venting

[mild compass]

Timed out for a week

[mild compass]

banned

?ban @zinc frost

[ocean estuary]

Banned diaa#6328

[real junco]

nice

[mild compass]

bye bye

[barren acorn]

wow

[white umbra]

amen

that's the plan

[rough holly]

can’t wait honestly, especially with the right person who genuinely cares about you

[white umbra]

well that is a hard thing to find

[rough holly]

yea believe me i know smh 🙄

[river wadi]

fml

[livid meteor]

One of my class’s best teachers just announced that she’s leaving tommorow

Sometimes I wonder why we’re all so unlucky

[river wadi]

terrible fate

[real acorn]

znroles

[slate sky]

I feel so sad about my English results for Oct Nov 2021. I got a low B in literature and very high C for language. I did get A stars in the others. Overall, I feel happy but I am concerned about doing AS English Literature next year as it is compulsory and I hate reading books. I do not know how I am going to survive doing that. I did see some people getting Bs and Cs at IGCSE in 2020 when thresholds were low and them receiving ungraded for AS/A level for the same subject. I need to pass AS English Literature to get university entrance.

[slate sky]

Wait what?

I saw so many people get As and A*s in it and am here kind of disappointed with B in English literature

[wintry rampart]

man, i can't believe that i'm actually starting to fight my own demons

that is my past

where i never took any opportunity in fear of wasting my time playing on my ps3/xbox one.

other than being required to

and i'm damn proud of myself.

i was ruminating about my jealousy that haunted me last month.

and i reminded myself to "forget about it" and focus now

it felt like i was exorcising myself

while my jealousy and rumination will scar me for life, i'm sure that my degree shift was the right choice

[wintry rampart]

this is what i'm fighting...

[mild compass]

Depends on the examiner and whether they like what you write.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[stuck mango]

English marking is super subjective

[slate sky]

Yeah but B these days is even lower than 50% these days and I feel like I am not ready for AS literature (which I have to pass to get university entrance )

[mild compass]

Work hard

[river wadi]

lessgooo welpo

[hidden kernel]

I hate mocks

[mild compass]

They're important

[hidden kernel]

I know

Still don't like them lol

I have math tomorrow lol

[mild compass]

🥺 ❤️ dw bro, you got this

Don't give up

I gotchu

[hidden kernel]

Yea. How?

[mild compass]

U can cry into my shoulder

[hidden kernel]

Yea, I'll do my best xD

[mild compass]

E-shoulder

[hidden kernel]

Lmao

Math isn't hard honestly, it's just a nuisance lol

[mild compass]

True

[wintry rampart]

yup, my mom's one emotionally abusive, self-centered bitch

would demand me to charge my phone so early

so that she can sleep for herself

and would yell at me for refusing

[hidden kernel]

Dude what?

[gleaming sable]

u hate mocks?

wait until actual exams

@wintry rampart i like ur pfp

whats ur league name and region?

[river wadi]

bro i fucking hate when ppl interrupt

like

can you not

esp in online

and multiple times

[wintry rampart]

i'm from the garena region unfortunately

which means the southeast asian region

[river wadi]

i cannot use venting anymore 😢

[stuck mango]

Y

Friends came in?

[north karma]

It jus happens most of the time cant help it

Sometimes ur gonna interrupt too

[river wadi]

no see i'll explain

dialogues were planned

and we have parts to say

and my friend was saying my part

but now that i read what i read it sounded too intense lmao

sorry

but yeah i get what you mean

[north karma]

If its a group presentation understandable

But improv tends to happen

[river wadi]

yes true

[north karma]

If anything we had a teacher day at school and i was getting pissed whenever this one fuck kept interrupting me

[river wadi]

i prolly do the same without realizing so yeah

[north karma]

When i wanted to explain a concept

Which none of the other two twats caught

I had to bring it up

[river wadi]

sucks but like you said, they probably don't realize it and we may do it as well

i feel you

[north karma]

P much lmao

[river wadi]

lmao you know it

[stuck mango]

That's the only reason I could think of

[stuck mango]

This doesn't relate to venting

[gleaming sable]

Wasn’t Ken warned MULTIPLE times to stop posting memes in venting @mild compass

[stuck mango]

He was

[merry yarrow]

how is this Venting related

[stuck mango]

It isn't

[wintry rampart]

man, how i resent having a spoiled brother

who's too spoiled that he gets what he wants, no matter the cost

i find him to be a hindrance to my life, as he gave me more mental pain than support

by stupidly responding to a hacker

[wintry rampart]

i really want that little idiot gone from my life

[slate sky]

Yeah I can try to.

But have lost all the motivation to even read my book

[river wadi]

hey ik younger siblings suck sometimes but things will get better

i used to hate my brother a few years ago bc i thought he was getting everything and that my parents were being partial to him

but

now we're best friends even though he's 7 years younger than me

it's all about your mindset

just try understanding them better

but ofc if they really are being asshats on purpose then

don't bother

just ignore them and go on with your work

the more you notice and get angry, the more they act out

[stuck mango]

Yeah

[wintry rampart]

you are right.

but, i just find the fact that he gets too spoiled a lot

cause i consider him to be more self-centered

and egotistic

[river wadi]

how old is he if you don't mind me asking. you don't have to give an exact age. is he a teen or...?

[wintry rampart]

11 years old

[river wadi]

ah no wonder

[sinful wasp]

With all due respect for what you're going through, you're being much too harsh on a not-even-teen

He's a child, he still needs to mature and learn

To let an 11 year old's actions manipulate your emotions is on you, not on him

[river wadi]

he's a small kid (which doesn't excuse his behaviour) but just try to be more understanding that all kids that age behave similarly and you need to not get physical

if it's really bad for you just ignore him

[sinful wasp]

I remember reading that you punched his nose, and that's not something excusable

[river wadi]

yeah

i agree

[sinful wasp]

You don't hit kids, you be the bigger person and ignore them

[river wadi]

don't get physical with him ever

but

[sinful wasp]

As much as I'd like to comfort you I cannot on this point

[river wadi]

i also understand your feelings welpo

so

just try to be the bigger person

[north karma]

Im sorry to say but it is excusable to an extent

Esp when i rem reading smthn along the lines of him going to therapist for reasons

[sinful wasp]

Reasons behind someone's actions do not justify or excuse them

It does not make it "right" to hurt someone

[north karma]

Excuse is probably the wrong word

[sinful wasp]

It does not excuse, it is merely the reasoning behind the actions

[north karma]

Idrk how to describe it

More in the sense that the 11 year old still needs time to mature

And hes definitely not gonna mature through a bleeding nose

[sinful wasp]

Mhm

[north karma]

Words are hard okay

[sinful wasp]

Terribly

[north karma]

Why do u think i got a D in e1l huh

Ihy

https://tenor.com/view/anime-sad-gif-18181469

[sinful wasp]

It's just that you cannot expect an 11 y/o to be as mature as yourself

Ily2

[north karma]

Wow no embed

Ohhhh smart

[lament cloud]

Ye

[stuck mango]

Yes no embed and images

[north karma]

Indeed i got the message the first time

[wintry rampart]

yup. it was unintentional, but my instincts kicked in

[wintry rampart]

he's got around 3 therapists

one for his comprehension, one for his behavior and another for his occupational functioning

[north karma]

Yea im sorry for making it look as if im shifting blame to you

[wintry rampart]

me and him shared a behavioral therapist

[wintry rampart]

that was already the past.

[north karma]

But as a dumber younger brother

Its upto u to either help him out to some extent

Or jus atleast be the bigger person

[wintry rampart]

i've already got 2 therapists

to help ne

[wintry rampart]

iirc, he was around 8-9 at that time

[north karma]

Sounds great ur getting help

[wintry rampart]

my instinct kicked in

and i had to stop him from breaking things

[sinful wasp]

I'm not interested in your justification

[wintry rampart]

i'll give you the full recount, as it is scarred in my mind forever.

me, him and my cousin, who'd regularly come to my house on saturdays would have therapy. we were doing bonding activities in a way that tried to fix my relationships with both my brother and cousin, and the therapist scolded my brother for murmuring random stuff. he threw his phone and was on a rampage. as he was about to come to the drawer, holding a router and a telephone, i feared that he'd break the router and telephone, so i had to punch him

when my mother came home, she saw how bloody the floor was

and me crying

filled with remorse

this is not the only time he'd have meltdowns like that

under that therapist, i remembered him having around 2 meltdowns with her

going as far as attacking the therapist

[stuck mango]

That sounds like a VERY INTENSE punch

[wintry rampart]

then what are you interested in that story?

[sinful wasp]

I'm simply saying that you cannot blame a child for your anger issues and your jealousy towards him is immature, and you should work on moving on from it

[wintry rampart]

i know. i should probably not at all intervene when he goofs around, as i know that it is his life and not mine.

[sinful wasp]

Nothing good will come from comparing fortunes

[wintry rampart]

as it would bring more self-suffering.

and can hinder my life severely

[stuck mango]

Forget what happened in the past and focus on what can be done now
Recalling past stuff won't help
What has happened can't be changed

[wintry rampart]

yup. that's what my therapists have been telling me

cause if I obsess myself on the past, on "how I can redeem myself", things would go for the worst in the future.

[stuck mango]

That's completely wrong to do

You can create a fresh beginning

Leave all the past memories behind

[wintry rampart]

that's what i've been trying. i can start by reconciling with him

and my mother

and after that, who knows what's next for me?

maybe a bright future

[river wadi]

i didn't mean his childish behaviour, i meant him causing 'mental pain'

[river wadi]

yeah true

[river wadi]

oh shit, i hope your brother gets better and is happy 🙂

[north karma]

The english language isnt very easy atleast we re somewhat on the same page

[stuck mango]

Deep

[eager ore]

My family once were upper class and we had it all. I went to a fucking amazing school that costs what people pay for uni. It all came crumbling down and I was at the other end of the spectrum. I always looked at my friends and saw how lucky and happy they were. I dont think its right to say that this is Gods way and blaming them for being rich, theres a 90% chance that families worked their ass off to reach where they are and for that they deserve the money. It sucks not being financially equipped but its not the end of the world, life is harder so you gotta work harder to get those opportunities.

And it sucks to see the inequality, People living in poverty are trapped in a cycle. They lack opportunities because they aren't financially equipped to support these ventures.

[sinful wasp]

fun fact thiscycle is measured throuhh the great gatsby curve look it up

[north karma]

Thats a really cool movie

[merry yarrow]

do not click on it

[eager ore]

I 100% understand that. After what happened with me I lost faith in religion as well. It seemed like the bad guys got away with it and we suffer, how’s that fair. I never got closure from that act of my life until a few months ago and it felt good. Things will never go back to how they were but I rectified my mistakes during that and it’s partially no longer something I reflect upon and ponder about. I do sometimes dream or go into a deep daydream of how life could have been but it doesn’t have the same effect as before

[alpine hatch]

Hmm I'm not exactly sure what happened in your life, i had a somewhat similar situation and a ton of other shit as well, but all the best man, hope you get the opportunities that you deserve ^^

[eager ore]

Yea honestly I lost track of what I was going to say and just keep writing

[alpine hatch]

It's alright I do that too haha with my depressing philosophical nonsense 😂

[eager ore]

Thank you tho, I hope everything works out for you.

[alpine hatch]

Thanks, sometimes I really try but it's either shit luck or I just have a natural talent of screwing things up

[eager ore]

It could just be out of your control, maybe you weren’t in the position to influence what happens so don’t blame yourself for it

[alpine hatch]

Thanks man that's some great advice

[wintry rampart]

man... i feel that my mother's now trying to hinder me in becoming successful

cause she feels that my passions are "out of the book"

by that, too ridiculous to call a "job"

when i opened to her about my passion in photography, she'll say "Why would you be a photographer? Who would want to be a photographer? Everything's digital now", and would rather see me do the 9 hour office job daily and call it a "success" even if I go insane due to the lack of job variety.

[stuck mango]

Photography is a true passion and you can earn a lot of money from it

[wintry rampart]

how?

nfts?

[stuck mango]

Perhaps more than a 9 hour job

[stuck mango]

There are full time photographers who take projects from clients and do them

[wintry rampart]

i see...

and not only do i get paid financially, but I get to really see what I've made.

and call it a satisfying job

and outcome

[stuck mango]

Yes

People hire photographers to take photos in events and stuff and they get paid well

[wintry rampart]

while enjoying the experience.

[stuck mango]

Being a photographer will give you a lot of reputation

[wintry rampart]

yup

yet my mother finds this as a redundant job

[buoyant yew]

i dont thnik you mother is in wrong over here my mother also does not want me to become a pilot and i have had a few arguments with her (btw she still does not feel i should become a pilot) but once you start earning or show some sort of money flow to her she will 100% agree cause she is also thinking for your good.

[wintry rampart]

i guess that she isn't that convinced.

cause she hasn't really seen what the job's like.

[mild compass]

💀

[river wadi]

bruh i made the biggest mistake by typing my name in the search bar of my class's discord server and found out all the shit they said and made up about me and the best part is my so-called "friends" didn't defend me. There are literally over 400 messages saying shit abt me lmao. I should've done this before. I don't even care abt the ppl who said shit abt me but the fact that no one bothered defending me. WOW. People are so two-faced, I should've seen it before. If I say smthg back i'm offensive and rude and a bitch but everyone can say what they want abt me. Can't wait to never see them again. I will not hesitate to throw fists on my last day of school. I'm never going to make the mistake of trusting people again 😂

[summer flicker]

if you are smart about it and have the fortitude to do so

[stuck mango]

This is a classic problem

[summer flicker]

i would recommend doing photography on the side instead of as a main thing

[stuck mango]

Trusting ppl is THE hardest thing to do

[summer flicker]

build up your photography empire then ease into it

[river wadi]

never gonna trust again lmao

[eager ore]

Please message Fuck all of you and leave the server and cut ties with all of them

It don’t matter what they think, they’re scumbags

Please if you need to go harder, if fuck all of you isn’t enough, say something worse. People like them infuriate me a lot

[river wadi]

i had seen some of the msgs earlier but only by this one dude. I didn't see the other stuff by the others. This happened last year btw (which still doesn't make it any better) and I left the grp but those ppl were like omg join again, etc and I did. There isn't any problem now but I'm sure that's bc i'm active on discord now. All the shit they said was when i didn't use discord.

honestly yeah

fuck all of them

[river wadi]

i still need to be in it bc of all the schoolwork discussion that goes on. that's the worst part

i'm never going to talk to any of them again though

[eager ore]

Well that’s unfortunate, when you’re done with a levels then you should just go off on them

[river wadi]

definitely

thanks, i'm gonna do that

[wintry rampart]

yup. it really is up to me to pursue it the way i want it

but i'll keep it as a sideline

[mild compass]

How about invite us to the server and let us commit trash talk against every single mf that put you down

We gotchu

👆

[river wadi]

y'all are the best 😭😭

[north karma]

Sounds very malicious and bannable from a zn0t standpoint jsyk

[stuck mango]

Lol

[sinful wasp]

Yeah well I wouldn't mind. Joining this server and you know. Socialising

Not maliciously

Just socialising

As friends

Yeah

[north karma]

Socialize with deez nuts.

[sinful wasp]

You already know the answer love

Gladly

[north karma]

🥰

[real junco]

SMH NOT RELATED TO #venting

[sinful wasp]

Does that make you upset? Do you want to vent about how it makes you feel?

[stuck mango]

Lmao

[north karma]

Infinite venting loop

[stuck mango]

Yes

[wintry rampart]

in the future, you should pick the right friends.

[mild compass]

Malicious when we do it. Gods will when you do it. Bro if you dont stfu I'ma deepthro-

[wintry rampart]

raid?

[stuck mango]

Yes

[mild compass]

No

Just informal exchange of impolite words

[mild compass]

That's a bit condescending ngl

It's obvious in Rick's rant that she didn't know what kind of people they were and usually you don't know what kind of people your friends really are so the "maybe pick the right friends" is so dumb. 💀

[olive wadi]

Bro i gone thru the same million times despite knowing some of those ppl for 12+ years yet they never seem to stop , its best to just leave and forget about them or build a total immunity , i no longer ask my mutual friends who are loyal if they shit talk me or not , i stopped caring so should u

i could be dating someone , achieving good grades , winning something , and yet each time they find something to make fun of or shit talk about , i just think its pure jealousy and nothing else bec otherwise it doesnt make sense why would ppl whom i never done anything bad to would do that , and besides these ppl tend to talk behind each others back when shit hits the fan i saw it first hand

Fuck em bro u deserve far better.

[kindred ridge]

ik for sure a lot of people would talk shit about me behind my back and they're not showing it, I wish I could do something about it

probably something they would regret remembering for the rest of their lives and would remember everyday

can't rlly trust a lot of my classmates

[olive wadi]

Do not trust ppl whom you go to school , work , or in a team with

they will the ones most likely plotting behind your back or overall just shit talking you

bec they have reasons to compete with you

whereas a friend from another school/workplace rarely has a reason to go agaisnt u

less competition

[river wadi]

thank you :((

[wintry rampart]

i see...

[river wadi]

aw it's okay welps, you didn't know.

[river wadi]

yeah you're right

[river wadi]

that's what i've noticed

covid shut down my opportunities to make new friends though bc i don't use social media

[wintry rampart]

yup

this pandemic just further broke me down as a socially anxious infp

[olive wadi]

dont use social media primarily to make friends , go join a group of ppl ur age in a sports or some activity u love doing such as painting or music or something yk

i had a very nice friend group when i started tennis

[mild compass]

People generally suck

You just get along w ones who suck less

But still suck

Human nature

And friends always dump you at some point one way or another

Be it jealousy or opposing views etc

Same goes for "lovers"

Nothing lasts forever

Building a positive relationship with yourself is what matters bc in the end the only person that's got your back is you

Be friends w yourself and be selfish

Selflessness will only bring you down to rock bottom

And the entire idea is fucking stupid

[olive wadi]

that is true until a certain extent , i have friends who have lasted my whole life so far , but key is we dont see each other that often

i find it at the more and more u see each other the more likely it is to have conflicts

i see my lifelong bestie few times a year or less yet we always keep the same warmth and bond

[mild compass]

👆 😔

Has a bestie

Such a flex

[kindred ridge]

my good friends left my school and now I feel like literally the whole fucking school is a shithole

[wintry rampart]

and i'm about to leave the friends i have made in my current degree by the next two terms

or so

if i shift and get accepted

[mild compass]

Friends are temporary people who share similar interests w you and will eventually leave you.

[wintry rampart]

in my uni's business college

[mild compass]

You need some optimism and self esteem @wintry rampart

And to develop the skill of not giving a fuck

Life is just too cruel if you're not like that

[olive wadi]

need to be self reliant

[mild compass]

Exactly

[olive wadi]

i can go very long time all alone if necessary

[mild compass]

Some people can't ^

[olive wadi]

friends just make life more interesting and nicer

but i can survive without them too

its why i removed dozens of toxic friends recently without even thinking

[mild compass]

True

And they're useful at times

[olive wadi]

mutually beneficial friendships are insanely healthy

from my experience

in that u both are helpful to each other

in something

that the other lacks

[mild compass]

Toxic people are fun to keep too, adds flavor and helps you become a tank to bs

[mild compass]

👆

I'm curious as to what y'all look in a relationship tho

[olive wadi]

what my partner's ideologies are and their overall personality

someone who can show the same loyalty and respect i show

which is a lot

[mild compass]

Damn

[real junco]

and face

[olive wadi]

i have dated multiple ppl who cheated on me and betrayed me so

[mild compass]

Ramen the materialistic fuck

[olive wadi]

i have higher standards

[mild compass]

Bruh cheaters are so cringe

Like if you don't want to be in the rs, break the fk up

Why you wasting time

[olive wadi]

yeah i dont know why ppl dont do that either

[real junco]

well would you like someone who looks ugly to you

[olive wadi]

whatever happened to break ups

but np i took a very cold revenge 😄

[real junco]

their mom?

[mild compass]

My standards are
Alice Pagani looking
Age 18-25
Must hug me when I'm crying

[olive wadi]

i dont believe in revenges but damn did she have it coming

[olive wadi]

i dont wanna make more mistakes no

[mild compass]

Oh you're a guy @olive wadi

I was confused

[olive wadi]

what if im a lesbian

[mild compass]

Make it Pesbian

😏

[olive wadi]

nah nah im a guy thou

[mild compass]

Damn bro

[olive wadi]

tho i can see why u'd think that

[mild compass]

Nafany is feminine

[olive wadi]

i have been asked out by gay dudes before

[mild compass]

PFP is feminine

[olive wadi]

[mild compass]

Waoah

Same

Except once

[buoyant yew]

[mild compass]

In kindergarten til middle school

[olive wadi]

huh

[mild compass]

I thought it was friendship love or sm

But he was gay

😭

[olive wadi]

[stuck mango]

👀

[olive wadi]

i dont really enjoy it

its not fun rejecting ppl

also

sometimes voice chats get extremely weird

[mild compass]

Tbh i did like him a lot

[olive wadi]

random men saying

[mild compass]

What?

[olive wadi]

"u have a cute voice"

"can i kiss u"

[stuck mango]

Tf

[mild compass]

I uh

[olive wadi]

some are jokes

but some idk

[mild compass]

I say more inappropriate things

To my male friends

Tbh

[olive wadi]

among friends its okay

cus they know

[mild compass]

Fr

[olive wadi]

but these are random vcs

in matchmaking

[stuck mango]

Ofc you do

[mild compass]

OH

[olive wadi]

it happened other day in valo

random ppl

not friends

only 1 friend says such things but as pure joke

[mild compass]

How old are you brother @olive wadi

[olive wadi]

since im his "wife" in gta v

[olive wadi]

18 , 19 soon

[mild compass]

Woah

But you like women so understandable

I will not ask you out on a date

😔 👆

[olive wadi]

i just use females in my pfp and play female characters in some games

das all

[mild compass]

I do the same

🥶

[olive wadi]

tho i have no idea why i attract gay guys

[mild compass]

Maybe the vibe

[olive wadi]

not really aware of what they are into

[mild compass]

Maybe drop racial slurs more often and they'll stay down

[sinful wasp]

Gay guys are into guys

[mild compass]

Avoid being gay etc

[mild compass]

No they're into women but the wo is silent

[real junco]

really??

[sinful wasp]

Yea a gay guy told me (a real one)

[mild compass]

😱

[olive wadi]

i have basically vowed not to make any racial slurs

there was a time i used them a lot while under toxic influence

[north karma]

So basically i can shoot my shot for nafany

[mild compass]

Is it because you're white

[olive wadi]

looked back it at wasnt proud at all

[olive wadi]

doesnt have anything to do with that

i just used them before and wasnt proud of it

so im reformed

[mild compass]

Stoic moment

[north karma]

Part of growth

[mild compass]

Bro you called me the n-word hard r in DMS @north karma

Wtf

[north karma]

Yea

Sure

[olive wadi]

some friends do use the n word with me

but i just never use it back

they seem to not mind it

i thought its a mutual thing

[mild compass]

I use it all the time

[north karma]

What

[olive wadi]

clearly

[mild compass]

See

👆 🥶

[olive wadi]

its a bigger problem

[mild compass]

#chat-lounge

[olive wadi]

when ppl like me use it

[mild compass]

I don't want to get banned

[olive wadi]

bet

[stuck mango]

Good job

[mild compass]

👆 ❤️ 🥺

[olive wadi]

see NFS mod material

promote when

[wintry rampart]

what the actual...

[mild compass]

I'm so sad guys, i stubbed my toe. Ugh i hate my bed :(((((

😔

[rough holly]

oh no your poor toe

[stuck mango]

THATS HORRIBLE NEWS RIP MILK

[rough holly]

go get more ez, there's a milk store about 12 years away from u

[stuck mango]

This is getting off topic

[mild compass]

Only if he's a father

Otherwise it's a couple minutes

[rough holly]

i mean we don’t know if he’s the father, ken yallah

[mild compass]

Who's kid

[soft jungle]

its really difficult to quit something you're addicted to

i advise speaking to a counsellor or even a pharmacist if you can't access a doctor

[mild compass]

Y'all fr read shit fast asf

[soft jungle]

lmao

[mild compass]

I can't afford a counsellor

[soft jungle]

school counselor? if not i think pharmacist would help too

[mild compass]

And you guys visit doctors and pharmacists for help w smoking?

[summer flicker]

wait what

[rough holly]

have you tired one of them chewing gums that are supposed to help prevent the need to smoke

[mild compass]

Nope

[soft jungle]

and maybe have a sponsor so that every time you get the urge you can call them

[summer flicker]

when did a conversation about smoking happen

wtf

[soft jungle]

to safely stop or for advise on how to quit

[mild compass]

Only my uncle and aunt knows and both smoke

[soft jungle]

cause ik that going cold turkey for alcohol is dangerous

[summer flicker]

just

go

[soft jungle]

maybe a friend?

[summer flicker]

to

literally any doctor's appointment

[mild compass]

glad I don't drink very often to make it an addiction

[summer flicker]

im p sure most of them are trained to help you stop

[mild compass]

I could try but how would that belp

[mild compass]

Seriously?

[summer flicker]

you don't need to specifically go for a therapist or a psychiatrist

if you feel uncomfortable

[soft jungle]

everytime you feel the need to to smoke you can call them to help

[summer flicker]

any time you go to a doctor for literally anything

just go 'hey btw i have what i think is a bad habit of smoking too much can you help me figure out how to do that?'

[mild compass]

I didn't know they're trained for this

[summer flicker]

they'll (hopefully) just help you out

[mild compass]

"hopefully" 💀

[soft jungle]

yeah they are esp general practitioners (or family doc if youre from us)

[summer flicker]

if they can't and it's pretty deep they might just refer you to someone more specialised

[summer flicker]

yeah if the doctor is shit he or she would just go 'lol just stop nerd'

it depends

doctors are people too

[soft jungle]

lol

yeah

[eager ore]

You smoke?

[mild compass]

• ask a friend to hang out whenever i feel like smoking
• ask a doc for help

[mild compass]

Unfortunately

a habit i picked up from my uncle and aunt

[soft jungle]

you could even get like one of those apps where if you smoke an animated tree dies or smth

[eager ore]

I quit last year if you want to talk

[mild compass]

Pretty sure it's not very practical

[mild compass]

YO

[soft jungle]

idk i saw an app like that to focus on studying

[mild compass]

HELP@eager ore

How'd u do it

[mild compass]

Studying and smoking are different

[real junco]

both start with an s

[eager ore]

give me 5 mins, i need to do something real quick

[rough holly]

can i say || both kill you - stu(dying)||

[mild compass]

Fr

One does it physically

One does it mentally

👆 🥶

[stuck mango]

@mild compass go to a therapist

[real junco]

studying can also be physically if your teacher beats you up

[mild compass]

💀

[mild compass]

I ain't no Rich kid bruh

[rough holly]

how my dad went to school as a child

[stuck mango]

Idk then

Ask Yr parents for advice or something idk

[real junco]

I'm sure that was nothing compared to the sharks and dinosaurs he met on his way to school

[river wadi]

his parents dk

[river wadi]

or the 500 broken bridges he crossed to get across a lava river

[stuck mango]

Bruh

👀

[eager ore]

Jamal, how much are you smoking rn

Is it bad

[river wadi]

I think the best thing to do is to hang out with a friend who doesn't smoke or will help you control any urge when you feel like smoking. Or when you feel like smoking try doing some other activity that you enjoy and that will keep you occupied.

[mild compass]

5 ciggys a day my guy @eager ore

[real junco]

oh

[river wadi]

pls be safe bro, I don't wanna sound condescending but take care of yourself

[mild compass]

But my mind goes like
"Ayo, just pull one out, put it in your mouth and light it. Relax bruh "

[summer flicker]

also ask a doc

[mild compass]

I'm trying 😭

[summer flicker]

cuz i assume it's probably easier for you to talk to a doc than a therapist

[river wadi]

i think he wants to try a more personal way first

[summer flicker]

and even parents

[mild compass]

Yea

My mom doesn't know (she smokes too tho)

[summer flicker]

ooo

[river wadi]

i think someone already suggested doc/ therapist

[stuck mango]

Don't start taking other stuff to relieve this addiction

[river wadi]

yup

true

[mild compass]

Dw drugs get you the death sentence in Singapore

I'm not stupid (Enough)

[real junco]

damn

[river wadi]

i think he meant like e-cigs

or those chewing stuff

[stuck mango]

💀

[mild compass]

Vape is kinda cringe imo

[summer flicker]

🔥🔥🔥🔥

[stuck mango]

Ig you can tell her then

[mild compass]

No i can't

[river wadi]

have you tried reducing the number over time?

[real junco]

she smokes too bruh

[river wadi]

bruh no

[summer flicker]

^^^

[soft jungle]

bro asian mom will beat you up lol

[mild compass]

Not really the number fluctuates

The average is 5

Always over 5

[river wadi]

okay

[summer flicker]

a day?

[mild compass]

Sometimes 3 if i spend the day busy w people that i literally can't smoke around

[mild compass]

Yes

[river wadi]

do you think a better way would be to stop suddenly or reduce the number per day over time?

[mild compass]

Stop suddenly i think tbh

Reducing won't cut it for me

[real junco]

throw it away

[river wadi]

true, it's harder but reducing may not be effective

[mild compass]

Bruh @real junco

[river wadi]

then when he wants he'll just buy more

[mild compass]

I tried replacing it w chocolate

Got acne instead

[river wadi]

acne>>>> lung cancer?

[summer flicker]

i mean acne >>>> lung cancer

sooooo

not a bad deal imo

[mild compass]

I mean yea true

[summer flicker]

damn sem idea

[mild compass]

But like i can't munch 6 chocolate bars a day

[river wadi]

do you like exercising? maybe everytime you wanna smoke and just "be free" go for a run in some park, etc.

[mild compass]

I like swimming

[summer flicker]

y do you smoke?

or at least why did you start?

[river wadi]

maybe if you feel like smoking go for a swim (not 5 times a day though)

[mild compass]

I thought it was cool when i used to see my uncle do it and one day i started w sheesha then tried a cigarette and before I knew it, bam i cant stop

Been a year nearly

[stuck mango]

The withdrawal symptoms are not good too

Like they are super hard

[river wadi]

it's good that you're talking abt it bc in a way if you think abt smoking anytime soon you'll know that you really need to stop bc you reached out to other ppl as well. Also, if you ever need to smoke or sum and feel like it's getting out of hand for the day just message in the chat and we can hold you accountable?

[soft jungle]

you could talk to your aunt/uncle since they already know. they will respect you trying to quit and could help you with the process

[river wadi]

yeah that's right

[river wadi]

they might tell his parents

[soft jungle]

oh i thought they already knew

[summer flicker]

i mean im p sure it would work

[mild compass]

I can barely do it for 26 minutes before i start shivering

[summer flicker]

if they themselves quit?

[mild compass]

Accountability yes that will help

[mild compass]

My uncle is like "chill bruh it ain't a big deal xdxd"

He's pre immature

[summer flicker]

not always

you might start beating yourself over it idk

[river wadi]

yeah even that's enough but just remember that you went for a swim that day instead of smoking so make a more conscious effort to avoid smoking that day

[mild compass]

Beating yourself is good

Helps hammer the concept of not doing sm

[summer flicker]

'it's all my fault, I can't do this one fucking thing, why can't i do this one fucking thing'

but hey that's probably just my line of thought

[river wadi]

do you have any close cousins jamal?

[summer flicker]

damn, it makes me just give up lol

[river wadi]

you could ask them

[summer flicker]

of course it also comes with a massive fall in self esteem

[eager ore]

You know what that’s not bad, atleast you’re not chain smoking. I smoked cigs, vapes and occasional xan. My anxiety was really bad, mostly cause of uni and shit that happened. I first started with dealing with all the shit in my life, had a long ass talk with my parents about what they were doing, cleared shit out with friends and tried to move on. It took a while but I noticed how much better I felt and needed to smoke less but I still wanted to chase a buzz. I was talking to a friend who got me into smoking(good guy btw) and realised how far gone he was and that made me realise how fucked I was. So I threw my vapes and cigs out. First few days were hard and relapsed a couple times the first month. The more I relapsed, I learned how not to next time. And slowly I phased it out. It’s really hard quitting and I’ve been clean 3 months but I relapsed 2 days and I did a lot of shit just to get a cig which again when I took that first hit made me realise what the fuck am I doing? Threw it out and went home.

Idk if that helps but that’s my experience

[rough holly]

don't forget walking across the desert with no shoes

[rough holly]

that's amazing to hear ngl!

[eager ore]

What helped me during that period was music. It helps a lot

[river wadi]

https://indianhelpline.com/De-Addiction-Helpline/

[river wadi]

this has a tobacco quit helpline number for india

[mild compass]

This tbh gives me hope and some motivation, I've been doing it for the past year, and only started to try quitting 3 months ago and it's been insanely hard. I've relapsed so many times that like in December i completely gave up until New Year's in which nothing happened but i felt like i can't live my entire life being dependant on a lil cylinder for emotional support and temporary satisfaction.

[eager ore]

Once you get a streak of not doing it and see how you feel, you’ll be hesitant when you think about the next time you take a cig.

Make it harder to get a cig is the best thing to do cause if you need to go to lengths to get one, if you ever feel the urge you’ll give up trying to smoke

[olive wadi]

is this a vent

[mild compass]

There's a couple packs laying around the house

._.

[olive wadi]

i dont want yall to get in trouble

[eager ore]

Throw them out, if someone smokes in your house tell them not to

[mild compass]

Everyone does, my entire family

That's where I got hooked

They're gonna get mad like shit if i throw out all the ciggys

[river wadi]

your parents?

[mild compass]

My uncle and aunt. My mom too tho i don't live w her

[river wadi]

then why not talk to your mom?

[eager ore]

Oh fuck, seeing someone smoke is the worst when you’re trying to quit

[mild compass]

DEADASS

Bro

DEADASS

I've tried so hard and i see my uncle and he's like "want one?"

[river wadi]

yeah, i'm sorry you have to go through that

[olive wadi]

damn im sorry i dont have any helpful advice

[river wadi]

request your uncle and aunt to stop offering you any and let them know that you're trying to quit

[mild compass]

I do both 😭

[mild compass]

Okay

[river wadi]

even if they don't help you quit, they can atleast avoid tempting you

[olive wadi]

or avoid smoking near u

away from ur sight

[mild compass]

Or i could just walk out the house when they do.

They come home late anyway

[olive wadi]

its like how some ppl avoid eating food infront of ppl fasting in ramadan

[mild compass]

So it shouldn't be hard

[eager ore]

I can relate to that cause it’s one of the best things to do but listening to music reminded me of how I was when smoking and that made me not want to

[mild compass]

:((

I've also been getting migraines from it

[eager ore]

Oh sorry I didn’t mean I had to quit while others were smoking. My parents dont smoke but in the instances I’ve seen people smoke while I was clean was hard

[mild compass]

Idk if it's that or what

[eager ore]

Ik the nic solves all your problems but it creates more in the long term

[mild compass]

Solves my problems for a couple hours max

Before i drown in my instability all over again

[north karma]

I mean ive had times where i thought

[eager ore]

1 hit is all it takes

[north karma]

Damn is life really that diff not sober

But nowadays its like

Eh

[mild compass]

Yea

Feels better

[north karma]

Rather die another way

And im probably pissy non sober too

[eager ore]

I’m ngl my addiction wasn’t as bad as yours(idk how to say that without sounding like a dick) but if you switch over to vapes and then gradually quit it might be easier

[north karma]

It works for a rare amount of people

But for most its jus another nicotine hit

[mild compass]

Idk i don't like vapes, haven't tried it yet. I just switch around from sheesha to cigarettes

I really don't wanna spend another year smoking

Like gradually switching, doing that then trying to quit

It's gonna take longer

I sound hasty but i don't wanna fk up myself Any longer

[eager ore]

I missed your first few messages, what makes you want to smoke

[mild compass]

Nothing, it's just an urge. Anytime i get told off or just anything that pisses me off, I'll smoke

Work load? Smoke

Cant sleep?

Smoke

Nervous? Smoke

[eager ore]

Can’t stay awake? Smoke

It solves everything

But it’s not good

[mild compass]

It really does

And that's why I can't stop

It's integrated in different parts of my life where finding a substitute is just ridiculous

And then trying to not think abt it when every1 smokes and the air is filled w the scent

It's super irritating

[eager ore]

Ik the thought of smoking for a year more doesn’t sound like a good idea but you know it takes time to properly quit and during that time it’s gonna fuck with you and i don’t mean to scare you but i don’t want it to impact your a levels

[mild compass]

I have A levels in 8-9 months too and haven't done nun yet

[eager ore]

This is going to be your hardest challenge, I don’t know how to help you with this one but talking to them might be a start. If they smoke away from home it can help

[north karma]

You got time lmao

8-9 is a shit ton

[mild compass]

you sure?

[north karma]

Unless u mean as + a2

[real junco]

yes

[eager ore]

Bro you can do all the past papers there are in that time lol

[mild compass]

They come home at 8pm or sometimes 12am

@north karma just AS

A2 next year

[north karma]

Yeah

You can

[real junco]

EASY

[mild compass]

Syllabus + past papers ?

[north karma]

Yea

Abso fucking lutely

[mild compass]

Why tf is everyone telling me i can't do it then tf

[north karma]

8-9 is plenty for jus AS

[mild compass]

@eager ore and during the weekends i could just go out all day and they wouldn't gaf so I'd say theyre not as big of a prob as i am to myself

[eager ore]

Stop listening to everyone and what they say. You should know what’s good for you and what works with you. Also try and figure out if what they’re saying is actually good advice or not.

[mild compass]

It's not advice, just a shit opinion that's been making me doubt myself fr

"you need at least 1 YEAR for A levels omg"

[real junco]

start now so you won't be stressed later

I was about to die in the end

[mild compass]

When'd you start @real junco

[eager ore]

I ain’t Tryna brag but i did it in 3ish months(AS) and got an A. You’ll be fine

[real junco]

properly like last 1 or 2 months

[mild compass]

Syllabus from scratch and past papers? @eager ore

[eager ore]

Yes

[mild compass]

😐 bruh you're a fucking legend

[eager ore]

But I worked my ass off

[mild compass]

What was your routine

[real junco]

but I had school too so it wasn't really from scratch

[mild compass]

Yes I'll work my ass off, i need A*s on every paper

[real junco]

didn't make any notes which was not a great idea

[mild compass]

Znotes better than my own notes, i get tangled in the "must make it fancy ooo"

[real junco]

but school notes weren't necessary at all because I still got good grades

[mild compass]

LMAO i smell cigarettes

💀

[eager ore]

I gtg, 20 mins I’ll be back

[mild compass]

I myself shall go get apple juice

[summer flicker]

making notes is NEVER useful is what ive found

i mean at least for final prep

it can be helpful after or before lectures to help remember them better lomg term

in final prep past papers and already made notes are far better and spending time making notes is just time wasted

but that's just me lol

[river wadi]

i have a terrible problem. I get really tired nowadays bc i have so much work (both studying and other physical activities) but i need to stay late and do work. I find myself very tired but can't fall asleep in the afternoon after school. I also find it very hard to stay awake at night nowadays, i find myself sleeping at 9 or 10 and waking up at 6 in the morning still feeling very sleepy and having terrible dark circles. My teachers have even told me to get more sleep cuz my eyes look really bad in class. I tried drinking coffee and for while it worked but sometimes I wanna puke after drinking it bc I'm already very sleepy and tired and it makes me feel weird. What's worse is that my mom thinks i sleep too much and don't study enough and if i sleep at like 9 she wakes me up at 5 am (which is 8 hours of sleep but it doesn't feel like it). I feel so fatigued and unproductive. My eyes burn bc i attend classes all days of the week (6 hours every weekday, 4 hours on saturday and 8.5 hours on sunday) plus i have ton of other things which i can't seem to complete bc my tiredness makes me unproductive

[summer flicker]

classes all days of the week....

that's probably where your problems lie

i always have the same sleep problems on week days and just use weekends to recover on my lost sleep and i think that's very important

[river wadi]

i can't stop any of them though

[summer flicker]

damn....

[river wadi]

i don't have classes early mornings on weekends but usually i would have to wake up at 5:30 to go to a stadium for some practice

i really don't know what to do

[north karma]

U deffo need atleast a day ngl

[summer flicker]

dont do that much

[river wadi]

i feel so terrible and unproductive

[summer flicker]

of course you'd be unproductive

[north karma]

Yeah hate to break it to you but youre overworking rn

And burnt out

[summer flicker]

being well rested is very important for productivity

also

going to bed at 9 and then waking up at 5 isn't sleeping 8 hours

[river wadi]

i took a break with my classmates on a trip for 3 days in november for IAYP and felt much better but mocks start in feb and i can't do anything. Also my mom puts a little more pressure on me studying extra in holidays

[north karma]

3 + 5 = 8

[real junco]

are all of these classes by your school?

[summer flicker]

no

you don't instantly fall asleep

you might have to go drink water

maybe piss at some point

[river wadi]

i'm definitely burnt out but i haven't been doing much work for the past 2 weeks. I try but am unable to

[real junco]

you should've used that in the sat smh

[summer flicker]

you always keep a margin of error

[north karma]

Its 7-9

Thats generally recommended iirc

[summer flicker]

yeah

[river wadi]

oh god not sat. I wrote it once in dec and did well in math but not eng so i have lots of pressure to do well in march but don't feel like i'm preparing much bc of all the other stuff i have

[summer flicker]

if i remember well teens need to be more on the 8 to 9 side

[river wadi]

ok ramen i will wear diapers

[real junco]

what did you get if you dont mind sharing

[river wadi]

dms bc it was terrible 😦

[real junco]

sure

[river wadi]

i'll try

[summer flicker]

if course that still won't solve your overworking XD

you'll probably still feel tired

[river wadi]

i could cut down going out to meet friends ( i hardly see them and don't use social media) and study that time and sleep early

[river wadi]

yeah lol idk

[summer flicker]

....

no?

don't do that?

cut down on the studying?

maybe cut down classes and do more self study cuz it's more efficient

basically do work more efficiently

not more of it

if studying part is impossible to cut down then cut down something else that isnt regenerative like hanging out and resting

[river wadi]

the weekend classes are for JEE coaching which is very hard so i have to attend and weekdays are AS (school)

[summer flicker]

oh

[river wadi]

yeah

[summer flicker]

jee....

[river wadi]

dw i just attend the classes not study for them outside as well

bc then it would be impossible

[river wadi]

yeah i should stop watching yt when i want a break

and

be more productive

[summer flicker]

no....

ill try explaining later

[river wadi]

okay

thanks though

[north karma]

No when u want a break

Take ur mind off the thing ur doing

[summer flicker]

i mean I've never or will ever give the JEE

so you might just be fucked idk

[river wadi]

okay

[summer flicker]

^^^^^^

[soft jungle]

Isn’t it possible to switch to CBSE or do coaching full time? I mean why torture yourself

Or focus on A levels rn and take a gap year or look for affordable options for engineering abroad

[summer flicker]

^^^

[wintry rampart]

and now my mother blames me for getting her sleep schedule at her lowest

when i clearly hear her browsing social media

what a boomer

once i get out of my house, i'm finally gonna be free

of emotional abuse

and an idiot family that i can forget

[river wadi]

my parents don't like the idea of a gap year

[river wadi]

i already struggle with the coaching, it's really hard but i'm doing well in AS now. So it won't make sense to switch to cbse or do full time coaching

[river wadi]

i'll talk to my parents about this today

[wintry rampart]

`WHY TF DID I GET 3 XINGQIUS IN A FUCKING ROW????

I WANT MY FUCKIGN GANYU

AND I GOT A LOT OF SHIT WEAPONS

25 USD FOR SOMEONE WHO'S PROLLY SHIT IN THE GENSHIN META...

oh wait... xingqiu's actually a good sub-dps character

1x roll gave me beidou

EXPLAIN TO ME HOW THE FUCK THE PITY SYSTEM WORKS

CAUSE IT'LL TAKE ME AROUND 3 DAYS TO GET 160 PRIMOGEMS BY COMISSIONS

I'M DAMN ANGRY

AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO WASTE 25 MORE DOLLARS ON 10 MORE PULLS

IDK HOW MANY 1X PULLS WILL I HAVE TO DO TO GET GANYU

[rough holly]

I love genshin as well

[wintry rampart]

FUCK THIS SHIT GAME

TOO MUCH LUCK TO BE INVOLVED

I MIGHT AS WELL CREATE A PRAYER SHRINE

FOR THIS CRAP

[north karma]

Gacha fans laughing at genshin so hard rn

[wintry rampart]

WHEN CAN I BE DAMN LUCKY

I'LL GET AT LEAST 8 1X ROLLS

AS THIS DAMN EVENT

[mild compass]

Imagine playing genshin 🥶 🤮 🤢

[wintry rampart]

i'm losing my damn faith on that rigged game

[kindred stone]

bro

why the rage in genshin

calm a bit

[kindred stone]

wish 90 times and u get guaranteed 5*

but if in event banner its a 50 50

standard char or event char

but if u lost the 50 50 to standard character

then u guaranteed in next 90

plus this is not hte proper channel

[kindred stone]

don't say stuff like that tho ._.

[mild compass]

Ong Ken

[wintry rampart]

eh well... i guess that i've gotta grind more

[olive wadi]

thats what u get for playing pure gambling and RNG game

[wintry rampart]

so many lucky people...

and i'm not one of them

as unlucky as the misfortunate

[tranquil stag]

genuinely thought i was pretty good at maths but i'm attempting a 0606 paper 2 and i can't answer so much of this? what the fuck? killing my confidence rn

my confidence will probably die tmr on my trial exam lolol whatever, I'll try

[river wadi]

I feel so stressed that I might literally collapse bc of the pressure that I feel. Like I'm so mentally and physically tired and my head and eyes hurt all the time and I honestly dk what to do anymore. I want to take a gap year after 12th but no one in my family is supporting that idea and I have so much pressure and work I just feel like completely collapsing. Idk wtf I wrote.

[tranquil stag]

it's okay. taking a gap year can really help to calm your mind – my older sisters took a gap year and it isn't a bad idea. why does it matter if your family doesn't want you to do that? do it if it's for the sake of your own health, your health is more important than your family's opinion.

working hard and stressing yourself to the point that it threatens your health isn't good, take a break, even like now. you got any holidays coming up soon? don't work during those breaks, actually take a mental and physical break for yourself. the break will be good for you. hope things will get better :))

[eager ore]

I feel like this is an Indian parent thing, my mum still doesn’t like the idea of a gap year even though I have to take one

[river wadi]

I wish I could but if my parents don't allow me how am I supposed to go ahead with it. And I have so much stuff to do that breaks would put me back even further than i am

[river wadi]

yeah same. They think that everyone does what I do and it's easy (AS/ A levels + JEE + SAT + ECs)

so I don't need a gap year

[mild compass]

Bruh Desi parents are fucking perfectionists while they themselves are full of flaws like fix yourself first lmao

[eager ore]

JEE, you need time independent of A levels. Doing them at the same time, you’ll burn out easily I haven’t done JEE but this is just my opinion from what I’ve heard

[eager ore]

Bro they don’t even know how A levels and shit works yet they will give an opinion and tell you what to do

[mild compass]

On fucking god bri

[tranquil stag]

it doesn't matter if you go a bit further back. taking a break is actually really important and it's often underestimated by students who study alot. trust me, i know that overstudying does not lead to good, i got sick once from overload of stress caused by too must studying and I don't want that to happen to anyone else, really, it sucks ass.

why don't you tell your parents how stressful this is for you and how you need a gap year? they're humans too, they should try to understand.

[mild compass]

Also if their friend or relative says sm, their opinion is automatically >>>>> anything you say

And it's so frustrating

[eager ore]

Why do they care so much of what others think man. Im so happy I just don’t give a fuck what people think of my choices

I hope you get your parents in support of a gap year. Sorry, I don’t how to help you with that tbh. @river wadi.

[mild compass]

Well they care because their entire ego is built upon what others say and think

That's why honor killings exist etc

Who gives a fk about what your kid wants? Nahhhh. My neighbors opinion matters more

[river wadi]

I literally made a ppt abt why a gap year is good and yet no one agreed. My mom just started comparing me to these other kids wtf

I am literally so done man

fuck everything

[tranquil stag]

nah that's messed up, i'm really sorry mate

hope your parents come around soon and realise that they're wrong

[river wadi]

yeah hopefully

[tranquil stag]

yea 🙏

[wintry rampart]

why am i so damn unlucky

[slate sky]

Kind of feeling the same too

[mild compass]

Luck is random

[stuck mango]

Y are you saying like that mate?

[mild compass]

And then what

You dont know what comes after death, no one does.

[kindred stone]

first off

[mild compass]

Could be endless torment, could be nothing, could be bliss.

[kindred stone]

never think about ending life

[mild compass]

Yea

[kindred stone]

like jamal said bro

then what?

[foggy helm]

hiya boys

[kindred stone]

how do you know you'll be free

yo

[foggy helm]

where to get the roles

[kindred stone]

ah say znroles

[foggy helm]

znroles

[kindred stone]

also wrong channel mate

[foggy helm]

thanks dood

[kindred stone]

np np but wrong channel

[foggy helm]

mb, will be carefull next time

[kindred stone]

dw its fine

[mild compass]

Everyone suffers, but suicide is not an option. That's like reading a book and going through a part you don't like and going like "oh well i don't wanna read anymore, I'ma just close this book" when there could be something far more exciting and beautiful after the boring and crap chapters

Life is meant to be experienced to the fullest. You're not the only one feeling the way you are. And its okay. Don't beat yourself up for feeling a certain way. It's part of being human

[kindred stone]

what if it was eternal suffering after death

question

[mild compass]

I can't understand how you feel and i know whatever words of comfort i omit won't do much to help how you feel.
But relax yourself. Sounds extremely obvious and dumb but you gotta try to relax and calm your nerves.
Life isn't constant suffering, it's a mix of happiness, depression, anger, peacefulness, frustration etc.

[kindred stone]

why think of ending life

[mild compass]

If Hell exists. It's way more suffering and for eternity too

[kindred stone]

Im sorry if i cant say anything beacause i dont know what youre going through making you suffer

you cant always be happy in life nor always be sad

[mild compass]

It don't change the fact that we don't know what happens after death

Life isn't always 100% shit

There's always a mix of everything

You just have to focus on the positive

This is condescending probably

But it's all i can say

[kindred stone]

there's not much to say as we aren't pros at all , but one thing we can defo say is

ending life is a big no no

[mild compass]

There are always positives, you have a fully functioning body. An intellectual mind. Some people don't have that.

That's a positive

You have a stable internet connection, a smart phone or any electronic. Some people don't have that

Another positive

You're not lmfao

We all have a purpose

God or not.

We are born to do sm otherwise why do we as a species even continue to survive

Dont shit on yourself

You have potential, everyone does. Suffering isn't constant

You're still young.

[kindred stone]

if covid wasnt there i'd defo say just have a long walk

[mild compass]

It's okay if you haven't figured it out

[kindred stone]

it helped me when i was down just looking at the surrounding

[mild compass]

Some people are 40 and don't know what they're supposed to do either

And what waffles said

Go outside

[kindred stone]

there's no age restriction for this

[mild compass]

Sometimes staying at your house for long periods of time can inflict depression

[kindred stone]

you dont need friends

[mild compass]

^

[kindred stone]

i dont have many friends

you really cant count people online as actual friends

but just a normal walk

by yourself

pondering

[mild compass]

At a park preferably

[kindred stone]

exploring

any malls?

walk in the neighbourhood is fine

[mild compass]

Pretty sure pavements exist

[kindred stone]

but i dont think it'll have a big impact

[torn matrix]

hello

[kindred stone]

yo

[mild compass]

Is there any place that is less crowded @alpine hatch

[kindred stone]

might i ask your hobby