#emi's journal

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nimble tide
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And the neighbors number in case we need it

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The way there was so cool beans

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Dumb broken key monument baby_smile

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It's raining!

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I love the rain

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I'd so go outside and drench myself rn

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But then my mom would yell at me 😔

split niche
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Wowzies

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Turns out I forgot a pair of shoes at the dorm

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And thank god but

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I dont have to go get them

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She gave them to my cousin so she can give them

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I'm so glad

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But also it's the nuns fault

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Because when I went to get my things she had packed them

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And she didn't pack the shoes

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Oh well

outer sable
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but i'd catch a cold sad

nimble tide
nimble tide
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I was joking around

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Bcs me nd my cousin r on call w my friend

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It's 3am

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I was joking and saying let's put this one audio really next to the phone that says "wake up"

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And suddenly my cousin is calling me childish

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Wow

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Thank you for ruining my joke

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Now suddenly I'm not feeling that happy

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Man I was having sm fun

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Now he's trying to make me laugh

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I hate getting called loud

hushed olive
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Cooked nails

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split niche
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"The Marionette"

Strings on my wrists, strings on my spine,
They pull when I breathe, they tug when I whine.
A painted-on smile, a hollowed-out stare,
I dance when they want, though no one should care.

The crowd claps loud, they love the show,
But they don’t see the cracks below.
Each string digs deeper, each knot pulls tight,
I bleed in silence, but twirl in light.

My wooden heart splinters, my jaw is sore,
The stage feels smaller than it did before.
I bow on command, I speak their lines,
But none of the words have ever been mine.

The puppeteer laughs, unseen above,
Calls it discipline, calls it love.
And I? A shadow, with no real say,
A broken doll that they won’t let stray.

One day the strings will snap and fall,
And I’ll crumble silent against the wall.
Not with a bang, not with a scream,
Just the end of a forgotten dream.

nimble tide
nimble tide
nimble tide
atomic dirge
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Tytyty

nimble tide
nimble tide
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How many aura points do I lose for getting blocked js bc I said I haven't tried Dr.pepper

dense cypress
outer sable
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Waw people actually read this

slim heart
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Bro Dr Pepper is a drink not a fucking lawsuit discussion if your blocking over a drink I’ll throw my Yorkshire puddings at you

dense cypress
outer sable
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yorkshire puddings are quit peak

dense cypress
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Mmmm they are tho

slim heart
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Huh I can’t say I’ve had one before

dense cypress
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Get out void

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Lmao

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I’m joking

slim heart
dense cypress
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Hahaha

slim heart
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It looks similar to a Dutch baby kind of which I have had before

dense cypress
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A what now?

slim heart
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This thing

dense cypress
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Toad in the hole looking thing

slim heart
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Been years since I had one but they do be good

nimble tide
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Im laughing w tears

slim heart
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I remember a laughing fit I once had

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Was years ago of course, haven’t laughed in a long time. Anyway somebody showed me some stupid TikTok in the middle of the frozen yogurt shop and I was on the floor laughing

nimble tide
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🤣

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LMAO

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Idk why I'm laughing

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That's how my night is going

slim heart
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It’s just that stupid, the absurdity is too much

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To give you some idea of how long ago this was for me I saved it to my phone on January 21st, 2023

nimble tide
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I'm back from schoolmad

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Who

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THE ACTUAL FUCK

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DOES A MINI TEST

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ON THE FIRST DAY?

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ON CHEMISTRY

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It oke I copied

split niche
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That’s insane

dense cypress
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lol

nimble tide
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I am NAWT exited for tomorrow

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Oh well

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Nighty night

split niche
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Good morning journal

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I'm being dumb while being on discord instead of searching for my keys

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Xx

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Omg I was freaking tf out

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I found em

split niche
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Hihi ayhem

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I finished hw yay

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Now I'm gonna nap

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School was nice tdy

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The math teacher was surprisingly very sweet to me

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(we'd fight)

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And I love my Albanians teacher

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Except the fact that she wants me and some other "talented" kids to participate in a contest

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To represent the country 💔

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She calls us special or smth

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Eh

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I'ma nap

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Ciao

dense cypress
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Ciao

nimble tide
dense cypress
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So

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Sunday night I slept at 4

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Monday night I slept at 2

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Tonight I'm sleeping at 1

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Let's hope tomorrow night I sleep at 11-12

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Goodnight

nimble tide
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Failed

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Good morning

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It's 7:21

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Slept at 3 and a half something

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My eyes burn

dense cypress
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My friend gave me two books that Ive been searching for a while

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She gifted them to me

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I'm so happy

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One isn't in the best shape because the cover is gone and there's one of the people's names on the side but idm

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I'm happy to have it

nimble tide
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It's raining

dense cypress
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I might start journaling

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Idk why I just rlly want to

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I have this like

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Notebook

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It's the size of a whole ass book

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And it has line pages

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With date options

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Might look like a diary to others but like who cares

dense cypress
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Nice go for it

slim heart
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gonna be honest, I wish I never stopped

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At they very least if I had, my complete story can be told to people when I go

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Previously I'd wished I had so I can reflect on my own life whenever I want and I'm sure you'll have that feeling too if you don't

nimble tide
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Yay

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Btw

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This is the notebook

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Idk if it's that

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Normal

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I guess

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Ion know I js like it for some reason

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I might change it but

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Idi

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Idi

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AAAA

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Idk***

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It's A4 (only found out now lol)

split niche
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What’s up with the video

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Also it’s Niice

nimble tide
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Ion know

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Bought a different one

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Wtf is this world coming to

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"in the back of my mind" singer is the accused of FREAKING MURDERY?

warm portal
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Not D4VD 💔💔
Why him

dense cypress
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That's not pudding behavior

nimble tide
dense cypress
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"Building Jigsaw"

They walk on soil with heavy feet,
Yet never notice the earth’s heartbeat.
The rivers once clear, now choking in gray,
Where fish have no strength to leap or to play.

Forests once towering, whispering tall,
Lie broken, like bodies that silently fall.
The birds that once painted the morning with song,
Now struggle in silence, where they don’t belong.

The children of hunger, their eyes open wide,
See banquets of waste thrown carelessly aside.
A feast for the rich, a famine for poor,
Behind golden gates and a bolted door.

The hands that should heal instead often scar,
Wielding their power in greed’s avatar.
They fashion their weapons, cold steel and fire,
Destroying tomorrow for selfish desire.

They carve into mountains, they poison the seas,
They burn sacred air, they kill ancient trees.
With hearts turned to stone, with eyes turned away,
They profit in shadows while futures decay.

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The cries of the voiceless, the trembling of lambs,
Are muffled by coins in corrupted hands.
What cruelty is sharper, what malice more deep,
Than stealing the dreams that others should keep?

And so, piece by piece, destruction is planned,
A jigsaw of ruin across the land.
Each act of neglect, each selfish command,
Becomes a fragment shaped by man.

And all that these puzzle pieces create.
Is an ugly landscape from a human’s hand.

In alleys where shadows and secrets reside,
The truth of our cruelty is harder to hide.
A dagger of hatred, a whisper of lies,
A child’s stolen laughter, a mother who cries.

The chains forged in silence, the bruises in skin,
The prisons of fear that we fashion within.
The greed that will sell both a body and soul,
A heart turned to profit, a life turned to coal.

The crimes of the night are not only with blades,
But in power that robs, and in justice that fades.
The courtrooms grow heavy with stories unsaid,
While the guilty walk free and the innocent bled.

The brother betrays, and the neighbor deceives,
The rich drink in gold while the beggar just grieves.
A hand that should help becomes one that will harm,
A smile hides a dagger, disguised with its charm.

The wars that are waged not for honor, but gain,
Leave cities in ashes and children in pain.
The trafficker’s whisper, the tyrant’s demand,
All carved into history by human hand.

Each cruelty committed, each silence obeyed,
Each victim forgotten, each memory betrayed.
Together they gather, like shards in the sand,
A puzzle assembled by humankind’s hand.

And all that these puzzle pieces create.
Is an ugly landscape from a human’s hand.
It will be viewed by generations to come,
And they won't know.
This is what their ancestors have done.

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--TW: might contain sensitive topics.--

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Give me your opinionsJoy

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Un

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Um

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Um

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Chat

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What the actual fuck

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My own damn country

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Freaking Albania

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JUST RELEASED AN AI MINISTER?!

nimble tide
dense cypress
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Like honest to god who are you

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Never touched a woman in your life you unemployed virgin 🥀✌🏼

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Get a fuckin life

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Such a fucking loser

dense cypress
dense cypress
dense cypress
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Yikes bro 😭

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Are you okay?

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Cus i highk may have overreacted

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And thats my bad

dense cypress
dense cypress
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Always wanted to be in one of them

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You in the military?

dense cypress
dense cypress
outer sable
nimble tide
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Thats my bad bro

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Like completely

outer sable
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dont worry about it

nimble tide
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Im unfamiliar with that

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Im interested in joining the armed forces

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Yeah thats my bad then

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Js found out in the news

dense cypress
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Random drawings after not drawing for a year

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Basic asf

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But my friend drew me!!!

nimble tide
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Gang why do people rely on me for hw

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Like what if I did it wrong too 😂

slim heart
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Hard to say could be for any number of reasons

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Most common one would be they don’t want to do it either because they don’t know how, struggle, or just don’t want to

split niche
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I made the one with color in class. Art class

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I think I like it more than the other one

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I js did a 5h study session

split niche
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I'm rearranging my closet

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And

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I bought the pipeline monster

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Last time I tried it I hated it bc I thought it was too sweet

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Turns out my taste prolly sucked at the time cz I've come to the conclusion all monsters are good

slim heart
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Do you collect monster cans?

nimble tide
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And we move a lot

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It'd be a waste of time

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Gang

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The dogs here howl ☠️

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Like wolves

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8hs of studying.

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Now 10

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I'll stop now ig

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That's enough studying

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I think

outer sable
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very productive day it seems

dense cypress
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Anw

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I'm sick

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Like

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Badly

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And there's this red spot on my eye

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My friend made these for me tho 😋

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split niche
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dense cypress
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Lwk js to make duolingo po

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Nighty night

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(1 am)

nimble tide
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Staying home from school today.

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I'm too sick to go :/

maiden temple
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<@&1017490570668691606>

outer sable
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slippaz this is supposed to be a safe place for emi so could we not toss insults around thanks Yummers

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Ty tho

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That's why you have issues now 😔

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I might have to change my glasses

nimble tide
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My fever is worse

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Like bad

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Everything hurts

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I'm sweating

whole sundial
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I was like that for like 3 ish days

nimble tide
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Who cares

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Gn journal

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(10:11pm)

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I'm gonna put the hour every time I say gn and gm

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Bye tho

dense cypress
dense cypress
split niche
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Gm

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(7:15 but woke up at 6:30)

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My fav things 4Life

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I'll be less-none active now

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I might js leave.

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Goodbye everyone, stay safe. I'm good but you stay good too, no matter who's reading. You matter, keep going no matter what because life is a fight you can do. I love you take care.

outer sable
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i wish the best for you emi

dense cypress
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Lmao

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Laughing at the snacks in the pic

split niche
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Why

nimble tide
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Started a music course

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Vocals + choir + piano

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fun

maiden temple
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she lives!

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mhm

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split niche
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And she left 😭

thick otter
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Do people even notice she's gone?

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I feel like no one does.

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She could be dead right now for all we know.

whole sundial
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Emi occasionally comes on discord and speaks to me.

split niche
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Vro

thick otter
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Then why isn't anyone inviting her back

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What if she left accidentally

split niche
split niche
whole sundial
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Even I'd leave

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I can not force a minor to rejoin the server.

slim heart
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Yeah, can’t say I blame exactly for going that way

thick otter
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Sorry but I don't really know what happened

whole sundial
# thick otter Huh?

Emi dated this guy called Boden. But they broke up and Boden is now dating this girl called Anastasia who was on huddle as well. Emi came back and yeah well left after that. she didn't want to cause them both harm

thick otter
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Woah dude

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It's her choice.

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Id leave if I saw my bf dating another girl

thick otter
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I said selfless

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Not selfish

outer sable
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@tight lava

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Oop

tight lava
tight lava
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😭

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Thanks for the care tho

tight lava
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I started a diff journal btw.

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