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[pulsar tiger]

That 8bit bro..

Djskdjskdjdja why bro

Why’d she reach out

Idk should I be happy?

Or idk

Anyways

Man I got to study tmr

Maths

Polish

Finally finish the fucking poetry

I’m still on the first poem

I haven’t touched it at all

SHITT

and the birthday card

I was gonna remake one

Bc

My friend

I made her a cotton pad rose

It was still kinda damp

Well the edges

The card was right behind it

Stained the card

My beautiful work

It was kinda basic

But still

And I feel bad

Bc she said none of her friends really give her presents and she’s so thankful

And like

I need the card to be perfect

Okay I think I’ll shut up now

[pulsar tiger]

Oh yeah

I think I spoke about them before

The first person to like react on this journal and stuff

And weren’t online for a while

Like months

I saw them in one of the channels somewhere this week

So I’m not as worried anymore

Hope they’re doing okay tho

Suddenly remembered bc I accidentally went to the top of my journal and they’d react to every single or most of my messages

Anyways bye bye

[pulsar tiger]

omg wait you are in fact back

[scenic swift]

Yeah, I’m back.
Your wishes really warmed my heart.
I hope you’re doing well too!

I hesitated about replying with emojis because I wasn’t sure if it was meant for me, but I’m glad I didn’t misunderstand.

Thank you again for your kindness and well wishes !
It really makes me happy!

Wishing you all the best as well

[pulsar tiger]

That’s awesome, even if we never spoke directly I was worried because you randomly just disappeared. But yeah, it’s great you’re back and hopefully not for a bad reason, and if so then hope you feel better soon.

And I’m really glad! I’m also doing okay, I was actually super surprised when I saw you react I had to check a few times to make sure haha

No worries and I’m glad! Have a great day

[pulsar tiger]

Hate maths

I’ve been studying/ revising ever since I got home

And I’m still gonna fail

But tbf

Too bad

I’m js gonna go over what I think I’ll need

I’m not going over index laws

I think that’s what they’re called

I don’t get them

And I’ve had ai explain it to me

And ik I’ll forget it

So I’m skipping index laws

And doing whatever else I can

One more week of school

5 days

Can’t wait to redye my hair

BRO

I started talking with someone in summer

Spent a lot of time with them

And this is all online btw

And they know I’m in a relationship

But they like me

And they always told me they respect it, they’re happy for me but won’t stop liking me

Unless they somehow do stop

And like I let it pass for a while yk

Like didn’t pay any mind to it but tried to be like

Idk like speak less to them in a way

So that it’s not like

Idk how to explain it

And they’re genuinely a good person

So I never blocked them bc we’d play for hours and stuff

Now they’re asking me whether I want them to stop talking to them until they lose feelings or keep talking to me and see how they feel

And like

Tf am I meant to say

Like

Idk bro

[fresh wharf]

even if they're a good person dont let em guilt trip you into giving them what they want

[pulsar tiger]

They sent me a paragraph and I just kinda responded shortly, like I feel bad right but it’s like.. idek how to word it. I just told them that they’d be the one who’d probably end up most hurt in the end and that they should decide, if not talking to me will make them lose their feelings and avoid feeling hurt then they should do that.

And you have a point, but bro I don’t want them to be hurt or upset, so it’s like, a hard choice bc like you know, you don’t know which one they’d prefer

Okay so they do want to keep talking

So why did I have to pick

kfajdoajkdja

I have such ass lessons tmr

Yk what

If I’m doing badminton I’m fine

I’ll cook in that

I think that’s the only PE lesson I actually want to take part in

I love switching topics

So like

What’s this meant to mean bro

I asked if they mean they want me to say it

Bc idk

And they told me to just say yes or no

Bro let me study my parents will beat my ass if I fail💔

Oh man I hate being a people pleaser

I mean I think I am one

Idk my bsf always says I am

Okay they said they won’t stop texting me and will try to see me as a friend or younger sister

I haven’t opened the message yet tho

[pulsar tiger]

I mean idk if saying yes was the right thing

I barely understood what he meant

I hate when people word stuff like that

But idk I said yes

[pulsar tiger]

Then they said this

And like

Now they’re saying they’re happy

Wait lowk forgot they’re in this server

But they don’t use discord much so

It’s okay

[pulsar tiger]

I mean it’s good they got it off their shoulders

And that things probably will stay like

Cleared up

But idk if it was a good choice

Oh well we’ll find out

It’s just one week

But why couldn’t have school already ended bro

Airbuds this week

It might update later or tmr

So then I’ll resend it

But that’s the week for now

[pulsar tiger]

It has in fact updated

Not much tho

[pulsar tiger]

Oh yeah

I got my report

Highest grade is 9

And attendance was 94%, the best I ever got for the first term I think

I did all my RS homework I just always did it past the due date, like it was due midnight and I did it at 8am that kinda stuff

My teacher was only in my skl for 3 months and now she’s leaving

I didn’t mind her tbh

Idk why I got a B for science bc I did all my biology hw, don’t get chemistry hw, did physics homework which was never checked

But drc abt that one

Oh yeah target grade is what I should be getting/ what the teachers expect rn

It’ll probably change and go up later on in the year

I guess the 7 doesn’t bother me that much

Just the 5 and 6

But it’s still better than last year

I only got 4 and 5 mostly

I’ll try find my report card from last year

I get a report like every few months I think

[pulsar tiger]

4 is a weak pass btw

I’m pretty sure

But also depends during the real exams what most people get

My best friends got all 8 and 9

But maybe I’ll be able to get those grades too

[pulsar tiger]

So I lowkey forgot about all the animes and things I’ve started🥲

My dad started Tokyo ghoul like a few days ago and he’s halfway through season 3

I’m still on the start of S2

So I lowk gotta lock in

One more week left before skl

I’m cooked

Oh yeah also the polish school

The first day back

My only friend won’t even be there

(Only friend from that skl)

And like

Tf do I do

If I get sat next to someone I don’t know I’ll actually like cry

Unless it’s a girl

And she’s nice

I heard there’s some loud gils near the back so I js hope they’re calm

Bc supposedly last year there was two like awful girls

But they got forced to move classes

Tbh if I sit alone I don’t mind

But like

I doubt it as it’ll be my first day

Anyways

I’m going out today

With the same people

And we’re gonna probs buy shit and bake something

We’re defo getting monster

And then

We’re dyeing my hair

We just need to find hair dye

Honestly js looking forward to the monster

Jk I love my friends

But love monster

[pulsar tiger]

😋😋

Lowkey they’re not my fav flavours but it’s okay

There was 3 of us but we balanced vying drinks

Buying*

Well they paid for the drinks bc I bought dye

Bro the 4th pic

I was t eh na take a pic of the sky

I thought they thought we were taking a picture of them bc they tried speak to us when we walked past🥲

I love being out at dark but it’s lowk stressing😭

[pulsar tiger]

Just finished watching forgotten

It’s actually peak icl

Plot twist

Like what

Ending lowk sad

But whatever

There was like 3 or 4 plot twists

Wait lemme think about it

Yeah

We were gonna watch Robert but I saw it so then we js lowk gave up on looking for a horror movie

And js watched forgotten

But I don’t regret it

It was actually pretty interesting

I don’t think we’re sleeping at all tn

5:47am rn

Idk what time I’m leaving tmr

[pulsar tiger]

Okay nvm I fell asleep at 8am accidentally🥹

It’s bc her dad does night shift

And like

He was coming home at that time

And we were listening music on earbuds full volume

Bc the other friend fell asleep

And then

The car pulled up

So we quickly took them out and paused the music

And js pretended to sleep

Bc we slept downstairs

With the big TV

Oh yeah I watched 10 things I hate abt u

For the first time ever this morning

Well didn’t finish it but yeah

It’s not bad

[pulsar tiger]

Guys cluedo is lowk sick

I played

It was so good

Great game

My friend stole it from her sister

Oh yeah

We woke up like

At around 12

She woke up idk

And she was abt to call her dad

To ask what time she can stay till

And then

Her sister called her so she answered, and her sister then yelled for her parents going on about how she managed to catch contact😭

Acting as if she’s been gone for a year or smth and she didn’t even call her before

It was so funny tho

Bc she was saying it all in polish

So it was like 10x funnier

And it’s harder to translate back bc then it doesn’t sound as funny

[pulsar tiger]

Deadass I’m so sad lil peep is dead

[sleek mesa]

Honestly anime really messed up the manga after season 1

[pulsar tiger]

Damn, didn’t know that

[sleek mesa]

Yeah T-T

[pulsar tiger]

Okay so

Just wat he’d the stranger things last EP

So people might hate me for this

But

I’m disappointed

Wtf was that ending

Just lowkey boring

The fight was okay, didn’t expect there to be some other shit but it was lowkey short

And yes they had a team and plan but that was like

Idk it was fast

It took them ages against others

And then now they defat it quickly

Well

Yes it lasted 8h

Bc 8eps

But still

But anyways

And bro

Spoilers if anyone didn’t watch it

I kept getting told ‘ ||steve|| will die’

I was preparing

Lowkey didnt care abt them but I was preparing

Waiting

This hoe did not die

I expected more deaths

No shit only like ||1|| or ||2|| of the actually important died

Not counting military

A fight that’s meant to settle it all

And barely anyone dies

Okay, that’s good

But brooo

So yeah I’m lowk disappointed with the last EP

[pulsar tiger]

ITS SNOWING

HOLY SHIT

FINALLY

should’ve happened on Monday smh

BUT STILL

ITS STILL SNOWING BTW

IT SAYS ITS GONNA SNOW FOR ANOTHER 40MIN

YAY

[pulsar tiger]

Okay so

I haven’t wrote on here for 2 weeks

But I went shopping

And like

Got many stuff

Not from my money

But yeah

So

Yesterday I got

Nobara bc she was the only one at the shop and I thought y not

And then

There’s this anime store, I’ve been waiting for it to open for like a month bc it’s pretty close

Today it was open so I went w my dad

We spoke with the worker for like a few mins and looked around

It was mostly figures and funko pops

And trading cards

There was so many sick figures

I was showing my dad who I know and like bc he asked to know for my birthday next month

Then the guy comes up to us, asks me my top 5 animes

In the summer hikaru died was mentioned

And jjk

And many others

He asked me if I’ve watched demon slayer I said yes

Bro this guy leaves and comes back

He gives me a sword

Said it’s tanjiros sword

So I don’t know abt swords bc I don’t focus on them

But he gave it to me for free so I took it

Ignore all the blurring and weird 0.5 I couldn’t take it any other way

Even if it’s not tanjiros idc bc it’s sick anyways

Then he asked me abt jjk

He said he got bored of jjk or smth and dropped it

Broooo

He asked my fav tho

I said Inumaki bc heck yeah

Then Choso then probs yuji

He didn’t even know them

I asked if he had an Inumaki figure but he didn’t

He said he’ll try get one and in a month he’ll defo have it

So I can get it

Yayayay

And he gave me FOR FREE a mini like squishy jjk thing

Idk

Bc Inumaki was on the cover and he said to try get him

He said they’re £5 but I can have it for free

So my dad asked for another one that he’ll pay for

The guy said it’s for free too🥹

And he told me to open them both to see if I get the one I want, if I don’t he’ll litro give me the whole box

But I did get Inumaki

So yayayay

And Nobara

They look funny but at least I have them

So my dad feels like bad so he tells me to pick which figure I like most

It’s hard to pick bc I loved all of them

There was so much yuji ones

And denji

But I picked Megumi

I picked this one

And my dad bought it for £40 I didn’t even expect it

And the guy right after gave me a free demon slayer mystery thing

THEN he asked me what my sister likes bc my dad mentioned I’m the oldest

My sister doesn’t watch anime

She only saw like one EP of demon slayer

So I said demon slayer

Obv she rlly likes nezuko but the guy didnt have her

He suddenly comes back

With a Mitsuri Funko pop

Tells us to take it

Bro it’s so pretty

My sister at first said (before she saw the figure) that she doesn’t really like mitsuri but then saw the figure and happily took it

But it’s good bc I got a lot of stuff anyways

I already have 3 demon slayer Funko pops

But Mitsuri bro….

Oh yeah they had Muichiro

[pulsar tiger]

Same one that on the back of the back

But I didn’t get it

I will once I have money

THEN

he gives my dad a (3D?) poster

Of Naruto bc my dad likes it

And for me jjk

He also had death note

And so much more

Then I come home

I’m looking at the megumi figure

Now at the shop, Megumi was next to Toji who had the same type of box

And at the back of the MEGUMI figure box

I see this

And my dad sees and I realise that’s why Toji had the same design box

So my dad gives me £40

Tells me to go back to the shop with my mom

So I got Toji too🥹

Both of them together

£80 for both🥹

And then a bunch of free stuff

I counted how much the free stuff cost

I would’ve had to pay £145 or so

So woah

The guy also said they have a con or smth going on in Feb and if we come he might give us free tickets if he has any

Idk if it was con but yeah

They didn’t have any the summer Himaru died

My fav anime

But it’s okay

Bc they have other peak figures n shi

[pulsar tiger]

Yayayay got nitro from orbs

Heck yeah

[pulsar tiger]

Dude

Okay it’s been a while

Bro I’m js on genshin right

So

I remember

First time I started playing

Lost my first 50/50 to Mona

Ive played for I think 2-3 years

Won 10-12 times

I farmed a lot for Flins, 100+ pulls

(90 is defo a guaranteed 5*)

I lost.

To mizuki

But I was prepared

And pulled a few more times

And got him

Not his weapon tho

Then I got durin

Then Columbina

And then I tried for ineffa bc I noticed how much she boosted Flins

I lost to qiqi.

At like 50 wishes/pity too so it was pretty early

It was 2am

I’m js pulling

See I got a 5*

Actually got happy

Then saw qiqi

I don’t hate her but bro why

And now

Bro

I love like

Gambling or whatever

And

I’m at 28 pity

I have 20 wishes

And I’m waiting for a thing in game to reset

So I check my wishes and like can’t rlly wait and decide to just do a 10 pull

Just use two wishes

Neuvillette is out rn

I swear he was like the strongest or one of the strongest dps

When he appeared on the banner I tried getting him which is why I was at 28 pity

But then changed my mind

BC

I saw Flins is coming out in the next banner

Aka 10 days

And I want his C1

Bc I need to make him stronger right

And I’m guaranteed that I’ll get him bc I lost my last 50/50

I do the 10 pull

I see gold

Aka 5*

And I’m guaranteed so ik it’ll be neuvi

And it was him

At 30 pity

I got neuvillette

Okay he’s strong I wouldn’t mind getting him right

But I’m already trying to build characters

And. I wasn’t prepared for him

and I wanted Flins.

Now I need to farm a ton again go get those 90 wishes

And more in case I lose

This is genuinely my sign to stop pulling at night bro

Lost flins the first time at around 2-3am or smth I think

Lost ineffa at 2am

Now I got Neuvi unintentionally at 1am

I don’t have a weapon for him bro

All the highly recommended ones r taken by other characters

Should I try pull for his

Idk I’m literally at 5 pity on the weapon banner

[pulsar tiger]

Okay so

I’m going out

I didn’t cancel my plans

And

My dad suddenly said I can go to the shops with my friends but didn’t specify if just one or all of them

So I asked my mom

And my mom said I can go to all of them

So I’m happy bc yesterday they were telling me I can’t so I considered cancelling

Yk what that means

Monster

[pulsar tiger]

Without the yellow one

I haven’t opened th yellow one yet

But the Viking cherry and white is done

The mixxd is halfway done

Oh yeah we made cookies with pistachio cream and strawberries with Nutella and pistachio cream

It might look weird but it was actually good

We haven’t finished them

We also had subway

I haven’t ate this much in ages bro

It was good tho

[pulsar tiger]

Had a vanilla coffee this morning

I woke up at around 1:30pm

I’m home alone with my two younger siblings but we take turns who wakes u pearly as it’s me and my 12yo sister then my youngest sis

Idk if that made sense but yeah

I made myself noodles/ instant noodles idk

They were spicy

But

I didn’t even eat a quarter, just a few bites and then gave it to my sister🥹

Don’t want to eat much

Bro last night I spent like 4h on genshin

Tryna perfect my characters

For the abyss hardest floor

I spent a shit ton of money and other stuff

And then I died near the end🫩

I was about to finish the last stage and died

And I only had 5mins until the abyss reset

And I’d have to start from the first level so I just left it

Such a waste of time

But it’s okay

Idek what I’ll do today

[pulsar tiger]

Tried to take a nap

Woken up at 8 to go to my little sister as my my parents were at work

So now I tried to nap

Woke up to my 12yo sister screaming over steal a brainrot🫩

First she was screaming at my youngest sister to not turn off her laptop the wrong way

Then she started screaming bc somehow someone stole her most valuable brain rot or smth

Then for my youngest to help her steal from someone

Then she started calling everyone rage baiters

Bro if all ur gonna do is yell bc u kept getting stolen from then don’t play🫩

Actually managed to fall asleep and got woken up up by screams

[pulsar tiger]

Bro I’ve just slept 7hours

From 3pm to now 10pm

I’m gonna be up all night which I don’t mind but then I’ll probs sleep during the day tmr

[pulsar tiger]

Ja realised I kinda forgot to finish reading lost in the cloud

I forgot what chapter I ended, I think it was like after

Idk tbf something about cirrus’ mom scaring him by losing his dog or smth

Wait no

Idk bro but I swear it was when cirrus locked himself away

Or was that skylar

Lowkey gotta reread it

Bro all the jjk characters are designed so good

But Inumaki will always stay no.1 with Choso next

Idk how I’d order the others after them

It’s my bday in 4days

I cba

On Saturday family or so are coming over

I deadass cannot be bothered

Well not js family but like aunts and some friends I guess

I think my cousin and her mom and my friend with her mom, sister and possibly dad. Idk who else my mom invited

Lowkey I need money tho bc I gotta go to that anime store to see if they’ve got an Inumaki figure now

I got my megumi and Toji from there

Peak

But £80 for both

But it’s okay

I need s2 of tshd

Even tho s1 finished not long ago

I think

Yeah around a bit past summer time I think

And heavens official blessing

Ik I watched s1 and 2

Need to finish the movie I think

Bro the books are so pretty

I only have volume 1 but it js looks so good

Red and black on the side with golden writing and butterfly

And the cover is them

[pulsar tiger]

I highkey love the colours of the name thing

The previous ones were really cool I was lowk scared to ask to change it

But i think this one matches my pfp and i like how it fades so I’m really really happy

I need to fix my bio a bit

It looks a mess icl

But I’m lowk too lazy to rn

Might do it in a few hours

I was gonna make a strawpage like 2 months ago and forgot

Plus my progress reset soo

And I was lowk confused

[pulsar tiger]

Cure is js too good bro

Never leaving my playlist

Idek why it stuck to me sm

It’s my top song from alien stage

Everyone lost a loved one bro

Somehow convinced some people to watch it

I think I convinced 3 people

One of them said me and my other friend overhyped it

Which I get but bro

Then I recommended it to 2 people

Told me theyll watch it months ago

But it’s okay gang

[pulsar tiger]

I literally watched it with one of them

Her first time watching it

She was so shocked

And then the second time we watched it with subtitles

Even tho they rarely speak

She deadass was in denial bro

Lowkey I was too

But I saw her yesterday and she started playing the cure instrumental

The exact moment where Ivan died

Fairs tho I can’t get over his death lowkey

Spotify didn’t have the exact audio bro

In the movie thing when Ivan dies and a bit before it there’s no lyrics he the instrumental

THE WARNING SHOTS

The drums representing his heartbeat bro🫩

But on Spotify they have the

Idk what to call it

But basically full version ig?

I’ll try look for the one off yt tho

I’ll js call it the og

Bc it was actually so good

[pulsar tiger]

Cat

He lowk hates me

But he hates my sister more

That’s lowk a bad pic of him lemme find a better one

I need to get more pics of him these are from a few months ago

Now his face is kinda dirty bc he goes outside

Tried to clean him a bit and got attacked😔

Younger him

Damm I’ve had him for 8 years🥹

He used to love sleeping in pots and plastic bags

[pulsar tiger]

Dude I told myself I’ll do so much during this one week

All I did was play games

And tbf it was mostly only one game

Which will get deleted off my PS4 in 2 months

So my 3 year progress goes down the drain

And the one week I spent playing dint even improve anything

This sucks

I deadass have like no goal in life

Bro I told myself I’ll study this one week

I missed an RS test

Have a math test soon

And I js played games

None of my options make sense too

Like what I picked for my GCSEs

They don’t fit into each other

And idk what I wanna be anyway

Idk if I’ll even get to be anything

But oh well

Guess all I can do is see how things go

Lowkey I need to start interacting more

I barely interact with people on this server

Although I’m always checking it

Choso

[pulsar tiger]

Aye a reaction

I lowk need to get back on roblox

FLICKER

I used to love that

I actually met so many people on there I remember I had a gc

[fresh wharf]

i felt choso spiritually

https://tenor.com/view/choso-big-brother-screaming-yuji-yuji-itadori-gif-15280946963519255387

[pulsar tiger]

He’s actually sick, my second fav

[fresh wharf]

so so true

[pulsar tiger]

Stealing that

[fresh wharf]

you goblin

[fresh wharf]

omg flicker was so fire

loved gaslighting people

[pulsar tiger]

Wow okay

[pulsar tiger]

Fr I always sent fake notes or blamed randoms and it actually worked

It was so fun

Wait lowkey the chat limit sucks

Both on Roblox and discord

But they’re all inactive now

Deadass where’d they go bro

[pulsar tiger]

I was meant to respond to this

Now I make no sense

I’m sick of giveaway servers, constant pings and to enter giveaways you have to join more servers🫩

I’m probs gonna spend al l the money I get on manga or figures

I already have a £20 gift card

For Waterstones or hmv

Or obv other shops

Might get more on Saturday bc that’s when people r coming over

Oh yeah I’m getting an Inumaki figure from my bsf

On Wednesday I think

If the order came on time

She couldn’t keep it a suprise so js showed me what she’s getting me

But tbf idrc I asked her to show me it too

[pulsar tiger]

Wait can I put edits on here

I think

Idk

Ill delete if needed later

I LOVE her design

I was gonn get her on her release but got told I don’t have the right team for her

But I’ll get her next time

She was deadass js rage baiting Rerir an Dottore the whole what

Lowk can’t wait for the next quest

But all together they take like 20h

Bro a friend I haven’t spoken to for a month or so reached out bc she saw I was online (a few day ago)

Said she was actually thinking abt me and we should play sometime

Genshin I’m pretty sure

So I said yeah sure, and then I asked her when does she want to play

She went offline a few minutes later

Since then she’s come online like 3 times or so and I still haven’t gotten a response

But fair I guess. The only thing we do on genshin is I help her farm or build her characters

[pulsar tiger]

I forgot I had genshin on bc I’ve been downstairs

[pulsar tiger]

Nefer rerun when

I heard she might be out in like 4 months or so

The games getting deleted off ps4 in 2

I think I have it on laptop but the graphics is horrible

And it’ll be hard to get used to from PS4 to laptop

I should save for a ps5

But

cba tbf

Lowk would get genshin on my phone

But I think it’d take 20-40GB

I have only 4GB free rn

I need to go through my camera roll thing

It takes up 70GB

On my old phone it used to be 28GB

Idk what happened 😓

[pulsar tiger]

It’s my birthday on Wednesday and that’s the first day I’m back in all my lessons. How depressing

[pulsar tiger]

I finally got an ad blocker🥹

It wasn’t even that hard too

I js never knew any tbf

But I was sick of all the ads on manga and anime websites, and Crunchyroll sucks bro, 7 ads every 10mins🫩

My friend said she’ll give me her login as she has premium or whatever but I was too scared to ask later in the day

But now I have an ad blocker so it’s all good

Thanks for the reactions Ko

[pulsar tiger]

And I’m in skl

I’m only going to fist and last period tho

The 3 in the middle I’m in the HUB

that’s something at least

Tmr I have to go to 3 lessons

And then all of them

This morning was awful bro, noting was coming out right bro

My head hurts but I’ll probs sleep all day when I get back home

Then stay up again

[pulsar tiger]

Dude🥹

I wasn’t sure if my DT teacher remembered I leave early

And I didn’t get to tell him before the lesson

As a bunch of people kept walking past in big groups and then he disappeared

I leave at 2:45

Which is 30mins early

And it was like 2:30

We were doing drawings and he was finally walking around the class to look at drawings

Lemme draw my classroom

That makes no sense

But

Blue is his desk

Facing sideways

And then red lines are tables

So there’s a table in the middle too just going down

I can’t find a pic on google, only the other classrooms

Oh well

I sit on the back long row

And he was finally walking around and dude I was so stressed bc it was dead silent but I put my hand up and he almost walked past but then he asked, so I just told him and he said yeah that’s fine to just remind him

Bro my hands were shaking

I hate speaking in class🫩

Then the worst part was the time to actually leave, I’m at the back so it’s not super bad but I stood up and walked past some people

The door was so loud

And when I turned to shut it everyone was starting at the door

It’s already 2:46 and my moms rlly strict abt the time so I’m kinda rushing to get to the office

There’s classrooms around the entrance and u need a keycard to get into the office

So I’m like shit

I look into the nearby classrooms

They’re all either children from my year or the year above

And then there’s 3 ppl from my year hanging around a hallway across from the office

2 girls one boy

I hate the guy lowkey

He hates me for no reason and is js so rude

Well I don’t hate him, that’s a strong word but I don’t want to be around him

And they’re messing around

But they let me pass at one point so I walk past as I see one of my usual teachers down the hall

So I ask the teacher if he can let me through the office, we walk back down the hall and the kids from my year are still there but silent

And he started like telling them off for messing about

And now I’m stressed bc I hope they don’t think I snitched

Bc I just asked to get let through the door

[fresh wharf]

did u pick dt for gcse...

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Yeah… why…

[fresh wharf]

I'm so sorry for you

I didn't even take it but it was hell for me

oops

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Did u have one DT class only or dif ones? Bc I have like graphics, wood/material work(I think that was the name) and 2 others

[fresh wharf]

I had woodwork and digital and food

for food tho we had to buy our own ingredients...

that's why i hated it

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And trust me I only picked it bc I didn’t know what else and I’m stuck doing 4 booklets, 20 pages coursework, final product and mini version of product🥹

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Ohh, same then, the one I’m doing rn is grahics tho

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Fairs

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bare with my phone us bugging out

bare with my phone us bugging out

I GOT Q DETENTION FOR NOT BRINGING IN AN APPLE

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Did u mean to type that twice😭

[fresh wharf]

NO

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Bro what, for an apple is crazy🫩

[fresh wharf]

my phone has like reached Italy flow state

it's flow state

ITS

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Most likely most likely

Spelling is crazy💔

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I forgot I was gonna sleep after skl

Might as well js sleep now so I can stay up at night

I’ll see if I can fall asleep

Gotta make sure I wake up like before 10 tho so that my sleep doesn’t become too irregular again

Last time I stayed up all night then slept after skl 5pm-2am and then was awake until like 5am, tried to sleep again and I got sleep paralysis

Today will probs be the only day I sleep after skl anyways, if I do it too much I’ll js get into trouble

And I need to make notes

I have a 2 day exam Thursday and Friday😪

And I didn’t attend the lesson for the last 6 weeks and no one sent me any work or their notes so I’m kinda behind

https://tenor.com/view/gudnaitinis-gif-17703749535812827607

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Probs not my fav flavour but it’s good

First time trying this one

I think

Stuck revising health n social

For a damn 2 day exam (10 hour) worth 30% of my GSCE

Oh and I missed the lessons for the last 6 weeks

Amazing

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I think I’ll give it like a 7/10

Maybe 8

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BROO

my bsf gave me my gift today🥹

Nvm ill send when I’m home

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Alr so

Bro tshd manga

I was actually like

Bro

That’s the first magia wants to buy for my own money

I ja love the anime sm idk why

And I love go the first 2 pages have colour

Bro it js looks so good

And from the jjk mystery think I got Nobara

I do expect her bf it was a 1/6 chance

Yo last time I had a blind bag I got Nobara first too

ALSO GOT MONSTER

One of the best flavours bro

We ignore the state of the window idk what happened to it this wasn’t my room before and we’ve been here for a few years

I also got a lil peep poster similar to this one

And some body set thing

BFO IM LIKE

I’m actually so shocked I got tshd volume 1

And the jjk mystery🥹

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omg I got one of those mystery boxes but it was for gojo, geto, shoko and toji

my friend and I wanted either toji or geto and we got gojo and shoko instead

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I actually never saw any so I didnt even know they exist😭

That’s actually depressing, idm Nobara but obv I haven’t favs but they were like th higher ones with lower chances of getting so

Gojo and shoko are fine but like not any of you got the one u wanted

[fresh wharf]

I woulda taken any of the 3 but geto was the one I wanted the most

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Fairs in S2 I felt so bad especially when Gojo asked if he lost weight and then everything that happened after

Hopefully u get him next time then

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What am I doing atp🫩

My friend had smth I stopped a year and 6 months ago

And asked ‘oh do u want some’

My other friend that was nearby immediately agreed and I thought like why not like it’s been a while and it’ll only be a bit so it won’t do anything

Had it the day after again

Then the grind wasn’t in for 2 days

And I thought it’s fine

But I js want it again

Also why the hell did I pick the options I did

Why can’t I just drop out

Anyways

I just want to sleep all day

Like for a long long time

I was gonna draw but that ain’t gonna cut it, I’ll just give up halfway

Oh yeah there was like a bunch of drama yesterday

Some fight was meant to happen at lunch

Then during period 5 people were out of lessons and running around screaming

There was just so much

Then the police came to the skl

Then after skl supposedly the red vs blue thing happened

I js saw a vid of a bunch of kids from my skl in one area and someone kinda explained it but idk

[pulsar tiger]

Games aren’t helping

I can’t find a distraction bro

Imma just try draw or something

Maybe I’ll clean my room a bit, that’ll probs keep me busy.

[pulsar tiger]

It’s actually so cool

Only problem is people

But maybe one day

Maybe

My head hurts😪

I need to find smth to do

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First time trying this one today, taste lowkey reminded me of ultra strawberry dreams or smth similar

Might get another monster and a boost on Monday

The song ‘an eater’ is stuck in my head broo

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Yayyay

I went to hmv

So

I went to city centre

Like for the time in ages

Well I went like last year only to the cinema

Not actually inside and stuff

But this time I did

It wasn’t planned

My mom last week said “wake up at 10 and that’s the day we will go” but I didn’t remind her so I was up at 10 but laying in bed till like 1

And then my dad said he will take me

Like I thought he was joking but then he said to check the time and ordered a taxi

Or uber

Idk what to call it

So I had £45 on gift cards £16 in cash

So we go

And it’s the fist time we r ever there

Like inside

My dad wants to be home by 4:30pm

It’s 3:10pm

Or smth like that

We finally find hmv

Go in

Icl peak

Lowk didn’t have the figures or exact posters I wanted

But it was alr

They had some manga and I regret not getting it but it was £7 for one

AND in forbidden planet u can get 3 for £15

So I decided to buy them in forbidden planet

But it’s a bit further from city centre

But I spend £42 in hmv

I got

Mha, chainsaw man and jjk mystery

A momo from dandadan figure for my cousin for her birthday (damn £15)

And then 2 posters

I was looking for an artist ik

But couldn’t rlly find ones I love

So I got a death note poster

And one was £6

But 2 were £10

So I got my sis a sick Billie Eilish one

Now I wish I took it

Bro now I want

I’ll show my poster when I open it

Only got mha bc why not

Might js give what I get to my friend

Depends on who I get

Actually

Nah I like all of them

Tbf idc who I get from any of these

I like them all

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Those r the ones I got

That’s the poster I have

I js cba to unroll it

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I finally put all my posters up

Double sided tape pisses me off

I couldn’t even cut it

Whatever

I’m so bored now

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Ultra peach

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One last hour of my health and social exam tmr

Finally

15 hours in total

Gosh seeing that one person struggling and talking here makes me feel bad but then they’re the ones that cut contact and all so I don’t wanna reach out

5 months ago

It feels like a year ago

I’m so bored but I need to try add onto my notes

Idk what to do after that tho

Bro this kid in my class keeps standing up when the teacher leaves and going ‘ay derek fam’ while recording the whole class

Did it yesterday and today

I glanced over, saw the camera and turned back around so quick that i didn’t get caught in it

Thank god bc he sent it around

I’m so bored bro

I high key feel so ignored everywhere, irl, online like serves or when messaging others

Whatever tho

I don’t talk much here anyways so idk what I expected

Wish I had money to buy monster

Damn I need monster

I’ll probs js finish my notes and stay up all night playing or smth

[pulsar tiger]

Haven’t even touched the notes yet

Looked at them and gave up

I really can’t be bothered

But then it’s worth 30-40% of my GSCE

[chrome knoll]

relatable

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Frfr

Tbf I guess it’s only the comparison bit

Why can’t they just read my work and compare it themselves the difference is so obvious smh

Bro I actually question why I’m still in this server

I’m not getting better and tbf sometimes this server js makes me feel worse

But whatever

Maybe I’ll js not enter discord at one point

[chrome knoll]

whatever makes u happy, but you will always be welcomed back with open arms

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Anyways I have a flag of Inumaki in front of my bed and it takes up half the wall but it’s okay bc he’s amazing

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Thanks so much, it’s great to get a response here lmao, and same goes just so you know

[chrome knoll]

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I have my own view on the situation thing going on

But

I don’t want to bring it up

Tbf maybe a few would disagree with my view or think I’m bugging in for no reason

So I don’t want to

Dude why am I even a mod, I don’t really do anything or even interact with the others

I really just read whatever others say

What they decide, etc

Actually useless bro

Whatever tho

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So my request for an absence got denied by my headteacher

Bc yes my attendance is like 94%

But only bc of doctor appointments

And I can build it up