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wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 3:31 AM

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might be top ten songs

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ooh im going to rank top ten songs tomorrow

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trust

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 1:30 PM

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man

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that song was not that good last night

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smh

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good song, but not that good

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top ten

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 1:49 PM

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i reslly enjoy the style the beastars manga is made in

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i don't usually fw "furry anime" but honestly it's really good

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 4:22 PM

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HATE when mfs try to get in my business

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i'm currently at lunch and i didn't get food yet (i probably won't get any today)

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it's NOT because of food problems, it's because the money on my account is limited

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and mfs think i'm tryingto starve myself because i'm skinny and not eating

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dudes

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"have you ewten today 🥺🥺 what'd you eat 🥺🥺 are younsure🥺🥺"

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YES DUDE FUCK OFF

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WHY ATE YOU EVEN IN MY BUSNINESS WE TALK ONCE EVERY TWO WEEKS

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HOLY SHIT

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 4:53 PM

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guy in my grade is such a cutie dawg

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i wanna be his friend so bad

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he's in my homeroom

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his name is lincoln?

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heard rumors he's gay

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who caresssuhhh

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but you know what i do care about?

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he has sexual assault allegations

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ughhhh

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can't risk it

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very very sad

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anywho

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getting heart monitor after schooollll

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soo peak

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will stay on for two days

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yeeeeouch my back hurts

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 8:42 PM

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hello got da heart monitor 🤔🤔

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feeling chest pains, this isn't normal, but i iwll not be telling anyone ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 10:39 PM

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hiw te fuck do i confort somsone who feels alone

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bro

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tweaking

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"okay, i'm sorry you feel alone, if there's anyway i can help, let me know, otherwise i really hope you stop feeling so alone"

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duuuuyde

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no

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i feel very frustrated

wanton bramble Oct 1, 2025, 10:48 PM

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wanton bramble "okay, i'm sorry you feel alone, if there's anyway i can help, let me know, othe...

sent thid shit

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cannot comfort fir abythung

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i think i'll have to stick with being blung in situations like yhis

wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 11:33 AM

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wanton bramble hiw te fuck do i confort somsone who feels alone

okay, i'm continually thing about this

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genuinely what would a person say?

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"oh, but you're not alone, you have me!"

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"you can't be alone because you post up with friends DAILY"

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"you feel alone emotionally, but never try to open up, especially to me because i "wouldn't get it""

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i feel like tweaking

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why would you eveb tell me you're upset and then not tell mewhyand use the excuse "you wouldn't get it"

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just lie to my yo

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atp

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sigh

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anywho, i'm going to try to do inktiber this year

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promptlist seems cool

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wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 8:36 PM

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started watching the pitt today

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ahh

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so food

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good

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wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 10:33 PM

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wanton bramble i feel like tweaking

fighting demons yo all i feel like i can say is "oh, you'll always have me tho, love ya ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹"

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nah

wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 10:34 PM

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wanton bramble "okay, i'm sorry you feel alone, if there's anyway i can help, let me know, othe...

basically said this, guve or take some

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but i feel as if i said the wrong thing

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i'd like to bud in again

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be like

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"yo sorry i didn't know what else to say, i'm sorry if what i said came off as dismissive, j love yiu lots and you have me 🥹🥹 maybe that's not a lit, but ykk"

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nah dude

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also wanna be like

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"sorry for budding in again i've been thinking about this today, but you truly aren't alone, it seems as if you have a great support system, you should talk to them more"

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sounds dismissive though

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i feel quite guilty and dismissive not saying more

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sighh

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this is so unnecessarily confusing for me

wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 10:47 PM

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wanton bramble "sorry for budding in again i've been thinking about this today, but you truly a...

genuinely might say something like this

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wait wait i gotta cook something up

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ok i'm sorry for texting again, but i felt dismissive, i wasn't intending to be dismissive or anything, if i was i didn't mean to be. genuinely though, it SEEMS like you've got a pretty good support system, friendship or whatever else wise, reach out to them to cope with the loneliness, that's all i can really say on the matter. i do hope the feeling's of loneliness go away though and seriously please reach out if you need it, i care about you a lot n would hate for abything bad to happen

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dawg 😭

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might send tgat n just pass out i gotta sleep

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i wanna dye my hair but can't till tomorrow

wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 11:22 PM

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i enjoy hsving a jornal here

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i feel schizo

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i enjoy

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ok no i take the word schizo back

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i feel like i'm talking to myself, u mmean i technically am

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i don't mind my post is no responses anyways

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im very tired

wanton bramble Oct 2, 2025, 11:52 PM

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i am finishing the second episode of the pitt

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i think my favorite relationship, platonic or not could go either way, is mel and langdon

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they're so, so cute

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my favorite character in general is whitaker (? idk how to spell it) and langdon

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love all the characters though, so adorable

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whitaker's ringtone is 15 minutes by sabrina carpenter

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i find that quite funny

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my throat hurts

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chest pains a little

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 12:57 AM

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wanton bramble ok i'm sorry for texting again, but i felt dismissive, i wasn't intending to be ...

ue said he misses having a relationship

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i am very frustrated

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deadass digging a deeper grave for myself

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"i don't have anything to say to that so therefore i cannot be of assistance"

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i sound like a fucking robot

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sigh

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i miss him a lot, but i'm very frustrated with the lack of communication

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 1:38 AM

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life so empty

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 12:40 PM

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wanton bramble my favorite character in general is whitaker (? idk how to spell it) and langdon

i like mel a loy

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i think she's very good autism rep, no clue if her character is actually supposed to be autistic though

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 2:11 PM

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people who ship doctor robby and whitaker are insufferable 💔💔

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"problematic age gap power imbalance yaoi🥺🥺"

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SHUT THE FUCK YO

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UP

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ok

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anyways

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get heart monitor off today

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thank god!!!

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it's starting to hurt my skin

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 2:12 PM

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wanton bramble "i don't have anything to say to that so therefore i cannot be of assistance"

no response yet 🥹🥹

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have a feeling he wanted some "ohh no you have me ily type shit"

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noo

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i wish

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 3:36 PM

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wanton bramble get heart monitor off today

GTE THIS IFFF BRIOOO

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OH MY GOD

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OWWWWWEEEEEWWW

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PLEASE

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five more hours 🥀🥀🥀

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 5:29 PM

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why am i writinf a play all by myself

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useless ass classmates dawg

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 10:23 PM

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wanton bramble no response yet 🥹🥹

gulps still no response

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i asked him if he was doing alright

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🤔🤔

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do u think he's finally done with my bs

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deep down i kinda hope he is

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deep down hope he blocks me n forces me to move on

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aha

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anywho

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very sleepy

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heart monitor is off though!

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feels painful where the stickers were

wanton bramble Oct 3, 2025, 10:28 PM

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wanton bramble deep down hope he blocks me n forces me to move on

again though also hope i get another chance to treat him properly

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sigh

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 1:17 AM

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ha still no response

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rather worried

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he's probably just upset with me, but still, quite worried

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 2:13 AM

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lost my left airpod 💔💔

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 2:20 PM

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aha

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still no response

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am i cooked

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maybe even fried perchance?

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 5:06 PM

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he is upset

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❤️‍🩹

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reacted 👍 to your message upset

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 6:38 PM

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wanton bramble he is upset

very tired

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asked if he's upset with me

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 7:58 PM

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my bad hurts

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 7:58 PM

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wanton bramble asked if he's upset with me

ge said somewgst 🤔

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absolutely fried

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 11:37 PM

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my stomach hurts

wanton bramble Oct 4, 2025, 11:37 PM

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wanton bramble ge said somewgst 🤔

no response after asking why

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very unfortunate

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my ears hurt

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i'm getting new headphones soon, as my okd airpods took a spin through the washer

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i hage been thinking

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i want to be different

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i would like to be happy and active

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i'm not sure how to be that

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i don't currently feel comfortable with my therapist

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it's not her, nor is it anything anyone can currently change

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i don't think i can be honest with a therapist until i don't talk to my mother anymore

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i'm so tired, i'd like to sleep, but i've gotta be upp

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giving jt two more hours

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 1:44 AM

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wanton bramble no response after asking why

aha still no response

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i might stay up n binge the rest of the pitt

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yeah good idea

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next week is a five day weekend

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i'll be alright

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my back hurtssss

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i miss having friends, i wish it wasn't so hard to make 'em

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 2:13 AM

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wanton bramble aha still no response

fighting not to put ???

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it's been six houy

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hours

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it's like a really shitty show left me on a cliffhanger

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 2:18 AM

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wanton bramble i might stay up n binge the rest of the pitt

never mind on this

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got very bored bery quick

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 2:42 AM

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gavr ot 2-3 hours we going to sleep

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goodnight

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 3:43 PM

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fat sigh

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nobody appreciates my whimsy 😔

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"stop replying to my texts at 3 am they never make sense"

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JUST TELL ME TO DIE ALREADU

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whatever..

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autism diagnosis tomorrow

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a wee bit scared

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 6:41 PM

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i genuinely think

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i hate my mother

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family in general

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i think i hate all of it

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 8:24 PM

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wanton bramble it's like a really shitty show left me on a cliffhanger

aha im going to

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idk

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something

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said he "knows he can't get what he wants"

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holy

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reminds me pf something

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hmm

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asked if i should stop trying to fix things then

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said he needs to think about ot

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sighhh

wanton bramble Oct 5, 2025, 8:25 PM

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wanton bramble asked if i should stop trying to fix things then

thinking sbout this

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i don't know if i should even try

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it should be both of us trying

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but it's not

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and i continually look pathetic

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i don't want to be alone, but i don't want this

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need to decide what's worse

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being utterly alone

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or

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whatever this mess is

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 12:53 AM

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hello kust woke up 🔥🔥

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fire!!!

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going to play adopt me n maybe dye my hair xd

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im super tired

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 12:54 AM

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wanton bramble said he needs to think about ot

still thinking

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i don't know what about

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don't knoe if it's even worth going after someone who. has to think about wanting me

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idk tho

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ok adopt me

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 1:40 AM

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holu shit it's sunday???

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what the actual fuck

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i thougyt it was saturday

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oh shit

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this is not good

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i don't even remember yesterday

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every two months i come bavk to this song

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i don't hate it, but it's incredibly catchy and has interesting lyrics

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actually

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not a lot of lyrics

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lol

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but

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ya know

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 3:45 AM

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goodnight

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 5:25 PM

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holy shit i've got the most useless classmates ever 🥹🥹

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 5:47 PM

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almost done with the pitt

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spoilers

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||the mass shooting is fucking insane, i bet the kid from earlier was involved, i'm excited to see what happens||

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not excited, but you know

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anticipating what happens?

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the mommy issues with the indian girl and yhe head surgeon are so relatable

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im lightheaded

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not from the show or anything

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but i do feel loke i'll passout

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i've been feeling's like it

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dawgg

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er workers deserve medals 😭😭

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actually

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all healthcare workers (hospital wise) deserve the world

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fucking medals

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i could NEVER

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especially memory wise

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fucking incredible

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woahh new IT movie?

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hmmm

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might have to watch em

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LMAO

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i think

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i think

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genuinely

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so

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so

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sooooo

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SO

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deadass

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this stupid tv show is what i'll be living for, for the next five months

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i don't understand how this is going to work

wanton bramble Oct 6, 2025, 8:52 PM

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someone kill me 😂😂😅

wanton bramble Oct 7, 2025, 1:27 AM

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hello

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im eo tired

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finishing the pitt tomorrow:3

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i have two more episodes left

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i will also talk about how i strongly believe my autism diagnosis is wrong

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j know i am somewhere on the spectrum and i always have

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i remember being younger saying i think im autistic

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very sad

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musicals r always so fucking peak

wanton bramble Oct 7, 2025, 11:24 AM

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dawgg

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its raining

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i think i might miss my bus

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i dont wanna get wettt

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bus is all the way over there 🥹🥹

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hell nah

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ran at a good time

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bus is oke stop away

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and i wont miss it

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soo peak

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DAWG THE BUS IS JUST SITTING THERE

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dawg i think it broke down highkey 🙁🙁

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ITS FINALLY HEREY

wanton bramble Oct 7, 2025, 12:32 PM

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fuck off im so in my head

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i genuinely can't tell if smb gave me an edible or not

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it feels the same

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probably nit

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but it's that same feeling

wanton bramble Oct 8, 2025, 11:38 PM

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tired

wanton bramble Oct 8, 2025, 11:38 PM

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wanton bramble still thinking

still thinking

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miss them

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very very much

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hope they want me

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 2:29 AM

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dawgg people are coming to me for relationship advice

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man i been on and off with the same guy for over a year now 🥹🥹

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sigh

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i hope he hurries, in all honesty

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 2:51 AM

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i appreciate how the most important people in my life don't know me in the slightest

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i really appreciate how they don't care to ask too

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real great

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 10:53 PM

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heart feels like theres a balloon around it

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not good

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hurts

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kinda

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uncomfortable

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told ma

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she said it'll be fine

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please be fine

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 10:53 PM

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wanton bramble still thinking

still thinking

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really want them

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just want to talk

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tell them i love them

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hear them say they love me

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sad

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 10:56 PM

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wanton bramble please be fine

stomscg hurts

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feels

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bloated

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cal is scsred

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im scared

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chest doesn't hurt

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but it feels like a swuare balloon

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isbin my chest

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wait

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we get a disgram

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red os the discomfort, the blue is where ot feels like the balloon is

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yeoucg

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psin on sides

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going to the doctor tomorrow 🥹🥹

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green pain

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yea im fine

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i don't think my memory is though

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i don't even remember what i was thinking when i made the diagrams just now

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not good

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 11:16 PM

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wanton bramble really want them

really bad

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 11:32 PM

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i'm watching tuca and bertie

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on season three

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is it bad i really want a relationship lile the fig tree and tuca 💔💔

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they're so cute

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"ill drink like crazy when i'm home, but i'd like to be with you while i have you" 🙁🙁

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wtf

wanton bramble Oct 9, 2025, 11:53 PM

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NOOO WHAT

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THEY BROKE UP

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FIGGY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 12:08 AM

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fuck off mannn

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my ma always tryma start shit

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 12:09 AM

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wanton bramble going to the doctor tomorrow 🥹🥹

told her about this

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said i didn't want help

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she offers help

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i decline

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she gets mad

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dawg

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 1:28 AM

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i hope i die and she's forced to live with everything wrong she's done

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 1:29 AM

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wanton bramble really bad

i might text

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idk though

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 3:01 AM

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texted

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sad

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im nkt dying in my sleep

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 9:27 AM

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knew it

wanton bramble Oct 10, 2025, 5:13 PM

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wanton bramble FIGGY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

they get back tg🫂

wanton bramble Oct 11, 2025, 11:31 PM

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i don't miss my long hair

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i was an ugly mf with it

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but i miss braids ☹️☹️

wanton bramble Oct 12, 2025, 5:01 AM

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its loke theres a balloon in my chest

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and it makes it feel numb

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im goibg to urget csre tonmorriw

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all will be fine

wanton bramble Oct 12, 2025, 5:02 AM

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wanton bramble im nkt dying in my sleep

guys

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plesse

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 12:14 AM

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wanton bramble im goibg to urget csre tonmorriw

we didn't go

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fml

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 1:35 AM

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i al watching all the bright places

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it fills me with sufh sadness

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i want friends

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friends who care

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i need to get infinitely cooler abd make some

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 1:37 AM

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wanton bramble texted

don't know if anyone cares, but it's been teo days since we've last spoke

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it worries me

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he said he was miserable

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i can't help but worry he's done something drastic

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hate feeling clingy, but i think i'll text again

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hmm

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 2:10 AM

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i would appreciate being loved and valued

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i think i've been asking for that my whole life

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i'm nervous

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 2:10 AM

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wanton bramble i can't help but worry he's done something drastic

i feel very frustrated about this

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i don't think he values me how i value him

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that's fine to me

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i don't mind giving extra

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but i can't help but take everything so hard

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i dislike being overly sensitive

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 2:46 AM

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i'm trying not to care

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i have sent my "are you okay?"

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my duty is done

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o feel shitty not being able to comfort people

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i don't know if it's from the neurodivergence or if it's from the probable bpd/bipolar, but i find it very difficult to find empathy for people. specifically good people who genuinely deserve it. i want to be able to comfort someone, but it's like i physically can't.

it's very frustrating and rather maddening, it's actually quite miserable if i really think about it. i feel useless to the people i care about and love when i'm unable to give them the comfort they deserve.

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copy and paste from #neurodivergence

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i think i hate myself fir not being able to feel total empathy

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 4:14 AM

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wanton bramble hate feeling clingy, but i think i'll text again

he is seemingly fine, probably high as shit n miserable, but fine

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amazing

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i think i'd like to die at this moment in time

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i wish i lived alone

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 5:22 AM

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dawgg i feel

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like

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i don't even know

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the same body sensation i felt when greening out

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need sleep

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can't sleep

wanton bramble Oct 13, 2025, 12:03 PM

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dresmed of running to nc with an ex friend

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i don't know why we were going, but we were doing it all walking

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we told the gas station man she was pregnant and we were kicked out?

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very interesting

wanton bramble Oct 14, 2025, 3:54 AM

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wanton bramble he is seemingly fine, probably high as shit n miserable, but fine

i don't like when people aren't sober

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especially when they have a history of addiction

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i miss him

wanton bramble Oct 14, 2025, 6:26 AM

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wanton bramble i miss him

i really miss him

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i hope addiction and depression isn't what'll ruin what little we have left

wanton bramble Oct 14, 2025, 4:13 PM

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wanton bramble i hope addiction and depression isn't what'll ruin what little we have left

eww

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loser

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who says that

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ok anyways

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came to school late because i only got four hours of sleep

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i slept until ten

wanton bramble Oct 14, 2025, 4:14 PM

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wanton bramble came to school late because i only got four hours of sleep

i felt everything all at once

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cant do no sleep

wanton bramble Oct 14, 2025, 11:08 PM

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sleeping

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head hurts

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mentally im dying

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 4:25 AM

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i would like to pass away right now

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i don't appreciate the medical issues

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nor how the medical issues are affecting my mental health

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i don't like the term ex

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i would like ti refer to them some other way

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ep, maybe

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i like ep better than ex, it sounds nicer

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ep; ex partner

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oh yesh ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

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i miss my ep

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ha

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funny

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 4:28 AM

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wanton bramble nor how the medical issues are affecting my mental health

mighy make a separate journal purely for medical purposes

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would it go in journals or physical health?

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idk

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my ma thinks ot might be my gaul blater?

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i doubt i soelled that tight

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idk

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it hurts though

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my bsck hirts, idk why

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my chest

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diesnt necessarily hurt

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but uncomfortable

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back hurts so so genuinely bad

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i think i'm going to cry

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i don't want to go to school tomorrow

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i don't want to do anything ever again

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please kill me

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 11:16 AM

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i feel guilty missing school

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i know the teachers probably don't care

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but i di

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i wish i didn't skip my world cultures class

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i enjoy my teacher in there a lot

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alarm set for 9:20 and we re evaluate how were feeling

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sad, my wc class ends at that time

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 11:18 AM

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wanton bramble alarm set for 9:20 and we re evaluate how were feeling

will make a journal when i feel up to it

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 11:20 AM

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wanton bramble i miss my ep

lots and lots

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 2:23 PM

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my side hurts

wanton bramble Oct 16, 2025, 5:00 PM

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going go fhe er at three

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not fire

wanton bramble Oct 17, 2025, 11:22 AM

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my chets hurts

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we didnt go to the er

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 12:46 AM

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hah ma was freaking out

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an ultrasound has been scheduled for the 30th

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hmm

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they said if it feels worse to go to the er lol

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 12:47 AM

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wanton bramble he is seemingly fine, probably high as shit n miserable, but fine

he seems okay, i hope he's actually alright

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he went to a concert recently

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fun

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i want to go to a concert baddd

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theres an upcoming one near me for prince daddy and the hyena

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i'd live to go, but can't

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sad

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 1:32 AM

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so frustrated over "non issues"

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i really hate ai videos

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and when people under them are like "i'm soo getting scammed when i'm older 🥺🥺"

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THATS NOT GOOD DAWG

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PLEASE

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HOW STUPID DO YOU HAVE YO BE TO FALL FOR AI

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my mom falls for ai.

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insane

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 2:43 AM

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i feel quite depressed at the moment

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i would like to ||relapse||

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but that cannot happen

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i feel quite helpless

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i want the dopamine that ||hurting myself|| gives me

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it's rather pathetic that that's the only thing that makes me "happy" currently

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very very sad

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tw for blurred lines, self destructive behavior

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i feel sad

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i want friends, people who want to hang out with ME

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i don't want to be sad

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my heart feels like it's going a million beats a minute

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my pulse is normal though, so i guess that's good

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 3:55 AM

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i have come to the conclusion i am very unfortunate when it comes to health problems

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chronic UTIS and ear infections as a child

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kidney problems in 5th grsdey

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chronic pain in my stomach/back

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possible POTS

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and now this

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sad

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i will attempt to sleep

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 2:46 PM

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i live

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 5:01 PM

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i feel helpless

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 7:01 PM

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i feel trapped

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i want my medical problems to resolve

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i want to join a sports team

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i don't know which though, everyone at my school is insufferable

wanton bramble Oct 18, 2025, 10:10 PM

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yay $25

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i will save 15 and spend ten on whatever floats my boat

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 2:21 AM

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i'm going to be so fucking cool someday

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i won't always be alone

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and if i am i will find peace in it

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i am going to get it together

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i will be okay

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 2:33 AM

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wanton bramble he seems okay, i hope he's actually alright

i don't believe he will stay

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that's very

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what's a correct word?

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devastating, maybe

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emotionally

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i hope he sticks around though

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i enjoy talking to him a lot

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 2:35 AM

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wanton bramble i want my medical problems to resolve

when i make sure i won't drop dead i think i'll start running

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i really

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realllllyyyy

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want to join a track team

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or cross country

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fire

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i might detransition

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or just present more femininely

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that'd make it easier, at least

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 2:36 AM

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wanton bramble i don't believe he will stay

i am rather frustrated with how it is right now

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i wish they'd make up their mind on staying or not

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 2:38 AM

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wanton bramble when i make sure i won't drop dead i think i'll start running

i feel bad about this

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very, very bad

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 4:32 AM

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fuyuck gotta stop scrollibg at night

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it feelsblike domeones eatfhing me

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stop

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 4:33 AM

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wanton bramble i wish they'd make up their mind on staying or not

i asked about it

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we'll see

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 6:31 PM

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dizzy

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dehydrated maybe

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 7:55 PM

#

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devastating

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okay

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gotta cut em off now

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anywho, i'm goinf to clean my room

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i'll be fine

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yeah

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 8:35 PM

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i wonder if anyone reads this

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hmmm

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i can't decide on a perfume 🥹

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i hate perfumes as they're more feminine

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but the only cologne im interested in is discontinued and impossible to find:(

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i hate weekends

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 10:34 PM

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insane timing

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i'm experiencing SI right now

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i am fine

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i'll be fine

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ok

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anyways

wanton bramble Oct 19, 2025, 11:19 PM

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wanton bramble i can't decide on a perfume 🥹

i bought an apple one

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i think it'll work

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it's supposed to smell like fruity caramel

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i'm not a fan of that scent, but i prefer it over vanilla

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the original scent i've been using ran out:(

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it didn't stick though

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it smelled like roses and had a waxy type scent

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people said it smelled like nostalgic old lady, but i still liked it

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i want to shower again

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i have already showered today

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but i want to again

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funny

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 1:23 AM

#

#

unexplainable sadness leads to making brownies at 8:30 at night

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i feel helpless

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 1:43 AM

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wanton bramble

i'm laughing a little bit

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i hatw how the situation turned out

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i'm debating being annoying about it

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i want him to block me

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"can you block me?"

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i ask that a lot

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i wish he would jst do it brah

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"block me yourself"

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YOU'RE THE ONEWHO DOESNT WANT ANYTHING!

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YOU WERE/ARE THE EQUIVALENT OF A FP TO ME AS IT'D BE TO A PERSON WITH BPD!

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I WILL CONTINUE TO CONTACT YOU IF YOU DONT!

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i can't be in this guys life

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i think i'm pathetic

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 1:47 AM

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wanton bramble i ask that a lot

i'll be annoying

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sad

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my chest kind of burns

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 2:46 AM

#

#

i'm going insane

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 3:19 AM

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wanton bramble

i'm going insane this image cant be thetbfunny

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am i loosing it from lagk of sleep

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ols

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 3:47 AM

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i made the mistake of searching tiktok for my ex close friends family/the guy who sa'd me

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holy fucking cow

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ok saying this, the guy who sa'd me is a year younger

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he's fucking huge now

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he does wrestling and will do football

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i'm highkey scared

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fhis is the same guy who'll probably get a car within the next few years, despite being lowish functioning autistic

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no he's nit low functioning

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he's high functioning

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he knows what he's doing

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but he uses his autism as an excuse

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 3:49 AM

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wanton bramble fhis is the same guy who'll probably get a car within the next few years, despit...

what if he decides to get me one day?

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it doesn't take much to find me, he just has to ask an ex friend

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fuck off

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dawg

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i live what

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twenty minutes away?

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everything is so frustrating rn

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this girl

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who HATES me for nothing

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FUCK OFFF

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OH MY GOD

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im not doing this

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 3:54 AM

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wanton bramble what if he decides to get me one day?

i'm going to make the horrid decision and reach out to ex friend tmrw tell them not to say SHIT about it

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idc if they hate me

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*69 them

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fyck off

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rver mind im not calling that

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gotta text now it

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this is pathetic

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ok were good

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they said they'll say i moved to trxas 🥹🥹

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or out ofvthe country

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 5:12 AM

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tomorrow will be a very bad day

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i can't sleep

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im scsred

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 5:38 AM

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sleeping now

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i geel it

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the mental health going down

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i could cry

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 5:38 AM

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wanton bramble

we are conversing

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kind of

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just measiing over and over

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haha

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so fun my

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haha

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hahahahahahahhsha

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it feels like a fiery rod is getting pit in mt chest

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 6:08 AM

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still awake

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sleep now.

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girreal.

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im so cookef

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 10:59 AM

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wanton bramble tomorrow will be a very bad day

yeag

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 4:02 PM

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i feel okay

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 5:26 PM

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WHY DO ENGLISH TEACHERS GIVE ESSAY WORTHY PROMPTS THEN SAY "oh but we only need a thirty second speech on it"

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BROOO

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im crying my study hall is so so so quiet

wanton bramble Oct 20, 2025, 5:52 PM

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english teachers always gotta make things so confusing

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IM SO CONFUSED

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IVE STARTED OVER THREE TIMES

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i have to chill out

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the project is not this serious

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but it's like

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it's not supposed to be an essay or anything

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but i could SO SO SOO easily make it one

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i don't know how to not make it one

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 2:53 AM

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i feel sad

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very sad

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 4:44 AM

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my right side hurts

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chest

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by my ribs

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i get bodily high feelings

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tge feeling i gotbwhen i greened out that one time 🤔

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i don't like it

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 12:02 PM

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there os a senior at school who sometimes comes around where i sit in the morning

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i don't like her, i think she is frustrating and maybe even mean

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she tells me i'm "bug" from 2020

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n i don't care, but i think it's frustrating

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it makes me feel disgusting

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i don't know why

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tw SI

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|| i don't think i'd mind if i died right now ||

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i feel miserable

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 12:24 PM

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i'm such an asshole

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why do i surround myself with horrible people

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dude

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theres people screaming about "bonding over masked men and bikers"

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god

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i would enjoy being able to sit where i usually do during lunch at the start of the school day, by myself

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but a fg sits there

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i might ask to sit there, i know most of the people

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 4:25 PM

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turkey costume 💔💔

wanton bramble Oct 21, 2025, 11:31 PM

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i just saw a video of someone doing high low buffalo

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miss that

wanton bramble Oct 22, 2025, 12:38 AM

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i'm very bored, i am making a gift guide for no particular reason!!

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maybe it's to prove to myself i'm my own person who knows what i want 🤔🤔

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hmm

wanton bramble Oct 22, 2025, 1:56 AM

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i have up an hour ago btw

wanton bramble Oct 22, 2025, 3:01 AM

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i am sad

wanton bramble Oct 22, 2025, 9:25 PM

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i feel depressed

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 2:21 AM

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i feel sad still

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i miss my ex

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very much

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i feel disappointed not having any friends

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 3:16 AM

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relapse

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how unfortunate

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 11:08 AM

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throat is painfully

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like

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scratchy

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holy

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 7:25 PM

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i'm still sad

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 10:15 PM

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i miss having a relationship

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i'm fine on my own n i value my free time n shit

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but i really

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really miss the feeling of reciprocated love

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i miss my ex as well

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sad

wanton bramble Oct 23, 2025, 10:40 PM

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i'm too cool to be sad

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my birthday is soon!

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december 13

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my mother has been given the plans

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i told her i'd like a small cake from nothing bunt cakes

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and for a gift i'd appreciate money, enough to at least buy some more pants online

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i'm making plans

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that sounds bad

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i'm going to start working my butt off

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i'm going to get money and amazing grades

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aha

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i'll get out of here

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anyways!

wanton bramble Oct 24, 2025, 11:05 AM

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dreamed about an army boy

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he was gay n lowk stupid

wanton bramble Oct 24, 2025, 11:37 AM

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the world is so cruel and only the people with connections do well

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who would ever want to live like this?

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it's unfair.

wanton bramble Oct 24, 2025, 10:38 PM

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i feel very sad today

wanton bramble Oct 24, 2025, 11:49 PM

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can everyone learn how to be quiet for five minutes pls

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i miss my ex

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 2:12 AM

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i feel

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i don't know

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hopeless

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 2:17 AM

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wanton bramble i miss my ex

i really do

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i feel bad

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i want to trxt them

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 2:47 AM

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decided i'll text whatever whenever

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i don't think i care

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my ultimate want is to be blocked anyway so

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yeah

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i feel bad

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 3:26 AM

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i am very tiref

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 4:12 AM

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i am very frustrated

wanton bramble Oct 25, 2025, 11:26 PM

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i feel depressed and defeated

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i might restart this journal

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new journal new outlook

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am i right or am i right

wanton bramble Oct 26, 2025, 12:38 AM

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"problematic toxic age gap yaoi forever"

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shut up n just say you don't take male on male grooming victims seriously

wanton bramble Oct 26, 2025, 3:09 AM

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maybe life isn't horrible 🥹🥹

#cal's very sad thoughts:(