venting

[bronze coyote]

u throw a hiroshima nagasaki at them which might be ur results or ur graduation or anything

[mild compass]

I am trying to tell him to explore his strengths

[bronze coyote]

expand and conquer is the best option now

[mild compass]

He isn’t even ready for anything

[bronze coyote]

fighting is the best option now

its about time

we control our emotions

[mild compass]

Wrong

[bronze coyote]

#NOTWEAKANYMORE

[mild compass]

U should let ur emotions flood out

That’s not the way

[wintry rampart]

now that's a solution

that i've been working on

[bronze coyote]

no

[mild compass]

If ur angry, express, if ur sad express

[bronze coyote]

bro

if ur mom doesnt

scold u today

the world will

the ppl out there arent good

trust me

[mild compass]

Believe me that is the best way

[bronze coyote]

i punch the walls

if im angry

or nah

i just use it as an energy

and make a good output

[mild compass]

See we are all humans at the end we have emotions and we need to let it out that is all how it works

If u keep on controlling it believe me one day or the other it will come out in un expected ways

[wintry rampart]

hopefully

even if my mother thinks that i am "not grateful" for her efforts, deep down, i appreciate her

she's always stressed when she gets home

[mild compass]

Believe me or not i have seen so many people like this in my life who suffer in silence and now they are not mentally stable

[wintry rampart]

i dunno how to prevent this from crippling me even further

[mild compass]

Yayyyy thats like a grown up behaviour now

[wintry rampart]

it's been like that for years

she just is too used to this attitude

[mild compass]

i get you

At least you know the struggles of another person and in return God will ease yr worries

[mild compass]

She must be frustrated and that is affecting u too, i get it

[wintry rampart]

even when i try to change the view by telling her that i got no grudges against her, nothing happens

[wintry rampart]

she always is

caring for 2 mentally ill children is already a hassle for her

[mild compass]

She is ur mother at the end. One day she will understand u

[wintry rampart]

whoch includes me and a brother

[mild compass]

by time everything will be alright

If u don’t mind, can u tell me about ur religious background

my life changed completely over a short time

trust god

[wintry rampart]

roman catholic, although it has no affiliation with my current disputes with my mother

it's more on my greedy, inflated ego that stemmed from her emotional abuse

[mild compass]

No, i was like may be religious ways or methods may help you

Like spiritual ways

[wintry rampart]

i guess jumping further into the roman catholic lifestyle

could ve worth it

[mild compass]

Yeah try your religious ways

And methods

[wintry rampart]

although i'm unsure how art therapy would help settle the score down

and me and my crazy ass mother are at war

to a point where she snapped

god, i was this close to committing suicide

she frames me for "causing so much chaos" and being loud and "disrespectful"

so much fucking side comments

i just wanna be heard okay

now i know the source of all the arrogance that i have now

and the pent up hate

her arrogance as a high ranking bank executive

as much as i wanna genuinely appreciate her efforts, my years of hatred consumed me

and misundetstanding too

[bronze coyote]

watch hamza

he is a good youtuber

and advisor

for us teenagers

[bronze coyote]

There's a guy who sits next to you in class who studies just like you

and he works a full time job

and he gets better grades than you

and he has a better social life than you

and he gets better sleep than you

and he spends more time with his family than you

Shut the fuck up.

You don't have time because you waste time on things that don't matter.

You flip around from task to task like an idiot.

You eat breakfast like a modern peasant instead of fasting and getting deep work done.

You spend 2+ hours a day watching YouTube.

You have time.

I'm on your side. If you're offended reading this you're actually pissed off at yourself, not me. I'm on your side idiot. I'm telling you that you can do more, and you'll argue against me and tell me "no Hamza, I have less potential than you realise"

Shut the fuck up.

Argue FOR yourself.

"I HAVE TIME. I CAN DO IT. I WILL DO IT. I'M DOING IT. I HAVE TIME"

this is his post

in yt

[wintry rampart]

of course, i'm pissed at myself

i know of the monster that i'ge become

[bronze coyote]

have an assumption

that ppl around u are

temporary

souls that are gonna die

[wintry rampart]

i just want to break free from this nightmarish hell that i'm in.

to move on from my past traumas and genuinely be grateful for my mother's sacrifices. it's just that i can't be that open to her without looking so emotional

[bronze coyote]

hmm

[wintry rampart]

of course, i'll 195.95% be my best just to prove how i love her

[bronze coyote]

remember

we here in venting channel

are just moving pixels

trying to help you

you're the one whose gonna fight

the real fight

ur the protagonist of ur story

[wintry rampart]

absolutely. i ain't gonna play the cowards' role and cope. i'll be sure to prove her wrong

[bronze coyote]

nice

[wintry rampart]

that i am not a humiliation to her for simply frowning, and speaking loudly

[bronze coyote]

hmm

[wintry rampart]

being that monster won't define who i am

as for sure, i'll be more independent of my decisions while crediting her

for sure, i'll hsve to fight my past self first before trying to settle the score with my mother

[cosmic ginkgo]

could say the same about yourself

[bronze coyote]

well others could think the same about me

but everyone is gonna die one day right

i said it so that it creates a type of mentality that everything is temporary but your work and progress and your outcome remains permanent

[undone kite]

do you guys actually wanna create something that will live forever

my goal is to make hella money lmao but that doesnt last forever, i will basically be remembered by my great great grandkids MAX and then ill be forgotten which tbf i dont mind at all

[undone kite]

by this i mean a piece of art or a legacy

[pastel night]

I want to do many things but I'm sorta scared to take the initiative cuz I've been previously told none of my ideas work and shit but nahh Imma do them regardless

[pastel night]

I want to publish a fiction series maybe sci fi, I won 3rd place for a sci fi story I wrote when I was in 6 grade and I always wanted to write a novel or a series about it or sth related

So yeah that and poetry, prose. True prose like the best prose you could ever find, the one that makes you feel sth

[undone kite]

bro all you need is a tweak of your mindset and have amazing mental health

at that point nothing will stop you

you just needa pray, journal, and meditate for mental health ngl you dont need therapy unless you been through something majorly traumatic

[pastel night]

Other than that I wanna do sth to empower young women esp who are passionate about STEM and astronomy

[undone kite]

yess

lmao

i also wanna write a book but thats a goal thats far away from me its a side quest

[pastel night]

True 💖

[undone kite]

tf is prose

[pastel night]

OMGGG Collab???

[pastel night]

Google aunty se poocho 😭

[undone kite]

lmao nah man ima be like 50 sitting in my hard earned MANSION writing a book

i dont even want a mansion ngl

ig i want the freedom that ocmes with money

[pastel night]

Yeah sorta same and it's I feel like different from both gender's perspective too like I don't want to be confined within a limit to be "controlled" or anything esp for the things I need and all I just wanna enjoy the freedom and not be answerable to someone or depend on them yk

[undone kite]

hmm yeah

[pastel night]

Yaar I wanna be close to nature

[undone kite]

i also want to manipulate people with money

jk lmao

[pastel night]

Like Mera gher is gonna be a garden

[pastel night]

🤣🤣🤣

I'll do that with food

I wanna buy dinners and dates ngl

[undone kite]

lmao same bruh i want huge ass land with a small ass house

[pastel night]

Like imma pay

[pastel night]

Ayyy yesss like it's sooo prettyyy or birds and flowersss

[undone kite]

ye man but we gotta work for it now

do you think

500,000 dollars

a month

[pastel night]

Yeahh 🥹

[undone kite]

is possible

😭💀

i have it on my phone

my wallpaper

is my goals

[pastel night]

Yesss omgg yess it is possible yaar just go with it

[undone kite]

in 10 years time ill be earning that much bro

[pastel night]

I'll send you a Dua to attract stuff and it did help me

[pastel night]

Inshallah bro 🔥

[undone kite]

im gonna use it to attract women

[pastel night]

🤣🤣🤣🤣

[undone kite]

astaghfar i shouldnt use a dua like that 😭

[pastel night]

A kind heart is enough for that

[pastel night]

😭🤣🤣🤣

[undone kite]

maybe

i dont think its enough lmao but idk

[pastel night]

Ye Baad me soch Lena 🤣

[undone kite]

lmao

[wintry rampart]

now i know why i'm such an arrogant and loose dickhead

it wasn't really my mother who was abusing me

but my occupational therapist and a former household helper as a child

one of my occupational therapists physcially abused me

made me cry every week

one of my household helpers wanted me to "rape" her at the age of 6-7

@unreal shadow @pastel night @bronze coyote

this is my real story.

[lament cloud]

I really hope you have a therapist man

Coz that is messed up

I'm sorry that kinda stuff happened to you

[wintry rampart]

i've already been seeking help for years

and knew the truth just now

and the iceberg gets lifted even further

my grandma told ne the truth of the sexual abuse

i was once physically abused

at the age of 3

my parents and grandparents called the cops on her after a neighbor reportedly heard me crying frequently

[bronze coyote]

so ur mom is a therpaist ?

[wintry rampart]

no. she was witness

and is my mother

she isn't a therapist but a banker

[wintry rampart]

tuens out, i was hit on the leg, with a visible bruise by a former nanny

and they set up a large sting

to get her caught

[wintry rampart]

i was generalizing the trauma to my own mother which led her to questioning her skill

[winter skiff]

Always remember that the darkness you've experienced can never dim the light within you. You are a survivor, and I believe in your ability to heal, grow, and create a brighter future for yourself.💫💫
Try spending your free time in some other things for example your hobbies. You know what your past doesn't define you there in still chance that you can change your future.
Never underestimate yourself.
You are brave and you have the strength to deal with it.
More power to you.
My prayers by your way. 💫💫💫

[pastel night]

I'm really really sorry welpo for everything that you went through but I guess knowing the reality and the answers will give you more clarity and it'll help you to heal quicker! I just want to say pls get professional help too cuz you might later develop ptsd or bpd. And I know seeking help now is gonna be hard like you'd be developing trust issues and all but it's gonna help you heal. Moreover, I want to give you some advice to try to have a good inner circle. This might sound cliche but over a call or recorder try to record your feelings and emotions. And now that you know the reality which is terrifying honestly, I just wanna let you know there's nothing wrong with you, you are an amazing person who had to deal with all of that but you are trying your best to make out alive and you are gonna make it out alive. As far as the seeking opportunities thing, I can help you find some if you'd like and yeah just want to ask too that who do you trust? Like who's the one person you can let it all out and they'll support you and guide you more? Because I feel like in self isolation you're gonna develop a lot of issues trusting yourself and others

[wintry rampart]

don't worry bout it. perhaps i've already found my trust circle at my student org

and i bet that this will be the start to make up fot the years of misunderstanding thst me and my mother had

[pastel night]

That's great!! And I just wanna suggest you to spend more time with them and whenever you do things try to live in the moment and not think about anything else

[wintry rampart]

alrighty then

[pastel night]

Yes and it's one way towards self recovery

[pastel night]

If you need any sort of help my DMs open! And take care man!

[wintry rampart]

i'll start this recovery journey at this minute. if i need any advice, i'll be sure to lurk in this chat every once in a while

[silver wasp]

Good luck, take alot of care, I wish you the best of the best for whats coming next @wintry rampart

[wintry rampart]

i'll be sure to be there for you too

[silver wasp]

We're all here for you most importantlyy

[cold quiver]

Im such a bad son i didnt message my mom at all today and idk why i cant talk to her alot shes mad that o cant talk to her much and i only talk to her when i want something. Its not i dont want to talk to her its just i dk what to talk about

[tidal sable]

i feel ya

[undone kite]

Ask her questions about stuff she likes

[unreal shadow]

Tbh I’m like that too, although it might not seem like it based of my messaging history in this server, I don’t small talk irl and there isn’t many things that I can relate to with my mother (As opposed to my father) but my relationship with her is still great, all I do is just sit with her and stuff like that

She likes to plant trees

So I help her with that

Like carry stuff around for her or anything like that

But I suppose it does help that she does understand that I don’t really small talk

Hope this helps ig

[lime cargo]

Ok I don’t know how to start this but today is the last day I’ll see my favourite adult. She’s always been very close to my heart and I see her as role model in my life to do better. She doesn’t give up on me and encourages me to do my very best in school. We get along well, and she’s almost like family. Today she is leaving to another country. Ik realistically we can face-time and all but I suck at ever face-timing and chatting consistently with people. Ofc I’d make my time with her but, with my procrastination I think hell no. Idk what to say to her today. I don’t know if I’m going to say anything meaningful that she’ll remember as she does to me. I don’t want her to go but I want the best for her so its like goddamn it why is she leaving so early when my exams are about to be done and she could spend time with me? Why is she leaving when I have so much to tell her about what I’ve been up to? Why is she leaving when I planned out on having my family and her do something fun after exams? It’s frustrating me. I feel like crying but, maybe she’s not comfortable seeing me like that and wants me to be strong and wish her good luck with her life…and when I put it like that, it does relieve me and it takes me off my overthinking mind that she’ll be okay bc this is good for her and it stops for a while. She says I can visit her but Idk how??? But today, is the day she is going and I don’t know how to make it count. We are planning a farewell for her today, I don’t know what to give that’s meaningful to her. I know I shouldn’t be thinking so much about it bc other people in my life have left me to move forward in their life too. So, why is this so different than what I expected to feel? I know I shouldn’t overthink it so why I’m I like this? Idk how to make it count today?

If there’s any advice on what I should do please tell me cuz rn I don’t think my thoughts are important, I’m trying to focus on what I should do for her.

[minor shard]

Heyy mate, it's okay to feel the way you are feeling. It's completely natural to want the people you love to be always close with you and your thoughts are important too. I don't have a good advice on the type of gift you can give her but I am sure others here will have a good idea. But if u ask me tell her how much that adult means to u. Like tell her very openly, if u can't say it face to face, write a letter or something to express it and believe me that would be the best gift she will ever recieve. It truly feels soo great when we get appreciated and even more great when it's a heartfelt one and remember life is a journey and some passengers come along to give us a boost and then move away and some stay with us till the end, but everyone does something or the other. Maybe her part in ur life has come to an end or maybe not. Like she said u can go visit her, so there's still options left, but remember her words and how she motivated u, don't let them go in vain. Like you said she is going on her journey and it will be good for her, and even if u don't think u may have had an impact on her life in a good way. Maybe she learned something from u. So, don't be down. Remember it's a great thing that u have someone for whom u are thinking this much and being sad.

[lime cargo]

Thank u Gunther for the advice. You’re right! You’re making me motivated today. I’m so nervous to say it face to face but I’m gonna make sure I get it across. Frick yo don’t make me cry so early in the morning, go to goddang ted talk and give ur advice there- I’m gonna shamelessly admit that I’m just glad you can’t see me balling my eyes rn- From the bottom of my heart Gunther, Thank you very much. I’ll do my best today! I AM GONNA FLIPPING DO IT HELL YEAH

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Gunther#5035

[minor shard]

Go and slay 💪

[lime cargo]

HELL YEAH I WILL 💪

[lime cargo]

@minor shard Ayo THANK U YO I SAID IT TO HER I FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT TO PASS OUT I ACTUALLY SAID IT BRO AND TURNS OUT SHE’S GONNA BE HERE A COUPLE MORE DAYS HELL YES. Ayo seriously I appreciate you hyping me up Gunther 🤛

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Gunther#5035

[minor shard]

I am happy for u mate, and really even in future if u feel like appreciating someone don't hesitate. Life is too short for that. Rather live with embarrassment than with regrets if u ask me

[lime cargo]

I’ll remember that. I hope in the future I can help you too!

[near juniper]

Gunther is a real one

Gunther help me 🥲

[pastel night]

Omggg yesss we need him 😭

[lime cargo]

Fr he is

[lime cargo]

We need people like him 💪💪

[minor shard]

Eh..

[minor shard]

Thanks and yeah if u need any help and think I can do it feel free to dm. I don't know how much help I will be but I'll try

[near juniper]

Right back at you 🥲🥹

[minor shard]

A word of advice folks. Never keep ur money in the same pocket as ur mobile. U take out the mobile the money comes out and u won't even know

Happened to me in the past, I was careful since then and again happened today even tho I made sure to keep them safe.

And a friend of mine hurt my ego by saying I am noob. A NOOB

And I have skill issue

[pastel night]

Awww!! Bestiee 🥹

[minor shard]

And that woman is scared of bloody flies

[pastel night]

You'll get more than what you lost!! Just be careful next time

[minor shard]

I really wish, I remembered all her silly mistakes

[minor shard]

I thought u were a bully around here

[pastel night]

Me ? Bully? I'm the therapist 😭

This emoji is named after me

[minor shard]

Okay okay

[pastel night]

@minor shard I'm pretty sure your friends were joking! It's common among friends and it's just some cash you'll get billions one day and you won't be carrying them in your pocket so it's okay it happens with the best of us!! And just be careful next time and get a wallet maybe ✨

[minor shard]

I know she was joking. I took it that way too

And I have a wallet but I don't carry it around for everything

[pastel night]

Ohh trust me it helps!!

[minor shard]

Just thought someone may make the same mistake

[minor shard]

Nahh! I am lazy, and a wallet is relatively heavier. just gonna use phone case next time
Hehehe

[minor shard]

And btw all that thing about noob and all, I wasn't venting or anything just thought it was funny to add since it did happen

[near juniper]

I feel like I might be a bully here swear I'm too passive aggressive 😭

[minor shard]

Yeah, that hurts

Dude

Ouch

U didn't but yeah my ego is bruised

[green venture]

User warned!

@vital bridge has been warned for being (supposedly unintentionally) mean to someone in venting

[restive bridge]

fr tho, don’t let this dude get under your skin, I’ve been there and I know

sometimes small things can be really hurtful, stay strong dude

[pastel night]

Woahh

🥺

Sorry to however it happened

[near juniper]

Not ppl being mean to gunther 🥲🫠

[glossy pewter]

Why 2 pings

Was i ghost pinged

[near juniper]

What does that mean

[glossy pewter]

Nah i had two pings here

[unreal warren]

majestic way of saying it

[restive bridge]

nah it wasn't a very big deal

[vital bridge]

sigh

[minor shard]

I am okay!! Thanks for the concern.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Geagle#4558

[restive bridge]

ight nw dude

[proud latch]

I HATE PHSYCS PAPER

I LOST 4 MARKS

PSPS

od

WHY

[compact helm]

pspspsps

[glossy pewter]

Meow 👀

[bronze coyote]

@mild compass

1 more day

[mild compass]

Is this you venting?

[bronze coyote]

no

[mild compass]

There

[bronze coyote]

girly pop

[mild compass]

Ikr

[bronze coyote]

today i feel

black

today i feel like a bully

[mild compass]

thank u

[bronze coyote]

Npp

[agile quartz]

Hello

anybody doing IGCSE bio

It's gonna make me throw things at my wall, my wall being fire, things being the notes

[silver wasp]

#ig-biology

You can ask all your questions over there about bio and we'll help you

• you can check pinned messages for amazing resources

[agile quartz]

Ight thanks boss

[silver wasp]

Btw since it'll probably show up as no access for you cause you dont have roles

You can get them at id:customize

[near juniper]

I had the worst haircut ever 💀

And my hair is likw the main thing about me 😭

Now i have to get it fixed at a place they cut hair rlly short and try to explain them not to

😭🙃🫠😭🫠😭

[olive wadi]

Man i just got my school transcript from my time in whole of highschool and its so depressing and conflicting like for example for my 10th grade transcript it shows i barely passed most of my subjects but then u look at my IGCSE results and its like A's and B's , like transcript looks god awful but then the official exam results are way higher , im just so depressed that they are so bad , i just hope the unis im applying to dont really care about that but rather care about my actual exam results , cus truth be told ever since they told me my school results dont matter i never studied for them but instead just showed up to official exams so thats why my grades are so weird , and also the unis i plan to apply to arent the top tier unis that check every thing so i hope transcript wont carry as much as weight as my other official results otherwise this is very very depressing and im upset with my past self for leaving such a mark like non of these grades are justified man , its just unacceptable

[real junco]

dw official grades matter a lot more

[olive wadi]

im glad dude 🙏 like bro its like i got a E or sometihng in Bio IGCSE but then got an A in the official exam 💀 i swear its so stupid

[real junco]

like most unis won’t even care especially if they aren’t that selective

[olive wadi]

yeah im not applying to those top tier prestige unis with 184972791273 applicants

[real junco]

ik schools sometimes just put random grades for the internal exams

because no one verifies them or something

[cosmic ginkgo]

Most of the time the only reason they ask for school transcript is that you went to school for 12 years

[olive wadi]

EXACTLY what my counselor said

word for word

[olive wadi]

thanks dude

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Ramen#6996

[unreal shadow]

Or if it’s a stupid American

[cosmic ginkgo]

Then I question the mental damage of the people who go there

[olive wadi]

cus like my transcript and official results are so stupid they are completely irrelevant

[unreal shadow]

Severe😔

[olive wadi]

aint their fault they are being taught how many genders there are at the age of 12

lets make that 2 actually

[unreal shadow]

Dorm rooms windows dont even open

[real junco]

their applications are crazy

[unreal shadow]

😭😭😭

[real junco]

but also a lot more satisfying when you get acceptances

[cosmic ginkgo]

Mine open about 1 cm

[unreal shadow]

Cause people kept killing themselves

Oh yours isn’t any different

[cosmic ginkgo]

Although I'm pretty sure more people do it by OD

Than by jumping out

[real junco]

they have closed most of our terraces because of that

[unreal shadow]

Ive seen someone OD right infront of me before

[cosmic ginkgo]

We have a french window in the kitchen that opens all the way tho lmao

[real junco]

and rooftops

[cosmic ginkgo]

It's not uni accom but it's still student accom

[unreal shadow]

They also put nets and stuff under bridges

[olive wadi]

how do ppl get into drugs that easily

[unreal shadow]

Cornell is even much worse

[olive wadi]

my biggest addiction ever was video games

[unreal shadow]

Bro

In Philly

It’s so easily accessible

[olive wadi]

bro zombie state omg

[cosmic ginkgo]

Siblings friends

[unreal shadow]

• it’s so bad

[olive wadi]

bruh

[real junco]

they sealed one of the residential buildings and there were cops outside for like 2 days

I still don’t know what happened

[unreal shadow]

That the police can’t even do anything about it

[olive wadi]

my sibling's friends are playing minecraft and roblox

[olive wadi]

idk why drugs are so insane in the US

[unreal shadow]

They just make sure it stays at one part of the city

[olive wadi]

like here in turkey ofc there are drugs and drug users but its no where near the same intensity as US

[cosmic ginkgo]

There was a guy who was stabbed inside his house next to my friends house

Inside a gated accom

[unreal shadow]

BRUH

[real junco]

oh wtf

[unreal shadow]

Goddamn

[real junco]

I remember a few months ago some other uni had a sniper who tried to shoot someone in a building from the ground

[unreal shadow]

????????????????

[real junco]

the uni that rix is about to join

[unreal shadow]

Goddamn

[real junco]

and waffles goes there

[unreal shadow]

Worst I got

[olive wadi]

what the fuck

[unreal shadow]

Was a warning for a shooting

[olive wadi]

i do that shit on GTA V

but not irl

[unreal shadow]

But was between gang members

[oak smelt]

They legalised a lot of drug to get out of the 2008 depression

[unreal shadow]

Wss targeted

[olive wadi]

ahh now that makes sense

[real junco]

I haven’t seen anything like that yet

[oak smelt]

It then became their biggest source of income

[real junco]

glad I’m not in Toronto

[oak smelt]

And is still one of the few sources

[olive wadi]

yeah drug business has insane amounts of money ngl

[unreal shadow]

GTA

[cosmic ginkgo]

Thank fuck I don't have to deal with that

[unreal shadow]

Fr

I was scared😭

And it was like 2 blocks down where many of my classes are

Barely a 5 minute walk

[real junco]

the only warnings I’ve gotten are severe weather ones

[unreal shadow]

Bro😭

I got ones for SA

Robbery

Shooting

[unreal shadow]

I remember 1 was a stolen car

Also once

But this was statewide

A little girl got kidnapped

[real junco]

oh we were having so many of those but not in the uni

[unreal shadow]

No that was

Warning from the university’s police

[real junco]

damn america

[unreal shadow]

So within the university’s area

[real junco]

the city’s police just isn’t doing anything lol

people have clear videos of people taking their cars

[unreal shadow]

Bruh

[real junco]

they need to start becoming racist and stop people from coming into the country before they turn into the US

[plush quartz]

Me who was going to come as an intl student

[unreal shadow]

Then no one would be in that country xD

[near juniper]

CAN SOMEONE HELP ME FIX MY BANGS

I have been to two hair dressers

Im dying

There so blunt and thick

And

😭

Im leaving to the airport in 2 hours

😭😭😭😭😭

PLEASEEE

NO PLS HELP

SHOUL I ROSK DOING MYSELD

I NORMALLT DO BYMUSELF

BUT THESE R TWO SHORT

😭

[bronze coyote]

WHAT THE FUCK ARE BANGS

[deep sluice]

LMAAAO

[past plover]

💀

[pastel night]

Bestieee I sent some videos in chat lounge 😭

[naive skiff]

someone mentioned me

it was a bb gun

[naive skiff]

sure

go bald

[lament cloud]

Pharmaceutical companies there are corrupt as fuck

[wintry rampart]

well, imagine getting yelled at by your own mother for being honest

i had a medical exam to take last week cause my uni requires it

i disclosed that i got autism and mood disorders

when my mom knew that i needed a mental health certification, she freaked out

she began ranting about how companies would not hire me for one mental illnesss

and she tried to fucking manipulate me into believing that i "outgrew" my autism

I WAS FUCKING HONEST IN MY MEDICAL EXAM, OKAY????

it's as if she was stuck in the 70s

when people with autism were more lobotomized than included in society

so what's the mistake?

her inflated ego worrying about me being jobless for being autistic

i didn't do anything wrong. i was just being honest

now she'll blame me for wasting more money for 3 consultations with a licensed health professional

WHY IS SHE SO DAMN DELUSIONAL?

I JUST WANNA END MY OWN DAMN LIFE FOR MAKING A MISTAKE THIS GRAVE

I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE LIED TO THE DAMN DOCTOR

[wintry rampart]

i was never autistic in the first place

all my acting out was the result of emotional distress

and trauma

[near juniper]

Honestly go on ur villain arc

That what i did for a year till i got bored

Like studied limited interaction

[wintry rampart]

well, i intend to disappoint my own mother even further

as a result of years long of emotional abuse

and deception

[near juniper]

Do u have asian parents

Btw medical exams dont care as long as you can show you have a clear communication between others

If there is a speaking barrier then yes

But you can learn other languages to enhance your medical exams

[wintry rampart]

exactly

[wintry rampart]

my dumbfucking mother thinks that if people mistake me for being autistic, then, nobody would hire me for a good job

and now, my defense mechanism for this is pure denial

that i was never autistic in the first place

as a way to get her to stop raging

[near juniper]

Okay ur mother has a point in some way like from asian countries this happens but your mum is probably worried because medical is rly competitive

She is basically saying if u have the same protfolio as the next kid they will be more leaninent to chose the other

So in stead od dwelling

Enhance ur resume

Do environmental work

Make a hobby that would help u in the profession you want to pursue

For example i want to be a cardiac surgeon so i started embroidering

[wintry rampart]

i've already been building up my resume by working at student orgs

[near juniper]

Oh okay good

[wintry rampart]

but problem is, she's stuck in the 60s, where she thinks that being sane is the only way to get a high ranking job in 10-20 years

she's paranoid that i'd prolly end up being the next school shooter if people knew my mental illness

[near juniper]

Well you can prove her wrong she cant legally withold that information

[wintry rampart]

when in reality, she is unintentionally feeding me up

[near juniper]

If you have been diagnosed by a docypr is illegal to not tell someone you will work for

[wintry rampart]

i'm surprised that she thinks that people can "grow out" of mental illness

[near juniper]

Just tell her that

[wintry rampart]

i can't. she'll say that i'll never get a job

thus i had to be taught how to deceive

by herself

and i hate being a pathetic liar

[inner rune]

thats actually quite the opposite being autistic but being able seem like your not is a + point in job interviews

[near juniper]

People cant but they can for a period of time i had depression and its reduced but i still get severe symptoms like insomnia but before i would also get depressive moods and not go to school and other

[wintry rampart]

that's true

she treats it as if it were a cia intimidation tactic

now i gotta go get some medical clearance from a psychiatrist

[inner rune]

stay in your room get a 6 pack study

go ghost

[wintry rampart]

thanks to my fucking honesty

[inner rune]

prove them wrong

everything your doing rn

is for the long run

think about later how you'll look back

[wintry rampart]

well, i gotta forge out my attitude and mask myseld when i get that counselling needed for the clearance

then, i'll submit that clearance to my damn uni and tell them that it'd be best to keep the records for themselves and not disclose it to anyone outside of their offices

and next year, i'd simply keep my mask on and lie that i don't have a mental illness next time my uni screens me for a yearly health checkup

but i must face the consequences now

i'd be happy to face it, but my mother is someone that i fear the most

i just don't wanna cause suffering for the both of us

[bronze coyote]

Today I feel angry

Today I feel sad

Today I feel happy

Today I feel like Ronaldo

[olive wadi]

yall dont have to reply or smth i just wanna get this out of my system but - holy fuck my mind doesnt comprehend how a human being can be so useless I DONT GET ITTTTT

this person i know doesnt study doesnt work doesnt do crap so we sometimes play video games as a group and we invite him right but this fucker sucks at that too , guy has played 1 character in league of legends for insane amounts of time yet he still loses every single goddamn time , i took his lane off of him for 1 day and we win every fucking match yet the moment we go back to normal positions this guy feeds and is just shit again and again and again how can someone have nothing in their life and even in video games be so crap to the point where we have a group of good players but we still cannot carry his ass

[unreal shadow]

me everytime i play pro clubs

[unreal shadow]

there's always that friend yaknow

it's ok

[olive wadi]

he is consisntely bad at EVERYTHING

how how how how how how

[unreal shadow]

😭

[olive wadi]

ok i get it u dont work or do anything productive irl fine

but at least

be good at the video game

u play 10 times more than me

its just impossible for me to comprehend how someone cannot use their brain

thanks for coming to my ted talk

[glossy pewter]

Bruh so the dude doesnt study doesnt have a job and play video games all day but still freaking sucks

At that point i would just end myself dude

[olive wadi]

exactly my point

its sad

[wintry rampart]

boy oh boy how the fuck can someone not have the willingness to write a damn worksheet a day before its due

makes me wanna do all the dirty work

and brand my cramming groupmates' contributions as mine to "teach them a lesson"

[wintry rampart]

and now i know the darker truth on why my mom's so angry at me all the time instead of the usual "i hate her" nonsense

my mother was so fed up with keeping the truth about my dad

so much that she probably felt remorseful and lashed out on me

every time i started trouble with her

or to be realistic, all the false hate that i gave her was the stem of all the arguments

[full flax]

guess im done

no more trying to win

what i hoped someday i would

well not everyone has a happy ending

[unreal shadow]

damn that's sad

quite sad

[unreal shadow]

here's a rule to live by

never argue with anyone

if it's a woman let it be and wait for it to cool down, if it's a man let him cool down but if he continues escalating it then that's when you get physical, usually however people get tired and stop themselves

but never ever argue

i learned this too late

[unreal shadow]

it's ok

winning wouldn't be satisfying without losing, you need to accept both parts of the equation

you win some, you lose some

furthermore, winning is an opportunity to celebrate where losing is an opportunity for you to practice and test your virtue

accept what is; get comfortable with reality

[full flax]

Well now I have to live with the fact that victory was not mine

It's gonna be someone else's victory

[unreal shadow]

it's how the world works

it's tough

there's nothing you can do about it

[glossy pewter]

Bruh thats reality

[silver wasp]

bc it was meant for them, maybe some other victory is waiting for you

thats just how life is

[unreal shadow]

and what happened btw?

[glossy pewter]

Well you might have lost this one but not everything is gonna be a victory for you

Destiny might have you win in something else

At another time

[silver wasp]

something better than whatever you lost now

[glossy pewter]

Which might be way better this win you lost

[silver wasp]

every downside has an upside and it might hurt in a given moment and you might not even understand why or have so many questions and it can go on for years but you need to look past it and one day i swear you'll go through something and look back and realise and be there like oh shit thats why that happened all for this given moment where i feel so much better than i couldve even if i'd gotten what i wanted back then

[unreal shadow]

or shittier

[silver wasp]

life if literally a game that goes on for as long as you live if you've lost once you cant quit the game as a whole, you keep going and keep trying till you get past that point where you'd been defeated at

and theres always gonna be new and harder challenges the further you go

if things were meant to be so easy we wouldnt even be here

we're being tested

for our patience and so much more

[unreal warren]

[silver wasp]

if you actually keep going and keep trust in yourself and have the patience to just wait you wont need to go through something shittier

and yeah you can have a shit moment now then go through hundreds of shittier moments all in consecutive order but that still wont hide the fact that at one freaking point you'll win something unbelievable

[unreal shadow]

yeah well idc really lmao

if it's better or worst

js take wtv you're dealt with

[silver wasp]

you'll always have to deal with and train yourself to love and be thankful of whatever you get even if its almost like you were handed a ball of hell in your hands because thats what was meant for and made for youuuuu

and you can never change that no matter how hard you try to avoid it if its written for you then you'll still get it in the end

just how it is ig

[unreal shadow]

yeh

[full flax]

I really hope I do tho it's hard to imagine

[unreal shadow]

what happened even

[silver wasp]

inshallah you will i believe in you and if you feel you need help or backup support or you just need words to push you on you can always come to us for it bc we'll never leave you alone when you need the presence of someone else most

keep yourself patient and allow yourself to smile and be happy even through the worst of the worst moments and you'll be okayyyyyyyy

[glossy pewter]

Bro what happened?

Oh that kinda failure

Its fine

[silver wasp]

Falcon be quiet 😭🔪

[glossy pewter]

Nah that kinda failure every person has gone through

[silver wasp]

😭 Shush

[unreal shadow]

what?

girl rejected you?

oh

[glossy pewter]

Pain

Its fine man

Not as bad as me

But still gotta hurt

[silver wasp]

fuck her

[unreal shadow]

then

look at what type of options you have

can bitch about it while being sad

[glossy pewter]

Its fine just move on dude its not worth it to keep going for it if she isnt into you

[unreal shadow]

or become a man that no girl would ever say no to

[glossy pewter]

Trust me

[unreal shadow]

while also being sad

[glossy pewter]

I have alot of love failures

[glossy pewter]

The direction i am going in

[unreal shadow]

on top of that there's 4 billion other girls

[full flax]

I move on

[silver wasp]

genuinely though fuck her for rejecting you bc clearly she never deserved you in the first place, sometimes we give too much of our thoughts and care and love to one singular person thinking they deserve everything as if, if they were to tell us to break off a piece of the star and put it in their hands we'd do it when in reality they deserve none of it not even that 5 mins we might've spent thinking about them but its hard to accept bc thats how love is but you gotta keep your eyes more open with facing reality 😭

[bronze coyote]

orion

js boltesi

[silver wasp]

love should never be one-sided, dont immerse yourself in it if the other person doesnt do shit make sure its equal on both ends so that its genuine and its worthy of putting your trust in

[unreal shadow]

that's very incel-y

and wrong

[silver wasp]

no im in a relationship and genuinely ive learnt alot from it lol

[unreal shadow]

yeah but no use feeling hate towards someone

[silver wasp]

i never said hate her

[unreal shadow]

especially a girl

[glossy pewter]

Never do that

[silver wasp]

im trying to say that he shouldnt feel like hes the one in the wrong position and like put the blame on himself ykwim

[glossy pewter]

Just move on

[silver wasp]

ofc

[unreal shadow]

yeh

[glossy pewter]

Trust me dont dwell on something you know wont work out

It will tear you from the inside

[full flax]

Took a year to fully realize

[glossy pewter]

I can speak from experience

[glossy pewter]

Took me more years like 5

Hurt letting go

But

[silver wasp]

you cant absorb yourself into the love of someone who can easily grab your heart and drop it like it was nothing you need to keep boundaries and you need to know the difference between right and wrong

[glossy pewter]

Must be done

[glossy pewter]

Thats not the issue here my dear the thing is to know that if someones isnt into you

Thats all

[silver wasp]

but honestly you cant have things perfectly the first time it takes time just make sure you dont waste so much of your time where it shouldnt be wasted

[glossy pewter]

Dont force it

[silver wasp]

yes thats what im saying

😭

[silver wasp]

ofc

[silver wasp]

im happy you realised

[full flax]

Thank u

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Angell#2019

[silver wasp]

😭😭

[unreal shadow]

look man

it's sad

i get that you're sad

and stuff

[full flax]

I'm trying not to be sad

[unreal shadow]

no

it's fine

feel sad

just

continue waking up every morning

go do your work

idk wtv you do

finish that

go to the gym

while you're sad

and eventually it'll wear off

[full flax]

I do go

[unreal shadow]

yes continue doing that

go to work

eat

do everything while you're sad

and it'll wear off

[full flax]

It's not like I think I about it all the time

Its just gonna be a memory now

[unreal shadow]

it's wtv

don't be scared of emotions

[glossy pewter]

Thats the way to go🔥

Just know there will be plenty more opportunities

And you said you going Australia

👀

[full flax]

👀

[glossy pewter]

I am sure you will find someone else

If you know what i mean

[full flax]

👀

[glossy pewter]

Btw now that you realised i am sure it must feel better

Now just let go

And focus on other stuff in life

Live life and one day another person will come into your life

Whom you might like way more

And might be way better

For that

Good luck brother

[full flax]

[unreal shadow]

just don't believe that you didn't do anything wrong or wtv bullshit

be accountable for everything

[full flax]

Ok

I will

[glossy pewter]

Yes this hurts but you gotta accept it

[lament cloud]

This is somehow some of the most genuine good heartbreak advice I've seen in this channel

[unreal shadow]

Ofc it’s from me💪💪💪💪

[strong peak]

🐐

[unreal shadow]

Thanks to Lahore university

[strong peak]

[strong peak]

what course bro

[unreal shadow]

Gender studies

[strong peak]

[unreal shadow]

Ok I gotta go back to sleep

3 more hours

[silver wasp]

what was so genuine about it 😭😭

[wintry rampart]

it'll be hard, but i'll try to change that image now. by starting with acknowledging her whenever i end up achieving something

[lament cloud]

I meant "genuinely good"

Coz

There's a lot of asshole advice here whenever someone is going through some shit in their romantic life

[silver wasp]

So true I guess because somtimes people are over anything relationship related cause theres always something going on with someone around them 😭

[silver wasp]

I hope it helped you too then

[lament cloud]

Nah it's just a lot of Tate fan incel stuff

[lament cloud]

It did

[silver wasp]

YES

[silver wasp]

Aww yay 🤍

[wintry rampart]

i just wanna fucking die already

i'm forcing myself to believe that i got autism

and have been too in control

i hate myself for putting me up on this mess

all the accountability that i've put myself. nothing

it all leads to demise

i don't want to have my resume tainted by this

[unreal shadow]

Why

[wintry rampart]

i've put myself in a lot of shit that i cannot escape

i was a deceptive piece of shit

in front of my therapist

who forces her to believe in me

i'm just a fucking failure to humanity

she was right

i will never have a good paying job

[unreal shadow]

So you lied?

[wintry rampart]

i'll just be a fucking bottom feeder

[wintry rampart]

yes.

all the abuse that i got, i deserved it

for being a pain in the ass

now i'll lose my education

my life

for one stupid health exam

that i fucked up in

[unreal shadow]

Then

This is where you’re at

[wintry rampart]

if i never told the physician that i got mood disorders, none of this would have happened

[unreal shadow]

What can you do about it

[wintry rampart]

suffer even more

i have no choice

[unreal shadow]

Well it doesn’t matter now does it

It happened now look at what’s next

[wintry rampart]

i'll lose the people that are trying to help me

as i rejected their help

[unreal shadow]

You obvs can do something about it

[unreal shadow]

That’s your fault

Consequences of your actions

Now you pay for it

And also look

For what you can do about it

[wintry rampart]

i got nothing left

to do about it

i should just end the suffering for me, my family and my therapist

[unreal shadow]

No

[wintry rampart]

i'll be transferred to a special education college

i'll prolly never even have a job

all for being a fool

[unreal shadow]

You can try

Doing the test again

[wintry rampart]

i cannot

[unreal shadow]

How so

[wintry rampart]

i'll wait another year to take that periodic health test at my uni

if i stay

[unreal shadow]

Can’t you say you want multiple opinions?

[wintry rampart]

cause now my mom wants to cut my education

[wintry rampart]

i'd be worse than that

[unreal shadow]

Wdym

[unreal shadow]

That will only cause them more suffering if anything

[wintry rampart]

it won;t

i'll be at peace

they can be at peace

i'll admit my guilt and suffering to them

and peacefully end everything

[unreal shadow]

That’s good that you do that

[wintry rampart]

then they'll know how i did not listen to them

[unreal shadow]

But you can’t stop halfway

Do something about it

[wintry rampart]

fearing that i'll face the impossible

now my therapist does not want to talk to me

my mom's fed up with me

[unreal shadow]

Then try to do it

You can’t give up on anything

[wintry rampart]

i give up

[unreal shadow]

No

[wintry rampart]

i don't know what to do, to be honest

[unreal shadow]

Then

Sit down

Calm down

[wintry rampart]

i can't try to convince myself to stop lying

[unreal shadow]

And slowly

Think about every part of it

[wintry rampart]

if i were submissive, i wouldn't have escalated the drama even further

now i will lose everything

[unreal shadow]

And see what moves you can do

[wintry rampart]

i got no moves

i'm slowly facing the pain now

[unreal shadow]

There always is one, even if it’s letting it go

You just have to

Calm yourself down

Sit

By yourself

And logically think about it

And i can say with certainty that ending it is never the best move

[wintry rampart]

how long will it take for everyone to calm down?

i don't want everyone to know the truth

[unreal shadow]

Focus on yourself

[wintry rampart]

cause it will have grave consequences

how hard will it be to recover

[unreal shadow]

You never lie

3 things to never do are

Get angry

Lie

And argue

Or at the very least

[wintry rampart]

but when is the good time to lie?

[unreal shadow]

Try your absolute best to avoid that

[unreal shadow]

Imo never

It always comes back to bite you

Sooner or later

I pride myself on never lying and it’s one of the best things I ever decided to do in my life

[wintry rampart]

for the situation, i had to take a mandatory health test at my uni. when the physician asked me about my mental health, i opened up about my suffering. i was demanded to submit a psychiatric clearance

if i never told them about it

i would have never been in this situation later

[unreal shadow]

They can take as much as they need to

But

You’re the one in control

You’re the one who matters most

[wintry rampart]

i do not deserve to be in control

the control that i take would lead to chaos

[unreal shadow]

Then become worthy of being in control

[wintry rampart]

i'll let my therapist calm down

[unreal shadow]

On top of that

[wintry rampart]

and i'll try to reason with her

[unreal shadow]

Keep in mind that

No person

[wintry rampart]

cause i know that i was being impulsive

[unreal shadow]

Is born inherently deserving things

[wintry rampart]

she tried to offer me a solution, my impulses denied it

when i wanted to just be submissive

and say yes

[unreal shadow]

You have to prove (to god or life or wtv you believe in) that you’re worthy of it

[wintry rampart]

i was afraid of the consequences that would come if i said yes

so i said no

[unreal shadow]

You can listen to it

But you don’t have to

Do it

[wintry rampart]

i can, but i cannot move forward

i'll be permanently stuck

[unreal shadow]

Im not sure what more I can do for you tbh

[oak smelt]

sometimes its appropriate to be angry

to not make reckless actions when you're angry is another thing

you gotta let yourself be angry at the thing to move past it

[unreal shadow]

By get angry i mean

Act angrily

That’s never correct

It’s fine to feel the emotion but wrong to act based of it

[wintry rampart]

i'll try to make amends with my family and therapist one last time. if i fail, i genuinely do not know what to do.

i know that it's hard, but i'll need to try

[wintry rampart]

@unreal shadow ayt. i've decided to try journaling with my current therapist. she was willing to agree to have me journal my thoughts and i gotta be consistent.

[unreal shadow]

good

[unreal shadow]

good luck

[wintry rampart]

although i need to find a way to suppress these demonizing memories

as for sure, what my mom ranted at me a while ago, was surely demonizing

[oak smelt]

A method i usually use is to think about it or write it down

Then burn the paper

And imagine the thoughts going away

[unreal shadow]

I usually just deal with it

Come to realize that I made a mistake somewhere

And I was stupid

Then I just get on with it

[oak smelt]

I think what he meant by demonizing thoughts are recurring negative scenarios in his head

[unreal shadow]

Stuff don’t happen on accident or just randomly

[unreal shadow]

Yeah I know

Im saying

I just endure them

And realize that it was my fault

[wintry rampart]

exactly

especially if i come face to face with it

ie, getting belittled by my mother

[oak smelt]

Well ye but u gotta realize the more u think about something, the less accurate it is and since 80% of human thoughts are repetitive, people who are struggling with low self-esteem will struggles with just endure something

[wintry rampart]

i knew that my mother never meant to compare me with others

[oak smelt]

Not because its their fault but because the thing has become much worse than the actual version of what happened

[unreal shadow]

Fair enough

It’s just what I do

It really hurts me too but I feel it’s the right thing so yeah

[oak smelt]

Mhm focus on that and realize she herself is flawed too

And it doesnt mean u have to tell her that right away maybe sometime when things have calmed down

Whats important now is to realize the recurring thought patterns

[unreal shadow]

Yes, just remember to never argue

I made that mistake once and regret it more than anything

Man im so tired😭

And there’s so much traffic

I wish I can teleport

[solar marsh]

I WANNA DIEEE

wait

[unreal shadow]

Same

[solar marsh]

wanna go jump off a bridge? ☺️

[unreal shadow]

Not with you

[solar marsh]

damn

[glossy pewter]

All of us feel that sometimes

[solar marsh]

try feeling like that for 6 years

not gonna trauma dump here. I've had enough of people

[glossy pewter]

Its fine

[glossy pewter]

Whole life? With so many issues happening all the time

Every time i do something

It always goes wrong

Is that natural

[oak smelt]

I have absolutely no self control

i made a plan to study all sort of stuff this summer

but i just realized right after A levels

I SPENT 106 HOURS playing limbus company

it hasnt even been a full 2 weeks yet

wtf how did i

maybe it was from before exams but i dont recall it even reaching past 50 hours

[glossy pewter]

Me tooo idk it feels like am wasting all the time in the world which i will never get ahhhhhh

[oak smelt]

Bro the worst part

Is

Im still not done with limbus

And my urges to open genshin

[unreal shadow]

easy fix

whenever you're doing something ask yourself

if that's what you genuinely want to be doing

[oak smelt]

My addiction says yes

[unreal shadow]

😭

[oak smelt]

My post addiction clarity says no

[unreal shadow]

listen to your post addiction clarity then

[oak smelt]

But the post addiction clarity only comes after the addiction

[unreal shadow]

make it never end

make it go on forever

i think you should just stop being a little bitch

[oak smelt]

Imma try to finish THIS STAGE then do that

[unreal shadow]

and do your work

your ancestors are ashamed of you

[oak smelt]

They should

[unreal shadow]

they had to through war for your ass to be addicted to Genshit

[oak smelt]

I did not sign up to beat the doctor sperm

That bitch should have swam faster

[unreal shadow]

not playing genshin is bare minimum bro

[oak smelt]

[unreal shadow]

yes so man up

[hard ravine]

ayo bruh

[compact helm]

💀

dw we all think of destroying the world

or do we

is that just a me thing

[compact helm]

🤩

[solar marsh]

i hate myself

i hate my life

[naive skiff]

ez to leave

i just left it in 1 day

no urges no nothing

just quit it

[unreal shadow]

why

[solar marsh]

pain

[pastel night]

Heyy what's up?

[solar marsh]

so much f---ing pain

[pastel night]

Bestie 😭

What happened

Physical pain or Emotional?

[solar marsh]

emotional

[pastel night]

Ohh

What happened feel free to open up

[solar marsh]

worst than physical pain

[pastel night]

[solar marsh]

i would much rather like to talk privately

[pastel night]

Okay! Sure if you wanna dm I'm here

But take care!

[solar marsh]

thank you

can i dm right now?

[pastel night]

People are mean people are weird and nothing they say defines you 🫶🏻

[pastel night]

Yeah sure

[solar marsh]

i cant

[pastel night]

Why?

[solar marsh]

oh i can now

[glossy pewter]

Goodluck with your session

I am also open

Why use cry emojis @pastel night 😭

[pastel night]

Hehe 😭

Used it on the "session" reference

[glossy pewter]

I see so how did the “session” go 😂

[silver wasp]

@glossy pewter Can you plz help the person in #university-choices🎓

[wintry rampart]

does my mother really want me to be a nobody with a magna cum laude?

or a somebody who has all the org experience, but mid-tier grades?

she's discouraged me from volunteering in the past, as i'd be "wasting her money"

she doesn't fucking get how volunteering is important to obtain experience for building up that resume

and i know that i fell for it

she should read this so that she'll know the fucking truth

https://www.reddit.com/r/OffMyChestPH/comments/11q1rbl/i_graduated_summa_cum_laude_but_its_still_hard_to/

and perhaps, the studies won't mean anything after my first job

cause companies'd look for experience over a meaningless number that separates the smart from the stupid

[unreal shadow]

Cum lol

Sorry

My stomach hurts everyday😔😔😔

I need to see a doctor

This can’t be normal

I didn’t eat/drink anything questionable

And it’s been hurting all morning

[unreal shadow]

Grades too are important

Especially for your first internship/job

[wintry rampart]

well, what happens after my first internship/job?

will hiring managers still look at my grades before i get hired?

[unreal shadow]

After that your previous internships will outweigh it probably

Nevertheless good grades still is a plus