#Matt’s journal about life

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old raptor
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She’s rude to everyone and gets pissed off a lot

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She got mad at me for using the bathroom and taking too long

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I’m sorry because of people like you smoke/damage the bathrooms which makes them locked so I have to go down to the nurses to use the bathroom!

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I’m going just crazy at this point

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Speaking of the bathrooms the only ones unlocked at lunch are shit

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There is no shield on the urinal so somebody can just walk in and see your well yk

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I tried to use the stall

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But this vaping sucking asshole was vaping in there

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Just ban vapes for the love of god at this point

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I don’t know why products that harm you are still on shelves. Some idiot really thought it was good to make an electric cigarette after years of knowing with regular cigarettes do to you

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Idiots.

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And so then

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People just treat me like shit nowadays

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I got lied too

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I’m just such a nobody

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I was walking in the halls and this kid said: "we coming for your AirPods"

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I hate that son of a bitch

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He’s been annoying lately

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I don’t even know who he is

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It’s always just Kids who I don’t know that just come and mess with me

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I hate it

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I don’t know who you are! Nor do I fucking care!

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I just wanna live peacefully and live my life!

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And yet all these people are coming after me

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This is the environment my counselor supports

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She supports harassment and bullying

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Doesn’t do shit about it

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Fuck that counselor bitch

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She never wanted to help me

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She just wants to see me fail and fall

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Just like the rest

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Today my plant bio teacher wasn’t here today so we had to go to a cool history’s teachers classroom

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I asked if I could go use the bathroom

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And this girl starts bitching at me saying I took "30 minutes" when I was gone for like 12 minutes

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So then her friend starts exposing me

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I texted her yesterday

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And she apparently yelled at the dude who gave me her number

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So yeah

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I guess this whole time

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My group table hated me

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And never told me

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Got betrayed

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Twice in a year

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Fuck this shit and fuck my life

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I never did anything to deserve this

old raptor
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People are so dumb nowadays

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People wanna steal my shit

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People wanna hurt me and annoy me

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I’m so tired of it

old raptor
old raptor
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Today has been boring as shit

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Besides me almost pulling my fucking hair out

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I wish my best friend was online

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She’s been gone for 6 hours

old raptor
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sighs

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Todays a new day

old raptor
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I cannot return to school tomorrow

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I am drowning In work fr

old raptor
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Godamn this mf game sucks

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I’m trying to play ranked on Fortnite cause I want this chainsaw blade

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And all these mfs are annoying g as hell

old raptor
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I can’t stand this shit rn

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I’m drowning in makeup work on school and my friend is getting upset with me because I haven’t texted her in 6 days

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Sorry I’ve been busy losing my shit the past few weeks

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Boom

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Boom

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Boom

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Boom

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So yeah

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Boom

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Boom

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Boom

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Boom

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I have to write an essay, study for an English test, get some history papers done, and then work on my project for plant bio and then finish a bunch of chapters for health

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Godammit with this fucking computer

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This computer is such a bitch

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It has to update so much almost once a week

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Buy better laptops you cheap fucks

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Use our $15,000 we got when we worked the plant sale

old raptor
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Man my sister is so annoying like seriously

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My dad just spent $500 on my sister to do drivers ed and she isn’t excited and doesn’t wanna drive

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But I wanna learn how to drive

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Because I need a job and a car

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I hate living in this country so much sometimes

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I need a car and yet shit is too expensive

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Not to get political or anything but

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Biden and trump both mf suck

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They’re stupid as hell

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Just I want a car

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I want a car so I can drive around and drive to places

gloomy ivy
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idk why people don’t get excited to drive anymore i was super excited to drive

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it’s sad

old raptor
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Because I just turned 17 (yes a bit late to learn how to drive I know)

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But I need a job and a car

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I can’t believe all I do in this jorunal is bitch about shit

gloomy ivy
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it’s good you wanna drive

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most young pol don’t wanna

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ppl*

gloomy ivy
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they for you to drive about stuff you don’t like abt your day or such

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wait those r like diaries

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oh well

old raptor
gloomy ivy
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no one cares if you “bitch” this ur safe place

old raptor
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For christs sake everyone says my stuff are diaries

gloomy ivy
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mb

old raptor
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Nah my journals are horror books ong

gloomy ivy
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nice

old raptor
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All I do is just bitch about divorce, bitch about family, bitch about my life, bitch about school, and bitch about annoying people and bitch about so much more

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I don’t wanna return to school anymore either

old raptor
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On Friday she and this kid were messing around

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The kid who was messing with her is the guy who got yelled at by that girl because he gave me her number

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This bitch tells me: "hey don’t tell him what to do"

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Bitch, the dude was running around a substitute teacher’s classroom which almost bumped into me

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Be so fucking for real

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Im honestly starting to hate the number dude

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This dude is honestly just annoying

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  1. The dude called me a slur
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He called me a docksucker

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Just remove the d with a c and it should make sense

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  1. I left my fucking journal on the table for 3 fucking seconds to throw something away and he grabbed my journal and started to read it
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I let the slur and the invasion or privacy slide

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  1. I wanted into the group chat that my group members had
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And he refused to add me

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And started making up a bullshit excuses

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  1. He literally set me up
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That’s so fucking annoying bruh

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She yelled at him for him giving me her number

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They never liked me

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They never did

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Godamn why is it always me?

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At this point

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I don’t deserve love or friends

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I always find the worst people

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I don’t deserve this shit at all

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And yet I’m still stuck with it

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Like I always find the most horrible shittiest people

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Oh and then there’s the waitress

split nest
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I am sorry for your loss, life might be harsh, but dont be harsh on the people, calling EVERYONE the b word, you can be wrong too sometimes you know? People might be negative but you need to spread positivity whenever you can.

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Also try crying about this (with tears), when I tried, it worked better than journaling since we write with minds but cry with hearts, it relieves more emotions

old raptor
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I’ve been swearing too much like a sailor

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I fr gotta relax

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@bold raptor just read everything from today

old raptor
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Man bruh I fucked up

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I stayed up till 1 am trying to finish this English paper

rustic silo
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A journal is a diary

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Thief is literally a diary lmao

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Even what yr describing us a diary

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Same thing

bold raptor
# rustic silo A journal is a diary

A journal isn’t a diary? There’s a complete difference between those two. A diary documents daily experiences and events that happen, while a journal is a personal record of your thoughts, feelings, etc.

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Please do your research beforehand

rustic silo
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Writing about events in his daily life

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Not stop waffling and read his diary

bold raptor
# rustic silo And this guy is doing a diary

No he isn’t, it is a journal. A self-reflective journal, where he writes about a positive or negative events that they experienced. Writing down what it means to them, what they may have learned, etc. It helps to learn and grow from past experiences.

rustic silo
bold raptor
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Honestly, it’s all up to them what type of journal they want it to be, because there are a bunch of different types of journals. It’s also all up to them if they want it to be called a diary or journal, if they don’t want it to be called a diary, then don’t call it a diary

bold raptor
rustic silo
bold raptor
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Again, it is not a diary. And it’s best to respect that

rustic silo
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It is tho

bold raptor
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omg 🤦😭

old raptor
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Don’t ever comment on this journal again

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I’ll write about whatever the hell I want to and vent about whatever I want to

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This is my safe space/jorunal. Not yours

rustic silo
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I understand but u gotta understand it's a journal

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I mean a diary

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It's ur safe place that ur sharing to people

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So

old raptor
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You just admitted it was a jornual

rustic silo
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U just said nope to journal

bold raptor
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Can’t you just respect his decision and quit chatting here? You can have any opinion you want, but quit trying to debate it. Just move along

rustic silo
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Stfu

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It's my right to do what I want

bold raptor
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Then use that right to leave, because it’s getting annoying

celest oracle
rustic silo
gloomy ivy
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just let matt do his thing bro it’s such an inconvenience to argue abt the differences… no one cares about the differences.

rustic silo
gloomy ivy
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well you provoking him makes it worse

old raptor
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Literally just be quiet and leave

gloomy ivy
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real

old raptor
bold raptor
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Seriously??

old raptor
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Stop

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I’m the owner of this journal

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And I’m not in the mood for your bullshit

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So please leave

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Can you please just shut up and leave?

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Bro

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You guys seriously suck

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I write about people like you always bothering me and for what? Because you wanna be insecure and take out your life problems on everybody else

split nest
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it's a diary lol

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not a problem though

old raptor
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@turbid veldt

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Get all these people out of my journal

split nest
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dude relax..

old raptor
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For Christs sake it is a journal

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A JOURNAL.

split nest
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last thing I said here was positive feedback

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I did not read the entire thing

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I think I will

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oh yes he did yesterday I did not know this took turns to become a serious issue

old raptor
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Man

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Shit today has been so stressful

old raptor
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Like

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The tissue boxes have been getting stolen in my study class

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Like bruh what the hell? During allergy season

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Really?

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Okay and then there’s another issue

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What is with vapers?

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Like seriously

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like I’m generally wondering

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What is it with them?

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They just blow smoke all over the place and get the bathrooms locked

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I had to use the bathroom today and this girl went to the bathroom to vape

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For 20 minutes

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Hey Adam

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Were you the one putting down those emojis as reactions?

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I swear

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I’m bout to delete this fucking journal

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Cause today was not the day

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  1. People keep calling it a diary
  2. People keep messaging random shit then deleting it
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I can’t journal in peace anymore

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I journal in class

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People wanna see it

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I leave it on the table

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People try and see it

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I try and do it by the window

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People try to see it

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Like wtf is the issue

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I’m only doing this writing since my therapist is busy sometimes

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I only see him every 2 weeks

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I try and journal in 6th period

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People have tried to see it

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I’ve tried to journal in 2nd period

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People have tried to grab and run away with it

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I try at lunch

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People interrupt me

old raptor
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Cry about it

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I don’t care. Vapes suck

old raptor
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It’s sucking on a battery that’s dirty

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Full of chemicals you don’t know what’s inside

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Harmful effects

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Nah

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You must be a troll like the other 2

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All I said was vapes suck

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Because I can’t use a damn bathroom due to teenagers smoking at school

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No

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Leave

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Yes tf it is

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They lock the bathrooms and then I can’t use it since it’s locked

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Now leave my journal

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I don’t know who you are but you’re probably friends with those other 2 trolls from last night

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So leave

old raptor
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Today was stressful

old raptor
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I swear if another troll comes In here

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I’m gonna pull my hair out

old raptor
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Okay

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Thank god all trolls are gone

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Okay

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So shit is going crazy

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I’m talking high stakes here

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Thank fuck I get out of school next Thursday

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Today I almost got into a fight

old raptor
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I got a friends number

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But ion wanna go back to school tomorrow

old raptor
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Today was another stressful day

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People are getting more and more crazier as the time to get out of school comes closer

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Today I almost got into a fight today with a kid who’s name I don’t know. I was working at my desk and he was with the security guard and 2 other girls

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This guy literally walks into my class and touches my shoulder and puckers up his lips

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I stand up from my desk and go out into the hall and ask what the fuck is wrong with this guy

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I grab his sweatshirt and pull him face to face with my water bottle ready to smack him in the face

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The security guard is telling me to go back in and telling me it’s okay

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These 2 girls start laughing at me being upset at this guy and laugh at me ready to hit this guy

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But not gonna lie. I’m glad I didn’t hit him

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I could’ve gotten suspended and into trouble for hitting an idiot

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My irl journaling has gotten somewhat fun

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I now do these titles for what I wanna talk about

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My titles reference movies, tv, shows, songs,

old raptor
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I just wake up from a nap

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Ngl naps help

old raptor
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Just owned my best friend

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Blocked her ong since she was annoying

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Well

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I messed up actually

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I blocked my friend and honestly

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Honestly I shouldn’t have done that

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Honestly

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I feel so much regret rn

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Honestly

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Why do I do this? Why do I insult my friend as a joke

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Jeez I messed up

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I’m such an idiot

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Not only that I’m probably gonna fail history!

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I have to work on this project and idfk what to do on this shit

old raptor
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You know

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Rant number

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Idefk

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I keep thinking about everything that’s happened the past few weeks

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And all the shit I let slide

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I didn’t let the kid who touched me slide

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I mean hell. If that security guard wasn’t there I most likely would’ve smacked him in the face with my metal water bottle

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Like you fucking idiot

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You don’t come into random people’s classrooms and touch random people

old raptor
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Rant again

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Not about life or school or people

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But about video games

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Red dead online fucking sucks ass

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I love rdr2 and I love the story mode. Just the online version sucks

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The missions are annoying, griefers keep shooting me all the damn time

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Literally just wish this shit was single player or you could just make a session with just friends

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But nooooo rockstar had to fuck it up

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Like they always fuck everything up

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Not adding ponchos to the story mode
Killing off protagonists

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I’m just saying shit sucks

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I just generally don’t even know what’s going on anymore

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My school year is almost over and thank god it is

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3 months from a break of degeneracy, annoying people, and issues

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I just wanna go on vacation, take walks on the waterfront, and just play video games and workout

old raptor
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Absolute fucking idiot.

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The dude literally thought I was an easy target

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Oh absolutely not

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If that security guard wasn’t there I most likely would’ve hit him

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Like what the hell is actually wrong with people?

old raptor
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This dude. I don’t know who the hell he is, I don’t know where he came from, but somebody needs to stop his fucked In the head perverted ass

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You don’t just come into somebody’s classroom and touch someone you don’t know

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You know I also wanna talk about some more stuff

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Why is it that

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So much people blame me for stuff?

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Stuff that isn’t my fault except theirs?

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Example 1: my thumb got sprained back in February by a girl after she tried to pull off my hood

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I was blamed by my mom for having my hood on

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Example 2: when I told my school counselor about my ||suicidal|| thoughts back in November. She accused me thinking I was attention seeking and put the blame on me

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  1. When I got touched by another kid. Me and the dean of students checked the security camera
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Guess what? She blamed me and accused me as well trying to defuse the situation and saying it didn’t happen

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  1. This kid in my plant bio class give me this girls number after I’ve told her I’ve wanted to talk to her a few times
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She yelled at him for it and he blamed me

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So she got mad at me for texting her

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And this is all I texted her

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Another thing I just wanna vent about and get off my chest

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My mom or sometimes people tell me stuff at just the wrong time

old raptor
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Like my mom told me I need to work on forgetting about my trust issues and look

old raptor
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I swear to god can I just like

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Get a win?

old raptor
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You know

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1 year from now I’ll be graduating high school

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I also hate how barely anybody understands me

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I tell my dad about the people who make fun of me or do stupid shit

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And yet

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He yells at me

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And he then tells me: "who are these people!?”

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Like I don’t fucking know either!

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I’m sick and tired of people honestly treating me like shit at school

old raptor
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Man

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Life is hard asf

jaunty junco
old raptor
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I don’t even what to feel anymore

jaunty junco
old raptor
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Man this shit is horrible asf ong

old raptor
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Man

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Like why does this have to be me?

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I’m tryna get shit done in life and people keep getting in my way

old raptor
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Man

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I do not wanna return to school tomorrow

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I don’t want that piece of shit to come back

old raptor
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You know

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Why do I feel so unhappy?

old raptor
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I’m having such an emergency

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I’m having a panic attack

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I’m so scared

old raptor
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There was a fight outside

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Multiple people rushed to see the fight

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The guy who I almost hit came with his friends and they saw me through the window

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They followed me

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My heart was beating

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When I left my classroom they were waiting outside for me to come

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They confronted me and ran after me

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And they got mad that I "choked his friend"

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People in the halls laughed at me

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They laughed at this encounter like it was some sort of sick joke

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This is why I stay away from people

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This is why I stay home

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I do not trust anybody!

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For Christ sakes people are fucking crazy Nowadays

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I’m just waiting her at the office

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I lied to my teacher and and the office lady came back to class with me and told my teacher I didn’t feel safe

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My heart is still beating

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It’s still pounding

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My ears are red

old raptor
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My dad doesn’t want me to go to school tomorrow

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They know my 2 classes

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They know where my classes are

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I cannot go to school tomorrow

gloomy ivy
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how do you still have school 😭

old raptor
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I’m so fucked

old raptor
old raptor
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I need protection

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My parents want me to stay home or want me to go to field day with them for school

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I have a history project that I’m working on

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I literally cannot do anything

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I have school work

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For Christs sake

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I’m so upset and horrified

old raptor
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Idk why but I don’t even know what to feel or think anymore

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Today I had to talk with the kids

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They apologized so ig all is forgiven

old raptor
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Been scrolling a lot on Pinterest lately

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And I’ve been seeing a lot of quotes

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And shit that basically sums up my life

main pond
old raptor
main pond
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yes

old raptor
main pond
old raptor
old raptor
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You know

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My dad honestly is sorta annoying me

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My mom had a stupid idea today

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She wanted me and my sister to either go to her classroom on the last day of school or go to school

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Literally neither at all

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School this Friday is useless

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  1. No one is gonna show up
  2. I don’t wanna wake up at 7 In the morning just to sit in a class with nobody there
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And then my dad wants me to help my mom move stuff at her classroom which I don’t want to

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My mom takes way too long and we end up leaving late at night

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So absolutely not

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I deserve a break more then anything

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I went through hell this year

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I got rejected

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I got my thumb sprained

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I got betrayed twice

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I dealt with a lot of assholes

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I got chased down the fucking hall like mad max

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The girl I loved also broke my heart and left!

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And I barley had any classes with my friends

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And I was touched inappropriately

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So fuck school

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I deserve a break

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I deserve all of it

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Because I didn’t deserve any of this shit and for what?

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For people to just act trashy on me?

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No fuck that

old raptor
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Let's go

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Last day of school

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The path to paradise begins in hell

old raptor
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I’m literally so tired

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I worked all year

old raptor
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Honestly

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I hate how my best friend is away

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She’s just in the Forrest with no WiFi

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Like I just wanna hangout with her stop making her get busy doing stuff

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And then what is it with people getting offended when I tell them the truth?

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"Why do you show us your journal?"

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Because you’re just gonna use my personal shit against me

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People are so fucking dumb nowadays

old raptor
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Just

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Today people were so annoying and riled up today

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This kid

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Kept taking my water bottle

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And I had to climb up onto the counter to grab my water bottle

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My right arm is sore and hurts

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It’s been hurting after carrying that box of sprite cans down 2 staircases

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My right ear also hurts

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My friend accidentally cut my ear while doing my haircut yesterday

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I think it’s a razor burn

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So then the dude decides to grab my backpack and dries to drop it on me

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And i literally was just minding my own business and listening to music

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And I had to literally cuss him out and tell him to stop and then he was like: "whoa! whoa! I was joking"

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I then said: "thank god I don’t have to see you for the next 3 months"

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And he got all offended

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I swear to god he was so fucking annoying this year

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Just grabbing other people’s stuff and hiding their stuff

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And just kept complaining about his weight

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Like godamn

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Thank fuck I don’t have to see him for the next 3 months

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That guy was just so annoying

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So then

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There’s also just

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More kids

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Just being annoying

old raptor
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So

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Then also with today

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There was all these kids just be annoying near me

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I was listening to music at my desk in health class

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And these kids from the human development class are just

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Annoying asf

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One kid had a cpr doll

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I’m listening to music

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And this dude literally is fooling around and is like: "hey are you cpr certified"

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No! I’m not cpr certified nor do I give a fuck

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I’m tryna listen to my music cause I’m bored asf

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And then this kid is messing around with a golf club

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And then is just saying skibbdi running around

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Beaver looking ass

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Go chuck on some wood

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Okay that was a bit rude💀

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But yeah

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And they were just annoying as hell

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And then

old raptor
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He saw my new haircut

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And started going crazy about it saying: "oh so now you finally decide to get a haircut as soon as school is about to end"

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And then he full on said

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"With a haircut like that maybe Maddy will text you back"

old raptor
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^^

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sighs

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I gotta also vent about my dad

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My dad has just been

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Annoying lately

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He plays this comedian that me and my sister do not find funny

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He’s this comedian who is dead. And he’s not funny at all

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And my dad plays him all the time

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When multiple times we’ve told him that he is not funny

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And then there’s the car air conditioner

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He turns it too cold

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And then he turned it off and said: "it’s too cold"

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Then turned it back on

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He just tells the most annoying jokes

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Honestly

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I fucking hate how he divorced my mom

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Seriously fuck all this divorce war shit

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2022 was when

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Stuff was starting to get better

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It was finally starting to get better

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Had new friends, expanded music taste, playing Fortnite late at night listening to my favorite music, and wasnt contemplating life late at night

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And look now

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Contemplates life,

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Doesn’t know what the hell to listen to,

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Was lonely for weeks,

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Honestly

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Hurry the divorce process up

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And then I just hate how my dad complains!

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Oh I miss you guys

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Oh I wish we could do this together

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SO WHY DID YOU GET A FUCKING DIVORCE

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WHY DID YOU BREAK HER HEART 3 TIMES

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I SWEAR

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PEOPLE SUCK NOWADAYS

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OFFENDED OVER EVERYTHING

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AND CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH

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STFU

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ILL PREACH THE TRUTH

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I DO PREACH THE TRUTH

old raptor
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For sucking gods sake nobody fuckin listens anymore

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My mom wants to keep ordering from this restaurant called Red Robin

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Me and mom have celiac disease which means both of us cannot eat gluten

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And Red Robin just fucking sucks

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They fuck up our order 80% of the time

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And she still orders from them

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And then there’s just my haircut

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It’s what a lot of people are just talking about

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They’re like oh you got a haircut you got a haircut and they just keep trying to touch it

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Like honestly stop doing that shit

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I finally feel confident and finally think I look good like once in a blue moon

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And everybody’s just trying to just touch it and it’s like it’s a fucking haircut leave it alone

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My family members will probably try and touch it on Sunday

old raptor
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It’s just

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I finally feel like I look good

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The taper haircut I got

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I finally feel like

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Things are getting better

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And I look better

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And have motivation to try new things out

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People told me for years now I should get a taper

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And I always said no I wouldn’t look good

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But now I do

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What’s also worse is that

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Some people who I don’t like

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Even wanna be my friends now because of this haircut

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All because I look fucking good they wanna be my friends?

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Absolutely hate this generation

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Hate the way they look

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Hate the way they dress

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Hate the way they act

old raptor
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I’m such an idiot

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I had a bloody nose earlier because I was tryna itch it and it ended up bleeding

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So it ended up bleeding again and I swallowed a bunch of blood and now I feel nauseous

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I didn’t tell my best friend

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I don’t want her to see me like this

old raptor
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I swear

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I’m bout to lose my shit

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I’m bout to lose my shit on so much fuckin things

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My nose has bled for the 3rd time

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The 3rd time in one

old raptor
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I feel so mf alone

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Just

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I’m here

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All alone watching spawn

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Like shit sucks ass

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I was having a good day then I ended up alone for a bit

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I swear why does nobody fucking talk to me anymore?

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Barely anybody is grateful to be my friend.

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I’m so tired of it honestly

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I hate being such a nice guy and then people take advantage of my feelings/kindness

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I was literally trying to help a girl

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A few weeks ago

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And I said: "I could be your friend even tho it’s online" and she was just like

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Eh it doesn’t feel the same

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Like

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Nobody answers my calls or texts

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Some people on Twitter? Nah

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Some people on this app

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Barely

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Like I’m just trying to be a good friend and people just cook me for it

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Hate this generation nowadays

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I’m a great guy and a beautiful heart and just wants to be friends

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And yet I’m stuck in the wrong generation

left haven
old raptor
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I’ve tried to find people

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And yet they turned their backs on me

old raptor
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Certified life hater since 2019

old raptor
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I honestly gotta go on a rant since idek anymore

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I feel like no one wants to be my friend

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Straight up I’m a friendly guy

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And yet everyone just tries to take advantage of my kindness

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My mom is starting to piss me off and so is my family members

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My mom always turns on the air conditioner

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"It’s too hot!" "It’s hot!"

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No tf it’s not

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She isn’t Hispanic like me (I’m mixed)

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I can handle the mf heat

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I’ve been to Florida, California, Haiti, Jamaica,

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So much hot Mf places

old raptor
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For Christs sake

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With the fucking air conditioner again

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She leaves the air conditioner too cold

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And then she leaves it on downstairs and goes upstairs

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She leaves it on upstairs then goes downstairs

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Make up ur mind omfg

old raptor
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Bruh

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So much people irritating me

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My grandma, aunt, cousins,

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Okay so

old raptor
#

They’ve been annoying

old raptor
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For Christs sucking sake

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I wanna go home

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This shit is annoying asf

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Everyone here has just been so annoying

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Just

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Everyone’s been touchy

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Just

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Tryna touch me and it’s like

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Oh thank god

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Now I’m finally going home

old raptor
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Okay

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So

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I gotta go on a rant

old raptor
#

Honestly am starting to hate how nobody Listens to me for Christs take

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Yesterday

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Was just

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Annoying asf

old raptor
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Tired of everyone being busy

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I just want people to hangout with me

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Like

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Just so done with today

#

Today has been just

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I just watched tv today tbh all I did was that

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My sister seriously sucks

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So done with her shit

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At this point

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I’ve gone crazy

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The weather, friendships, summer, relationships with people

#

I don’t even know what’s going on anymore

#

Only good news is I finally feel confident

#

Like that meme I suffer but I’m hot

#

I’m finally home

#

Time to play games until my bitch of a sister kicks me off

#

I cannot believe

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How annoyed I’m getting

#

The air conditioning is really starting to piss me off

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My mom turns it too fucking cold

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She’s so sensitive to heat

#

For Christs sake if your gonna use the air conditioner then don’t use it too high

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Since it’s a big air conditioner it makes the whole room cold which annoys me

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I’m so tired of people being busy as well

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Just they barely hangout with me

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And they’re always busy like

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Please just text me bruh

#

I’m just so annoyed

old raptor
#

What

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An extreme day today

#

I saved my best friend

#

I saved her today and honestly

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I hate how all this shit happens to her

#

She’s just a kid

#

She doesn’t deserve any of this

#

She deserves happy loving, parents,

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Not some junkie stepbrother

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Or some creepy boyfriend of her mom

#

I’m not a hero

#

I’m not a hero at all

#

I’m honestly a bad guy

#

The way I think would just make people think I’m a bad guy

old raptor
#

Man bruh

#

I love my best friend so much

#

I need her and she can’t die on me

#

She doesn’t deserve any of this

#

I truly love my best friend

#

I may be a bit older then her but I just wanna make sure she’s okay

old raptor
#

OK so

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I gotta get some stuff off my chest

#

So just today has been I don’t know

#

I want somebody to hang out with

#

And of course, my dad is busy

#

I don’t know why I hate having to be a hero

#

Like I’ve had to save so much people from almost ||unaliveing||themselves

#

And honestly, I just feel sad and I feel and whore and in shock when I have to save them

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I know people

#

How do I know the next day they’ll be ||dead|| on their floor

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That’s the thing I don’t know what they’re capable of

#

Man, this shit sucks, bruh

old raptor
#

I’m honestly pissed off about this summer

#

I can’t fly anywhere or go anywhere

#

Since my parents are getting divorced, they can’t afford trips to take all of us

#

Goddamn, and I hate divorce

#

Always hated it

#

So now I’m just at home drinking my juice box because I don’t know what the hell else to do

old raptor
#

Well

#

I found love

#

And I got a girlfriend now

jaunty junco
old raptor
#

Honestly today

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I’m kinda annoyed

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I’m bored

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I’m hungry

#

And I don’t have anybody to hangout with

#

My friends are busy

old raptor
#

Really pissed off right now

#

I can’t go on a walk again

#

Tired of this fucking shit bruh

#

I just wanna go out to the waterfront and walk under the hot sun and get exercise in

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But no I can’t

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Because everyone is busy

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And my dad can’t take me because he is busy!

old raptor
#

Absolutely annoyed with people

#

Absolutely annoyed with today

old raptor
#

Okay so I gotta go on a rant

#

About yesterday

old raptor
#

Okay I kinda found a good song so I was vibing out to it

#

But okay so I just wanna list a warning: lots of curse words!!

#

This is about to have more cuss words then mo bamba

#

Okay so

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First off yesterday morning

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I had to wake up at 9 and didn’t have time to eat

#

My mom is an elementary school teacher

#

And she used to teach kindergarten and then got switched to 2nd grade

#

And now she’s teaching kindergarten now again

#

So she needed help cleaning her classroom

#

And the staff members at her school were such assholes

#

So I’m moving boxes with my sister and tryna listen to my music

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And the lady that we’re moving stuff to her classroom since my mom is moving to her classroom

old raptor
#

She literally Lied to get outta there faster

old raptor
#

I fr had to go to sleep

old raptor
#

My phone acting up today and shit

old raptor
#

31 people liked ts on with hearts

#

Thank you all for hearing me bitch about my life!

#

Anyways

old raptor
#

After that happened there was the whole elevator nonsense

old raptor
#

Absolutely annoyed the fuck out of my mind

#

I’m annoyed with my mom

#

I hate the fucking air conditioning

#

I hate the fucking air conditioner

#

It does not need to be on all 24/7

#

My mom turns it on downstairs then goes upstairs

#

My mom turns it on upstairs and goes downstairs

#

Absolutely fucking tired of it

#

Either keep it in when your downstairs

#

She just can’t fucking handle heat

#

It’s summer

#

Just keep it on when your in the room

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And don’t turn it on so high

#

I tried to turn it off and she yelled at me

#

This is why I don’t like single mothers

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My mom is a single mom

old raptor
#

I don’t like them

#

I’m bout to push this fucking air conditioning out the window

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Cause it’s too fucking cold

#

Why even marry a Hispanic man if you like the cold and have 2 Hispanic mixed kids

#

I’m Hispanic (puerto rican) and I love the heat and hot weather

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But she just loves the cold

#

I can’t say most of my opinions on here

#

Because I’ll probably get

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  1. Into trouble
  2. Someone will try and fight me on it
  3. It’s my opinion stfu
old raptor
#

Honestly I’m not feeling it today

#

I just

#

Honestly am starting to hate myself I’m ngl

#

This isn’t about my looks or saying im ugly

#

But about my relations and how I socialize with people

#

I swear nobody ever thanks my appreciation

#

Only a few people check in on me

#

But it’s always me checking in on them

#

I hate how I always care so much

#

Nobody ever really texts me

#

I feel like

#

Nobody ever really cares

#

I care about and love someone so much and they don’t do the same for me

#

They don’t think of me the same way and they view me as weird

#

I’m sorry I like being friends with you! I’m sorry I actually appreciate you!

#

But no.

#

Just no.

#

People find it "corny" that I care

#

And people find it "weird" that I care

#

I’m a good guy

#

I am

#

Absolutely just hate it

#

I’m just so done with trying to care and love someone who won’t love and care about me the same way back

#

Like

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I care so much and people don’t see the same way

abstract bison
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Nahhh bro is becoming a villain

old raptor
abstract bison
#

U dont remember me

old raptor
#

Are you another one of them trolls?

#

If you are then leave before I call the mod

abstract bison
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Well its been a while.since i was here anyway

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Ok buddy

old raptor
abstract bison
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Im not?

old raptor
#

Oh now i remember you

old raptor
abstract bison
#

Huh?

#

I dont remember allat

old raptor
#

??

abstract bison
#

Oh i already explained that

old raptor
#

@turbid veldt

#

Tired of all these people coming In here and trolling when this is my alone space

#

I do use irl journaling

#

Sometimes I do online as well

#

People like him is what I don’t want talking in here

jaunty junco
old raptor
#

Tired of nobody honestly wanting to play games with me

#

Like I’m just tryna run same games and my best friend

#

Ion even think she wants to play with me

#

She barely hops on

old raptor
#

Absolutely hate my bitch of a sister

#

She’s fucking annoying

old raptor
#

Just

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Today was boring as hell

#

I didn’t get to do fireworks

#

I barely hung out with people today

#

Well nobody wants to hangout with me that simple

#

Tired of feeling alone and shit

old raptor
#

Get the fuck out

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Get out now

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I’m done with your shit. This is where I talk about my life and I don’t need assholes like you ruining it

#

Get out now and don’t ever come back

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@turbid veldt

old raptor
#

You shut the fuck up

#

You get out of here now

#

<@&923393222187810846>

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I’ll report both of you

abstract bison
#

why?

old raptor
#

You and @dull galleon

old raptor
# abstract bison why?

You are being disrespectful invading this channel when I am just ranting about stuff. And I’m tired of you

abstract bison
#

when was i disrespectful

old raptor
#

You were warned the first time so leave now

#

I don’t need your jokes and shit here

#

No

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You had your chance. I’m reporting both of you

#

Already took a screenshot cause I’d new you’d delete

#

Try faster

old raptor
#

Congratulations!

#

I’m deleting this shit

#

Thanks @baloni and @viral quarry and many more for caring about this

#

@bold raptor but im deleting

#

This used to be a safe space

#

But it no longer isn’t

#

It’s turned into a cesspool invaded by sad trolls

#

I will be deleting this journal later

#

Thank you everyone for your support and kind words these past few months

dull galleon
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nooo but i like the journal 😔

old raptor
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You’re a piece of shit man. You choose this place to troll out of everywhere else?

dull galleon
#

i have been telling @abstract bison to stay out of your journal but i deleted the messages because i got too angry sometimes

old raptor
abstract bison
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why is bro pinging me💀

old raptor
#

Both of you need to stay out

abstract bison
#

didnt you say u were gonna delete it

old raptor
#

I will be reporting you both later and I will be deleting this later

old raptor
#

Later

abstract bison
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then what am i gonna stay out of???

#

whatever imma leave

#

cya

dull galleon
#

sorry if you didn't take it as me helping but i thought i was helping..

dull galleon
old raptor
#

I know who exactly what you are

#

@worn thicket

dull galleon
#

get out of his damn journal

old raptor
#

These 2 people have been trolling and have invaded this journal. They are probably friends with the trolls from the general chat

worn thicket
#

I've kicked them.

#

Anyone else?

old raptor
#

Both of them?

old raptor
worn thicket
old raptor
worn thicket
#

Not sure about gamer, but we'll keep an eye out.

old raptor
worn thicket
old raptor
#

It’s been invaded for the 3rd time now

worn thicket
#

We're sorry to hear about your experience. There's no need to delete the journal if you want to keep it. We'll keep an eye out.

old raptor
#

I do wanna keep it! It’s just people keep coming in and invading and don’t help. They just send memes and troll

#

I’m all one for jokes and memes. But not here. Most definitely not here

old raptor
#

I can't sleep so I'm just gonna announce this in here

#

Due to multiple trolling and trolls I will be taking a break using this journal

#

This journal was turned into a cesspool a few hours ago

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So thank you everyone for your support and assistance

old raptor
#

Well

#

I have nowhere else to go to vent so

#

Here we go

old raptor
#

Absolutely tired of people being busy

#

Like give me Time to hangout

#

Like I’m tryna hangout

#

This shit is probably be invaded by the trolls again

#

Next time a troll comes in here. I’m taking this journal down

old raptor
#

Deleting this jornual

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Will be starting a new one

old raptor
#

Hello?

jaunty junco
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Hi

stable sparrowBOT
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Read more here: #announcements message

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@old raptor