solemn trout Dec 28, 2025, 5:58 PM

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T

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BlabBbBa

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Lalalala

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Bababa

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Grnd xmzmcnzbcnznbxbcbxnxnxx

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Yeah

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Back to just me

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Yayyy

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:(

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Why can’t i just be happy

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Or calm

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For once

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Idk what to do

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I wanna bawl my eyes out but my body won’t let me

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What the fuck is happiness really

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I just want him, want him to be okay and happy
Thats all

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But no

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All i want is for him to just live peacefully

tender shell Dec 28, 2025, 6:14 PM

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Uhh…. Sorry

burnt snow Dec 29, 2025, 5:19 AM

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hey johnny, been a little while. i understand your feelings here and they are valid. in times of depression many people grow to become unmotivated to do much, i speak from experience. so i do understand your words here.

as always man im here for you

solemn trout Dec 30, 2025, 10:40 PM

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Exposed to more gore and shock videos

My brain doesnt even process it anymore, my fight or flight sensation is literally non existent.
I have too much emotional armor i dont even feel disgusted, hell even that my heart rate doesnt goes up
I just see it
And think “gross”
And go about my day

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Mrrrrp

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Meowwww

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Mreow

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wagger

bright sun Dec 30, 2025, 11:02 PM

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solemn trout Mreow

I couldn't physically imagine you not being a furry 😭

solemn trout Jan 1, 2026, 9:07 AM

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Tonight was fun

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My blood sugars were in the 500’s
But i got it down to normal levels

bright sun Jan 1, 2026, 9:29 AM

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solemn trout Tonight was fun

Too much fun 💔

solemn trout Jan 1, 2026, 5:00 PM

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:(

solemn trout Jan 1, 2026, 5:45 PM

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:(((

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:(((((((

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a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

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-# :<

bright sun Jan 1, 2026, 7:01 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

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If you need anything I'm here for you Johnny
Just dm me

solemn trout Jan 2, 2026, 1:08 AM

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bright sun If you need anything I'm here for you Johnny Just dm me

chu_hug

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Thingsve been a bit better

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It was just a big misunderstanding
From me

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but its all oki now

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hug

solemn trout Jan 2, 2026, 11:20 PM

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why am i just so uninteresting

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Or fun

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boring

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idk

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I have no actual irl friends to do anything with

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My bf went to a party today and did lots of stuff and yeah..

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My area never has parties

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Or any friends

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or really any groups

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All i do is just rot all day

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and play games because no one wants me besides my bf and online friends

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someone i knew died too..before new years
a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

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just found out earlier today

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2026 fucking sucks

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Ima go back to my nap

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Maybe get drunk again

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idk

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ive never been hugged

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ever

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not by friends or family

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and im cold

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blankets arent working

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never partied

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never spent time with irl friends

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never done anything that isnt by myself

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I hate myself for that

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how socially incapable i am

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Not like..

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Not saying i cant handle socializing

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i can

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kina

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Its just people dont seem to take me in
Even when im there, open and proud

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Always the one left out in all of my school years

#

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Napping on the couch

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bleh

solemn trout Jan 3, 2026, 5:42 AM

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Man

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I kinda love just the thrill and scare horror movies give me

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To the point it makes me half believe its real

solemn trout Jan 4, 2026, 6:52 AM

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Its funny how no ones cares to respond or acknowledge you until you leave

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anyways

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Goodnight

burnt snow Jan 4, 2026, 6:53 AM

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solemn trout Its funny how no ones cares to respond or acknowledge you until you leave

real

burnt snow Jan 4, 2026, 6:53 AM

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solemn trout Goodnight

rest well man

solemn trout Jan 5, 2026, 6:56 AM

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Fuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkk

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Man

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I just hate that my bf and i are so far apart

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And most of my friends partners are really close

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It drives me crazy

glossy oar Jan 5, 2026, 8:23 AM

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solemn trout I just hate that my bf and i are so far apart

I get it Johnny

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Idk how far your boyfriend is but it’s hard to not be able to see and be with your partner in person

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hugs

solemn trout Jan 5, 2026, 4:50 PM

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Tummy no gudd :(

solemn trout Jan 7, 2026, 2:33 AM

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Exhausted

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Im making an alien race, solar system, and full in depth science fiction world

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First

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I literally just started like last night

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I have about everything you can think of a creature in my logbook

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From culture to mythology to language to religion to yadayada

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Its fun

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But whats really gonna be hell

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Is the illustrations as i HAVE TO master my beings anatomy and dynamic abilities correctly
AND STORYBOARDING

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Showing people it and I keep being shunned and ignored

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:(

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mmhhhgggg.. pout

solemn trout Jan 7, 2026, 7:31 PM

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2026 sucks

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Not because of him
Not because of anyone

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Just sucks

solemn trout Jan 8, 2026, 1:59 AM

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Hugs? Yes

Cuddles? Yah

Head pats? Sure

Boops? Why not

Sex? HA! Yeah!

Getting poked right in your god damned eyes? Imminent.

solemn trout Jan 9, 2026, 5:28 AM

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I cant believe im saying this but im pissed off that im circumcised

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Like

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Genuine upset

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Circumcision literally has almost no benefits other than reduced STI chances

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other than that

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Its basically torture

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the child has no consent
The child cannot make its own decision, therefore no action should be taken

The child cannot fight back
The child has no power in the court
It is a human right to keep ourselves intact as we wish

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To me what im talking about is silly but im genuinely upset about it

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i ddint choose to be circumcised, and nor did i ask my parents for any reason why

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Other than simply i am angered by them

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And that they has once told me(if i remember correctly) they heard me scream and cry in the operating room(i assume anesthesia was used)

i do not remember anything besides that

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My family is not bad

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Hell no

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But this is just one thing i extremely put down

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if FGM is taboo and illegal and extensively WRONG
them MGM should be the SAME

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^ my opinion, dont take it seriously

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i dont exactly feel whole or happy being circumcised

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And it belittles me every tike i think about it

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About how socially accepted and praised and valued it is to be uncut

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its stupid

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it makes me feel so shitty to the point where my ykw doesnt feel like it belongs there

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Like i dont belong in my sex life

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But besides that this rant is not about sex

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Its about how upset i am.

solemn trout Jan 9, 2026, 5:40 AM

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solemn trout i dont exactly feel whole or happy being circumcised

Idgaf if it means i have a lower chance of catching an sti or better hygiene or attraction

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Its what i wanted and it was tooken away from without my word

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(As a baby that young you cant speak language) but still. Its every humans right to their own body

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I was basically violated

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No

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I was violated

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And now im feeling the drawback of realizing how badly i wanted it back

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Its just dumb

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Stupid

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Foolish

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Potential future mothers/fathers
DO NOT circumcise your children until they at least have the function to make their own decisions with enough understanding to be truthful and honest with themselves

Otherwise it is an act of cruelty to the human body
(Again, my opinion dont take it seriously)

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I would assume 18 to be the youngest to decide

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but it doesn’t matter cus some if not most people dont care about the future wellbeing and rights of their children

solemn trout Jan 9, 2026, 5:39 PM

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-# a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

solemn trout Jan 11, 2026, 3:54 AM

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They say get a job but that cocaine be employin me /lyr

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i love this line

solemn trout Jan 11, 2026, 3:33 PM

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:<

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Stressed

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Trying not to freak out

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Nnhhhhhhhhhh :(

solemn trout Jan 11, 2026, 11:54 PM

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Idk why im so hurt

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Im supposed to be napping but i cant fall asleep

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I just

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Want friends

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Real friends

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A best friend

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In real life

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No amount of online friends could ever fill this gap i yearn for so badly.

The community around me in my town/city is small and quiet and the people around my area are just either literally crazy, dumb, self absorbed, cold, and or just uninterested in anything… ive never had a real friend.

The last two friends i actually liked died when i was younger, one from a brain tumor, and one from..i forgot why

I just want someone, someone close, someone i can just put my hand on their shoulder and calm down because i have someone who actually wants me there

My bf helps everything else in my life, but just the jealousy, envy, need, want, anxiety, pain, wishing for physical closeness and touch cannot go away

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It almost makes me think im unworthy of friends

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i remember once

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my sophomore teacher said youre not “normal” and “successful” if you dont have/cant make any friends

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and im starting to believe it

solemn trout Jan 12, 2026, 10:41 PM

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Fuck..

solemn trout Jan 12, 2026, 11:49 PM

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..

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Its better now…

solemn trout Jan 13, 2026, 7:24 PM

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Bf got a nasty 1st degree burn on his hand

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:(

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Getting him to go to the doctors tomorrow

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Gladly its not too deep

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I feel so bad for him

solemn trout Jan 15, 2026, 11:30 PM

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Today was good

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Bf made a group chat with me him and his best friend

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Im still warming up to his friend tho…

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theyre very close

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Like very close

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And live in the same area which makes me jealous and sad (not their fault)

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But I had fun with him and his friend

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Yeah…

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Im sad and lonely now my bf is asleep

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Might just nap again

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Tbf Im scared

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Really scared

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Gonna sleep now gn

solemn trout Jan 17, 2026, 1:30 AM

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Just had like

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2 full costco pizzas

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Im wrecked

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So eepy

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I think thats like

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Almost 8k calories or whatever

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Idk

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My eyes are drooping

solemn trout Jan 17, 2026, 6:37 AM

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Just straight up

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Bruh

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 1:13 AM

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Got fired

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 5:06 AM

#

#

@bright sun

bright sun Jan 18, 2026, 5:06 AM

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Real

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 5:06 AM

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solemn trout

Image of the year award

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neko_drunk

bright sun Jan 18, 2026, 5:07 AM

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One to live by

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neko_drunk

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 5:07 AM

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and cherish by

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neko_drunk

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 9:47 PM

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I think I might have Audhd

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Or really just autism and adhd

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But im unsure

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Its undiagnosed

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But I do have bfrb’s

bright sun Jan 18, 2026, 11:10 PM

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solemn trout I think I might have Audhd

It wouldn't surprise me tbh
I'm getting tested soon for it too
If you think you do it wouldn't hurt to get tested chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 18, 2026, 11:11 PM

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bright sun It wouldn't surprise me tbh I'm getting tested soon for it too If you think you ...

i might :3

solemn trout Jan 21, 2026, 5:30 AM

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Now this is a bit of a topic

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To any who wish to be a soldier or combatant

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I plea

Dont

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its a death sentence

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really

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Yes it might seem cool, honorable, respectable, popular and fulfilling to be a soldier

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But aspiring people do not know what its like in battle

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That we are just bags of floppy meat
No one really knows what its like to see what happens to a body when a drone strike drops a bomb on it

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KIDS need to be disciplined AWAY from war and the military

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IED’s, mines, grenades, rocket fire, blunt shots from tanks, artillery, machine gun, sniper, etc.

#

the amount of bodycam and war time footage ive been exposed to is honestly laughable

do not let your future children EVER join the military unless you want them to eventually die a horrible fate
Yes that sounds selfish, this is merely my opinion,

its rhetorical.

#

just been keeping this on my chest for a bit

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Childrens dreams of being soldiers

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are more then just that

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Im glad im a diabetic

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cause diabetes disallows the ability to be drafted

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And if i didnt have diabetes and i was going to be drafted?

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Hell

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Id do anything to get the fucker away from my doorstep

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Smash my hand with a hammer even if I really had to

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act like i was deaf

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Be super super paranoid

solemn trout Jan 22, 2026, 4:54 PM

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:<

solemn trout Jan 22, 2026, 8:18 PM

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:3

solemn trout Jan 23, 2026, 12:28 AM

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Why i hate to say this

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but

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ruzzia is next on the line to be eviscerated

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i have high hopes

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Ruzzia no regard for life

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untrustworthy

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No compromise with the main purpose; no peace till victory; no pact with unrepentant wrong.

Winston Churchill

solemn trout Jan 23, 2026, 4:26 AM

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Apparently

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The US is exiting the World Health Organization

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Literally the only country IN THE WORLD to do this btw
Except for taiwan but that wasnt their decision

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 5:32 AM

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I hope you're ok Johnny chu_hug chu_hug
Please stay safe chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 5:35 AM

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chu_hug
-# i will, please stay safe too fren, i know the difficulties.. and its oki, u don have to be strong, just do your best ok<3

-# im thinking of u fren, still planning on hugging you one day, even if it’s just for a moment

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 5:35 AM

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chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 5:35 AM

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-# chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 1:24 PM

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just had one of the worst nightmares i ever had

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 4:05 PM

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-# im sorry i couldn’t help

burnt snow Jan 25, 2026, 10:21 PM

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hey man. idk what to say but i know you are in minnesota so man please stay safe. if you can maybe get out of the state for a little while. it may sound a little crazy man but minnesota is on the verge of mass riots and body count totals. i expect to see cities on fire within a few weeks. please stay safe man please.

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:48 PM

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Thankies

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im feeling better

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Just not too good cus i found out my dad is very, very pro-ice

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MAGA loyalist basically

#

One thing that can melt ice?

the heat of a barrel

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or a toasty campfire, whichevers your preference

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but

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Im up north in minnesota

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Not anywhere near Minneapolis thankfully

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But there still are ice presence, arrestings, and protests in my smaller city

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Oh and some bullshit news i heard

a couple, assumed 10 agents have gone rogue

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“Committing absurd acts,”

although none are documented.
So no worries

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 10:54 PM

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Stay safe Johnny

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The last thing I want is for something bad to happen to you

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:54 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

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Thabkies fren, i will stay safe

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And you too, last thing i wanna see or hear is something bad happening to you

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 10:55 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:55 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 10:55 PM

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It'll be a while but things will get better

#

We just need to do our best to make it through this

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:56 PM

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I understand that <3/p

In time they will. just push through, even if its just one little nudge every time chu_hug

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 10:56 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:56 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

bright sun Jan 25, 2026, 10:56 PM

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I'm here if you need me Johnny

solemn trout Jan 25, 2026, 10:56 PM

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im here too, always <3/p

solemn trout Jan 26, 2026, 8:54 PM

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Bf really sick a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

bright sun Jan 26, 2026, 9:03 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 27, 2026, 2:05 AM

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“We guarantee you freedom of speech, but not freedom after speech”

“You have freedom of speech, but only if you share my opinion”

“You said something objectively right. Kindly take him away”

“Free to be queer? For a little bit. But that trends getting old”

The american dream only makes sense if youre sleeping. Nothing more than a nightmare

🤦‍♂️

solemn trout Jan 28, 2026, 4:27 AM

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bk_sad2

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so quiet

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Fuck im such a pussy

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Im trying to calm myself down

#

Im super anxious again and my body is taking the toll of it deep

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and i cant get rid ofnit

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Fuckin hell

bright sun Jan 28, 2026, 4:41 AM

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chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 29, 2026, 7:44 PM

#

a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

bright sun Jan 29, 2026, 9:11 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 29, 2026, 11:23 PM

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chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Jan 31, 2026, 6:06 AM

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I honestly

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Always have issues with being lonely when he goes to bed(at around 4pm my time)

#

And im lonely for the rest of the day for like, 8 or so hours

#

realistically
I couldnt stand being without him for 10 minutes

but ive forced myself to adapt like instantly, knowing thatd only create problems

#

and i wish i didnt have to feel stressed every day just because hes going to bed, doing a good thing, being safe and healthy

#

Its honestly just silly

#

-And again with the issues with attention

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Even small changes and being ignored for a while gets me

#

I cant change that tho

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I dont want to

#

I always remind myself im human because of this
And how sensitive i am

#

Know that feeling where

You love so much, feel so much from so little, and it hurts so bad?

solemn trout Jan 31, 2026, 11:50 AM

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Woke up
Didnt know my blood sugars were low the entire night

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God

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Worst feeling ever

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Im tryna bring it up

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The worst kind of sleepy is the glucose sleepy

Where it actually feels like its pulling you in down like your being squeezed smaller and smaller

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 3:31 AM

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Glucose sugars low for the 5th time today

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55 mg/dL

#

Earlier today i was 42 mgdl

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Levels 55 and below: Severely low; requires immediate, sometimes external, intervention.

But i dont have that
I just bring it up however i can

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Shit ton of candy

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orange juice

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Narcan

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basically just pure sugar shot up my nose

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Or even intentionally stressing myself out since stress causes your liver to release glucose

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Cognitive/Physical Impairment, Inability to think clearly, slurred speech, poor coordination

Loss of consciousness or seizure.

Extreme confusion or inability to swallow

#

I could go into a coma

#

But i havent yet

#

oneday this could kill me if i dont find a way to maintain it better

#

because levels 30 and below

Are basically your brain isn’t getting enough glucose(energy) and just straight up shuts down since it has no fuel

#

But that’s just worst case scenario

#

Realistically

#

I would probably develop a very weak immune system

seizures/strokes

loss of speech/communication/coherence

nerve death/damage

loss of consciousness, inability to swallow or drink

Vulnerability to diseases

Coma, brain damage, cardiac arrest, or just simply. Death.

#

But best said im not at deaths door

i just have to treat myself better because i could be on that path, im not often low nowadays

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Tho i already have taken a toll..

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Buh im stupid

Not narcan, its glucagon

bright sun Feb 1, 2026, 4:35 AM

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Stay safe Johnny chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 5:27 PM

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I will chu_hug

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 6:32 PM

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:(

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 9:26 PM

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solemn trout realistically I couldnt stand being without him for 10 minutes but ive forced m...

I think this is starting to kick in again…

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 9:56 PM

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Daily summary(right now yes as the rest of my day past 4pm is irrelevant)

#

sad and lonely all day cus bf was busy with a fren, having fun and spending time and stuff

We barely talked alot today..tho little messages were still there now and then. Praise be

Kept my feelings inside the whole day because i know it would make him worried and sad…was jealous too, just layed on the couch, binge eating whatever i can, watching youtube until he responds

Then i go back to that after he leaves again

I wish i wasnt so pathetic, why i just cant accept i dont have any close proximity friends… 0 of them. And it hurts because i wanna have fun too…but all i can do is just sleep and play games by myself and contemplate about nothing while sitting in a dark room

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Just enough until he comes back

#

but i cant even guarantee that because i end up sleeping before he wakes up on the days im not supposed to sleep on a schedule

#

Im a mess

#

I cant tell if im being distant

#

i always think im doing it wrong and i pretend to be upbeat because if im not hed hurt

#

I thought his friend was doing stuff with him, like bad stuff

But i know that’s always just your brain spelling out the worst case scenario cus it always does that

#

But i cant not think about it…

#

he was havin fun with his fren since i woke up and just about until he slept

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-# bkcry
but now hes asleep, and ima go nap now. Just the same old me, nothing else to do but worry and stress out

#

Idk why i love to just intentionally stress myself out, like i seek it

i like to basically catch a high off my own cortisol

#

I think i have ptsd and gad

#

Gad being Generalized Anxiety Disorder

#

No yeah i definitely have both now i think about it and think about what’s happened in my past

#

Maybe even STS (secondary traumatic stress)

#

Likely…

solemn trout Feb 1, 2026, 10:38 PM

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My brains a wall

#

In all sides

solemn trout Feb 2, 2026, 2:35 AM

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failure

bright sun Feb 2, 2026, 2:46 AM

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chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug

solemn trout Feb 2, 2026, 4:50 PM

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Blood suygars 40 soemthing

#

Again

#

Sell

#

Well

#

Used to be

#

Now they up

#

Im dhaoi my do bad

#

Shaking

#

trmebling

#

I cna barely holf a pencil

solemn trout Feb 2, 2026, 8:51 PM

#

Sugars are better

#

but

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I hate today

#

Bf’s mom is acting up again…

#

im so worried and anxious

solemn trout Feb 4, 2026, 12:31 AM

#

Looking back at a google slide me and some very old friends made, and this shit i drew

The kind of fuckass shit is this blurrycry

solemn trout Feb 5, 2026, 5:36 PM

#

fox_sad

solemn trout Feb 9, 2026, 11:00 PM

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He sprained his ankle
And the symptoms are really just red flags… taking him to urgent care when he wakes up wether he wants to or not

Im not risking him having serious walking problems for the rest of his life

#

i can feel myself stress out so much right now

#

crying and hyperventilating a little, i feel uselese
I just want him to be safe

#

Why cant i just be a good fucking boyfriend

solemn trout Feb 10, 2026, 8:18 PM

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Hes better

solemn trout Feb 11, 2026, 10:47 PM

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Wolfcut hairstyle always does the job well

solemn trout Feb 13, 2026, 7:01 PM

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kippysad

solemn trout Feb 14, 2026, 8:12 PM

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Merry valentiniss

solemn trout Feb 15, 2026, 12:02 AM

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Im never enough

#

Never

#

Today was good. Yeah good.
But the moment he goes to bed i always spiral in on myself

#

Today its just felt so cold

#

and my heart feels squeezed

#

stressed all day

#

I never tell him i am, never tell anyone i am because I don’t want to cause them stress too

#

Really, i wish i could be given things

#

Because im always the one giving

#

The emotional support, the anchor, the attention and kindness, the gifts.

#

and my stupid dumb brain thinks any support given to me is inferior to the amount i give

#

which means i dont feel any better

#

Im broken basically

#

Not given anything for valentines or Christmas
And probably not my birthday either

not even by him

#

But that doesn’t mean hes bad

#

It means maybe im not trying hard enough
Not being rewarding or fulfilling

#

or maybe he just forgets..

#

I hope its just that he forgot

#

Its better than the other options..

#

gonna go to a restaurant myself and idk.

#

-# thanks hug

solemn trout Feb 15, 2026, 5:06 AM

#

Blood sugar’s just won’t go down

#

Ive been high for hours straight

#

Every day I experience a medical emergency, everyday I periodically go above 300mg/dl
But I do nothing about it.
I just take my insulin and prey

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I feel fine being 300+

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Im sure I don’t have ketones either

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Maybe

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Oneday if i stay this way my diabetes will stop me from seeing him

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Its guaranteed until i improve

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Aggh

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My head feels all tingly

solemn trout Feb 15, 2026, 4:47 PM

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Sorry if i ruined someone’s valentines

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Oh great im going low again

solemn trout Feb 15, 2026, 5:24 PM

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I wish I was never diabetic

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I can’t even live right

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Can’t even imagine to

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Im fucking doomed

solemn trout Feb 16, 2026, 4:47 AM

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Im sleepy
Good night

solemn trout Feb 16, 2026, 8:50 PM

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chicken sandwich

solemn trout Feb 19, 2026, 1:08 AM

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I am now officially chub

solemn trout Feb 19, 2026, 4:00 AM

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Emotionally burnt out

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that sad without the sadness feeling

solemn trout Feb 19, 2026, 5:15 AM

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My new favorite avatar

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Reference to mainchat

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Either hes a troll or he needs literal help

People forget hotlines exist

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IM NO LONGER THIN AND MUSCLE IM GETTING CHUBBY

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short asf muscle chub guy

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Boyfriend keeps rubbing my belly because of it😭 is this a curse or a blessing

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Anyway

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I literally need the fat in my belly/hip/rear area to be able to use my insulin

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If im too skinny or too little body fat then i cant and id probably get hospitalized 💔

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So now im growing a belly

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Not like a beerbelly or anything

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Just some squish

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-# also i realized my hips are crazy visible now

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I think I might need a size up

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😭

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WAITER WAITER
I NEED MY DOORFRAME WIDENED PLEASE THANK YOU!!

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My poor memory foam bed

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I have a nice quote

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“My poor memory foam mattress succumbed to retardation due to how heavy i am”

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I wouldve mentioned it but i dont wanna cross a line

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You get it

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Blehh

solemn trout Feb 20, 2026, 12:16 AM

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I feel

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Absolutely horrible

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I found out a big important endocrinologist in the field of diabetes was in the epstein files

(im type 1 diabetec)

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An endocrinologist is literally the thing i GET my medications from. Literally why im alive right now

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And one has to be a fucking pedophile??

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this hurts

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Im happy epstein is dead

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The glory of breath and life was undeserving of the monster he was

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including his “friends”

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who were most obviously cult members

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Oh yeah did i forget to mention MAGA is a cult

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All of right wing media is a literal propaganda machine

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im not religious but none of what the republicans are doing goes along with what jesus stood for

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Jesus stood for the poor, the vulnerable, the weak. Even prostetutes and lepers and such

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And all america is doing is absolutely shitting on them as much as possible

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Pulverizing the poor for the billionaires

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SHAME on any supporting republican in this country

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all but you and your organization know youre in a cult

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#getoffmyfkingporchamerica

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I wish i was never diabetic

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If i hypothetically could just tear out my pancreas

and i bet the big money fatasses in this country inflate insulin prices by 10x or some shit
Because its inevitable with HIM in office.

solemn trout Feb 20, 2026, 12:29 AM

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solemn trout I found out a big important endocrinologist in the field of diabetes was in the ...

This is literally saying “i hope you suffer and die”
Because it feels like that to me

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AMERICA IS AGGRESSIVELY TURNING AUTHORITARIAN BTW

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WE ARE ALREADY LATE STAGE CAPITALISM

solemn trout Feb 20, 2026, 2:06 PM

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a_cry_goober_lonely_pout_sad

solemn trout Feb 20, 2026, 8:06 PM

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“Pledge allegiance to the flag and United States of America”

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I pledge my allegiance to the poor and vulnerable
I pledge allegiance to the people

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Not the flag.
Not America.
And definitely not the leader.

solemn trout Feb 22, 2026, 4:29 AM

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fuck

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I feel horrible

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bf is asleep
I cant stand being alone for 5 damn minutes

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Everyone in this server i rlly like keeps ignoring me

solemn trout Feb 22, 2026, 8:37 PM

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Wonderrful

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Wow

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ok

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A cartel is threatening to walk into random peoples houses and burn everything including the people

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Just because theyre leader was killed

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Fuckin pussies

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Cartel members are demons and deserve punishment

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Rhetorically

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i have a deep, deep seated hatred for those with no regard for human life/rights/safety

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Crime organizations are just fucking cesspools atp

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Just waste to be discarded

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But the fucking government wont do any real damage to it because they work with them

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Its a half-assumption

But i damn well know its true

solemn trout Feb 22, 2026, 9:04 PM

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Even if someone tried to and or kills a small animal

I have a deep absolute need to sucker punch them in the temple

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But i aint

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I dont wanna

solemn trout Feb 23, 2026, 4:36 PM

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Touch grass? Nah, smoked it all

TailWag

solemn trout Feb 23, 2026, 8:45 PM

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bk_sad2

solemn trout Feb 26, 2026, 3:25 PM

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Morning huddlers,

today i saw a balloon.

Hope all is well,
john

#Johnnies mindscape wooooowww

AMERICA IS AGGRESSIVELY TURNING AUTHORITARIAN BTW

WE ARE ALREADY LATE STAGE CAPITALISM