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And obv they’re friends w him right

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And then L was spamming me on Easter saying my bf got D a gift but like not my other friends so why only her

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I didn’t comment on it bc they are friends

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And then not too long ago she ran up to me telling me ‘ ur boyfriends friend told me he likes me (L) or D. I’m telling you, break up w him”

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She’s constantly telling me to break up w him

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I said there’s no actual proof

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Yes many times it feels like he’s closer to my friends but I don’t want to make assumptions

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And L keeps telling me ‘if u break up w him, don’t tell D bc she’ll get with him’ she has a girlfriend and I doubt she’d do that

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L is constantly telling me to break up w him and it’s like bro

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She also constantly tells me like ‘oh yeah some people are saying me n ur bf are dating but just so you know it’s not true, in Literslly telling him to leave me alone’

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Okay

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And like 2 days ago I got a notif that someone from my contacts made a new snap acc, if was my bfs number so he made a new acc

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I didn’t think much of it

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Checked the user last night, his name was smth like ‘Sam’ even tho that’s not his name so whatever

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I asked L if she knew anything abt it like if he’s lending the acc to someone or if she’s using the acc

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She’s all confused and said no

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And she starts messaging my bf

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Starts asking him if he made a new acc

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He kept denying, she sent a ss of the new account

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He suddenly said he made it to annoy people

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And she immediately turned to me and said ‘see if I didn’t show that I had proof or that he did make an acc then he wouldn’t have admitted it, it’s so suspicious, just break up with him”

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And me and him used to have these like bracelets

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And in PE she asked me if he even wears it

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How should I know

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It’s a bracelet so it’s under a sleeve

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She asked to see if so I gave it to her

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She ripped it.

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All the beads fell to the floor

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And she js smiled and told me to put them in the bin

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And once again she said ‘break up w him’

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I’m kinda upset icl

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But whatever

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I didn’t throw them away

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I had some elastic stem for whatevr for bracelets

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So I put the beads back on a new string

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I told a separate friend abt the whole situation, she said if sounds like L is trying to sabotage me but at the same time she could just be trying to protect me

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So I’m just so confused n shi

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In an hour or two I have to get ready to go for the airport

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I’m so happy I don’t have to see most people for a week

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Things have been rough lowkey

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I’m in a fg of 5

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And even tho 3 of the girls don’t like D as much, they sit as a 4 facing each other

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And like obv I’m just on the side

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And it’s js so annoying bc the convos constantly between them

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Last week, on our way to school it was the same 3 girls and me

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They were talking abt some drama, an the girl talking was facing them, so I was tryna listen in but it just felt like I wasn’t included at all

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That lowk put my whole day off

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And obv at break, they were in a circle just talking and shit

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And one of them says such random and unfunny things it’s a full starting to piss me off but whatevr

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Kinda was but whatever

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I said I thought it was the other way around

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Bc I did

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Things sorted out

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Then yesterday

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D wasn’t in

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I say in her seat so we were as a 4

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I was talking abt something

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And one of the girls is CONSTANTLY listening to music

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I love music

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I listen to it 24/7 but not when someone’s talking to me

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At first I didn’t mind that she was listening 24/7

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But it’s getting annoying

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It’s everyday

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I was so happy when she couldn’t listen to music for a month

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And anyways

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I sit down

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And I’m talking

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When almost done, the one listening to music turns to the other girl I was facing and asked ‘wait what did she say?’ And the other girl said ‘idk. Why would I ask me, now it looks like I’m not listening’ ffs

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And then the one beside me didn’t comment or anything but I think kwas listening

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It’s just so fucking annoying

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Then they started talking amongst each other again

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And playing some stupid spin the bottle shit saying ‘who’s most likely to..’

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It’s actually all pissing me off

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I left soon after

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Went to lesson without them too

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Bc I actually cba

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Once again, nothing, no interactions or anything

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And then today she goes to my sites asking ‘did Liv tell u anything? Is she mad at us? Like what? What did she tell u and don’t lie?’

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Why are u getting my younger sister involved like

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And he always going on abt how talking directly is important

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Yes I didn’t do that bc u never fucking change

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U don’t communicate so tf

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At lunch I left with D bc she was in today and js spent it w her

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As we had to find a teacher

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And then that was the end of the day

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So glad I don’t have to see them for a week

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I’m so drained

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I don’t even want to go on this holiday

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I’m sick of everything bro

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Can’t really tell much rn tho

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Probs for a week too

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Might try nap, I can’t sleep after 2am until 7

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And I stayed up last night so

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But yeah I’m just pissed, confused and lowk upset

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I’m in Tunisia

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Bro

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Okay so not bad at first and all that

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Got grabbed and yelled at by some random dude but whatever

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And I was laying in the sun and burnt my feet rlly bad

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And obv they’ve been hurting and all that

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They’re literally burnt and all that

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Couldn’t sleep all night a bit ago bc of the pain

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Didn’t go into the pool or anything all day

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Went early to the room and slept

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My moms complaining

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Talking shit abt me

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And my dads yelling at me for no fucking reason

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I was meant to sleep in the same room w him

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We only have one plug

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So when we got into the room I plugged in my phone as it was on 30% while his was 80%

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And he got mad over that

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And said if I wasn’t on my phone it wouldn’t have lost battery

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When I left the room 3 hours ago it had around 35%

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I only used it to take pictures of some stuff

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He got mad

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Then said I only want to be in the same room as him to charge my phone

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And that I can’t survive without it and without texting

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So I said I don’t get messages anyways bc I don’t

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And he started going on and how I NEED to respond to my bf and all that

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And I’m not in the mood, all day I was sat outside with constant freezing wind hitting me (eventually I went to the room which pissed them off)

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So I got up and went to the bathroom and said ‘whatever’

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Oh and he’s drunk

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And he got even more pissed and started yelling

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It don’t even make any sense

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Just abt how I’m ungrateful and all that shit

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And I’m constantly in a bad mood

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And started repeating what my mom said abt me and when she told him to quieten down he just said she said so too

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I actually cba

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I’m so sick of ts

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Maybe I’m just tired idk

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But when I get home

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I’m ||relapsing||, no hesitation bro

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Fuck 6 weeks clean

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Tbf that’s the longest I’ve been lmao

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Was mostly js scared of it not healing in time for some reason

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But whatever

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My flight back is in Thursday so.

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Hey if u need to vent I'm open I don't mind I also need to vent to someone if I'm being honest

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I feel so nauseous

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And tired

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I don’t want to go go school

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I have no energy for my friend tbf, they were pissing me off lowk before my flight and now just thinking I have to see them makes me not want to come in

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I won’t even explain why

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I have a test tmr and I have so much to revise I’m gonna actually lose my shit man

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I don’t want to go in

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But then it’ll be that I missed 5 days

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And I’ll probs get fined

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I don’t want to go

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And then school on Saturday

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That’s also so shit

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I don’t want to

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I’m tired

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But I understand it’s my education that impacts my future

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If there even is one

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But

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I’m so tired

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Back to 0 again

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I’m getting my mock timetable tmr