Im thinking of suicide tonight

[steady nebula]

noise

[solemn carbon]

Do you have noise cancelling headphones or any headphones

[steady nebula]

i wish

i hate being sensory

[solemn carbon]

Uhhhh are you able to go somewhere or hide in your sheets?

[steady nebula]

whenever i get overwhelmed I mostly make a little area with balkets pillows and my little swing thing but all lf my blankets are being washed and I don’t have anymore

[solemn carbon]

Can you try to tell them to stop being as loud as they are?

[steady nebula]

they have stopped but there is still yelling inside and outside and their is just a lot of random noises

[solemn carbon]

Who's yelling inside your house

[steady nebula]

my dad and mom slight fight

[solemn carbon]

Oh that's not very good maybe you could try to listen to music to drown it out?

Or try to ignore them but that's hard

[steady nebula]

im just do random stuff to desensitize myself

[solemn carbon]

Good idea no cutting tho

[steady nebula]

finneeeee

[solemn carbon]

Promise me

Live longer than you thought you ever would

[steady nebula]

HOLY SH!T

[solemn carbon]

What

If it's my fault then I'm sorry

If not I'm still sorry

[steady nebula]

no there was a fvcking car accident right behind my house

but I honestly feel like killing myself tonight

[solemn carbon]

No please dont

I hate to say it like this but simply killing yourself solves nothing

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem

[steady nebula]

how is this a temporary promblem i have been dealing with it for 5 ish year knoe

[solemn carbon]

It's a long problem but hopefully it will end soon without killing yourself

It's not always going to seem temporary

It very well might take a long time but it's worth it

[solemn carbon]

Also it's not always temporary but i hope i your case it is so you don't have to deal with this anymore

I just don't want you to go through this alone

[steady nebula]

fair

[solemn carbon]

But I'm also not always available so i am trusting you for tonight to not kill yourself and Tommorow if you need help just ping

At listener

Also i know that you might very well not listen to me but i will be upset if you don't reply tomorrow because you are dead but i won't blame you but I'll be sad and honestly probably end up kms as well because i failed to help you

[steady nebula]

i should live unless something bad happens overnight

[solemn carbon]

Ok please live for yourself and for us

[steady nebula]

ok

[somber cargo]

Hii! If I may ask a question, what is the reason for opening this post? What do you seek that we may help you with? Is it emotional support, rational arguments on why killing yourself isn't the best thing to do, or a mix of both so we may effectively assist?

If you are seriously considering killing yourself, then I advice you contact a professional. There are many hotlines which are TOLL-free.

If you are planning on doing so within the next 24 hours, then call your local emergency services.

[steady nebula]

emotional support tbh

[somber cargo]

So just comfort you a little?

Do you think attempting to kill yourself would be a cry for help or do you believe it would be a genuine solution to fix your problems?

[steady nebula]

tbh I would say cry for help

[vapid zephyr]

If you kill yourself now, think of the many things you would be missing out. When we suffer, we learn a lot from those experiences. And you can use those experiences to make better choices.

[steady nebula]

no sleep fvckkkkk

[steady nebula]

well yall my life has become to much, tonight might be im last nigth alive, im so soryy

[south prawn]

HOLD ON

hold the hell on

hear me out, please

[steady nebula]

fine

[south prawn]

thank you.

lets talk, yeah?

dms or here?

cillian murphy

are you there

[steady nebula]

ye

[south prawn]

^^^

[steady nebula]

idc rlly

dms i guess

[steady nebula]

I attempted

[south prawn]

...

but you said you would

stay...

[steady nebula]

but

i got overwhelmed

[solemn carbon]

What made you overwhelmed?

[magic junco]

2100 comments :0

[steady nebula]

it was loud afff and my emotions

[solemn carbon]

Ahh I understand lad. I recommend getting a pet (cat or dog) as they are really good with therapy.

[steady nebula]

i have a dogo

[solemn carbon]

Most of those comments are me probably.

[solemn carbon]

Spend lots of time with him.

[steady nebula]

ok

[solemn carbon]

Cause he can help.

If you play with him a lot, and cuddle with him you’ll be pretty happy for awhile.

[steady nebula]

ok

[solemn carbon]

Have a good day/night man. If you need any help, or if you just want someone to talk to you can dm me anytime.

[steady nebula]

ok

[steady nebula]

Idk

[ember axle]

he's having a crisis 🙄

[steady nebula]

yep

[steel patio]

Sup

[steady nebula]

a attempted suicide

fvck

[solemn carbon]

Aubrey. Look. I'm gonna have to draw a line okay? I don't think there is much else** I **can do for you.

I'm gonna reiterate that you should reach out to professional help or call either 988 or 911.

This is taking a toll on me, and I have to set this boundary. This doesn't make me any less of a good person, it's just for my own well being.

[steady nebula]

welp yall i didn’t think i would ever be saying this but, i will be taking a break or leaving this server i feel like I have only caused others pain and more problems, im done putting up a fight to servive this life i will just give up and live a bland and depressing life i will never recover at this point i will still send messages so yall know im alive but anyways, thanks

even not in this server, i have caused others pain i have decided to just fight this alone

fvck my life its not woth causing others pain

but anyways thanks especially @solemn carbon

i feel like this is hurting yall more than it’s hurting me, im not worth saving, I guess i fight this alone im to much of a fvcking scaredy cat to call 988 or 911

[steady nebula]

i will probably commit later in the week im sorry

but anyways thanks yall

even if i live

[solemn carbon]

Look it’s okay to be scared. But please don’t commit

You can win this battle.

But I can’t advocate for you anymore.

[steady nebula]

no no I can’t

[vague lodge]

You cant go through all this suffering just to die, u need to keep going, Aubrey.

[steady nebula]

I can’t

[vague lodge]

You can

[steady nebula]

fvck my life

[vague lodge]

You ok?

[steady nebula]

no

[vague lodge]

how come?

[solemn carbon]

Real.

[steady nebula]

what

[solemn carbon]

Nothing

[steady nebula]

ok…

[steady nebula]

i have knife i have gun

[solemn carbon]

I got a fuxed up life too ngl

I

[steady nebula]

oof

[solemn carbon]

I got fake friends in wchool and everything

They said they hate me with passion and stuff like that

I have to make up some ranodm guy to make them think im funny

When rly im not that person

And i dont wanna stop the friendship because they are the only people i talk to

I want to kill myslef too but the fear of death scares me

[steady nebula]

ok

[solemn carbon]

Ngl you might need to think abt not doing it

Its my recommendation

[steady nebula]

hard to

[steady nebula]

ah just fvck my life goodbye

forever

im sorry

[solemn carbon]

Please call. I know you are scared.

[steady nebula]

i am a fvcking weak scardy cat I can’t

[fallow stone]

You can do it you are not alone we are all here for you okay? I swear it looks scary I know but once you do the big step everything will be easier

trust yourself for once and please call help

[steady nebula]

fvck my nieces are moving not going to make anything better

[solemn carbon]

Live for us. Please know that we care for you.

[steady nebula]

i attempted im so sorry

[steel patio]

What happened

[steady nebula]

it alot

i just tried

to shoot myself

fvcking bullet missed

[loud oak]

zrses#8637 has been warned

Reason: Bad word usage

[random solstice]

No it did not

Shut up

[solemn carbon]

well i’m glad it did, just think about it, do u rly wanna just be done with everything you’ve worked so hard for? not to mention your parents who went through hell to give birth and raise u. there’s so much work put into u and your very strong. u should reach out to professionals next time u feel like this before it’s too late. just don’t make this be your last resort please. i really hope your doing well and it’s okay if you’re not🫶

[nova wedge]

I don't know how old are you are, but highschool sucks ass. Give yourself time to grow and get away from negative people.

It gets better as you get older. Trust me.

[fallow stone]

you had access to a real weapon??????? how on earth Aubrey ??? And how can you even miss it??? No of course I will always believe you and I’m not saying anything bad but what on earth ??? How did you even gained access of it

Even if you live in America you shouldn’t be able to access a real gun that easily

[steady nebula]

my dad gave me the gun

for other purposes

[fallow stone]

you know it’s illegal

[steady nebula]

.

i do

[fallow stone]

why would your father hand you a gun knowing it is illegal

[steady nebula]

multiple reasons

[fallow stone]

ok

it sounds really strange to me why would a kid have a gun

[steady nebula]

ok

[fallow stone]

you know your father could get arrested for handing a gun to a child

[indigo dock]

So

Ya alive ?

[steady nebula]

damn then like 8 dads k know should be arrested

[fallow stone]

exactly

[steady nebula]

my whole fvcking body is shaking wtf

[indigo dock]

Stop doing drugs

[steady nebula]

i did

its just random

[indigo dock]

So um the night ends in 1hr what’s happening

[steady nebula]

a lot

doing what

im abt to hang myslef it bad

no

no

[indigo dock]

@steady nebula do you read manwha?

[steady nebula]

idk what it is

[indigo dock]

Damn

Must suck

[steady nebula]

ok

[solemn carbon]

You good?

[steady nebula]

no

[solemn carbon]

How come, what's up?

[steady nebula]

I hung myself but quickly regreted it and got out of it

im just

weak

scared

[solemn carbon]

It's ok to be scared

I'm glad that you didn't go through with it tho

[solemn carbon]

Because the pain was too much for you. And I'm sure that many thoughts were going through your head when you tried. Please call for help.

[steady nebula]

im to weak to scared tk call

[solemn carbon]

Then text

Text a professional

Or a suicide prevention hotline

Instead of calling

[steady nebula]

still

same level of scared

[hollow lagoon]

When calling, what's the worst that can happen? Nothing.

[indigo dock]

It’s already been done

He’s gone

[hollow lagoon]

?

[solemn carbon]

She always comes back. And I've been here for most of this, but you can't help somebody that doesn't want to help themselves.

[indigo dock]

Yep let the the after life take them

[solemn carbon]

Not what I was implying, but I've done what I could.

Somebody else can come along and try to help, but they will hit their mental limit just like I did.

[fallow stone]

exactly

[steady nebula]

i

i not dead

yet

[fallow stone]

then get help

[steady nebula]

im a fvcking scaredy cat i wont

[fallow stone]

then let me ask you something, why do you always come get help here

but never listened once to us

and you come here every single day

but always leave not listening to us anyway

[steady nebula]

tuff question

[steady nebula]

i hate to admit it but i am

goodbye now

i dont want to start anything

[solemn carbon]

Look. Aubrey. Just please get help.

[steady nebula]

no i will just fight alone

thank you and everyone else thou

[solemn carbon]

Some problems you can't fight alone.

[steady nebula]

i know

farewell my friends

[steady nebula]

he’s?

[indigo dock]

You gonna do it or not

By it I mean commit suicide

As ur post states

[solemn carbon]

Wtf man

[indigo dock]

I’m just asking

Not to be rude

[solemn carbon]

Uhuh

If you don't want to support, you don't have to say anything

Progress isn't overnight

[indigo dock]

I am I just wanna know if he’s still doing jt

[indigo dock]

@steady nebula

[solemn carbon]

You're not even respecting her pronouns?

[indigo dock]

I didn’t know chill

Not that serious

[solemn carbon]

Whatever I'm busy rn. @steady nebula if you need some support you can always message me

[indigo dock]

Thank god that was annoying

[steady nebula]

possibly

[indigo dock]

When

[steady nebula]

soon

[indigo dock]

Specifically?

Today?

Tmmr?

This week?

[steady nebula]

this week

[indigo dock]

Seems a little long

[indigo dock]

What’s stopping you from doing it today ?

[steady nebula]

im to busy

[indigo dock]

doing what why do anything if ur gonna end it

Writing letters?

[steady nebula]

some

[indigo dock]

That’s gonna take you all week

To write down letters

[steady nebula]

im also just actually asking myself if i will do it

andmif i do how

[indigo dock]

Takes a week to do that?

[steady nebula]

no

[indigo dock]

Then what’s stopping you from doing it today

[steady nebula]

im not ready

idk tbh

[indigo dock]

Yeh… right

[indigo dock]

How you gonna know when u ready

[steady nebula]

idk

[magic junco]

How. If you’re intention is to shoot yourself it’s literally impossible to miss

That makes no sense to me

[fallow stone]

yeah…I wanted to say that

[steady nebula]

i moved before

idk tbh

how i lived

idk if the gun even fired

[fallow stone]

what

you would damn see if it fired

[indigo dock]

Lying out ur ass bro

Cmon can someone close this post already

No way people believe this at this point

[indigo dock]

That’s impressive call ur self Superman cuz ur faster than a speeding bullet

[fallow stone]

i hate to agree with this but its true how on earth can you miss shooting yourself and not knowing if it fired? A self murder by gun is impossible to miss.

[indigo dock]

Not to brag but I knew this was for attention from the start

[fallow stone]

I’m not saying its for attention but honestly since the day she said she had drugs I found it so strange and how the screenshots she has with her friends shows how caring are her friends and she says she has nobody

I myself at 13 lied so much about ending my days for attention maybe this is why I find it odd.

I’m not saying kids of her age cannot be depressed

I’m just saying some of the actions she does are way too far to be normal

[indigo dock]

It think we should be questing how she has drugs and a gun a 13

I’m more impressed then worried

[fallow stone]

yeah exactly even with bad parents school would call child services

and do drugs test

[indigo dock]

Also when she misfired no one heard?? No bullet holes?

[fallow stone]

and for days she comes here calling for help but never try to do a step to help herself

yeah exactly

how can you not be sure if it fire you would hear it

[indigo dock]

Would be funny if we were wrong and she died tho

[steady nebula]

i typed impulsevly when i did that the gun jammed

[indigo dock]

That would be crazy

[indigo dock]

Cmon

Let’s be realistic

Admit the lies

[fallow stone]

you know you can be in jail for doing drugs and having a damn gun

[indigo dock]

Also how’d you get the gun and drugs I wanna gun

[fallow stone]

drugs and having drugs aint quirky Aubrey it’s something actually serious

even your username isnt fun

we shouldn’t joke about drugs

[indigo dock]

Instead of taking them sell them

[fallow stone]

it destroys up actual people

[steady nebula]

i did

[fallow stone]

that would be worst dawg

dudeee 💀💀💀💀

at 13??? selling drugs?

[indigo dock]

What kind of drugs is it

[fallow stone]

advils

[indigo dock]

Mini Walter white

[indigo dock]

Never heard of those

[fallow stone]

i mean she said she is doing an overdose on advils when myself take 6 advils a day for headaches and is perfectly fine

and you cant much overdose on advils

its pain killers

[steady nebula]

weed

not much

[fallow stone]

💀 dawg where did u even find it

[loud oak]

AngeI#3333 has been warned

Reason: Bad word usage

[fallow stone]

dayum

[indigo dock]

@steady nebula can I get a cut Im poor out here

And I mean you don’t need it

Cuz yk 🤯

[fallow stone]

im tired of helping, and I want the truth Aubrey. Realizes we have lives behind the screens and Bullet literally messed up his sleep schedule to take care of you for days when you never listened once to him. it hurts me I feel so bad for him. You don’t realize we have lives too and such and you keep begging for helps when we try our best but you never listen, we cant heal you Aubrey you need to take our advice and stand up on your own.

[indigo dock]

Bullet pretty cool aswell that’s messed up

[fallow stone]

yeah..

he got anxiety attack some days ago I had to take care of him

[indigo dock]

@solemn carbon don’t help this guy anymore I think he’s faking and if he’s not oh well

[fallow stone]

i mean we tried our best ok

if it fails then it fails

[indigo dock]

@steady nebula see you in hell

[fallow stone]

we did what we could, case closed

i dont want anyone using their time when she won’t even listen or take the advices it only harms other.. it hurts me how people try all they can but keep failing

[steady nebula]

fvck you

[indigo dock]

Wow

True colors shown

[fallow stone]

no you actually triggered them

[steady nebula]

truth fine

[indigo dock]

My bad

Ur right

[steady nebula]

i never tried to shoot myself i tried to hang thou

[indigo dock]

How’d you fail that

Also stop changing ur story

It just makes it more fake

[fallow stone]

why on earth would you lie

exactly

[solemn carbon]

Close this thread, it's not helping

[fallow stone]

yeah I agree

case closed as I said

[steady nebula]

I DID ONCE WHAT THE FvCK DO YOU WaNT OUT OF ME

[solemn carbon]

Jesus christ. Calm the hell down people.

[indigo dock]

@daring mesa

[indigo dock]

Don’t waste ur time helping this hobo

He’s wasted all our times

[oblique flame]

Calm down in here.

[indigo dock]

Help people who need it

Not attention seekers

[oblique flame]

We'll try to take it from here.