#emi's journal

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nimble tide
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I'm glad you like it

grand mortar
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I like reading

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Wbu

nimble tide
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I read a lot of books tbh

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Mostly history tho

grand mortar
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For school?

nimble tide
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Nah

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Out of school

grand mortar
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U know history?

nimble tide
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They're not that serious

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Mostly about other countries

grand mortar
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Ok

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I wanna see if u know this

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Why did Italy switch sides on 1943

nimble tide
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Fuck I know this in my language

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Because he made the contract London something

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To switch sides in the war

grand mortar
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What invasion lead to the downfall of N@zi germany

nimble tide
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In return he would get land and treasure

nimble tide
grand mortar
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It was the D Day invasion

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emi's journal

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"It's not In your hands to help."

I see you there, your shoulders low,
A quiet storm you never show.
Your voice is cracked, your gaze is far,
And I just wish I knew where you are.

You smile, but not the way you did,
Like something deeper's gone and hid.
I ask, "You good?" - you nod, "I'm fine,"
But pain still lingers in the line.

And here I stand, just out of place,
No magic words, no warm embrace.
I want to help, to lift, to mend,
But I don't know where help can send.

I hate that I can't take the weight,
Undo the past, unspin the fate.
I hate that I just watch you break,
While silence follows every ache.

I say I'm here - I mean it too
But still it feels like not enough for you.
'Cause words don't stop a heavy chest, And love can't always bring you rest.

I see the tears you never cry,
The way your laughter tells a lie.
I reach, but feel the space between,
The kind of gap that stays unseen.

What good am I if I can't fix,
The tangled pain the cruel tricks?
What use is care that can't repair,
A heart too tired to even care?

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I'd trade my calm for all your storms,
Take every bruise, take every form.
But all I have are words and hands,
That tremble when no one understands.

So I just sit - beside, not in
The war you fight beneath your skin.
And though I cannot make it right,
I'll be the shadow near your light.

I'll hold the space you need to break,
And listen, even when you fake.
I may not heal, or make you whole,
But I won't leave- I'll guard your soul.

I see the cracks you try to hide,
The pain that leaks from deep inside.
You say, "I'm fine," then look away
And I don't know what I should say.

I reach for words but they fall flat,
And somehow, I am stuck with that.
A silence wrapped in heavy air,
And guilt that builds because I care.

I sit here useless, still, unsure, I wonder: Could I do much more?
But I'm not strong, or wise, or brave
I'm just someone who wants to save.

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It eats me up, this hollow role,
Of watching you but not feel whole.
You're drowning in a quiet sea,
And all I do is watch and plea.

What good am I if I just stay
And let your joy keep fading gray?
What friend just waits while others break, Then blames themselves with every ache?

I hate the way my heart just stings
When I can't fix the simplest things.
A tear, a sigh, a voice grown low
-All signs of things I cannot know.

I wish I had the perfect line,
A sentence wrapped in light and shine.
But every time I try to speak,
My voice feels small, my soul feels weak.

I feel like I'm just standing there,
While pain devours all you bear.
And deep inside, this awful war:
You need someone... I should be more.

You don't deserve this weight alone,
But I can't carry what's unknown.
I watch you fade and shrink and dim,
And feel my hope grow cold and thin.

You think you're lost-but so am I.
Not in your pain, but asking why
The ones we love must hurt so deep, While all we do is lie awake and weep.

So if I'm quiet, if I stare,
It's not that I don't truly care.
It's just I'm trapped behind this wall
Of wanting to help... and doing nothing at all.

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I see it in the way you look,
The guilt you never truly shook.
You wear it like a second skin
As if my pain was somehow your sin.

But you're not the reason for my rain,
You didn't cause this quiet pain.
You didn't carve these sleepless nights,
Or dim the stars or steal the light.

You didn't plant the seeds of fear,
Or fill my chest with weighted years.
So why do you look down in shame,
As if you ever fed the flame?

You try so hard, you always care,
You're one of few who's truly there.
You speak with warmth, your voice is soft, You lift me when the world drops off.

I never asked for perfect hands,
Just someone here who understands.
Not someone who could mend or heal,
Just someone willing to feel.

You blame yourself for not enough
But love was never measured tough.
You think you failed because I cry
But crying's not your fault, nor mine.

I know you want to make things right,
To chase away my endless night.
But all you need to do is be
-That's more than most have done for me.

You don't need magic, don't need might, You are not wrong for lacking light.
Your care alone, your time, your voice
-To me, that isn't just-it's choice.

So please don't carry all this weight,
This burden that was never fate.
I need a friend, not someone torn
-You're not the one who made me worn.

You've given more than you believe,
In ways I never could retrieve.
And if I fall, or fade, or bend-
Know this: you were a loyal friend.

So wipe the guilt out from your chest,
You did your part, you did your best.
You stayed when others stepped away, And that alone... helped me stay.

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I've done better but this is the longest I've done

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Took me like 2 hours tbh

nimble tide
nimble tide
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This is extremely good

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My head hurts tho

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My brain fumbled

nimble tide
nimble tide
nimble tide
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Maybe try to relax and eat something light

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Like crackers or something

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And sip some water

nimble tide
nimble tide
nimble tide
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Ooooh

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Yeah

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Smells are making me wanna run tf out of the kitchen

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Maybe like

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Hmmm

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I’m sorry

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That ya feeling like this

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Not your fault

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Ik it’s just that I’m sorry you feel like this

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Ty

nimble tide
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I really don't know wtf is up with me today

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I'm disappointed in myself.

nimble tide
nimble tide
nimble tide
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I wish I could do more

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It's okay

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No one can help tbh

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I wish I could do more to help you

lean lake
nimble tide
nimble tide
outer sable
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i believe

nimble tide
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This one friend is making me so happy

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Like making me laugh out loud n shi

nimble tide
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Omfg

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I just let someone die

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I didn't help

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Fuck fuck fuck fuck

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She might have committed

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2:31 last text was fml

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I didn't try enough

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Fuck

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It's all my fault

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I can't stop crying

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I didn't help enough

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I didn't try enough

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She needed someone to talk to

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I want to go back

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I want to say more

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I want to change her mind

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She can't just leave

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She couldn't have done it could she

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I'm scared

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I'm really scared

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I can barely breathe

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I'm actually fucking sobbing

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My heart hurts

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Fuck fuck

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I wish I could go back

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Maybe I'd still be talking to ger

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Her

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Fuck

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I can't keep talking like she's gone

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She can't be

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She can't fucking be

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FUCK

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SHE RESPONDED

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AFTER 18 MINUTES

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Oh no

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Fuck.

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I messed up

outer sable
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emil teto_cry

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you dont deserve to take all the responsibility for it

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u shouldnt have to

nimble tide
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She's texting

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Idk if she's okay

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I'm scared

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She's alive

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Fuckk

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I can't stop crying

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Omfg someone almost died

grand mortar
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Someone actually almost fucking died

grand mortar
nimble tide
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It's all my fault

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If I distracted her she wouldn't have tried to 4tt3mpt

nimble tide
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Well hello people

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Now I'm way better

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Lwk bc that one friend helped me a lot xx

nimble tide
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"in the night I hear em talk.
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road. He lost his sould to a woman so heartless"

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The tutorial on how to fly btw 👇

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Epic

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I'm going to try this in my backyard wish me luck

nimble tide
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I broke the codee

vocal zephyr
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What code

nimble tide
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Good luck gangalang

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They patched this bug with codes

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I broke it

vocal zephyr
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Epic

nimble tide
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Tool me 2 weeks

vocal zephyr
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I'm gonna go try it and tell you how it goes

nimble tide
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Gg

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"So I think it's time for for us to have a toast. Let's have a toast for the douchebags"

nimble tide
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Noa brought her friend over

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She's so big I want her 😦

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Should I name noas friend

outer sable
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ues

nimble tide
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I'ma name her Ash

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Idek her gender but ok

outer sable
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would be a bit rude to find out

nimble tide
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LOL

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I swear Ash is so big

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I wanna play with her 😦

nimble tide
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That window is also rly cool looking

nimble tide
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Awww don’t let her break the screen

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I just realized how shaky my hands are

nimble tide
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Are you okay?

nimble tide
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Lwk my hands

nimble tide
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Warning: don't get the voice too high

nimble tide
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Istg am I not supposed to be happy just once

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My mom found ONE FUCKING GLASS IN THE SINK

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That btw it wasn't me who left it

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And she starts yelling at me although I clean EVERY FUCKING THING

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And she can't just let me be

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Now my heart fucking burns

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Can't I have just ONE day where I'm fine?

nimble tide
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I wonder wtf am I still doing alive

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How tf can someone just get mad at me

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For nothing

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She didn't speak to me

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She didn't even care about the fact I wasn't eating

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She didn't care about the fact I just fucking ran to the bathroom because she fighting with my brother again

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Guess why she's fighting with him

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Because he had to fucking quit

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Even tho she's been asking my brother to quit for weeks she got mad at him

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As if this wasn't fucking enough

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She keeps saying that she wants to take us back to our previous home

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To our previous village

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The village where I almost ||GOT FUCKING RAPED||

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In the fucking school where that God damn teacher still works

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In the school where I got bullied for 7 fucking years until I tried ||committing suicide for so many times||

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The village where people threatened to fucking sell me for money

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The village where they gave my father alcohol on purpose so he could come and fucking beat and try to kill us

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I swear to fucking god if she gets us back there I'm leaving this stupid world.

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She doesn't even care about my mental health

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When I tried ||to commit|| for the second time (to her knowledge because fuck if she knew the actual amount I tried imagine)

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She found out I got ||sa'd||

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And got mad at me.

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Yelled at me for not telling her

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Yelled at me for 'being stupid' and that I should've forgotten because it was one year ago

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Yelled at me for going to the bathroom even tho I saw that fucked up teacher there

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Yelled at me and threatened to send me to a FUCKING asylum

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She didn't talk to me for 2 weeks

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She threatened she wouldn't send me to school anymore and that she's taking me back to our village

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THE VILLAGE THAT GAVE ME MY PAIN

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AND YHE REASON TO ||KMS||

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I hate her.

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I hate him.

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I hate me

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I hate every fucking one.

outer sable
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bless your heart sadness

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i could never properly help with this becuase i've never been through the same things, neither has your mom I assume so she has no room to be mad at you, especially with the ||sa|| stuff. but i hope you heal one day

nimble tide
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But I hate this so fucking much because she thinks I did ||get raped|| and almost got me to a FUCKING hospital to check me if ||I'm pure|| I'm sick. I'm sick to the fucking core

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The only person who cared for me is someone who isn't even in my blood

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She took me to a therapist to give me hell

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Help

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How could I ever tell that sweet soul I'm no where near better

outer sable
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and thats living proof of a blessing

nimble tide
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How could I explain to her that the only think keeping me alive is my promise to her

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Thing

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How could I explain I'm one last straw from breaking that promise

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My heart hurts. Physically and mentally

outer sable
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think of how she would feel if you did break your promise though

nimble tide
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I'm pretty sure she'd just be mad

outer sable
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think abt how you felt yesterday when you almost lost someone 😞

nimble tide
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Like everyone else

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The only ppl who would care are online

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But don't worry

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I don't plan on anything

outer sable
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online or not you still have someone to reach out to

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whether its me or boden or anyone else you know

nimble tide
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Ty but I could never worry boden

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He's already got enough

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Tysm tho

outer sable
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🎀

nimble tide
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Yes but I would never do that

nimble tide
# nimble tide I hate every fucking one.

I just got back and read it and I just gotta say I’m so sorry your feeling this way, I understand that’s it’s horribly frustrating to have parents like that and I understand. I want to remind you I’m here for you anytime. And hearing all those things about your old village broke my heart. Nobody deserves to go through that. I hope things begin looking up for you soon.

nimble tide
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Idek honestly

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And I’m glad you spoke about it

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We are all here for you

outer sable
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Fuck idk what I'm doing

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I haven't exercised in days

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I haven't gone on walks for days

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Wtf am I doing

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Idk why I wonder I'm ||fat|| at this point

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Fuck ts

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Every thought is hitting me exactly rn

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Ideka

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Hey emi

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You need to talk?

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You can dm me if you need to

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Or continue here

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I know how you feel

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Hope you feel better soon emi

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I really do

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Ty

nimble tide
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I'm sorry boden

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I'm so sorry for making you feel like this

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I'm sorry

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It’s okay

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I rly is

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I just want to help is all

nimble tide
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Your my best friend

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And seeing you like this I’ll worry abt you

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I'm sorry

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I really

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Am

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You don’t have to

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You really don’t

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I’m not the one struggling at the moment

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You are

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And I want to help

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Dw I'll pull myself together

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Man I should stop overreacting

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You can’t do everything alone

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Fuck

nimble tide
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De

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Dw

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I’m not gonna let you just dismiss it

grand mortar
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hi

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And disregard your feelings

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I just won’t

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There's not much anyone can do

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I can't even help myself

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I'm fucked

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I hate ts

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Why does everyone lie

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Wtf did I ever do

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My own mother

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My own FUCKING MOTHER

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I understand emi

grand mortar
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some people are just like that

nimble tide
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I really do

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And I’m sorry

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I'm sorry boden

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Is there anything at all that you can think of that I could do

nimble tide
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You should stop listening to me boden

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I'm just making you upset

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You should really not deal with me

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I'm sorry for being like this

nimble tide
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All you are is kind funny and smart

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You don’t need to apologize for being a good human

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Emi?

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You okay?

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I'll be okay

nimble tide
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I just need to stop overreacting about everything

nimble tide
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What your going through is real emi

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What?

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No

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That’s like

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What?

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No I wouldn’t

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I might be dead right now if it wasn’t for you

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So fuck no I wouldn’t be

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I would be so devastated if I lost you

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Emi?

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God emi

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I’m so sorry your feeling this pain

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You don’t deserve it

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Your the least deserving person of this pain

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And if I could I would give you the biggest motherfucking hug right now

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But you don't deserve it either. You don't deserve to listen to my crap I don't deserve for you to be here with me

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You deserve the best boden

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Not me.

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No

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Emi

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That’s not true

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You deserve all of it

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Not the pain

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But the support

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You don’t deserve the pain

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You deserve joy

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And happiness

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Not this dark heaviness

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And if that means I got to listen to you I’m happy to help

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I always am

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You are probably like

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The person who deserves this pain the LEAST

nimble tide
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I almost quit

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On everything

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Life. Discord.

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Someone changed that

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And I'm grateful

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But I'm also sorry for putting them through that

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Thank you my dearest friend

grand mortar
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W boden fr

nimble tide
grand mortar
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what?

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Everytime I talk about a friend everyone knows it's boden

grand mortar
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cause yall talk good about eachother and talk together in ur journal alot

grand mortar
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but u are kind

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Tysm

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So is boden fr

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He's like

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The kindest soul

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true

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are yall bff

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or

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bf

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gf

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or

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Bff bff

grand mortar
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guess what

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What

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Istg if u say chicken butt

outer sable
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chicken butt

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chicken head

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Dear Boden,

I don’t say much, or maybe I do,
But there’s so much I owe to you.
Not in grand ways, not with loud cheer—
Just for being someone real and here.

There were days the world just spun too fast,
And nights I thought I wouldn’t last.
But even when you didn’t know,
You helped me carry what I couldn’t show.

You never needed to fix or mend,
You just listened, like a real friend.
No pressure, no forced advice,
Just kindness said more than once or twice.

You didn’t need to say, “I care,”
It showed in every time you were there.
In messages, in little things,
In peace your simple presence brings.

I know you didn’t sign up for pain,
Or to walk with someone through the rain.
But still you stayed—calm, steady, true—
And it meant the world. It still does too.

You’re the kind of person most don’t find,
The rare, warm soul, the quiet kind.
And maybe you don’t always see
How much you truly did for me.

So thank you, Boden, for all you gave,
For showing up and being brave.
For sitting close when I was far,
For being who you simply are.

Always grateful,
—Em

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Read this while I record the other

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Holy shit Emi

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Thank you

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I’m reading it now

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Wow Emi this is phenomenal

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You're phenomenal

grand mortar
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ABC123

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Not me having the best time of my life

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Lol crazy how I make shit awkward

grand mortar
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U need a therapist ngl

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Of course not at the same time but

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I made one of them cry like 3 times 😝

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She was a bitch tho

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New cat in the hood

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I wanna name her Tay

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Or Batman

nimble tide
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Mini update: I'm going to the hospital in a few minutes with my brother because my condition kinda worsened (some dumb fucking person decided to mention to me a few things from a year ago which kinda gave me a whole ass panic attack and my heartbeat quickened rapidly) but um. Yay.

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I did remove her from snap so we good

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Chat got keeps saying I have like heart inflammation but anywaysss

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Bye

nimble tide
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Guess who just got told they need a psychiatrist 🥰

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Jk.

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I went there and it was like super quick

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They did a few analysis with some weird ass machines

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And came to the conclusion I was overreacting and that it's probably just anxiety haha!

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Because like fr who doesn't have heart aches and almost heart attacks for 10 years straight I mean that's totally normal for someone with anxiety

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Fml

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This place sucks

outer sable
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it without a doubt was anxiety but it's just concerning how badly a mental thing affects you physically

nimble tide
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Yeah but why tf would they put me under machines for half an hour to just tell me I'm overreacting

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Did I mention I fucking fainted in the middle of the road and like 15 people gathered around me thinking a car ran over me 🥰

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Sooo fun.

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Sarcasm btw.

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The doctor said it's lack of sleep and food but fuck him all he wanted was a bribe

outer sable
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me for comparison i've had a lot of stressful periods this and last year but it's given me nothing more than heartache for no more than like 20 minutes

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you don't have to answer this but does your family have a history of heart problems??

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nd guess who just found out they don't allow me at the dorm anymore.

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Fml

outer sable
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at the age of 4 must be awful

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have you had anything that bad since?

nimble tide
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THAT bad no but pretty close yes

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They just texted my mom saying they don't allow me at the dorm anymore. Yay. Soo happy rn /s

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Not that I care I'm better staying at home but wtv

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They just never told me they won't allow me anymore till now that they texted mom

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Istg

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I don't even know how I feel rn

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a bit stupid of them

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I can't blame them. I did something really dumb there that I can't talk about

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i say think happy thoughts for the time being

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you shouldn't be throwing yourself into more stress after what's already happened today

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Idrk

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This was like the worst moment to find out abt that

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But wtv

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Ideca

outer sable
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Thanks airhead

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of course twin

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are you able to listen to music right now or anything

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to take it out of your head for a bit

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I'm watching a movie with my family

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They aren't mad at me smh which is great

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They're being pretty supportive

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I'm actually almost happy

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Like I get to stay home

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And school is pretty close from here

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I also get to keep texting w my friend's on discord

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So it's great

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I was scared I wasn't gonna be able to text boden during school days bc if my dorm but now I'm good

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enjoy the moment twin

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Also I just read it after I got home and I hope your doing way better now<3

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Lots of people don’t enjoy that until it’s passed

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Me praying God doesn't turn this one person into a lesson because he's just too kind

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"Oh do you like things so far? Cuz I've been thinking bout forever;"

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Had to hide a part of my lip bc it's a little bad rn

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"I don't think they are serious. I don't think they mean any harm. But it would sicken you too if it happened to you and you had to relive every part" /lyr

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Sometimes I look at some people and kind of wonder if they're really okay? Or are they really good at pretending.

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Sometimes I can't make myself believe how much my mood changes

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I love telling people to sleep when I haven't slept more than 2 hours for days

grand mortar
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you should sleep

nimble tide
grand mortar
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sleep

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Ty tho

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I'm good

grand mortar
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why

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sleep is important

grand mortar
nimble tide
grand mortar
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I got a question

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Do u get more than 4 hours of sleep

nimble tide
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Sometimes

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Yeah I did get 5h last week

grand mortar
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Probably 8 hours of sleep u need to get

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¯_(ツ)_/¯

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Forgot spoiler

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I think I messed up my lips a little

grand mortar
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ok

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Meet n greet w Noa

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cat

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kitty

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coca cola

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kit kat

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Noa

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My baby

grand mortar
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Dog is cute

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It's cat

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💔🍪

grand mortar
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Do u need a cookie?

nimble tide
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Me rn

nimble tide
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Did I ever mention I collect Yu GI Oh cards

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I don't have a lot

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Just like 96

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I'ma show em later 😋

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I have only like one original

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The rose dragon or smth like that

grand mortar
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wtf?

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is yu gi oh

nimble tide
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A card game gang

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Search it up

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These are my only rare ones 😔

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I'm not selling them this is just the price

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I saw that but ok

grand mortar
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anyway

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hru

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emi

nimble tide
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I'm good ty wbu

grand mortar
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im struggling by day but im fine ig now

nimble tide
grand mortar
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Idk

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I just feel like changing my pfp sometimes is it a problem?

nimble tide
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Nah

grand mortar
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Alr im bored

outer sable
nimble tide
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I have more xx

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But I didn't research all

outer sable
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fairs

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i know im not gonna be selling any of my cards from my binder

nimble tide
outer sable
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pokemon yippetoconfetti

nimble tide
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Yooo

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U should show em gang 💔

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Got any rare ones?

outer sable
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i have one charizard that's worth a bit above £130 but idk about the rest

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a lot of them i really like too so i dont wanna sell them

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i need to post them on my journal once im bothered to show them

nimble tide
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I'm posting my yu GI ohs too

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Although they aren't that popular

outer sable
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💪

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its like most popular behind pokemon trust

nimble tide
nimble tide
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Now I have to rearrange them 🙂

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Again.

outer sable
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they're cheap on amazon

nimble tide
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I will

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Most are in Albanian and they aren't like the ones I posted here that were vents.these are more like metaphorical

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I'll post the ones in English

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Couldn't show first page cuz then I would've doxxed myself 💔

outer sable
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that reminds me that i really should get a book for writing all mine

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but its cool that you've written so many

nimble tide
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Honestly I had more

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I have a full book

outer sable
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gosh

nimble tide
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But I've left it at my previous village 💔

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I'm getting it one day

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I hope I didn't burn it or something

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And there's like just 27 here

outer sable
nimble tide
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I haven't put some

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They're in my notes

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I'll probably get another notebook for my vent ones

outer sable
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SPLENDID

nimble tide
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We don't talk ab my writing 😔

outer sable
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its okay everyone had bad handwriting at some point..

nimble tide
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Blud I can't change it

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I tried lwk

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But it's still terrible

outer sable
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i dont do much writing anymore so idk if my handwriting is good or not

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i mean like hand writing anyway, pen on paper

nimble tide
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Like wtf is this gang

outer sable
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its readable

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💔

nimble tide
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😔🙏

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Only 2 people in my life told me my writing is good

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A school inspector

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And a teacher

outer sable
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well i think its splendid

nimble tide
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Ty lol

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I'll go put my notes poems there

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Bye gang

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Fuck ts I forgot how to write gang

outer sable
grand mortar
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what flavor r u?

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cherry

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blue raspberry

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watermelon

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mystery

outer sable
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all of the above nerd

grand mortar
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airhead

outer sable
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ues

grand mortar
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can i give u advice

outer sable
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yes

grand mortar
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never

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smoke

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never vape

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never gamble

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never be homophobic or transphobic

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dont be a rude person

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be a kind person

outer sable
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yes

grand mortar
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also

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please never take drugs

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and talk to someone when u need to or when u are feeling dowwn

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i didnt know i am cooked

outer sable
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i will

grand mortar
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also

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no sugar no junk only healthy

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thats about it

nimble tide
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I missed these

grand mortar
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ew french fries

nimble tide
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Ketchup chips

grand mortar
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ew

nimble tide
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Bruh

grand mortar
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just kidding

nimble tide
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Lol ok

grand mortar
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hru

nimble tide
grand mortar
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tryna find a reason to live

nimble tide
grand mortar
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what future lol

nimble tide
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That's the thing

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Live so you can build it

grand mortar
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ok

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fine

nimble tide
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Made this for my friends bday 🎆✌️🔥

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Inside I'll add a poem and a note in my language sooo

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I'll show how it turned out in a videoo

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And translate it in English

outer sable
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thats so good twin how long did it take

nimble tide
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Half an hour

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And I'm not done 💔

outer sable
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u can still see a lot of effort

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WHICHIS GOOD

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what does it say!!!

nimble tide
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It's a poem and a written letter ab her 🔥🔥

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But gang

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I did all this is the card

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While the gift packaging looks like shot

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Shit

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Trust the process shit

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I actually like how it turned out

outer sable
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ohhh

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it would have been cool if u could have done like a red outline

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going around the whole card

nimble tide
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My hand would shake lwk

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It would be nice If I did it with a marker but I don't have any

outer sable
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yeah 😞

nimble tide
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My hair before and after braids xx

nimble tide
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"Call me on the phone at 3. Ill talk to you while half asleep. Complaining about your mother so I'll take you to the cemetery. Rant to me, I like the sound, I like your voice. I like your mouth." /Lyr

nimble tide
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It’s so cute

nimble tide
nimble tide
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I changed my outfit when we went out tho

nimble tide
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Should I start drawing again chat

outer sable
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yes yippetoconfetti

nimble tide
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I wanna write a song 😋🔫

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I'm deff going back to ALL my old hobbies

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Except archery

nimble tide
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Sometimes I feel like time is passing so fast but also so slow

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Sometimes I just tell myself "oh it's just another day"

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But then realize

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It's ANOTHER day

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And it's just passing without me even acknowledging it

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I should really spend it more wisely. Although I feel like I am I dunno

nimble tide
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I PASSED MATH

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AHH

outer sable
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YIPPEEEE

nimble tide
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Wait I'll break it down in english

outer sable
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is 10 good or bad in your school

nimble tide
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Albanian : 9
English : 10
Math: 6
Physics: 6
Biology: 9
Chemistry: 7
Geography: 8
Civics : 10
History: 9
Music: 10
Art: 10
PE: 10
Technology: 10
Deutsch: 9

nimble tide
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We have a 4-10 grading system

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Not my fam making fun of me cuz I got a batter grade at English than my own language 😭

outer sable
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ITS JUST 1 POINT OFF DW KING

nimble tide
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TYTY

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Queen* but ANYWAYY

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I'm so happyyyy

outer sable
nimble tide
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Chat I think my face is actually finally clearing up

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Not too much but

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It feels more fresh

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I wanna start new this school year

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Because honestly I hated the dorm I was in

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Now I can restart everything

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istg if botghost got removed...

nimble tide
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I bought my fav drink 😍

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Monster 🔛🔝

nimble tide
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Ahhhh

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Someone complimented my voiceee

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I'm smiling so harddd

nimble tide
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Stay safe everyone

nimble tide
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"The Stars Don't Ask, They Stay"

The stars don’t whisper, yet I hear,
Their quiet hum so crystal clear.
They shimmer where I cannot go,
But still, I chase their silver glow.

Each night I look and wonder why
They never fall, they never cry.
Yet deep within their burning flame,
I see your voice, I feel your name.

You are a star—so far, so bright,
You stay above my reach each night.
But still you pull me, still you shine,
A love that isn’t wholly mine.

I chart your path across my sky,
And every time I breathe, I try
To understand this pull, this ache—
This love I feel I didn't fake.

The stars don’t ask for you to stay,
But still they guide me anyway.
Like you—who never told me "stay,"
But I remain, I find no way.

No gravity, yet here I float,
With dreams and wishes in my throat.
I send them to your silent sphere,
Each hope a whisper: “Wish you’re near.”

You never meant to blaze this deep,
But now you haunt the hours I sleep.
And though I know you cannot fall,
You're written in my every wall.

A thousand stars, yet I want you—
The one that flickers softest hue.
You never promised, never swore,
Yet here I am, forevermore.

You love like stars: with light, not touch—
So distant, yet it means so much.
No need for closeness, flesh, or skin—
You live like constellations within.

So let them say it's just the sky,
That stars are dead and love runs dry—
But I have watched your soul ignite,
And that alone... still gives me light.

#

“Before I Knew”

It wasn’t loud, it wasn’t grand,
No fireworks or hearts in hand.
No perfect lines, no sweeping skies,
Just quiet moments, soft replies.

A laugh too warm, a glance too long,
A shared hum to a favorite song.
The way your words could light the dark,
Lit something small — then struck a spark.

It wasn’t planned, I didn’t see
That love had slowly captured me.
Not like the stories love is told,
But like a whisper, soft and bold.

The way you spoke, the way you cared,
The silence where you simply stared.
It wrapped around my guarded soul,
And filled what others couldn’t hold.

The smallest things — your late-night texts,
The way you knew what I’d say next.
Your voice — it calmed my every storm,
And in your laugh, the world felt warm.

You didn’t save me, not at all,
I didn’t stumble, trip, or fall.
But somewhere in the calm and light,
You built a place that just felt right.

I used to fear this kind of pull,
The kind that makes the quiet full.
But here I am — a heart once scared,
Now softer just because you cared.

And maybe love won’t last for years,
It might still end in distant tears.
But for right now, in this heart's view,
I’ve fallen deep — and it’s with you.

nimble tide
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The others are buried deeppppppp

neon gorge
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i am like a fangirl rn

nimble tide
#

Aww

neon gorge
#

idk why but your poems hit a lot, like genuinely, i am not trying to over exaggerate, it feels organic, all the emotions are there, thats why i love your poems

toxic inlet
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Damn, those are rly good

neon gorge
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dont get burnt-out trynna think poems for me though, it is fine as long as you enjoy writing it and you feel it, no matter how bad or good it is, i will read it

nimble tide
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Like

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I've written so much in my notes

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And I only found four more positive ones

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I'll be sending them all rn tho

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They're pretty short

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“The Night”

I love the night, the silent air,
The way the moon just softly stares.
The world slows down, the noise is gone,
And I no longer feel so wrong.

No judging eyes, no heavy sound,
Just stars that shimmer all around.
The shadows wrap me like a song,
A place where I can just belong.

The day feels loud, too bright, too near,
But night? The night will always hear.
It doesn't ask me why I cry,
It only watches as tears dry.

The wind is cool, it speaks so low,
It whispers things I’ll never show.
I breathe it in, and feel a bit
Like maybe I could handle it.

I love the night, it knows my name,
And doesn’t treat me just the same.
When everyone else turns away—
The night, at least, decides to stay.

#

“A Pocket of Light”

There’s warmth in the way the morning peeks,
Through sleepy clouds and mountain peaks.
A golden hush, a gentle breeze,
The kind of calm that puts hearts at ease.

A bird will sing without a crowd,
A song so small, but proud and loud.
A flower grows between two stones—
A sign that joy still finds its home.

There’s laughter shared in quiet ways,
A smile that softly lights your days.
A friend who texts a simple “hi,”
And suddenly, the ache runs dry.

The world can bruise, it’s true, it stings,
But oh, the light in little things—
A star that winks in velvet skies,
A wish that dares to never die.

So hold the glow, no matter size,
It lives in you, behind your eyes.
And even when the shadows bend—
The light is yours, my constant friend.

#

"The Sky Doesn’t Rush"

The sky doesn’t hurry, it takes its time,
It paints each dusk, each moonlight rhyme.
The stars don’t fret if they shine too late,
They twinkle slow, and trust their fate.

The wind hums tunes no one taught,
It dances free, with tangled thought.
The river flows, not straight, but true,
It winds through meadows kissed with dew.

And I—I'll breathe like branches do,
Swaying soft in skies of blue.
Not every step must have a goal,
Some are just to soothe the soul.

So let me rest beneath the trees,
With nothing loud, and all at ease.
The world still spins, the birds still sing—
Without my rush, without my wing.

The sky reminds me, calm and kind:
You’re not behind, you’re just aligned.

#

“Lanterns in the Wind”

There’s a path I walk when the world’s asleep,
Where the stars lean close and the hush runs deep.
The grass wears dew like a silken thread,
And the moon lays silver where I tread.

Lanterns drift in the wind above,
Hung by hands I’ll never know or love.
They flicker like thoughts I never say,
Yet warm my chest in a silent way.

The trees don’t speak, but I feel them hum,
Soft lullabies that make me numb.
Not the bad kind — no, not fear —
Just peace that settles when no one’s near.

Crickets whisper secrets of old,
Of dreams that falter, of wishes bold.
Yet even the broken dreams still glow
In the quiet where the starlights grow.

I sit on a hill where time feels slow,
And let my tired feelings go.
The ones that ache, the ones that bend—
The kind that never seem to end.

The sky doesn’t scold, nor ask me why
I let my heavy heart drift high.
It simply holds me, soft and wide,
A friend I never had to hide.

There’s comfort here in being small,
In not needing to rise or stand tall.
Just to exist and feel the air,
And know, for once, I’m gently there.

So I walk where lanterns dance and spin,
And breathe with the breeze that holds me in.
If the world stays dark or doesn’t mend—
At least I’ve found this place, my friend.

#

This is it ☠️

#

In my notes

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So that's crazy

neon gorge
#

your happy poems give a sense of bittersweet

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gawd damn, thats top tier right there

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the contrast is just huddleheartshape

nimble tide
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Tyyy

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I appreciate that someone is reading them

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Seriously

#

Y'all make me want to actually write more

neon gorge
#

most important is to enjoy though

nimble tide
#

Ofc I enjoy it

#

It's just that I started to lose the point since no one else saw it

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But I love writing poems

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I wrote my first poem at 10

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But it was so depressing I threw it awayyy

neon gorge
nimble tide
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I have another book from my first days of writing I'll deff find it

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In my old house

nimble tide
neon gorge
#

its the thought that counts

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maybe i might find gold you know

nimble tide
#

I hope we go back to get things or maybe to visit grandma so then I can check

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I really hope I didn't burn it

neon gorge
#

its fine if you don't have it

nimble tide
#

No it's js that I actually want it

neon gorge
#

aight then

nimble tide
#

Ty for reading tho

neon gorge
#

anytime huddleheartshape

nimble tide
#

My nails keep breaking one by one

nimble tide
#

Ima do a countdown for my bdayyy

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Me realizing it's two days away after this..

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Nvm.

maiden temple
nimble tide
maiden temple
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Ohhhhh

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I have therapy that dayyyy

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Wait no

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Thats the fay im filming

nimble tide
#

Ah

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Alr

nimble tide
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"Just Because I Can"

I danced in the kitchen with socks on my feet,
Spinning in circles to my own little beat.
No reason, no rhythm, no plan in my hand —
Just laughing and living, just because I can.

I sang with the birds as they chirped in the trees,
I whispered my dreams to the wandering breeze.
The sun winked at me like it perfectly knew,
Today was a moment too lovely to lose.

I skipped down the sidewalk, I grinned at the sky,
Let troubles fall off me like clouds drifting by.
Not waiting for perfect or some bigger plan —
I chose to be happy, just because I can.

So bring me the morning, the sunlight, the song,
The right that I have to be silly and strong.
There’s magic in moments, not drawn or well-planned —
But found in the joy of just because I can.

nimble tide
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my bday is tomorrow 🎉

nimble tide
nimble tide
#

BDAY COUNTDOWN: 51 MINUTES 48 SECONDS

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🎈🎂

nimble tide
#

ITS MY BDAYYY

nimble tide
#

I woke up to e very very sweet vm today

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It made my day more than any gift ngl

rich kiln
#

HAPPY BORTHFAY!!!!!

nimble tide
nimble tide
#

I'm actually so fucking happy rn

#

Man I know this one personnnnnnn

#

And I'm so happy I know them

nimble tide
#

My coworker's gift Joy

#

I bought myself this one

nimble tide
#

I think it's obvious I love blue

nimble tide
#

Crazy how my friend gave me this nickname

#

From her pov btw

nimble tide
#

Getting noticed from your fav ytbr twice is crazy

rich kiln
#

I hope youre doing well Emi huddleheartshape love you!! /p

nimble tide
#

Best boyfriend core >>

nimble tide
#

I only realized rn that some are actually ass

split niche
#

its okay these are really nie

#

nice

nimble tide
#

So prettyyyy

nimble tide
split niche
#

That seems nice

nimble tide
#

"Mama. Can I have cookie"

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"No diabeto roll back to kitchen"

split niche
nimble tide
#

Joker reacted to my poem RAWRRRRR

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With a cheers emoji from the place

#

yay

toxic inlet
nimble tide
#

I absolutely love her work

nimble tide
#

I might start working on songs and drawings more

#

I also plan on buying a guitar if my family allows me

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My current song is almost finished but I'm still getting inspiration on what to add

nimble tide
nimble tide
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I finished my song RAWR

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Title: “Baby Don’t ||Suicide||”

Verse 1
I see the tears behind your eyes,
The nights you hide, the silent cries.
The weight you carry, no one sees,
The battles fought just to breathe.
I know the pain feels endless, real,
The hurt you hold, the wounds that heal… so slow.
But hear my voice, I’m calling you,
There’s a light you’re meant to know.

Pre-Chorus
Don’t let the darkness win tonight,
Hold on to me, hold on to life.
Even broken hearts can fight,
Even lost souls find their light.

Chorus
Baby, don’t ||suicide||, I need you here,
The world’s not worth it if you disappear.
I know it’s heavy, I know it’s cold,
But your story’s not done, it’s yet to unfold.
Baby, don’t ||suicide,|| please stay alive,
There’s more ahead, I swear you’ll survive.

Verse 2
I see the scars, I hear the pain,
I know the storm that feels like rain.
But even storms eventually pass,
And sunlight comes to kiss the grass.
You’re not alone, I’m by your side,
Take my hand, let’s turn the tide.
One breath at a time, one day, one night,
We’ll find the strength to keep the fight.

Pre-Chorus
Don’t let the darkness win tonight,
Hold on to me, hold on to life.
Even broken hearts can fight,
Even lost souls find their light.

Chorus
Baby, don’t ||suicide,|| I need you here,
The world’s not worth it if you disappear.
I know it’s heavy, I know it’s cold,
But your story’s not done, it’s yet to unfold.
Baby, don’t ||suicide,|| please stay alive,
There’s more ahead, I swear you’ll survive.

Bridge
I know the night feels endless, cruel,
But even shadows bend to light’s rule.
Hold on, baby, don’t let go,
There’s more to life than you can know.

Final Chorus
Baby, don’t ||suicide||, I need you here,
The world’s not worth it if you disappear.
I know it’s heavy, I know it’s cold,
But your story’s not done, it’s yet to unfold.
Baby, don’t ||suicide,|| please stay alive,
There’s hope ahead — you will survive.

Outro
Hold on… just hold on…
I’m here, I’m not gone.

mystic valve
nimble tide
mystic valve
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I'll work on it tomo once i get home

i got the chords n everything
idk if youve made it into a song already i have a lil tune i cooked up

alls i have now is social anxiety

nimble tide
#

I'm cooked

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I'm tutoring my cousin because he has to take an exam on math

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And it determines if he passes the class

nimble tide
#

Yes I made the shirt wet anw

#

I hit the spiderman pose to turn off the camera smh

#

The shirt is cool beans

split niche
nimble tide
#

Ty

nimble tide
#

I have 258 equations to write down for my cousin and make him learn them before the 27th....

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Not learn them but understand them.

#

My brain hurts

#

I wrote 30

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So breaking it down 288 equations.

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I'm cooked

#

If I wasn't sick this would be easier

#

Might pull an all nighter to finish all this

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🙂 🔫

#

Realizing I have extras

split niche
#

goodluck

nimble tide
#

Drumroll

#

My aunt came and took my cousin

#

I don't have to tutor him anymore

#

I also got new clothes!!

#

I feel like life might be getting better.

#

I also changed my eyebrows a little

#

I like them more like this

#

I accidentally cut a little more than necessary on one of them but tbh

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I'm lwk the only one who notices ts

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I'm going to work on a song again

#

There's not much left in it

nimble tide
#

Dis is almost impossible game chat 😞

nimble tide
#

✨ Title: “Every Way”

Verse 1
When you walk into the room,
The world forgets its gloom,
Every color starts to bloom,
Like the sun after the rain.

Pre-Chorus
You don’t even see,
What you mean to me,
But I’ll keep on saying,
‘Cause the truth won’t fade away—

Chorus
You’re perfect in every way,
Brighter than the stars that guide me.
Perfect in every way,
A melody that sets me free.
You don’t have to change, not a single thing,
You’re the song my heart will always sing.

Verse 2
The cracks you think you hide,
Are diamonds deep inside.
Every scar you wear with pride,
Writes the story of your name.

Pre-Chorus
And I hope you’ll believe,
What I always see,
The light in your soul
Is forever gonna stay—

Chorus
You’re perfect in every way,
Brighter than the stars that guide me.
Perfect in every way,
A melody that sets me free.
You don’t have to change, not a single thing,
You’re the song my heart will always sing.

Bridge
So don’t doubt, don’t fear,
I’ll always be here.
Every word, every breath,
Says you’re perfect, oh—

Final Chorus
You’re perfect in every way,
Brighter than the stars that guide me.
Perfect in every way,
A melody that sets me free.
Nothing could replace who you are today,
You’re perfect in every way.

#

Pretend you dk who it's about 😉

nimble tide
#

Holy moly!

#

Yay

#

I spoke to an old friend

#

He's a little older but he's cool beans

#

He's like my uncle

#

Lovely guy

#

"Untitled"

A flower can wilt
It can break it can die
And once it's rebuilt
It's still the same one
You can try and replace with the same kind
But the same kind has the same effect
It will wither and cry
It will cry under rain it will fall under snow
And when spring is back
It will start to regrow.
That's for one kind
The other one stands
But when spring is back
It falls with a glance
A glance towards the sky as it feels it's regret
It grew in the wrong environment.
Now we will have to wait again.
We will wait for it to regrow
We will watch it dance gracefully
Shining with the snow.

nimble tide
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||(I'm joking. That's someone else's)||

nimble tide
#

Chat

#

I might switch school

#

Some school is begging mom to convince me to enroll there

nimble tide
#

Jk

#

Idrk

split niche
nimble tide
#

Aw ty

split niche
# nimble tide Idrk

Maybe it’s because they think that you’re super smart and cool and they want you

nimble tide
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I hope so

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😭

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Fam said no 🙂‍↔️

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I see

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IM NOT GOING BACK TO THE DORM

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Oh god

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Oh

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Thank godddd

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I hope this school year works 🤞🏻

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My dad is home!

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Im so happy happy happy

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Yes he was a different person in the past but he actually changed !

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He's the only one who actually listens to me

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Everyone else js interrupts me

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But he listens and answers

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Im so glad that he does that for you

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I got my school books

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13

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Mannnn

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Ts is gonna suckj

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I saw one of the nice nuns

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From my dorm

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And my only friend from there

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I also saw our English and PE teacher

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The English teacher was giving us the books

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But I saw my PE teacher whole shopping

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It's so nice when people talk to you in public

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I bought lotsa stuff for dad

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And lemons

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I'm finally homee

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The only moment I sat down is to eat rn

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I'm not hungry 🙁

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Typical party table for our fam

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Ima pretend I'm eating Joy

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I ate banana

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This is now my official dream hair

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Or this

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I CANT DECIDE

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it looks great

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Tytyty

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I chose the second one

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If they say no I'll suggest this

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I'm gonna steal this as my inspo

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OH HELL NAH

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I was on my way to meet up w mom

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And I walked through a big public garden

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And a kid

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Fuckin yelled

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At the top of his goddamn lungs

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"BALLERINA CAPPUCCINA"

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Hell naw

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Gotta put him down

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His brain rot is un curable

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I met my fwiend

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She's so cool beans

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And I used the power of memory to take us to some guys house out of town

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Because mom doesn't remember shit

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And we had to go there to introduce him to a friend

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Cuz he solves shit

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He's so cool beans

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He also studies the paranormal

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But tdy he was out of town

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So I had to go and talk to his neighbors cry_thumb

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Ion like talking to strangers

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But I did

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And it worked very wl

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And we got his new number