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#Fragments of my Life [Diary]
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and maybe reach 200 if I can master it
alr time to practice
no no no, time to read and go to sleep, there's school tomorrow
To buy my screen I'll probably sell things
I have a old ps3, can you even sell this?
And that's pretty much everything valuable I have
Yeah, maybe books
but I like to keep them
I have my attack on titan posters..? No it's a gift
Or I beg someone to give me $100
Maybe it could work
To get used to this keyboard I could also just write in diaries on pc tho
In french, since my thinking is slower than my writing speed in english*
In french I can just always type
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It feels good to feel good
Sounds weird but that's my thoughts
For me feeling good is having normal problems
Like family issues, harassement, suicidal thoughts
When your biggest problem is one of those, then you have a pretty good life, for me
Ofc it depends on everyone, for the people experiencing that as their biggest problem in life, they think it's super bad.
And it's normal
For me, the biggest problem in life is to not be able to have any problem, not being attached enough to reality to feel emotions
It's way too specific, since it's my situation
And it's a rare situation
It's 2:41 am
It's been 2h I say "I should to go sleep"
When I'm tired I lose control of myself
Look, I was perfectly fine and not writing in any diary until I got too tired and decided to start writing here
I left every discord servers because I'm tired of getting dm
Except this one*
Even though my profile picture is not amazing and my profile is empty, people keep dming me like I have time for them
I mean, everyone has time
Saying “I don’t have time to do this” means “This, is lower than other things in my priorities”
And a random person who dm me "hello", making me lose time to read & answer, is worth nothing
At least go straight to the point...
I have another discord account.
I used it before, when I was playing more videogames, not really anymore.
I stopped using discord before any other social medias because of how weird the community is
There's too much pedofiles for example
Not like I personally care, but I think parents don't understand how dangerous are social medias.
We are the first generation born in a wold dominated by internet
So they don't know
They can't know,
Probably us in 15 years will also have kids and don't know the danger of new things, new technologies.
I'm not reaching 10k msg
I guess
That's actually sad
loud hamletBOT
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opaque shale
That's actually sad
Sorry about that.
earnest pivot
I understand
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I'll probably copy paste the introduction message, finally make the dictionnary pastebin/paste.ee/(any kind of support) of the terms I use
The PhVs
The FoL A
And that's pretty much all
opaque shale
I understand
Also, after the deadline, your journal will still be accessible. It will just be locked.
earnest pivot
I started this diary on 11/18/2024, three months ago, and with this entry, it holds 7,055 messages.
It’s the only diary I’ve kept in a language other than my native French—this one is in English. Over time, I’ve improved a lot, learning up dozens of new words and expressions. I can almost express myself as I intend to, even if it’s still a bit slow.
This diary has been a great place to write down my life, my thoughts and my values, allowing me to feel better in general, so thank you for existing.
Thank you, past me, for writing it all down. And to my future self—I hope you’ve become a better person and that, through these words, you can rediscover who i was ; my values, my persona, my soul. Because, these are the Fragments of my Life.
Fragments of my Life [11/18/2024 - 02/17/2025]
THE END
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