger
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I don’t even do anything

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Man I suck at this lmao

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Oh well

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I guess ill go do smth.

pulsar tiger
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And it didn’t work

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I feel so ignored icl lmao

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I’m so tired

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Drained

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I really don’t know what to do with myself

pulsar tiger
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Maybe this will pass

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Hopefully

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Or else idk man

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I should probably change the topic

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Who cares anyways

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Whatevr

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Genshins deleted off PS4 now

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Gotta find a way to play it

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Or maybe I should let it go

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Idk I spent 3 years on it

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Idk why I struggle to interact w people even on here

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Tbf the only place I haven’t spoken is lounge 1

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Doubt I will

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I hate bugging in and don’t have anyone to talk w anyways

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I really don’t think I’m good for this role AnyaWeird

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Whatever though I guess

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Guess u can say my fault for not interacting w anyone

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Literally no one

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It’s so stupid, I literally had to dm someone just to share my opinion bc I didn’t want to bug in the chat

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I dont rlly talk w anyone hereAnyaWeird

fresh wharf
pulsar tiger
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Sorry for the ping (if that’s what it’s called)

fresh wharf
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yes it's ok Yummers

pulsar tiger
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Idk y I thought it’d be smaller

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Freaking genshin bro

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Now I have nothing to do

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Maybe I can watch more stuff now

fresh wharf
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genshin sucks it's ok!!!!!!!!!!!!

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too grindy

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if you had a computer I would have said to get epic games cs they give out free games like every week

pulsar tiger
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That’s true that’s true. Spent 3 years on it and lowk still don’t even have a proper teamblurrycry and quests are like 16hour long so🫩

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I used to have a computer and then

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Idk

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It crashed

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I have a laptop tho

fresh wharf
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yummy

pulsar tiger
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But idk if It’s on it

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Yes yes

fresh wharf
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well anyways there's a few free games that come and go on both steam and the epic games app

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if you can run the

pulsar tiger
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I’ll try check it out tmr as rn the laptops in my sisters room but thanks a lotcoolthumbsup

pulsar tiger
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Went touchwood Yummers

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Bro in hmv

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I was shocked

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I really wanted it but I was £2 short soooo

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Tbf it’s not like a priority

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I can get it another time

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I went with £30

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I left with 2p

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I also went Waterstones

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Well I went there first

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Peak

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They didn’t have tshd 2

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And I wanna finish a series first

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So I got Tgcf 2 instead

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£17🥹

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But it’s pretty so whatever

pulsar tiger
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I js got this

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From jjk I got gojo

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From chainsaw man I got makima

pulsar tiger
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Or Geto tbf

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Actually they’re all sick

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Idk what happened there

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I wanted that jjk cat ear plush so badCri but I did find sick stuff anyways so I’ll get it next time

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Lowkey was meant to buy manic panic but whatevr

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Oh yeah they had all this n way more

pulsar tiger
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I was meant to shut this journal down, lowk forgot abt that

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I did

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And then went and deleted some of my past messages

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And the journal was open again

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I’ll close it like in an hour tho

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I js see no point in it

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I have no energy to go back to skl, and a math test tmr I’m actually gonna like

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Idk

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Nvm gonna close this now

pulsar tiger
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Tmr my free nitro ends

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Sucks

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I had cool jjk sticker things

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But then I left the server anyways

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Can’t wait to miss skl

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Going to Tunisia next Thursday

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First time going anywhere other than Poland

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And I’m dying my hair permanently blue

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Only highlights tho I think

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Fjshfisjsj I can’t delete other peoples messagesCri

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Js figured out how to copy user ID’s tho

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Finally

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Turns out it was so simple

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I did ask before and got blanked

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But whatever

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Otherwise I guess I have nothing else to say

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I was literally tryna delete those messages in other channels tho and couldn’t Cri

pulsar tiger
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Almost a month

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I wasn’t really on discord other than when I got pinged

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Lowk felt slightly better during that time

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But anyways I got my mock timetable

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Lowk cooked

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Did a practice biology paper 1 and got 17/707304hitorigotouplush

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I’m gonna fail all subjects other than English I fear

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And DY

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DT

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so lowk gotta revise constantly now

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I already kinds was

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Just

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Inconsistently

pulsar tiger
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So why do I wake up to a thunderstorm

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But it’s been on for an hour or so bc an hour ago my cousin texted me abt it

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The thunder itself isn’t too loud but the

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Whatever it’s called

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It just keep flashing white

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Anyways my bf came back yesterday and got me flowers

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First time I deadass actually for a bouquet

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I think

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It was white tulips, I love tulips🥹

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I tried to press one of them

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Hopefully it works

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I had such an argument w my bsf last week bro, and then I think on Sunday she posted smth and it was about me and bro.. and so I messaged her an it kinda sorted

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Which was good

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Bc now we r going out with our two other friends on Friday

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Staying the night at hers

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And Saturday morning going out again

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And then I have to go home bc it’s my younger sisters birthday party so

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Anyways ‘too little, too late’ by laufey is lowk so good

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So I’ve been revising but I lowk haven’t been remember shi

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Kinda cooked but idk what else to do

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Tbf I’ve just been copying stuff down

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And then I’ll try past papers

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I’m only gonna do good in English bro ik it

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Minus the speaking exam

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Idek what to talk about

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Was gonna do something stupid like genshin bc there’s so much I can say about it

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But then that’s lowk childish and people r doing social media n shi

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So idk I need to find smth new

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Bro these flashing freaking me out I can’t even hear shit bc I’m listening to music

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Never I can in fact hear thunder over full volume music

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I dyed my hair ‘permanent’ blue to Tunisia

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Got into chlorinated water

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Came out

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All my dye was gone

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And I can’t dye my hair this term bc ‘it’ll get damaged if I dye it too often’

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Amazing

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But it’s okay bc I don’t mind my hair

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I just liked when my highlights were blue

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I haven’t been as active recently bc I offloaded dis ord and for some reason felt a bit better

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But I probably will stay on now

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Mostly opened this again bc I was bored

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I’m so scared mr nails lifting off my nail bed bc I hurt the acrylic

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IT HURTS.

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So I’ll try get them removed tmr

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I love acrylics bc I always pick my nails but my natural nails get quite damaged

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Tbf this is only my 3rd time within 3 years that I got acrylics

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I’m really hoping the press works, I don’t want the flowers to ever wither

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Omg I watched ‘something very bad is going to happen’

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It was good icl

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But bro all that

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Dude the first eps made me lowk uneasy bc wdym she has this awful feeling and all these word stuff are happening

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The family was in fact weird I’d be paranoid too

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And then the reason for her uneasiness came out but was still like woah

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The argument her and Nicky had bro I felt so bad for her

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I’m deadass asking everyone who’s getting married ‘are u sure he’s the one’ most of them won’t even get the reference but it’s okay

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Most ppl here won’t know what I’m talking about

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But her and JULES had sm chemistry

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And the way they first met

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and later found out

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While Nicky lied when they first met

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Broo

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And then he said ‘THATS fate’

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It indeed might’ve been

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I thought he’d propose last second but no

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AND WHAT HE DID AT THE END

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okay he did it for his son but bro

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Rachel was so hot

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I forgot her actual actress name

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28 degrees today amazing

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Bro some of these songs r so good but have sad meanings or lyrics

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Idk why I put them in my main playlist but it’s okay

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Ik I won’t remove them

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I won’t say the song name but by freaking Marskiii

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Why is one of the earbuds dead suddenly.

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The thunderstorm ain’t over yetCri

pulsar tiger
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I js love mitski

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I js yap and yap but oh well

pulsar tiger
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Smitten feels so funny to use sometimes idk why

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I was gonna say I feel in a similar way

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Bur idk

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Like whenever I think of my bf I just like adore him, genuinely, he’s so sweet and I don’t even understand how he started to like me but he’s just amazing and I love him so so much

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Ans this is why I’m getting told I’m being sabotaged by my friend

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Idk if that’s the correct word to use tho

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They say that bc she says ‘break up with him’ ‘he’s this and that’ but is constantly with him and talking to him

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And told me ‘oh I told him to go away’ but she approached him constantly and shit

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Which I myself don’t mind

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But then my bsf said she’s sabotaging me or smrh like that

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And idk

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Buy ik I won’t leave him no matter what she says so idrc

pulsar tiger
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Not tired anymore tho

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And my youngest sister is sleep talking

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I’ve yapped a lot and it’s only been an hour

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Might leave it at that for now

pulsar tiger
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Took some of my nails off myself

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Don’t like how they look now but oh well

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Anyways

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Bought the 4 pack this morning

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Spent the night at a friends, drank the first 3, used one for w mocktail which didn’t come out as good, then this morning we couldn’t be bothered to get ready so just left how we were to the nearby shops to get sprite for another drink mix thing, got the 4 pack

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I don’t think I’ve tried a bad flavour at all

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I think there was a few that weren’t my fav but none were actually really bad or anything

pulsar tiger
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Just finished towing the acrylics off

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Bro I slept pretty good last night, 2am until 12

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But felt so funny all day

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Had to go out and felt like super idk weak u could say

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I was only out like 3h or less

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Came home, went to sleep at around 7

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Slept until 11

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Did stuff I needed, started the acrylics

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And

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That’s basically all I’ve done

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Kinda ass

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I still haven’t done a bday card and need to revise more

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I got told to not worry abt mocks, ‘many people will do bad anyways’

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Honestly if there wasn’t such pressure I wouldn’t care

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The way some teachers talk about it and disappointment and shit really pisses me off

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And parents bro

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Oh and I thought I have 1 mock in year 11, heard u have 2

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So that’s 3 mocks and then GCSEs

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I’d much rather drop out and not do shit and then just

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yeah

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But lowk if I fail most of these imma js go yk

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But whatever I have 2 weeks I’ll just use all my time for revising

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Idek how to revise, I’ve just been copying stuff from websites

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How’s that gonna help idk, might js reread many times

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I do have some booklets from some lessons, not allowed to take actual school books home though

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I got the most revision form biology, 6 past papers and a thick booklet of everything covered that I’ll need on the mock most likely, she even gave chemistry and some physics revision too

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She’s pretty sweet, I hope I don’t move down

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Istg if anyone comes over to me all giggly asking what I got bc they got a rlly high score

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I actually can’t be bothered

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Dude I’m so scared of failing but then so unmotivated

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I would just lay in bed and not get up at all if I could

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Sucks

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School Monday- Saturday for 7 weeks straight nowAnyaWeird

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If only attendance wasn’t important

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I’m only at 92%, I should be able to stay home, this sucks

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And PE tmr, shit is amazing

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Don’t like any lessons tmr

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Or at all tbf

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Might js listen to music all day

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While paying attention ofc, if I fail any mocks I’m gonna ems

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1:51am, might revise a bit now tbf but without writing stuff down, so probably online, my notebooks are stacked somewhere under my desk snd my desk is messy anyways. It’s funny, the mess bothers me but I can’t seem to keep or make it clean

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I used to love so much shit, like drawing, I went to get back into that but once again I lack motivation and once I mess up I just give up on the drawing

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I like it though

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Dude my heads been hurting all day

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Anyways

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More alien stage coming out soon

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Better see a lot of Till

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Sad about all deaths tbf, love all characters too

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They all have smth about them

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But Till is still my fav

pulsar tiger
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Gosh people are petty

pulsar tiger
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Bro I woke an hour late

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Amazing start to the day

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But was just a bit late

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Also my PE groups changed which is group bc now in actually with my friend and pretty calm people

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I also got my DT exam board thing

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Idk what to do.

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I have to pick one:
-enjoyjng or making music
-inside the classroom(so stuff in classrooms)
-exploring the outdoors

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I deadass don’t know what to do and need an idea before Friday

pulsar tiger
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It’s raining

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I still don’t know what to make

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And I tried ask people, no one had ideas either

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It’s okay I have until Friday

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I guess

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Man I’m tired

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1-2hours of sleep

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And I’m still up making a card

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Idk why I didn’t start during the half term

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This is amazing I js do this shit to myself atp

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But it’s okay

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Making a card meant drawing and stuff

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Do I guess it’s not as bad

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Just that now I’m sat making it instead of revising

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Idek what to do for my English speaking exam

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It’s next Tuesday

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I had an idea bc I can tell so much about it and can actually talk abt my interest with someone listening

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But now I’m starting to think it’s childish

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Like come on everyone’s doing politics or controversial stuff

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I want to drop out so bad and just do nothing and eventually js go

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But whatever

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Not like I can drop out

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Ik I’m failing my mocks

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My friend did a practice GCSE paper higher tier in maths

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Got 72/80

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While on my normal tests I get maximum 25 out of 50

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No matter how much I revise

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She’s js amazing, she knows what she wants to do, she’s pretty and everything

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Like she’s just got most stuff planned out

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Idek what I have tomorrow lowkey

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Don’t want to know

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My bags not even packed again

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I’m gonna be rushing again

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My head hurts.

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I hate like

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Leaving space in my school books

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And my new RS teacher goes so fast bc half my class don’t pay attention so she js skips through so much stuff

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And I was writing the last point and annotations and she moved onto the best slide with 2 big ass quotes, and I lowk js gave up there bc I wasn’t sure how much peace I’d need and didn’t want to rip out the page, and then she told us to also write a paragraph and copy down advantages and disadvantages. So I asked her after the lesson to upload the lesson on Google classroom so that I can catch up at home

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She hasn’t

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Everything sjust really stressing and annoying

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Can I just sleep all day

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I’d much rather that

pulsar tiger
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Some people are so petty and self centred, here, not here, online, irl