my axolotls just layed hundredsn of eggs
#general-chat
vocal folio
Axolotl some fish thing
bold trellis
salamander
vocal folio
thorny flume
Cooooool
proven saffron
thorny flume
Sorry cass cant do no raid today, got course assignments
@bold trellis my friend has a pet ant eater
vocal folio
What
thorny flume
Ant eaters?
bold trellis
those are eggs
silent lake
Oh did I get ping spammed again
vocal folio
Did you
slow imp
uwu, another wienberg?
damm, one would think he would get wrecked already now that OEFT staff knows him...but i guess not
amber flame
ruby basin
What one
slow imp
just sell it to the rapist
ruby basin
Also depends on time
young lantern
is it just me, or does pre alpha have a more natural look?
guessing lighting causes it..
bold trellis
It actually wassnt that diffrent
young lantern
well. its allot darker compared to images
maybe im wrong. just feel inside doorms for example.. its freakn dark, so dark that i cant see players in ares you would think light got to..
gonna do a test... if i dont die (going online.. xD) screenshot and compare some of the ares..
damn it.. both servers have a bad time..
1
reshade
and the last
it is allot darker
vocal folio
Reshade oof
odd saddle
Vibrance gui ftw
steep sparrow
borderlands 2 just came all over eft
young lantern
glad i went in as scav... game do not like alt tabing after last updates
vocal folio
Oh god
young lantern
try to enter game, and it tgoes back to desktop no matter what
didnt happen before
in the good old days
pre alpha btw, see link didnt work
odd saddle
Why does prealpha look better tho
vocal folio
Uh
young lantern
that was my point earlier.. until someone didnt see diference
thats why i did the screenshot to check it out
young lantern
think i had it allmost sometime, but lost settings, and could not run it because fps drop xD
odd saddle
I'll start using reshads if u can copy prealpha settings
Or if you can do it with Vibrance GUI even better
young lantern
used colofullness, vibrance and tweaked fake hdr. had one more thing on, but those 3 things did most of the work
vocal folio
Or just slightly tweak GeForce control panel like a real man over using virgin reshade
odd saddle
@vocal folio potato
young lantern
havent tried nvidias solution yet.. and not everyone has nvidia. just 99%
odd saddle
Point is getting prealpha look
vocal folio
Oof amd im sorry for those who have those
odd saddle
Not slightly tweak
thorny flume
Probably reshading gonna be useless when they do a graphics overhaul
vocal folio
But the game already looks great
young lantern
hopefully, but im sceptical
thorny flume
Not on my monitot :P
odd saddle
Yes
thorny flume
Monitor
odd saddle
Game is beautiful... On my all low settings, hdr off, bloom off, 1600x900 resolution settings... Very beautiful
Bruh I'm happy I can even play lmao
young lantern
i use calibrated 4k tv. and game is bleak and not close to pre alpha.. so, i dont agree. tho, its personal taste.. i like pre alpha better than current
odd saddle
But opening discord while playing tarkov is a mix for disaster
vocal folio
Luka Nani the fuck do you play one a damn DS
odd saddle
LSD
young lantern
reshade dosent do anything. its people going overboard with some settings
odd saddle
I'm pretty sure I already told ya on what I play on but I'll say it again sure
vocal folio
Reshade is lsd overload makes realistic colors look borderlands
young lantern
not sure how my reshade is op when pre alpha looks way brighter and has more color.
odd saddle
750Ti, i5-4460, 8GB ram single channel
fiery coral
I meant that whatever options in reshade u choose it looks unnatural
young lantern
maybe, techicolor or what its called souts your description. and that is popular to turn on, i think..
fiery coral
Finally goddamit
My friend got 400 euros from his insurance
Airsoft shopping incoming lmao
odd saddle
400 euros oof
fiery coral
Me?p
thorny flume
Yah
fiery coral
Lol he is gonna buy the gun
thorny flume
Oh
fiery coral
It's his money
odd saddle
What gun he got in mind
thorny flume
Ur probably gonna make em buy an HK lol
thorny flume
Classy
fiery coral
Specna or g&g
thorny flume
I would buy with attachments
fiery coral
Haha
thorny flume
I have a grip on my airsoft HK + ACOG
odd saddle
Buy a real mosin for 200$ and ur set to thorax people to death
fiery coral
I have the super ultra classic m4 with stock attachments and a carry handle
young lantern
fiery coral
Gonna spend 50 euros and it's gonna look much better
young lantern
fiery coral
Crist
odd saddle
M4s are oversaturated in airsoft smh
thorny flume
"Images blocked by safe search"
fiery coral
Also are less moddable
young lantern
duckduckgo theat fucks with discord
odd saddle
Excuse me? @thorny flume
thorny flume
Airsoft hk 417 bae
vocal folio
Oof airsoft kiddies what are y’all 10
fiery coral
@vocal folio Ez tell that to my police chief
young lantern
i dont own a gun, eh, i own many in tarkow. does that count?
odd saddle
Gtfo shootemup, go comet some kinda crime
vocal folio
fiery coral
Whatever
young lantern
have knifes tho, and a handy leatherman i use allot... lol
fiery coral
I need an mk12 gas block somekind of a stock and a coli
echo lance
I'm sorry about yesterday.. I know I over-reacted and was oversensitive, I'm not mentally stable at all and I just fear way too much and overthink so much.
odd saddle
I have a swiss army knife, does that count?
odd saddle
Well rip
young lantern
xD
young lantern
use my dick for that
odd saddle
3 inch also ye?
echo lance
Why'd I get ignored? Sorry if I bothered any of you just then.
fiery coral
@echo lance Who are you talking too
echo lance
Oh right.
odd saddle
Yea what r u on about?
echo lance
Well a few people from about 10 hours ago on this channel.
quaint stag
Tbh people probably forgot about it after it happened. Not a lot of people hold grudges.
young lantern
then its forgotten and forgiven. lol
echo lance
I stupidly over-reacted badly.
quaint stag
It’s no big deal, as long as it doesn’t persist.
thorny flume
Isaac, how do u even play tarkov with such femininity?
echo lance
I don't know.. They seemed like they hated me after it was done.
fiery coral
I honestly thought weinder cameback
echo lance
What? Its psychological feminity rather and its a game.
odd saddle
I don't hold grudges but I don't forget easily tho
echo lance
I also like guns.
odd saddle
Yup
vocal folio
Guns are great
thorny flume
@odd saddle would u hold a grudge if I betrayed you and I got the drum befotr u when it comes out
fiery coral
G00ns scary ban g00ns
odd saddle
Well at least @young lantern u should be happy the topic deviated from the absolute burn u got xd
@thorny flume No comrade, first come first served :P
thorny flume
LOL
echo lance
Why would I think that? I love guns in real life also.
young lantern
i got a burn? is it a burn if one dont care? xD
young lantern
then i need to check, if it wasnt about 3 inches
fiery coral
No need to say sorry
odd saddle
@echo lance Mate you're acting to much like a Canadian. It's the internyet dude, you don't have to apologise as much. Nobody really takes anything seriously
quaint stag
Forgive me for saying so Isaac, but I think you’re the confused one. Most of what they say is banter and screwing around, but you’re taking all of what they say seriously.
fiery coral
U did no harm to us lol
quaint stag
^^
echo lance
Oh good.
odd saddle
echo lance
But yeah, I do apologise a lot.
quaint stag
Again, very few people hold grudges and are genuinely offended.
odd saddle
And there he goes again LUL
echo lance
What?
fiery coral
Offended in the internet btw
echo lance
Did I fuck something up?
odd saddle
@quaint stag I won't promise
quaint stag
Just don’t worry about it, Issac.
echo lance
Yep.
quaint stag
And I’d rather not take my pants off in the parking lot of my therapy office.
odd saddle
Not to dip
echo lance
I tried therapy, they couldn't fix my overthinking.
vocal folio
Aka the open thing of ketchup
young lantern
discord has way to many vote thingies.. maybe im getting senile.. dont understand o and u oawirtgnåaertonipyhåiQEN
quaint stag
Also nice repost
vocal folio
odd saddle
Shootemup is running out of original content xd
young lantern
duckduck has issues
quaint stag
Okay I’m off
vocal folio
odd saddle
Why yall in cars
odd saddle
Why tf u repost then
vocal folio
Repost?
bold trellis
Shoot out here drivin a 99
vocal folio
Bitch isn’t a repost if I never posted it
young lantern
who takes a pic of the groin while driving
odd saddle
Just post*
vocal folio
It’s a 04 tard
echo lance
But yeah, all good @odd saddle. Its a shit habit I have, I'm not sure how to stop it but I'll try to.
odd saddle
I blame auto correct
vocal folio
French does gonxo
young lantern
😄
echo lance
However @quaint stag I know I'm also confused with myself, I just meant with not conveying something properly.
odd saddle
@echo lance Nah it's all okay man. Don't stress it. Especially not anything on the Internet
echo lance
Yep.
thorny flume
Isaac
vocal folio
echo lance
What is it?
thorny flume
Go smoke some strike cigars
young lantern
cant even follow wtf is going on now
thorny flume
Also try the apollo one
vocal folio
There’s only like 20 people that talk here and we all shit on each other
odd saddle
^^
echo lance
But yeah, I do overthink so much.
vocal folio
echo lance
Yeah I know, I just felt stupid about yesterday.
young lantern
only thing i know, there is a french dide that that pic of the groin while driving xD
echo lance
I don't think that Shooter lol
I'm not an SJW, I'm just very oversensitivity to criticism.
vocal folio
Also French
odd saddle
Why does French like his legs soo much
odd saddle
Why are soo white also wtf 
vocal folio
Asian
thorny flume
Most importantly
quaint stag
@young lantern I was already parked and in the parking lot
thorny flume
why are his legs hairless
quaint stag
Also I don’t love my thighs. You guys keeping asking for thigh pics
vocal folio
Asian
odd saddle
Grill
quaint stag
I don’t shave btw.
odd saddle
Asian grill
quaint stag
No I’m not a trap
vocal folio
Frenk is grill
quaint stag
Reeee
odd saddle
Xd
quaint stag
No.
vocal folio
Lol
thorny flume
quaint stag
Please don’t post that anywhere, Luka.
young lantern
yea, i assume its allot more free than forum, for example
odd saddle
U can restore within 30 days
quaint stag
General chat
thorny flume
Hows my poster my dudes
echo lance
Pictures?
quaint stag
Should be able to.
odd saddle
@quaint stag I won't :P
echo lance
Oh.
quaint stag
Might be client side
young lantern
uload?
echo lance
Restarting Discord might work.
quaint stag
Discord has done that with me a couple of times.
vocal folio
I’m still on my phone
young lantern
upload*
vocal folio
Mmm
odd saddle
@thorny flume it's actually pretty good
vocal folio
I blame French
quaint stag
Does it upload as normal then stop
vocal folio
Yeah
quaint stag
I usually hard reset when that happens.
vocal folio
Bar goes full then nope
young lantern
format maybe?
odd saddle
vocal folio
Ree
young lantern
cya, i guess if u play tarkov
echo lance
What? I do.
young lantern
time will tell
echo lance
What do you mean?
I don't always over-react if that's what you mean.
I only do it if I'm stressed or tired in real life.
odd saddle
How'd we get to the conclusion that he possibly meant that?
young lantern
who are you replying to?
odd saddle
U @young lantern
vocal folio
echo lance
Because of potentially talking about my oversensitivity.
odd saddle
Isaac
echo lance
Its all I could think of, sorry.
vocal folio
young lantern
where you from isaac?
thorny flume
Lotsa LGBT in australia
odd saddle
Isaac, 90% of the Internet are shit posters, shootemup is one of them
young lantern
tough it was a nice place
echo lance
I'm straight Nameless.
vocal folio
What I don’t
odd saddle
Metrosexual tf dat now?
young lantern
remember, on the internet you can be who ever you want. im terminator. do not care what people think, be happy with your self, or try to find the way to be it
echo lance
But yeah @young lantern, I don't like this place because; its a nanny state, I'm nothing like our society nor politics, and some other things.
But I shouldn't overreact badly though.
thorny flume
Straight but feminine psychologically is metrosexual
echo lance
Well I'm psychologically like that, but I don't know if I am one.
odd saddle
Ah
echo lance
I don't want to assume something like that yet.
I should also mention that I'm heat-intolerant due to anxiety which is another reason I hate this place.
young lantern
we could switch places
echo lance
I wish.
young lantern
i live in the cold north
odd saddle
Heat-intolerant? That's a thing?
vocal folio
Nani the fuck
echo lance
Of America or?
young lantern
all those word mup is meaningless
echo lance
Why you trying to make me look like an SJW Shooter?
vocal folio
Uh no
odd saddle
Isaac, shoots post has nothing to do related to u dude
young lantern
used up words that some yell every time the feel like it xD
odd saddle
It was off topic
vocal folio
young lantern
lol
echo lance
But yes Luke, it is a thing.
young lantern
fucked up thing, it has some truth to it
vocal folio
echo lance
I can't even be in the sun for a minute without feeling bad if its 25C or above.
Jesus lol
odd saddle
Nani the fuck @vocal folio
young lantern
can you say where in australia?
young lantern
considered moving there once, ages ago.. but, yea. whent to hell
echo lance
Well I'm about 150km north of Sydney on the coast.
odd saddle
iFunny? Oh god just gtfo shoot lmao
young lantern
ok
vocal folio
echo lance
Yeah it did.
odd saddle
This one is good lmao
echo lance
Yeah lol
odd saddle
Good mem 10/10
vocal folio
PETA is shit
odd saddle
PETA is literally worst than EA
echo lance
Yep.
odd saddle
Xd
echo lance
But yeah, now I'll actually go. I get distracted easily.
vocal folio
odd saddle
Ok soo sensitive shit incoming, today in history class we were learning bout WW2 (even tho I knoe a dat shizz), and the teacher said as trivia that to stop partisans and rebel forces the Germans in yugoslavia shot 100 people per 1 of their dead soldiers, half of my class burst laughing, I'm yet to realise why lmao
echo lance
Its fine, cyas also.
young lantern
vocal folio
Because people are stupid these days luka
young lantern
finally peace
odd saddle
Putin > Chuck Noris
vocal folio
Bsg when
vocal folio
wacks you with a stick
odd saddle
Ouch
steep sparrow
owie zowie
young lantern
https://proxy.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2Ftse1.mm.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3DOIP.AGDsaoJjjhZjy39HNAKxJwHaGc%26pid%3D15.1&f=1 glad i got this pic in the mail then
vocal folio
arctic comet
Yes
timber sparrow
so 2 wipes? 11.7 and .12
arctic comet
In EFT announcement
chrome shuttle
@vocal folio
https://tenor.com/view/futurama-yes-gif-takemymoney-shut-up-and-take-my-money-gif-8581127
young cliff
echo lance
Why do I have so much bad luck with a lot of things including this game?
I already gone through enough of this shit, its fucked.
I even got killed twice in a row as a scav today when I wasn't doing anything differently at all when I was successful being a scav..
I don't understand.
Sorry, its impossible to have fun with this going on.
zealous blaze
Heeeeeeeees Baaaaaaaaaaack LOL
echo lance
Okay, if you want to be mean fine.
I was just simply asking for help.
But apparently its not okay with you.
Of course you ignore me, I shouldn't have asked on here. Great.
simple prism
sad moment
echo lance
What?
I'm legitimately wondering wtf is going on with my luck..
What's wrong with that? :/
I'm not being overly sensitive towards any of you or some crap.
simple prism
@echo lance what does luck mean
silk trail
Not every raid is the same, so doing things the same won't yield the same result.
echo lance
Chance of good outcomes.
echo lance
Because so much shit makes my life worse.
I can't.. Its that bad.
I can't even find any real life fucking firneds.
*friends.
There's not much to be happy about..
echo lance
No.
I been here my whole life.
And I want to get the fuck out of here but I can't because of my piece of shit government making me need to have a friend to "verify" a fucking passport..
So I'm fucked.
silk trail
I wouldn't recommend playing a frustration inducing game like Tarkov for you right now then
echo lance
I don't know where else to ask, sorry but I don't..
simple prism
I'm sure there are ppl willing to help
echo lance
I tried seeing a psychologist, all sorts of shit.
But where?
And they couldn't help me.
Because of how bad my practical will to get through pain is..
No one can fix that :/
chrome iris
My dude, I'm all for supporting anywho needs it, but you seem like you've sank a lot of emotion stress into a game, it's not healthy and will end up hurting you,I know this first hand . I sank 5000 hours into arma , and about 12K USD in booze over 2 years to try and drowned my problems.
You're gonna have to find someone who has to tool to help you, or find someone who might know who can help. Otherwise you're just gonna dig a deeper hole man. And No one wants that. We all want you to do better , because we know you can, and we know you deserve it.
Be safe my dude.
simple prism
ye
echo lance
Admittedly.. I tried to play it to try something new, but no.. It also doesn't go right.
Nothing seems to go right almost..
All I can do right is play guitar and talk about interesting shit, I'm not proficient at all and all sorts of things..
Its fucked.
And so much feels boring or shit already..
So what the fuck can I do? :/
simple prism
we can help about the game but you have to start working on your irl problems
echo lance
I've tried.. It'll take 20 fucking years..
simple prism
no it won't
echo lance
I feel like a child rather.
Well that's how the pace is, I can't even be in the sun for a goddamn minute if the temperature is over 25C..
simple prism
if you don't do anything that's when it takes 20 years
echo lance
I can't tolerate shit..
chrome iris
More reason to start then 20 years from today is 20 years, 20 years from next week is 20 years and a week away.
chrome iris
Meaning, if you don't start you'll never finish.
Reguardless of how long the project takes , it's worth while to finish.
smoky grotto
5000 hours into arma? and i felt guilty for 1200 when half of that time was me leaving on my computer 
echo lance
I admittidly have that many hours on it as well..
chrome iris
@smoky grotto Wanna see it?
smoky grotto
nah i believe it
chrome iris
smoky grotto
echo lance
But now it feels rather boring since I can't find any good servers at all so I don't know if I should another new thing or just give up everything..
I don't have much in my life that I like..
I can't really have fun..
Without something going wrong..
chrome iris
I mean a lot of that is the mindset you go into things with my man, As stupid full of shit as that sounds.
Most of the time things require you to have atleast some postive outlook to be any sort of effective
If you' really think you're doomed from the start then you're done for.
echo lance
I get it, I do nothing..
vocal folio
I’ve got 2600 hours in rome2
echo lance
Are you absolutely fucking sure also Tower? Because, I'm clumsy as well which I CANNOT control, I'm very inneficient, and I get SO MANY weird problems which I cannot think of any logical cause for at all..
*clumsy as hell
And I'm so unlucky with a lot of shit..
chrome iris
Yeah, I'm not gonna say everything will go your way, or even 90% of things will go your way. But 10% is better than nothing
echo lance
I can't even fucking masturbate at times without my uretha stinging so badly..
That's how weird my problems get..
Its personal, but its something I can think of..
smoky grotto
the game i actually played the most in my life during my childhood (when i had time to spent that much time) was the entire men of war series, i spent 550 hours in all games together, good times
chrome iris
nah I get it, and again, We don't have the tools to help you with a lot of those issues. All we can do is support you when you try. But you gotta try.
echo lance
I give up way too easily also Tower, how can I presevere if nearly everything goes badly?
But how do I get a practical will to fix myself if so much hasn't gone right??
I just don't know how the fuck I can..
chrome iris
You see giving up, I see a drive to succede that's been tempted with bad expectations
echo lance
What should I expect then? :/
Because so many people's lives are so much fucking smoother in their perspective..
Mine has so many fucking hurdles and obstacles..
Its horrible..
chrome iris
Expect to improve, but don't expect to succede right away.
smoky grotto
feeling sorry for yourself never did help anyone, trust me
chrome iris
All that means is you get to grow more than other people, You've got the chance to prove you have tha capability to move passed anything
echo lance
What? Its the fucking truth.. And I had to tell him my practical will is horrible.
My problems are that bad.
I never lied about any problem I had.
I mentioned them as they are.
chrome iris
One hurder will be the toughest. Each one after that "is just one more step"
chrome iris
I get that, and I'm sayin if you focus on one, you can over come them.
echo lance
Its too stressful to deal with since I can never even feel relaxed..
chrome iris
Divid and conqur my dude.
echo lance
I seriously have to be so cautious just to do something right..
I have to THINK about nearly every action I fucking do.
I can't do stuff in auto-pilot, otherwise it usually goes wrong.
I even moved my arm to get over things and spill drinks in the process..
chrome iris
You can train around that.
echo lance
How?
chrome iris
By doing exactly as you're doing. Deliberately thinking about actions.
echo lance
*get things
But it gets so stressful, the level I do that..
I even have to think about how to walk without tripping over my own feet almost..
Its so bad.
chrome iris
You're gonna have to work through that. Stress is just the mind's version of a muscle being sore.
echo lance
I have my whole fucking life.
Same old same old thinking about what I do..
No progression..
And I'm still doing it..
echo lance
EXACTLY, I'm hugely a lost cause 😦
I'm so upset right now... Knowing the truth..
I knew it..
I'm totally fucked.
chrome iris
I disagree, but my thoughts ont he subject don't matter
chrome iris
Yeah, but I can't seem to convay it to you.
echo lance
But what is it?
chrome iris
That my fault
chrome iris
Because I can't find the words to help you.
chrome iris
You are not hurting me, I'm hurting with you.
chrome iris
It's okay though
echo lance
I'm not suicidal, but it seems like a way to finally live..
I heard its much better in that spiritual realm than here.
Life here is too harsh.
chrome iris
I mean I tried to blow my brains out twice.
And we don't know that.
for all we know, this could only be level 1
echo lance
I also tried to kill myself before..
chrome iris
I'm sorry to hear that, I'm glad you're still with us.
echo lance
It okay.. Although not okay that I still don't know wtf to do about this..
chrome iris
Do you want to fix it?
echo lance
Especially with applying the solutions since they're too difficult and painful..
Yes but its painful.
echo lance
Its not, I don't want to get through it much more..
It doesn't feel that way..
I gone through enough of it..
chrome iris
It is okay. It's not pleasnt, but it's okay.
echo lance
How can it be okay?
chrome iris
because it is. It's okay to feel pain, it's okay to feel distrought, and it's okay to not have the answers.
It's not pleasent. It's not suposed to be.
but it is okay.
echo lance
Will that help me?
chrome iris
It might.
You can will it to help you. You can will it to be okay.
it's not easy, it's not pleasnt. but you can do it.
You will things everyday as it is right? You will your self to move the mouse, the type correct.
to not knock things over.
This is something you can do. You can will things to happen.
You will slip. and stumble, and be hurt.
But that's okay.
echo lance
But its somehow my fault or not in control of me at all..
Its like the universe wants my life and certain people's lives to be horribel..
*horrible..
I don't know the tools to fix this shit..
My oversensitivity..
Things I can't control.
chrome iris
Neither do I, so we learn to say "it's okay."
echo lance
But how do you improve yourself if many things go against you?
chrome iris
It's okay to be oversensitive, it's okay to not be able to fix things
echo lance
Or if you accidentally somehow sabotage them?
chrome iris
You focus on oen thing at a time, and if you sabotage them, you work on it again.
chrome iris
Yep
echo lance
It never stops.
chrome iris
and that's okay.
chrome iris
It is.
echo lance
How?
chrome iris
because it is.
echo lance
How if it never gets better in the long term?
chrome iris
You don't know it won't
echo lance
I want to be able just like the majority..
chrome iris
Do you know what the majority is like?
echo lance
Sorry, I'm crying so much.
chrome iris
It's okay, I am too.
echo lance
Sorry :/
chrome iris
No don't be. I'm supposed to cry.
echo lance
But I made you that way..
chrome iris
No, I made myself this way.
Again, Crying is okay, being upset is okay.
I'm okay. And you're not. But I wanna help.
echo lance
But I do, they want other to only be like them, they they can somehow cope much better than I can, they can find love so fucking easily, they have at least one friend usually, I never really see people without someone next to them if they're like the majority, they can be independent which is unfortunately a big mystery to me, they can have the ability to be positive, to shake off trauma, to and they usually don't have my issues which there's not much help for..
^talking about the majority.
I know, but I still feel bad..
echo lance
The only being I got in real life who gets me is a neighbour's cat who loves me.
Its okay./
*Its okay.
And I can't see him everyday..
I used to have a pet..
chrome iris
Your idea of the majority is pretty harsh.
echo lance
But he died a couple of months ago..
chrome iris
I'm sorry...
chrome iris
I didn't say wrong, I said harsh.
echo lance
I'll be back, I need to toilet.
chrome iris
All good, I'll be here.
vocal folio
Tower it’s 330 why is your son up ,hmmm
chrome iris
@vocal folio because we're all 3rd shifts
@echo lance
nah harsh isn't bad. It's just harsh.
And that's fine if it's all you know, i see the majority diffrently, and we're both right
Have you considered changing what you compare your self to?
The scale of things as it were, seems awful stacked against you.
The scale being what you strive and compare yourself to
The universe, the majority
Which , while important, isn't a good starting place.
You have a goal, to be better. Start with being okay. small victories will compond into triumph.
If you are 100% lost and have no starting place you could try the old military idea
Make your bed.
Every morning when you wake up, make your bed.
"At least I made my bed" saved me from killing my self as dumb as that sounds
echo lance
I'm back..
chrome iris
I sat there with a .45 trying to think of anythign I did right, Fuck I forgot to take the safty off the first time.
and I kept counting failure after failure.
" But at least I made my bed." stuck for some reason
Shit wasn't pleasnt... or good... If anything it was bad
So that was my starting point.
"this is bad.
So I looked for "not bad"
the " meh.."
"not great"
and eventually I found "okay."
It's fucking dumb...
But better than nothing.
I have faith in you Isaac. I see struggle, and as long as that's there.You can be okay.
Start small. microscopic even... but start.
I'll be here .
simple prism
nothing can be worse than being dead
chrome iris
^
vocal folio
Eh¿
chrome iris
Me and the wife are night owls Shoot. as such teh little own grew up on a night owl life style.
We're up a bit later than normal , but this was important.
@echo lance Still there man?
simple prism
that's a negative, sir
chrome iris
-heavy sigh-
vocal folio
Nice man
chrome iris
And what does it matter which hours he sleeps so long as he is loved and cared for by his family, and gets enough rest to grow happy and healthy?
When time becomes a concern, it can be delt with.
vocal folio
chrome iris
❤
echo lance
Sorry.. Someone had to talk to me..
@chrome iris I don't know what else to compare to when those people are all around where I am :/ And isn't making my bed pointless though? I mean, only my parents care about my bedroom but not that much..
Never mind, I get what you mean by that now.. Although that chore wouldn't feel very meaningful to me unless how my bedroom looked somehow made the house better somehow. Yep, I struggle too much.. I honestly don't know if I can be okay, I overthink everything and I can't relate to anyone around here.
*around here in real life.
chrome iris
Nah you're good
-reading the rest now-
wouldn't feel very meaningful is better than "meaningless" yes?
That's gains.
small... but just like embers and tinder you can make it grow.
At hey.
At the very least. You made your bed. -shrug-
It's 4 Am where I am Isaac and I am going to have to call it a night.
Should you ever need someone to chat with Feel free to DM me, I am not always on, but I will do my best to talk to you.
vocal folio
echo lance
I'm back, sorry I had dinner.
But its okay, you can go if you want but thanks.
Sorry I was really upset earlier.
misty remnant
HOLY FUCK IM READING THE CONVERSATION THAT HAPPENED HERE EARLIER
tower had a full on therapy session with some dude omg
atleast tower had a reason to use so much energy on isaac but damn this is a long therapy session
zealous blaze
Move back to last night too with Mrhouse, sounds like phishing????
echo lance
Sorry Red.. I stupidly vented a lot again, I just thought I had horrible luck. I overthink a lot.
What Gruntt? I'm not phishing for anything, I get I vented way too much but you don't need to be like this to me either. Sorry if you hate me.. I felt oversensitive again due to trying to deal with a problem before.. It happens a lot when I deal with problems, sorry :/
I know I was wrong but you don't need to be this angry towards me right now.
woven jackal
We understand you are having some trouble right now @echo lance but you have to appreciate that this is a community Discord for a game, a lot of people come here to chill out and forget about their troubles. I have tried to help you through PM's and it has been discussed at length in several channels here, it's not really about people being mean to you, but more that this isn't really the place to discuss it at length. Several of us have given you advice over the last few days, but you have not acted upon that. I really feel you need to seek some professional help to work on your IRL issues, and there are people here that you can PM and discuss that with, but I'd appreciate it if you kept it to PM's please.
echo lance
I know Madiakz, I just got back to them.
But yes, it was stupid I done it a couple of times on here.. I don't know why I did it for a 2nd time :/
bold trellis
Isaac no one here is going to be able to help you
And the first step to help is helping yourself
I recommend you stop doing it here
thorny flume
@bold trellis What kinda FOV would you like on an acog in the game?
winter ferry
wtf
thorny flume
A lotta people hate it
bold trellis
We have a ir
bold trellis
the forgotten strat, backpack full of smoke and a ir
echo lance
I agree @bold trellis, I just somehow vented for a 2nd time :/ I'm not 100% sure why I did it.
young lantern
this game, this $%^%^&* game..... fuck... xD
m80 bullet and nade, no match for shotgun pellets 50 meters away.. think i died before i got hit.. hehe
zealous blaze
the game we all love to hate LOL
echo lance
Sorry, I meant big vents @bold trellis.
You all good Grunt? Sorry I bothered you before.
zealous blaze
See ya ,what a world we live in now time for some SCAV action
thorny flume
Use zarya on killa
Okay it stuns
But still doesnt stop aimbot
They shoot at you even while stunned
Tested offline
God damn I wish I can like make killa see me as friendly and inspect him upclose
modest ice
what other games do you guys play when not playing tarkov
any other good shooters out there
thorny flume
@modest ice i play mass effect and metal gear
modest ice
@thorny flume what did you use to download metal gear i was just checking that out
modest ice
o
thorny flume
Just havent been able to play mgs4
Because it requires ps3 and emulators dont support it
jagged cliff
Ladies and Gentleman i'd like to report that Nikita is now my new saviour.
bold trellis
Nikita started game development with half life mods
thorny flume
@proven saffron Lovely
cyan pulsar
We were wrong all along. Nikita isn't Kojima, he's Gaben.
rapid basalt
Anyway the smoke can be improved
takes so long to fill a room, i understand outside in door is super slow
young cliff
man nivida ansel is a pretty cool tool
chrome shuttle
dude i feel so bad XD i just messed up a fully geared guy with my SP-8
lapis escarp
I think we should make a petition to get BSG to put dip in EFT
chrome shuttle
yeah, no
bold trellis
Nty
lapis escarp
y'all trash
south citrus
proven saffron
big oof
chrome shuttle
you can keep your bad habit, you dont even look old enough to dip, we dont need it in game
elfin flume
Ugh just got killed by a guy named pwnstar1117 who was using rapamnt cheats
just clipped out at supersonic speads and insta shotted me :/
chrome shuttle
@elfin flume do you have Nvidia?
chrome shuttle
you need to enable it it will record the last 10 seconds of your death
elfin flume
Ill do that then thanks so much for the tip
chrome shuttle
keep those screen shots with the prtscr button
elfin flume
Was total bs
chrome shuttle
and those reccords so you can send a report in
elfin flume
Lucky it was an eco run
chrome shuttle
@elfin flume just keep those clips, and those screenshots if you are fast enough, and keep the name if you can and send it in to the @queen silo or use the launcher to send in a report with what you have
chrome shuttle
you're welcome just trying to help i enjoy the game and hate cheaters
split moat
Alright, I am majorly confused
I think my game got haunted by ghosts.
I was running labs, and I hear voice callouts and footsteps like they're right next to me. Telling me to loot and examine bodies.
Check above me, check below, noone.
And I go back to the spot, and there's still no-one there but someone's talking.
Thought it was lag, but all the other AI were perfectly fine.
chrome shuttle
labs is a close map its easy to ear sounds but you could also be desynced so people could actually be there but you cant see them
chrome shuttle
im not 100% sure but thats what it sounds like to me either there are scavs or PMCs near you and you cant find them or you are desynced
thats good there have been times where someone ahs been desynced or i have been and i get killed by someone who isnt even there
split moat
If it was a player, I guess they realized I couldn't see them considering i was wheeling around looking for this dude
chrome shuttle
who knows maybe they couldnt see you
quartz rune
Planned date for 11.7 ?
quartz rune
i was hoping 2 weeks
vocal folio
theres always est times until lord Nik tells us
quartz rune
ok
chrome shuttle
11.7 should be within the month but dont quote me on this
lusty dragon
april first kappa
raw plinth
anybody plays miscreated?
vocal folio
I did like once
raw plinth
I have it collecting online dust never really played it
glossy turtle
hey could anyone tell me how to create a temporary voice channel
vocal folio
go to bed
vocal folio
i liked germany when i was there
vocal folio
getting shit faced at 16 with a shit ton of random germans during the 014 wc
lit
af
vocal folio
drunk x10
thorny flume
Oh
vocal folio
ye
thorny flume
I didnt drink until I was 17
vernal hearth
how to delete the actual conversation in tarkov?
vocal folio
and the black forest is black
proven saffron
So they say...
vocal folio
well at night it is
thorny flume
XD
Its beautiful
Well judging from google images lol
You can make poetry with that owo
Here in Israel its a very...balanced weather
Idk how to say
lusty dragon
vocal folio
nice
lusty dragon
yeah
odd saddle
Rip
vocal folio
L
lusty dragon
So yeah, prob monitor over eft to start xd
glossy turtle
are people allowed to speak not english in here ?
weak yacht
Nein
odd saddle
Nein
lusty dragon
JAMAIS!
odd saddle
Great minds think alike @weak yacht
glossy turtle
i think i have a drunk italian in my channel lmao
bold trellis
Who wants overwatch
odd saddle
Me
quaint stag
You can find channels for other languages in #news-setup @glossy turtle
lusty dragon
you gotta go in multi langual thing section
quaint stag
Oh
bold trellis
just luka?
odd saddle
Just me? Okay
quaint stag
I want to hear this
glossy turtle
its scary