venting

[lavish spruce]

guys any tips on how i can put myself to study....i'm lacking motivation 😭😭

and my exams are in like 2 months

[slate sky]

I need them too

Are u doing Oct Nov?

[olive wadi]

if ur studying at home , change ur study place , i personally go to library everyday from 8.30am to like 5pm and study

remove distractions

build up ur study hours , lets say u can study for 3hrs rn? add 15-20mins to it every day and eventually u will study a lot , set small short term achievable goals and achieving them will motivate u

[lavish spruce]

yup i'll be giving my As.....maths, physics and IT

[lavish spruce]

thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Hardstyle#2711

[slate sky]

We have 2 in common

[lavish spruce]

maths and physics?

[slate sky]

Yeah

[lavish spruce]

whats ur third subject?

[slate sky]

I have 4

3th and 4th are CS and English literature

[lavish spruce]

ooh

[slate sky]

Which variant are u giving?

[lavish spruce]

nicee goodluck

[lavish spruce]

i think variant 2

[slate sky]

Oh ok I do v3 though like a lot of people I see are doing v2 apparently

[slate sky]

Same to you

[lavish spruce]

i've been doing variant 2 since igcse

so i thought up to continue with it

[slate sky]

similar for me too

I did v3 in IGCSE

[lavish spruce]

btw are you doing m1 for maths?

[slate sky]

Nah I am doing S1 sadly

[olive wadi]

as a non-physics student , stats was such a nice thing after mech , if school offered i would of taken s1 and s2 instead of m1 s1

[slate sky]

Oh ok. S1 was compulsory for me at AS level. At A2 level, we get a choice of M1 or S2

[glossy pewter]

Yeah me too

But if I look at it now

Stats is actually really useful for maths study 🧐🧐

[slate sky]

Yeah maybe it is

[mild compass]

Omg thank you I had totally forgotten that I do as well have exams in few months, i was chilling. I need to start revising!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Eman Tariq#3041

[mossy delta]

i give up

[lavish spruce]

no probs

[lavish spruce]

don't give up....i was at this point too bt i nvr gave up and now i enjoy studying a lvls (well sometimes) bt yeah

[hidden roost]

This is going to be my ‘3rd time’ repeating my A levels. Literally feel like I’m hanging on a loose thread about to drop any second.

[real junco]

but results aren't here yet

[hidden roost]

I know I have low chances of getting a decent grade again. British council is closing the registration date for the next session before results are out. I’ll have to pay late fees just in case I mess up and my parents can’t afford that. Since I know I have low chances, my parents think it’s best to sit for the exams again and get a better grade.

2 years behind everyone.

Even saying I feel fucked doesn’t justify how I’m feeling in general.

[real junco]

oh this fucking british council

is it possible to withdraw your entries if your grades are fine?

[hidden roost]

Tell me about it. I got so fucking mad. This was the first time I noticed this. They never usually put dates like that.

[hidden roost]

It is but I think I won’t get the whole refund back

[real junco]

I think that's better than wasting more time if your grades are good enough

but don't worry about being behind everyone

it doesn't matter

people take gap years or spend more time in uni

everyone goes at their own pace

[hidden roost]

My dad doesn’t like the idea of the whole refund thing since he won’t be getting the entire amount. He thinks it’s best to sit again and achieve a much better grade.

[hidden roost]

I know. Everyone says it but it’s so hard to deal with it. I’m a wreck emotionally and mentally.

[olive wadi]

@hidden roost brother im on similar boat , i promise u its better to spend extra year or two now and go to better places and avoid spending more years later , cus eventually u’d stumble and fall anyway , its best to figure it out now and fix it now. Ik ur mentally drained but honestly theres no way for u to go than up , pls dont give up and keep grinding thru the adversities life throws at u. I’m also working super hard every day to redeem myself , studying hours and hours to make up for my mistakes , u aint alone.

A lil back story on me; i gave AS levels first in oct 2020 then got poor results and tried it again in May June 2021 and got decent ish results then in May June 2022 in A2 i fucked up hard bec of many mistakes i did and now im a year behind some of my former classmates and i have been grinding hard since June for possible retake as i expect bad results

Ur situation is a bit harder than mine but honestly im glad to be able to make up for my mistakes and work for redemption every day , i fucked up when i shouldnt of and its on me entirely. But i hit my head to the rock enough to know that its time to wake up and get shit done. Idc if someone is going to university before me or working or whatever , my life my choices my problems my struggles and my path is what matters to me , i can only be happy for other ppl thats it. All i hope is that i dont fuck up again , but tbh im trying and grinding so hard i hope it pays off, i hope u do the same and find my level of motivation

[mossy delta]

but its 2 months left and im barely even ready

what do i do

im panicking

[olive wadi]

u start working

rn

instead of sitting and stressing snd doing nothing , u take action u take initiative

more u study the less the stress

[lavish spruce]

hey chill 2 months are alot i- feel like i'm not ready too bt we'll do it together

[hidden roost]

hope you get through it and thank you so much for trying to motivate me

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Hardstyle#2711

[olive wadi]

No problem bro , hope u grind and do it too

[dull pulsar]

My parents are fighting again. Mom is sobbing. How after 20 years of marriage do they not know how to be friends and have harmless conersations without being mean or triggering each other and escalating it i will never know. Cant study

they are rlly good at having that rock solid loyalty/commitment to each other for whatever reason but will never change their ways of communicating their thoughts and feelings in an unhealthy way

What do i do in this situation

And i know It'll never happen (🤞) but i have this dreadful feeling in me that things are gonna get physical any moment

Like y is it so hard to be nice

There are no big mistakes or its not that we're in some horrible situation in life for which they have to be this edgy and horrid

disgusting

[acoustic ore]

@dull pulsar I hope things between your parents get better

So like I've never met my dad before because he lives in England and I live in Africa. Its always been my mom and I. Even though my dad wasn't physically here, I still wanted him to be part of life. Last year my parents decided to get divorced and I was completely shattered.
I barely talked to my mom for a week and I didn't talk to my dad for like 3 months. My mental health started acting up. My anxiety got worse, I kinda got depressed as well and wanted to start cutt!ng.

I didn't want to do that so I developed a copping mechanism were I would tell myself I was fine until I started to believe. It worked until I finally decided to feel my emotions. I finally decided to tell my mom about my mental health a few months ago. It seemed like she understood a bit but she's embarrassed abt what ppl will say if she takes me to see a psychologist. Fast forward to last week, I had to do an oral exam in foreign language and I got a panic attack. I told my mom about it and she forbade me from saying anything related to mental health as long as I'm in her house

[cold quiver]

i have a twin brother and we are both sitting for out igcse this oct/nov om trying to convince him to study so because even tho we both are going for extra tuition he is still doing so badly in exams all he does is play games the entire time and sometimes he doesn't even listen to the tuition classes i tried convincing him to study but hes so ignorant and he is also very aggressive to my parents im trying to ask him to just put in some effort in this 2 months but he just doesnt want to listen he even keeps lying all the time and when he studies he just copy the ms and says he studied and then doesnt even care about preparing for exams Idk what to do so i just gave up on him

[olive wadi]

let him fuck up , perhaps it will act as a wake up call for him , u focus on urself , u tried as a sibling and warned him enough if hes not listening its on him entirely

seems he has more issues than just not studying

[grim void]

time will mould him

[olive wadi]

yep

its so much easier to say these things having gone thru them lmao

[grim void]

i wanted to type time will teach him his lesson but i thought ppl wouldnt like it that much but yes u said what i wanted to say bit less intensely? idk wtf ull call that

[olive wadi]

yeah i getchu but its not guaranteed either

personally it took me a zillion mistakes to finally wake up and mature

but i seen many who dont learn either

i always like to believe that making mistakes is very normal and okay sometimes healthy as long as i make a lesson out of it and never repeat it

[grim void]

yup agreed
but advice to the sibling would still be to not get aggressive with him and leave him if he doesnt listen

[olive wadi]

Yeah thats how i treat my younger brother

i warn him multiple times then its down to him to listen or not

sometimes ppl need to mess up to learn its normal

[eternal crown]

i cant fucking do chem, my mocks are tmr and ever since i started chem i can barely understand chem. and like the worst part is that i take co science so if i fuck chem my whole grade for bio and physics is fucked. i used to not pay much attention and like i have been working so hard for hte past year and like i feel like it all goes to fucking waste.

[olive wadi]

plus my brother is sensitive , stubborn and quick to violence so i avoid such interactions as much as possible

[eternal crown]

i just wanted to let it out for a bit b4 i fuck my mock tmr

[hollow oyster]

IGCSE?

[eternal crown]

yea

[olive wadi]

listen man ik its hard as hell but u gotta suppress that feeling rn and focus sharp on ur mocks , if u grinded so much u learned something at the very least focus on doing that cus u cant change anything else

maybe u’ll do good even who knows

[hollow oyster]

what topics are you having trouble in?

[olive wadi]

also yeah ask for last min help if u want in chem channels

[eternal crown]

like most of it, i can understand the basics of complex topics but then i can;t memorise for shit

[eternal crown]

thanks man

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Hardstyle#2711

[hollow oyster]

yeah chem do be like that :/

[olive wadi]

ofc bro dw , hang on

chem is a bitch

[hollow oyster]

good luck man

[eternal crown]

i swear man

[olive wadi]

remember even if things go south u’ll still have the experience and learn many things

coming from a guy who never passed chem at school

only clutched up in actual exams

🥲

[eternal crown]

wow

but like i dont even wanna do chem in future

or any science

but i dont want my cert to have shitty grades either

[olive wadi]

u can change in AL

look

[grim void]

just bear it for this year and try to get good grades so u can drop it in Alevels

[olive wadi]

igcse isnt hard

u can always retake

[eternal crown]

yea

[olive wadi]

do subject u like

dont worry so much

focus on whats infront of u first

[hollow oyster]

thats what I said too, and look where that got me lol

[olive wadi]

think about that after ur exams

[eternal crown]

okok

[olive wadi]

always focus on whats coming first

u cant change subjects rn? exam soon? then u buckle down and do ur best in ur exam

[eternal crown]

yeah, thanks man it really means a lit

lot*

[hollow oyster]

@eternal crown do you watch yt videos on chem?

[eternal crown]

yea

[hollow oyster]

freesciencelessons.uk saved my ass

[eternal crown]

like the dewit dude

[hollow oyster]

and altacademy saved me in AL

[eternal crown]

oh yeah him too

cox like i dont plan to do AL

im doiung IB

[hollow oyster]

honestly just do and memorize past papers

thats what I do for my papers lol

[eternal crown]

yeah ive been doing for other papers and ive been getting As

but like with science i just start blanking out

coz its all three science tgt

but yeah i try to cope wif it

[hollow oyster]

science does that to ya

fk chem

[eternal crown]

fk chem

anyways im gonna try to sleep and wakje early tmr

[hollow oyster]

GL bro

[eternal crown]

thanks for encopuragingf me guys

[eternal crown]

thanks man

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to BraveGuys42#5303

[cold quiver]

That's me with bio bro

[eternal crown]

bro just follow what they said

should help

😂

[olive wadi]

LOOOL

THAT MAN IS A LEGEND

brave ur so cultured man

👊

freesciencelessons literally was my trick to studying for physics and bio

[hollow oyster]

u too bro!

[olive wadi]

🤝

[hollow oyster]

🤝

[daring moth]

I didnt knew about that

[burnt grove]

doesnt he mainly teach GCSE and AL not international

how do u learn ur syllabus from him

[olive wadi]

at gcse science shit is very similar

[burnt grove]

couldnt watch more than 2 videos from him tbh

[olive wadi]

eh everyone has their preferences

he helped me grasp basic concepts

[cold quiver]

True but I also don't want my parents to fight because of him and both of them always argue with each other idk why my brother doesn't have any common sense to just study to make my parents happy instead he choose to talk back against them

[olive wadi]

Yeah i get you but its rlly not something on ur hands, whats on YOUR hands is YOUR studies and grades , if u want my advice for the short term just put ur head down and focus on getting best possible results for urself and u make urself proud first and foremost then ur parents , let them deal with ur brother , u be their happiness

[onyx laurel]

Yall

I'm juss gonna confess. I think we are all fkd

[hollow oyster]

Fr?

[onyx laurel]

Yup

[opal prism]

wdym by "we"

[onyx laurel]

The majority of 2022 results will be lower than 2021 results

[opal prism]

so?

that's a good thing

no more inflations of grades

[onyx laurel]

No it's not lmao

[hollow oyster]

Tf u on about

[onyx laurel]

Lots of ppl ain't getting good mate

[opal prism]

are u being fr

[onyx laurel]

Yup. Literally packing my bags nd getting ready to get deported by parents

[opal prism]

ur an IGCSE student calm down IGCSE isn't that hard

[opal prism]

look

if the grade boundaries

are lowered

[hollow oyster]

IG is hard for IG students

[opal prism]

than more ppl pass

[opal prism]

fax

[opal prism]

this is what ppl thought for the feb/march exams

and guess what

alot of ppl did well in them

[onyx laurel]

Ion know man ig we just wait and see

[hollow oyster]

We need to kill UK

[opal prism]

why? I agree but why?

[hollow oyster]

They created AL and IELTS

[opal prism]

true

but would you rather be doing BTEC though

instead of A-levels

[hollow oyster]

Whats BTEC

I just want them to show me my damn results already

[opal prism]

Business& Technology Education Council

[opal prism]

6 days left lol

[hollow oyster]

For u aswell?

Or 18th

[opal prism]

18th for me

[hollow oyster]

Sad

[onyx laurel]

Same

Yall predicting 9s or summ

[hollow oyster]

U

4U’s

[onyx laurel]

😭😭😭

[opal prism]

brave don't jinx urself

[light wharf]

will they be accessible online

the results

[hollow oyster]

Wdym

[cold quiver]

Yea and also his wasting our parents money by not even listening in tution classes I'm just mad at that tbh

[north karma]

I forgot to use the toilet paper i got poo poo on my hands :((

Oh oops this is venting

[rough holly]

okay basically this is gonna take a while

i have a rolling tones badge which i absolutely love, its my fav badge. I lost it one day and i thought i lost in central london or in the tube or smth and i was sad right. my baby cousin (5) found it in her room cause i stayed there for a night. She came a few days later wearing it and i said name thats my badge and i want it back. she screams in my face that its her badge so i tell her you can borrow it if you like and if you want i will get you a new one. She doesn't listen ( understandable cause shes a baby child etc) the badge fell i picked it up and she ran to her dad saying yoki stole my badge and shes in proper tears. this is the point that makes me really like sad, my uncle ( her dad ) says well she found it so its hers, finders keepers and if she wasn't wearing it i wouldn't have noticed it like what? personallly i don't think that makes sense (correct me if i am wrong tho) so i get a bit like upset ofc and say * its my badge, i bought it with my money and it is my property* he says don't speak about money like that. this point i get really upset cause he is full blown shouting at me. I go upstairs cause i'm upset, my uncle goes on a full blown tantrum and i ignore it rigth. then he says smth really bad bout my mum and i am like no fucking way, i say don't speak about my mum like that and he runs up the stairs ( context i am sitting on the bed, tbh i was crying but because of smth else mixed with the shouting, and hes standing right next to me) and he is doing his best to intimidate me arms crossed staring at me like hes legit about to harm me. he shouts while i talk and he like properly shouts at me for about 10 mins. anyways flash forward granny kicked him out of the house (w granny), my parents hear about ( they be aboard ) and say nothing is my fault etc. my granny then talks to them "explaining" what happened, they call me and say its all my fault like wtf 😐 anyways whats ur guys thought

thanks for coming to my yoki talk 👍

[grim void]

looks like an example of where adults start acting like kids or get overpossessive of there own kids :/

[rough holly]

ikr! he’s acting like a lil kid

it’s just reall annoying ykkk

but i really wanna know if i’m in the wrong, i don’t think i said anything wrong to my cousin considering she is like 5

but what really bugs me is that i’m annoyed at her, and she really didn’t do any wrong :(

[hearty sun]

;-;

You should've just stolen it back when she wasn't looking

[olive wadi]

such an azula thing to say

[olive wadi]

Ur uncle is an absolute moron , no offense , if i find your property it doesnt mean i magically own it now its still yours and if im a decent enough person i should return it. Theres no such thing as “finders keepers” thats bullshit. If u find something that isnt yours you either give it to the security or owners of the place if ur outside or if ur at home then ur parents or just keep it in ur home and contact the owner if u dont know who lost it they’ll eventually come back for it right? wheres the sense in this , dw some adults can be rlly stupid its human nature ur in the right here

Sorry this happened to u tho

Btw if an adult especially a parent and a family member such as an uncle , is instead of de-escalating and calming the situation is actually fueling it further , know that they are no adult , just physically an adult not mentally. No one in my family has ever escalated a situation like this , one this petty.

[rough holly]

i did 😎 then she went snitching

smh

[rough holly]

THATS EXACTLY EHAT I SAID

[rough holly]

yea even my mum agrees

ig what really hurt is, i’m really upset cause i don’t do well with being shouted at right. My dad calls and talks to me, he says he got me smth cause of how upset i sounded. He talks to my grandma then calls me to say i’ve cancelled it and if i find out you have been lying you’ll be a in a lot of trouble

like man what?!?

and then my mother called after and got mad cause i wasn’t spending enough time in the library 💀 legit after i told her i defended her

😔

oh well nothing i can do, i’m leaving in less than a year and i couldn’t be more excited

[mild compass]

I don't wanna study don't want marriage either. Don't wanna go hoeing around, wouldn't be happy anyway, and loosing connection with God. Maybe I already did I'm questioning everything, why did god create us? God created humans to worship God but at the same time God doesn't NEED my worship? Idk 😭😭😭
For God's sake idk what to do. I need to write personal statement, idk what to put in i didnt do any supercirriculqr activities nor good at writing... I wanna go to UCL like Z but dunno how to do that I just wanna f ing cry. Now I can smh understand why people get addicted to drugs, to forget bout life's insanity and just get high and enjoy. 😭😭😭

[mossy delta]

I think I lost the ability to function anymore

[olive wadi]

just my 2 cents from all the amount of mistakes i went thru and shit i went thru past years , i found out that we dont rlly have a purpose , we create a purpose for ourselves , idk if god rlly exists or not (im not a religious person) but i firmly believe that we are given freedom of choice and beliefs. You are free to believe in what you want to , follow what you want to but most of all make what purpose of life you want to. Do you want to be super rich and powerful? or lead a very meaningful life with a lot of family and friends around? or u just wanna work a decent job and chill with friends? or you want to drink ur days and do drugs and just fly high all the time? travel the world? like the list keeps going , imo "purpose in life" is nothing thats written down solid concrete , its something you decide. if you dunno what to do i suggest going out there and experiencing things and eventually u may find ur "purpose".

[olive wadi]

yeah i fail to understand ur parents tbh idk what logic this is but hey as u said ur leaving soon enough so might as well hang on since u dealt with this for so long anyway , whats another 6 months or something

u seem to be going strongly so keep going!

[mild compass]

Yeah you're rightt, thanks :))

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Hardstyle#2711

[olive wadi]

ur welcome <3

[rough holly]

update 👍 parents are saying it’s all my fault 🙂 cause i should have been quiet instead of defending myself. like man that’s fucking annoying. Oh and it’s also my fault that my uncle shouted at my granny 🤨

[olive wadi]

I dont agree that its ur fault but i will say this , being willing to take it easy and like ease the situation is much smarter than speaking out sometimes , like most adults i know are sturbborn as hell and wont budge so i just say ok ok ur right im sorry and we move on! Cus the more u answer to an adult no matter how right u are its just gonna escalate more. By no means any of this is ur fault but knowing when to be silent and take things on the chin will make ur life way easier , has done so in mine. But again clearly they were in the wrong here , no doubts.

[rough holly]

nah dw, i just said sorry that my tone prolly came out wrong, and that what you said didn’t sound like a joke etc but it’s just annoying cause i’m a child and he’s an adult. he should know a lot better than me. next time i’m just gonna shut my mouth

anyways thanks naf :)

[olive wadi]

yeah unfortunately despite claiming to be “adults” they dont always act like it if ever , i seen it myself a lot to know but dw the more these things happen the more u understand how to handle it , im fully confident these things wont bother u in future

[olive wadi]

always :)

[cerulean cedar]

Due to inflation one of my favourite ice cream chocolate bars has gone up from 30 to 40 rupees

(๑•́₋•̩̥̀๑)

(*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

[gentle lagoon]

Well due of taxes coke zero has gone up by 1 riyal

It's so hard to stock up on it

Coke zero is like the best. And it has zero calories it tastes so good you can drink it on a diet as well

[cosmic ginkgo]

Is..that supposed to be unironic

[north karma]

You think thats a joke bro???? COKE ZERO AND SPRITE ZERO ARE THE FUCKING BEST

[golden frost]

yah like liquid gold for cutting

[gentle lagoon]

Yes it is

And ps unironic is not a word

You just say not ironic

[hollow oyster]

💀 He just unironically said that 💀

[lament cloud]

Lmaoo

[dusk hawk]

i feel like a piece of ------
i got my alevels results today, 3A*, i should be happy. but i heard one of my old year group friends (i skipped grades) had 8 distinctions in their IGCSEs and already got above 90% in 4 subjects of their AS exams. Idk why i feel so much inferior, even though i skipped a grade and still got 3Astars, i dont feel happy, i feel anxious, and envious - i should be happy that my old friend has improved and started scoring top marks, but rather i feel upset. Is it normal to have that reaction, it feels very disgusting, and its been bugging me out. The one-year headstart i have is also burning away. Im regretting not taking 4 subjects and not putting more effort to get a higher percentage. I dont know why, but ive always compared myself to others, and i cant stand being so far behind others ; l dont like it when my peers score significantly higher than me, even if my own score is already high. I heard one of my other classmates got a B, and i felt relief from it, i felt relief from someone scoring lower marks. I also felt jealous or rather maybe threatened when a person, whom i continuously helped with their homework, scored similar marks to me. Why do i react in a such way, bcause logically, them scoring high marks will not affect my grades in any way, but i feel like, my own achievements are depreciated. I dont know... my academics have been the only thing that i could be proud of, but it seems that it can be achieved by anyone with a little bit of effort, and maybe that makes me insecure... i think.
And it becomes painfully clear whenever i try to learn something ; i have no talent in art, and effort wont change it, 2 years of practice and referencing has proven it, My piano is probably going to end up the same way, considering that its going nowhere
And idk why i felt like ranting here on this random alevels discord server, searching for pity? or maybe hoping to see someone whose worse off than me... i know, im bitter, envious and ungrateful

That felt much better, releasing an entire essay to a bunch of random strangers who i hope dont know me. Well, probably not, since im lacking in social aspects as well, but meh, im not here to purposely spout insults to degrade myself.
Thank you for reading, or at least, sorry for clogging up the chat space.

[hollow dew]

im so scared for my igcse results next week

and my anxiety is not helping

[north karma]

So you find “contentness” in being above others?

[lament cloud]

Tbh it was like that for me too

I got shit grades in A-Levels

But the fact that I turned out to be top 5 in my class made me feel so much better about myself

And once I got acceptance letters for some unis, I didn't even give a fuck anymore

[north karma]

Em i dont find much wrong with competitiveness

And feeling pleasure about being above others

But when it relies on the other party doing bad

It takes away the competitiveness

[lament cloud]

Ah

[north karma]

He said he felt relief

When someone did worse

[dusk hawk]

idk.maybe, maybe i prefer being "better" than people of my own age, i dont feel "discontent" when scoring lower than someone in my own alevels year group, maybe because "theyre older than me, so its natural to get higher scores", maybe its because i receive too much praise for skipping grades, and now its nothing, and im not "special", im not a "genius", im just "average smart",
I do feel "contentness" or relief being above others, maybe thats just the way i was raised in a ranking-based environment, a subtle superiority complex over other people. But now that facade is falling apart now i that its clear that what i achieve, can be easily achieved by the masses, and i dont even have co-curriculars because i was too cocky thinking that only academics matters, so that makes my 3A* almost worthless, even having 3A's and proper cocurricular history will land you in a better spot.

[north karma]

I see that you realize age doesnt matter

When it comes to merits

Atleast now

[dusk hawk]

maybe it just felt comforting knowing im at least better than someone. It didnt bother me throughout my entire life, that is until i encountered someone who went from average grades to surpassing me, and i realised that, ive been sitting on a false throne that can no longer handle the weight of my own ego.

[north karma]

Oh yea ignoring the fact that your even on any throne

If u sit there conceited

Someone or the other will take you over

Shit even if u do sit considering someone will take you over

And take measures to improve yourself

Someone will take you over

[dusk hawk]

yep it had already happened

[north karma]

Its inevitable

Theres always someone better than you

Theres nothing wrong with liking being on a “throne”

[hollow oyster]

My master once said “There is always bigger fish”

[north karma]

Or being better than others

Jus try to look at it from the perspective of you doing better than them

Than them doing worse than you

[dusk hawk]

idk but i was just always used to being like a "king" in my own country around the people i know. I dont have a large social circle, so ive always been conceited, and considered myself smart by comparing myself to the very few people around me. Back then, even hearing about others achieving high grades didnt matter to me, cuz they werent people i knew ; but when it came to my acquaintances surpassing me, it felt like i was overthrown by my retainers. thats a pretty self-centered way of thinking, but theres no point hiding my personality to internet strangers

[north karma]

Holy shit thats edgy

I wanna blame that way of thinking partially on the people around you

Tho i wanna ask

[dusk hawk]

yep, thats what im doing, i feel relief when they do worse than me, because it puts me above them. but that doesnt work. @zbrave did say it correctly, there will be certain people that are inveitably better than me which i cant compare with. But its like a smaller fish who later became a shark and then ate me.

[north karma]

Do you wanna continue thinking being this way

Ah okay yeah ig u dont

[dusk hawk]

i dont think so, maybe im just lucky that i didnt encounter people better than me,(until now)

[north karma]

Unlucky rather

The worlds a big place

Getting conceited this early on

Stops growth

[dusk hawk]

yea, but idk if i could really change that way of thinking.

[north karma]

You jus finished a levels

Im assuming ur heading into uni

Afaik uni is a good place to start a new

Try new shit out

[dusk hawk]

Normally when people are better than me i strive to one-up them, but youre right, its no going to be possible to do that anymore

[dusk hawk]

Oh

Im thinking of a local uni or maybe one university in japan.

[north karma]

No thats fine dude

Strive to one up people

If u find joy in it

But dont think like a “king”

That ur tryna hold some worthless position

[dusk hawk]

Yea that make sense, i guess in university, nobody cares about your position, because the end game is to achieve a life/job that you want for yourself?

[north karma]

Nah

End game

Is what u want it to be

[kind granite]

See what people think doesn't matter

[north karma]

I have no jurisdiction to say

What peoples end games should be

[kind granite]

You care about the position you keep yourself at and strive to improve urself

[north karma]

Do whatever the hell u want

[kind granite]

A tough lesson I had to learn was that I improved when I focused on myself and competed with myself

When I competed with a classmate my grades were stagnant and when I focused on myself it improved a lot

[north karma]

(Not tryna turn this into a debate ily) im jus making the point he should probably not be concerned about some false throne its jus making him conceited and limiting growth

[dusk hawk]

Well my thoughts are now clearer. Maybe ill just try applying to a bunch of japanese universities, and try my luck

[north karma]

Jap unis are weird hf

[kind granite]

Exactly 💯 not disagreeing one bit and ily too 😂

[kind granite]

Go for it ᕙ(•̀ᗜ•́)ᕗ

[north karma]

#venting guys i need to confess

I fucking love femboys

[dusk hawk]

well i strive better competing with others. i skipped grades and even lost 30kgs once because of my envy. Its not exactly that i cant achieve higher, its just that, i cant exactly compete against a junior student since i already graduated. though now its clear that i shouldnt even bother competing with people behind me

[dusk hawk]

hmm

what kinds?

Astolfo

[north karma]

All.

Inc veyzard

[kind granite]

Exactly just work to improve yourself and achieve your targets

[dusk hawk]

yea, japan is somehow renowned for their sciences and technology (theyre at least better than my country)., but for some reason their veterinary medicine universities are lower ranked than in my country, kinda sus. my country is third wor- i mean "developing" by the way

[kind granite]

No problem also try Europe for the sciences and technology as well

Not UK I mean more do central europe

More

So

[dusk hawk]

whoof nope, in my currency, i could buy a house with those tuition fees 😭

[north karma]

Europe is cheaper

[kind granite]

There are unis that are quite cheap over there

Ngl

[north karma]

Than the common spots

Like UK US

Canada

[kind granite]

And they are renowned

[north karma]

Good scholarships too

If u want and have time

[dusk hawk]

Tbh, i mostly wanna apply to japan cuz of their relatively cheap fees + scholarship
plus im a degenerate weeb

[north karma]

U could gap year for a language too

[dusk hawk]

really?

[north karma]

And get into a no tuition university

[dusk hawk]

For veterinary medicine its quite un-worth it to pay a lot 😭

[kind granite]

One sec was in a fall guys match

Yeah in countries like Finland, hungary and even prague

[north karma]

BRUH THIS GUY 🤣

[dusk hawk]

englisn't

[kind granite]

Also Germany

I *

[hollow oyster]

The hottest men go to finland

[kind granite]

@north karma 😂😜

[dusk hawk]

then where do the femboys go?

[kind granite]

Prague ig

[north karma]

🥴

[hollow oyster]

Fr

[north karma]

I thought hungary

[kind granite]

Hahahaha nope

Anyways @dusk hawk seriously best of luck and take it easy.. Compete with urself

[dusk hawk]

to prague igo

[kind granite]

I was joking btw

I don't really know where femboys go

Plus pragues very bureaucratic with the viss

Visa

[dusk hawk]

Thank you and i will now mass apply myself to several universities

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Veyzard16#1807

[dusk hawk]

Thank you to @hayz, enjoy some rep which is worthless 😭

[kind granite]

💯💯🎉🙏

[dusk hawk]

dammit discord dont convert my emoticons

:/

[cosmic ginkgo]

Apparently Denmark has English unis

[cold quiver]

i kinda like this girl recently but she doesnt event show interest in me like ik shes busy cuz she has a part time job and we have our igcse in 2 months maybe im disturbing her too much and she thinks im annoying

[mild compass]

shoot your shot

[cold quiver]

like lewangoalski?

ill try

[mild compass]

day 3 of being sick due to results brah. hate how i’m personally so affected by it, i’ve to be bed riddle. wish i was smarter or something 🤠

[neon urchin]

why you bed sick cuz of results? was it stress?

[ionic copper]

hi, i want to know who is currently studying at a university that is outside of their home country? i want to know how do you deal with such things like unfamiliarity with the surroundings and loneliness and constantly having to be independent by yourself and also no parents at all? integrating to a whole different culture, how are you able to survive and manage this for a couple of years

[cosmic ginkgo]

Have faith that you'll get there, friends always help, even if it's calling your old friends while you cook and stuff

Learn some cooking when you're home so you have some things that you can whip up easily

I find food very close to home for me, so I fight homesickness by eating home food - I bring a lot of food when I travel😂

And call your parents often if you feel homesick, uni isn't like school where you only come back at 4 so you can call them during lunch

Initially you'll also be quite excited with things starting so it'll be easier

[mild compass]

good luck

[barren remnant]

/roles

[wintry rampart]

right wing supporters have less brain cells than a newborn infant

especially if they're so gullible to political brainwashing

treating their crooked leader as jesus

and calling the opposition "dead" or satan

when the darkness in them are consuming them

and in reality, they are the ones who are dead

cause they are the ones who wanted to suffer more

[cerulean cedar]

Which country's right wing

[wintry rampart]

Marcos supporters

those who thought that martial law = freedom and no criminals

when in reality, their kids disappear and die

willing to send their more credible kids to military school

when has critical thinking and logic fallen?

god, how i wish for these mudpeople to be culled like chickens

if i had a business, i'd deny these entitled imbeciles

until they begin to wake up from their fantasies

they just don't know the fact that actions have consequences

[ionic copper]

maybe its too late for this :’)

thank u for the advices tho

im already feeling slightly homesick rn and what sucks abt premed school is that it requires 95% attendance or i wont pass

and i cant go home anytime soon unless holiday

[cosmic ginkgo]

It's not too late ❤️ call your parents/ sibling/ grandparents and ask them to tell you how to make something simple

[cosmic ginkgo]

Have you had a chance to go out and do something new maybe?

[ionic copper]

yeah i’ve done those sorta stuff over the weekends w my new friend circles. it was pretty fun and also tiring but its alright. apparently everyone there is already over 18 except me and we went to bistro bar. my parents are def gonna kill me if they know what im doing rn

and also i thought all med kids are just diligent, behaved, and virtuous but in close doors they’re all like fucked up in their head lol. not even a week, i already know most ppl here that r seniors consumes ritalin and stuff like that

[mild compass]

wow damn

[cosmic ginkgo]

Tbf everyone has their issues one way or another

Maybe try studying in libraries or something to have a different space

[cosmic ginkgo]

That's good! And hey as long as you're sensible you'll be okay

[olive wadi]

no ones gonna be sane after studying so many hrs like med students

[ionic copper]

yeah tru, gonna be me later on then 🥲

[onyx laurel]

How's everyone feeling now that results day is 2 days away

[kindred ridge]

I want to retake my AS exams

[boreal ivy]

ت

[plush depot]

how do yall self study

[rain root]

I'm still trying to get used to it

[wintry rampart]

look back at your notes and answer some practice questions on your textbooks/powerpoints that your teachers have given you.

practice will always lead to mastery, especially in mathematics

[lone cloak]

can i abuse here?

if not then fuck u

[wintry rampart]

say no more

[finite badge]

i was making a discord server for my batch (o levels 9th grade) and i thought i had a chance to do something big before a levels or at least university so that i could add it in my admission letter for university. knowing znotes' founder is in A2 (4 years ahead of me), i feel really discouraged now. i know its going to be hard to be able to apply to a university in ontario since canda has free health care so they want the absolute best students and not students that have a chance of failing but i made a list of things id have to do in order to be a top student in o and a levels so that i can apply to a university in ontario and already i feel like it isnt gonna be enough.

if this sounds like im rambling then just ignore me, i do it all the time with this sorta thing 😬

[daring moth]

Is okay! U still have enough time..like PLENTY of time!!! Just be focused on studies and yh work on extra curriculars too!

[finite badge]

i know i have plenty of time but all that time still might not be enough in order to become a top student (extracurriculars included). a discord server for my o levels batch isnt too complicated but my friends are already giving up because of how hard we have to study since we have IGCSE exams to give this year as well. im lost right now

[daring moth]

Hmm well...just dont lose hope!! Things will all get right for u! Also apart from the discord server...i would suggest that you go for some other extracurriculars too..like sports or debate..If can go for olympiads too!! I know they be quite hard but worth the try!

[north karma]

Znotes founder is not in a2

Hes done with his masters

[wintry rampart]

joining a student organization seems to be a good idea too.

[daring moth]

Yess thats rlly good too!

[finite badge]

he has the role tho

[finite badge]

oh

[north karma]

Well yeah

Hes gonna check all the channels

[finite badge]

i smell

a chance

a chance to do something big

cant get cocky though

this is my first time without any thorough research, just doing whatever ive thought of so far

[north karma]

AMOGUS @hollow oyster

[hollow oyster]

SUSSY

AMOGUS

[wintry rampart]

petition to name this channel #amogus-impostors

[mild compass]

how do you calm yourself down

before results

lol

[north karma]

Culm down

[mild compass]

what

[north karma]

Culm down bro

[mild compass]

wdym

that

doesn't tell me anything

[daring moth]

Binge watch something maybe? ||thats what i did ||

[mild compass]

I'm getting more anxious by the minute

like

Nothings helping me get it off my mind now

[daring moth]

Yeah it happened with me too...

So i spent the whole day watching all of us are dead😂😂😂

[mild compass]

that's quite fitting for 1 day before results xD

Well I've got 12 .5 hours from now for results

and idk what to say

when do thresholds come out? I'm worried they'll be really high

[daring moth]

Oooo best of luck! Dw

[mild compass]

thanks, and well, I'm trying

I just hope I get the grades I want

I'd be fine with maybe 1 B

[daring moth]

They come few hours prior to result

[mild compass]

But 2 would be bad

[mild compass]

I've heard it's gonna be 2 hours before results tomorrow

Does that seem right?

[daring moth]

Is okay u wont Hopefully!

[daring moth]

Yess

[mild compass]

Oh well seems like I won't be sleeping

cuz then with that thresholds come out at 6am and results at 8am for me

and I don't know if i go to school tmr or not

I feel like I should

[daring moth]

Well its ur choice if u want to but i did go because I couldn’t handle my anxiety

[mild compass]

well I can't handle it much rn either

maybe I should go in that case

[daring moth]

Yeah and BEST OF LUCK!!

[mild compass]

thank you :)

[mild compass]

i got an A* , A and B :)

[daring moth]

Hey thats good! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!

[mild compass]

hey thanks again lmao

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to notAnxiety#0870

[onyx laurel]

Guys I'm feeling like I'm about to off myself😭😭 I need a emotional stable person to talk about my problems too

[mild compass]

@daring moth @cosmic ginkgo can you help

because i am the opposite of emotional and stable

[onyx laurel]

💀💀

[wintry rampart]

man, i'm so damn nervous

i knew i shoudl have pre-enlisted that early

now i may end up putting myself in a worse schedule next term

[wintry rampart]

every day i get classes except for sunday

[daring moth]

Tbh same! But I just try to cope up with everything...sometimes it feels impossible to do so..but at the end of the day...whatever happened happened...u just have to let go and find ur happiness

[daring moth]

Except friday

[wintry rampart]

not friday

[mossy delta]

Im scared for october

[plush depot]

Halloween?!

[mild compass]

Ik this isnt health releated but how tf do i stop beating myself up before i end up kms

[tidal wolf]

why are you beating yourself up
also consider seeing a therapist preferably in real life

[mossy delta]

Sadly ,...... no , exam session 😎

[river wadi]

Hey, you doing ok now?

[wintry rampart]

can't wait to provide halloween/urban-legend facts this october.

[plush depot]

damn, how do manage to constantly supply these facts bruh

[valid sun]

https://tenor.com/view/press-button-explosion-cat-explode-smoke-gif-15737430

[tepid delta]

I want to kms

studying the same subject for the 3rd time is mentally tiring

not to mention the inevitable comparisons

honestly no hate to ducky cause that's a damn fine achievement

But thank fuck my parents are not in this server

or i'd get the inevitable comparisom

Honestly just living each day is so tiring

why in bloody fuck am i still alive

just driving 40km a day for tuition

And honestly sometimes i just wanna crash into a tree or something

i wanna start screaming,shouting

break everything and go insane

but I FOOKING CAN'T

I CANNOT FOKSMASH THE DOORS (pls get reference)

I'm sick man

Parents comparing

Friends going

Cambridge being an utter asswipe

I really want to kill myself.

From where I'm standing it does seem like the best option on the table

[thick birch]

Do you?

[daring moth]

Is okay...guess u have desi parents? Cuz happens with me too ....so i know how it feels, and yh just forget it and just keep on focusing on your grindset!! So to ace the exams this year!! DW

|| @tepid delta forgot to ping||

[hollow oyster]

no man, I can understand what you're feeling but suicide is not an option at all, who knows maybe in the future you'll be happier and grow to be better. Once you are finally done with AL you never have to deal with them again so best to just persist and push through.

[tepid delta]

Sometimes.

My mom did try to choke me though

[plush depot]

whoa what

bro belts fire thick ass wood (idk whats that called) is all normal

but choking

[daring moth]

||i dont know what to say either..||

[plush depot]

surely they can switch to online right

[tepid delta]

I can't do well online

In person better for me

I'm willing to make that sacrifice

[mossy delta]

i really need help , can someone please talk to me , im not in a good place mentally right now

[cedar carbon]

What’s up

[thick birch]

Are you in undergrad?

[tepid delta]

I should've been

I got a college seat and everything

[thick birch]

Why did your mom choke you?

[tepid delta]

Only to find out when I got my certificates that I passed only my AS components

[tepid delta]

Cause my dad didn't want to see me

my family had weird avenues for grief is all I can say

[thick birch]

So you didn't do well in ur a2?

@tepid delta

[tepid delta]

Failed A2 maths twice now

[thick birch]

Maths the only problem?

[tepid delta]

Yeah

[thick birch]

You trying to repeat it?

Why did ur dad didn't wanna see you again?

[thick birch]

.

[tepid delta]

Cause....well i failed

And we paid a shit ton for the college seat

[tepid delta]

Yeah

[thick birch]

Why did you fail?

[tepid delta]

Apparently it's cause my working wasn't good enough

cambridge don't give marks if the working isn't up to their standard

So i'm going through everything p3 has to offer

[thick birch]

Ur working?

[mossy delta]

I'm so frightened for my igcse exams , I'm not sleeping , I'm not eating , I'm having nightmares if I sleep , I'm sick , I'm dizzy I'm restless , I'm just not well

[tepid delta]

No no

[tepid delta]

alright bro/sis

I understand the fear

igcses are tough

This may be overheard

Keep calm and revise with past papers

You got this

[mossy delta]

I'm sick , I'm stressed , keeping having nightmares about my igcse exams , I keep panicking, can't eat, can't get out of bed sometimes I'm so depressed , and I'm not studying cause I'm depressed , everyone is expecting so much from me but I think I'll disappoint them, I can't take it anymore

[tepid delta]

||cause trust me igcses are nothing compared to the hellscape that's as and a levels||

[thick birch]

@tepid delta your working? So you never went through the ms?

[tepid delta]

not really

[thick birch]

Why not?

[tepid delta]

i didn't have proper teaching for my a2 levels

It was all online schooling

[thick birch]

I self studied @tepid delta

[tepid delta]

so i couldn't understand half the stuff being thought

[thick birch]

You can too

[tepid delta]

i can self study but i'm no good in math

So i've been going to a tuition

It's helping

but yeah man, sometimes I just get the urge to yeet myself off

it's just pent up frustruation

[thick birch]

Is it really helping?

@tepid delta are you giving ur best shot this time?

[tepid delta]

I hope so man

[thick birch]

U hope so?

[tepid delta]

i'm throwing everything I can at this

[tepid delta]

It is

[tepid delta]

Replying to this

She's teaching me a lot more than I learnt in school

[thick birch]

Why don't you look up tl maths

It's in youtube

[tepid delta]

I'm using Intuitive as well

[thick birch]

And you can always ask in the maths channel for help

@tepid delta are you going to pass this time?

[thick birch]

When's ur exam?

The real reason for depression is that we are not grateful for what we have

A laborer who gets daily wages doesn't get depression, cz if he does he has to starve and his whole family has to starve... Now tell me what's better one person going through depression or the family starving 🙂...

[tepid delta]

I hope

I think i will

[thick birch]

I don't know how much this will affect but please, you think you are depressed, fine you are depressed now but don't be depressed again... Don't do things that make you feel what depression makes you feel... Try to do something better with yourself, start with turning off that console or whatever the thing is that drains off ur energy when u are unconscious... You can get better, you can, anyone can. And yea we all feel low but we have to get back up, the one's who get back up again and again and again are the one's you see become the real champions

[thick birch]

That's it u have to believe in urself

Never give up

U can pass and when i say pass you can pass with good grades

[tepid delta]

Thanks @thick birch

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Zul#4136

[tepid delta]

I needed that

[thick birch]

Put in the work, you can... I know you can. The first thing u did to get better is to seek help

[tepid delta]

Will do man

[thick birch]

And that's good, you have to do better. Have to build urself so oneday you can be financially stable then u can be whoever u want but now u owe ur parents a lot... We all do

[tepid delta]

I don't hate my parents

i just wished things were different was all

[thick birch]

U wished now let that go

It's not different just not...

Don't Pity urself thinking u deserve better... U have to work with what u have

Work on little things and then they will compound for you... In ways u can't even imagine

@tepid delta u can, u know you can and i know you can... There's no excuse,thrive for what you want and give it ur time... Things will get better

[tepid delta]

thank you man

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Zul#4136

[tepid delta]

i will work

[thick birch]

U have no other choice

[tepid delta]

Yep

[wintry rampart]

imagine your college's enrollment system being so dogshit

[north karma]

Mashallah zul “fine you are depressed but dont be depressed again”

Make this man president

[thick birch]

😑

@north karma i meant cut the things from the source that makes him depressed, my eng is terrible

Like don't do stuff that causes depression

Btw @north karma congratulations on ur result, forgot to congratulate

[mossy delta]

5 October

I start writing 5 October and everyone is expecting so much from me when I'm really a dunce

[thick birch]

Tbh i think o levels is harder than a levels

For me it was

Like in o levels i used to have all this subjects, if i messed up once like didn't study, things just collapse

[mossy delta]

i have 7 subjects and i feel like im jus drowning in it

[thick birch]

Had 8 subjects soo i think studying 8 subjects is harder than studying 3 subjects in Alevels

U can't do everything in one day

[mossy delta]

can i get As in 30 days ? i have some progress i just hope i can pass

people are expecting alot

maybe if i speed from all paper from 2003 i can do smth

[thick birch]

What grade do u get now?

U have everything covered? The syllabus

[mossy delta]

i covered teh syllabi for every subject except geo and history

i get b to a

[mossy delta]

depending on the subject

[plush depot]

you're retaking because you got b's?

[mossy delta]

noooo like for my predicted grades i get as and bs , on my mocks i got 5 as 2 bs

[plush depot]

ahh

surely you can get those A's, you're doing pretty good so far

[mossy delta]

i hope s , the only thing stoping me right now is exhuastion and depression

[thick birch]

Why are you depressed?

[thick birch]

Hate it when ur family wants you achieve stuff that you don't want to achieve

I have this mindset that if i make wrong decisions with my life, it is my call it is always better than someone making decisions for me and me being in a better place in the society, it's not my call... If i end up being a broke cz of me it's alright will accept that... Now people tell me that i am stubborn

[thick birch]

They think they are spending money on me so they have that... It's all messed up

[mossy delta]

I'm sad because I think I'll fail , and I'll be be disappointment of the family

[olive wadi]

if ur getting A's and B's how on earth are u gonna fail this exam? have some confidence , real failure is accepting defeat go out there and conquer that exam u grinded so much for why give up on the last stage?

[cold quiver]

Dude he failed his math and ict for m/j and he only got 3 credits my parents took away his laptop

Lmao

[glossy pewter]

Wait 3 credits 👀 what’s that

[cold quiver]

Credit is a C and above

It's what ya need to enter college

[glossy pewter]

Out of how many subs

[cold quiver]

5

[thick birch]

it's soo easy to get a credit

the word credit sounds cool

thought credit would be some cool shit

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm then it real bad dude

I thought 7 was minimum for igcse

So even with less he did that bad wow

Everyone in my class got one A*

One

For languages 😆

[thick birch]

you won't fail, i don't know you but can tell that

[glossy pewter]

Apart from me

[thick birch]

same

B in bangla

and B in english

rest be A*

[glossy pewter]

C in Swahili

[thick birch]

every one in my class got minimum A

[glossy pewter]

And A in firs language English

[glossy pewter]

Sameeee

[unreal shadow]

new discord update is aids

[thick birch]

I DON'T SEE NO UPDATE

CZ YOU KNOW AM BLIND

[unreal shadow]

no idk that

[glossy pewter]

Ahhhh the sunglasses makes sense now

[thick birch]

[brave nebula]

my mom is still pissed at me for getting 7A's, 1 A*and 1B in my gcse's 👍

and keeps comparing me to other ppl

[glossy pewter]

Mine also did that for a while but then eventually they stopped caring

[glossy pewter]

Btw congrats 🎉

[brave nebula]

thank u

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to greenfalcon#1104

[brave nebula]

i hope my parents stop caring too

[glossy pewter]

I shouldn’t tell my grades 😂😂

[glossy pewter]

They will eventually and look at you as an amazing individual

[brave nebula]

thank u sm!!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to greenfalcon#1104

[daring moth]

What did u get👀👀

I wanna know

👀👀👀

[thick birch]

[thick birch]

do you have ur as book?

is there any table or sth that has a list of oxidation states for elements?

i think it had

i don't have the book with me, can you please see if there is sth like that or not?

@daring moth

[glossy pewter]

I kinda revealed it above
I sucked at languages and the five subs I choose I got A*

So 5 A* 1A 1C

But it’s the past

😌

[daring moth]

Okay lemme go check..but i am pretty sure theres was list of that in olevel’s book..u want me to give that too?

[daring moth]

Ooohhh damnnn!!! Yeah i sucked at language too!!!

[glossy pewter]

What did you get huh 👀👀

[daring moth]

I got

....

[daring moth]

9 of them

[thick birch]

Yes

[slate stirrup]

cries in A*s

[glossy pewter]

See you just one upping me

[glossy pewter]

Let me check

Do you want a pic of it or smt

[daring moth]

I just looked up ..theres no table in as book...

[glossy pewter]

Ah can’t send pic here

[daring moth]

Will it be okay i send olvel’s one tmrw?..i will have to search the book..

[daring moth]

Of?

Like theres no table ryt..?

[daring moth]

Ehh..no i just got lucky...

[thick birch]

As ones would be better

[thick birch]

u can dm me

[glossy pewter]

In chat lounge

[hollow oyster]

brother you took 7 A Levels?

nvm probably OL

[daring moth]

Yep olvel

[glossy pewter]

Yes not a level 😂😂

Took 5 a level

[cold quiver]

is it weird that i like girls with abs?

even tho im a boy

[lament cloud]

No

[thick birch]

wtf bro

u like girls in this time that's a win, whatever else you like in girls don't matter

[lament cloud]

If he doesn't like girls is that not a win 💀

[north karma]

No theyre hot as fuck

[north karma]

Ofc being gay is L being bisexual W

Jok

[lament cloud]

Ik

[north karma]

Its venting had to

[lament cloud]

Yepp

[north karma]

Btw eminem may i ask

Do you have any experience in building bed frames

[thick birch]

Ugh if he doesn't like any gender then that's a win i would say, no one would be able to drive him nuts

[lament cloud]

No

[north karma]

Fuck

Wait till zul hears about what pansexual actually is

[lament cloud]

And omni

And what the difference is

[north karma]

Bruh the fuck is omni

[thick birch]

Assembling yes

[north karma]

Is this ben 10?

[north karma]

Have u done the ikea bed malm

Im stuck on screwing in the metal rails

Its like the last few things

[lament cloud]

Omnisexual is attraction to people of all genders
Pansexual is attraction to all people regardless of gender

[north karma]

Ah

Thats stupid

Theyre the same thing

One is jus more so looking for attention

[lament cloud]

Lmfao

[north karma]

Im p sure u can even logic statement to prove theyre the same

[lament cloud]

Tbf gender and sexualities sorta defy logic so

[north karma]

Fuck bro sherlock holmes

All the philosophers

Mathematicians cant figure out logic behind gender

Thats why we have gender studies BSc

[thick birch]

Idk what that bed was called... Had to put together the pieces then there was that screw that just doesn't go in, then found that my alignment wasn't right... This wouldn't help you i think🙂

[lament cloud]

Do you think genders and sexualities are influenced by nature or nurture

[north karma]

Nurture

[lament cloud]

I genuinely don't think it's a genetic thing

[north karma]

These fuckers out here changing genders too often

The only thing they might genetically pre disposed to

Is thinking their gender is their identity

[lament cloud]

Agreed

[thick birch]

It's not there's a reason there are more gay men in the west

It all depends on the habitat

[lament cloud]

nahhh theres a similar proportion of gay men in all countries

its just that many are scared of coming out coz of fear of being bullied or even killed

especially those that come from religious families

[obtuse vector]

it is important to note the difference between gender and orientation

[lament cloud]

true

[cosmic ginkgo]

Also there's a mindset change of people now having their gender or sexuality as their defining feature

[lament cloud]

Hayz said this as well

[thick birch]

i don't know that then

[plush depot]

is it possible to get atleast a B in three subs for oct/nov?

ill be happy with that tbh

[glossy pewter]

It is dude

But it won’t just happen 😂😂

You need work hard

Because you have both as and a2

But it is possible

[glossy pewter]

Just don’t give up 😆

[olive wadi]

why wouldnt it be

[unreal shadow]

dw about what you'll get

just work as hard as you can

even A/A* could be possible

if you work your hardest then you have nothing to worry about

[olive wadi]

One tip i have

aim as high as possible so u work super hard

even if u dont make it

to ur goal

u will still achieve smth good

like for example if u aim for A and work super duper hard , if u dont make it u will still get a B or C at worst

[glossy pewter]

[hybrid kiln]

Wat do u take?

[plush depot]

ppl who where expecting A's got C for m/j man

oh wait naf said it

nvm

[plush depot]

meth phys c.s

[hybrid kiln]

goodluck kitty

[glossy pewter]

Those ppl are overconfident big head who got A* in igcse

That is the main reason ppl fail in as

They keep thinking they smart from ig

[glossy pewter]

It’s actually doable

Just work hard

Your hard work willl neverrrr fail you 😆

[thick birch]

what's that haha supposed to mean?

[glossy pewter]

That it will never fail you 👀

[thick birch]

🙂

[hidden kernel]

Biology 😦

[unreal shadow]

so true bro

[olive wadi]

are u okay?

u seem so stressed from that venting

[hidden kernel]

I'm

Idk at this point

[glossy pewter]

It will be fine dude

You just started 😂

Over time you will get stuff

Cause tbh I didn’t get any as shit till January 💀💀

[olive wadi]

yup its normal at start

i was so disconnected its unreal

[valid sun]

God, why is Electrochemistry so hard? If only Chemistry was as easy as remembering maths' equations... Istg sometimes Chemistry just doesn't make sense. Like why does it not have like rules that work universally and instead is so cryptic... Sometimes this happens in these conditions and in others 182937192837 different things happen. IG Chem was nothing compared to the stuff in these 2 years. I miss the good old days... Part of me is stuck in the past. A lot has happened and is happening so quickly, it's blowing my mind

No time to calm down and relax for a second without having to think about other things/feel guilty about doing something else other than studying

yet i cant help myself and keep playing anyway

[thick birch]

Yes electro chem is hard but with practice you can solve the easy one's

[thick birch]

.

You need to give it more time than other chapters

You can go over the textbook discuss with other students here and there's that website chemguideuk or sth, it helped me clear out the confusions i had and helped me understand the theory

First you won't understand why things are happening, try to solve questions, if u can't solve em ask in the a2 channel and yea ask why, like the thought process and why they are solving it that way

@valid sun

Electro chem really was a pain up that 💀

But with practice you can solve em

There are some questions that doesn't make any sense , tbh @remote bison and me left those questions sometimes it's better to skip a rare question of 2-3 marks for the rest of the marks

[hidden kernel]

Chemistry 😦

[cerulean cedar]

It'll get easier with practice just work hard :)

[hidden kernel]

Lol

[remote bison]

yea lol, like even the teachers were like yea na fook this

[worn gyro]

الله ينور عليك

[glossy pewter]

Translate mf

[worn gyro]

You hit the nail right on the head

[glossy pewter]

Oh okay

[glossy pewter]

Don’t do different languages

[worn gyro]

Only realized it after graduation

Got As in IG

And then b’s and c’s in as

[glossy pewter]

Yeah it happens a lot dude

[worn gyro]

Well it doesn’t matter for me now

But looking back at it I wish someone told me that

[glossy pewter]

Sorry dude 💀

[grim void]

esp after getting expected IG grades or giving half papers for that grade

[glossy pewter]

Bro the ppl who got predictions failed a lot

My last year 13 class was the worst ever

They didn’t do igcse

So they mostly failed

Highest was a one A and two B in A2

[rough holly]

i’m back, i know i was very much missed. i guess i’m just sick of everyone telling me everything i do wrong? like i used to have a really close friend until i realised our relationship was very very toxic for me, who every single fucking day would make me apologise for the tiniest of things. Omg i went onto insta without saying morning to them first, massive ass paragraph yk those types of things, sad thing is that i cared so much i let this person completely destroy anything that was really left of me, i would become numb to everything. Then you got my parents who insult me 24/7??? then say it’s a joke??? like man no. can’t tell my mum anything about my mental health cause then she says i’m a attention seeker and “begging for sympathy”, i legit tell her i want to kms and she says so do many other people and starts comparing me to herself, other people and how i shouldn’t want to do that because i have everything i ever need. maybe i do, but all i really really want is just a mum who cares for me that others do. I have physical parents but emotionally i have no one to talk to irl and ig that just sucks. then u got my baby bro, love him but he’s such a baby. His shoulders hurt because he’s been carrying a bag all day so i’m made to hold it, on top of me carrying like 5 text pics and my laptop then my parents got mad cause i didn’t wanna? my friend care but they just don’t realise what sort of stress i’m under and i don’t think anyone will ever understand. anyways anyone got any tips on how to actually like deal with people like this? instead of ignoring them cause that don’t work

[mild compass]

cut them off, life’s too short to deal w these kinda ppl. U’ll meet amazing ppl in the future ur life has just started and friends in school/college are never meant to stay forever. Take it as a lesson and move on. U dont need ppl to be happy, learn to enjoy ur own company, u gotta have ur own back no one else is gonna do it for me

and trust me on this, ur parents are the only ppl who genuinely care for u

u might not understand now

wtv u said ab ur parents, i used to think like that too

but now when i think back, i realise they were never wrong. It all makes sense now

dont stress urself, take it one day at a time. Everything will alr, it always does

<3

[glossy pewter]

Ah I am gonna be honest this is the typical life of a teenager
Over time you will start understanding my friend how important your parents are and you will start regretting all the bad stuff you told them

Right now you might feel like they hate you

But just know this

No one else in your life will stand by your side at a time of need

Other than your parents

[mild compass]

true

man i regret so much for all the shit i said to my parents ;-;

[glossy pewter]

Me too man

I just wish I could take everything back

[mild compass]

i knoww😣

i used to think they dont give a fuck ab me but now i understand they are all i got

[glossy pewter]

But anyways @rough holly just know it will get better dude I don’t know your age but you might be around 16 17 and you realize it is just a fraction of your entire life so don’t give up and think of self harm because that’s what most ppl these days do and just hope tomorrow will be better than today

[glossy pewter]

True bruh

[olive wadi]

As my good friends above said just hold on for a while , this is smth most of us went thru now i didnt say anything i would regret to my parents but they definitely put me thru a lot of crap whos consequences i still suffer but they also been trying to make amends for it too , but back in May when i had my colossal fall and my whole world crumbled family but especially parents were there for me , i realized in that moment how much i mistreated and wasted time by not spending it more with them , at the end of it all they are the ones who will give u a hand to help u stand up once u fall , and the pain ur going thru rn is worth it in near future , come and vent here irs most i can offer we’ll be here for u but know that one day everything will turn out for the better , keep going Yoki :)

p.s Your first sentence was correct , you were missed lots , at least by me hehe

[lament cloud]

Yeah your parents are emotionally abusive, mine are too in different ways but they are. A lot of teenagers are put through this but they shouldn't, and it shouldn't be dismissed as "oh everyone goes through this so it's alright". Your health is the most important, and if you feel that your parents are toxic, and if you feel your mental health will get better by cutting them off once you can, you should do so. When they realise their mistakes they themselves will try to make amends for it and that's when they will become the parents and support system you need them to be. I sorta understand what you're going through, and if you need emotional support at any time, I'm always here for you.

p.s. Naf is also here for you (just in a slightly different way hehe)

[rough holly]

omg naf and eminem what are you guys talking bout it the last sentence 🤨🤨

[lament cloud]

Lmfaooo

[rough holly]

Thank @mild compass @glossy pewter @olive wadi @lament cloud. :), i mean i love my parents and i genuinely appreciate everything they do for me cause it’s not an easy task 💅 jkjk but like they just won’t ever understand the amount of fucking stress i’m under. predicted exams, ucat, ucas a presentation, charity committee stuff all in the span of a month???? but i haven’t said anything that i regret yet which i hapoy about minus you don’t care about my mental health which they replied “no cause you have nothing wrong with u” but oh well just gonna wait 2 years. too bad im taking a gap year 😭😭😭

anyways thanks talk for ur tips :)))

espically laffy maffy

[olive wadi]

you know one think i wanna mention here , this is by no means an excuse but i believe not every parent can be perfect at start or maybe ever because parenting isnt something they teach at school or anywhere in life its something u have to figure out urself , maybe sure one or two advice from ur parents or friends but at the end its all upto u as a human to decide how to treat another human , you may not agree with their methods and they come from a previous generation so they may not fully understand new generation , hence your , struggles that much if at all so go a bit easy on them , it will also help ur mental bec the more u are frustrated at them the more mental strain it leaves. And btw gap year does wonders to you if used well , look at me and how much im learning about life and improving my studies :) , but no problemo , always here for ya!

[olive wadi]

oii that doesnt even sound like me anymore >_<

[olive wadi]

eminem made it sound too sus

[olive wadi]

idk if this is an attempt at being my wingman or plotting a downfall ngl mixed signals all over the place

[lament cloud]

No it was just making a (hilarious) joke to sorta up the mood after a very depressing paragraph

Any unintended consequences are not my fault

[olive wadi]

lmaooo u sly fox

"Any unintended consequences are not my fault"

[lament cloud]

[rough holly]

laffy naffy then 🙄🙄🙄🙄

[rough holly]

was it really that depressing 😭😭😭

[lament cloud]

Noo I meant my paragraph haha not yours

[grim void]

They're basically trying to convince themselves u don't have any mental health issues by denying it
U can't rlly blame them for doing this since no one would want to believe their child has these issues

Not the perfectly right thing to do since it can make matters worse but it's not something they do because they hate u

they just don't want to believe or even think about u having a mental health issue or being stressed even after what they do for u

[mild compass]

That's not really a friend I'd say. Also why do your parents insult you and say it's a joke? Its like Family Guy except when you see it irl you realize how shitty it is.
But then again.. you're like half Pakistani right? Well Pakistani parents sometimes (this is really odd but also common) do that.. your mother doesn't care? Or ignores it? That's pretty awful regardless

Usually I have huge tendencies to completely ignore in my family (relatives etc.) because I'm just that much of an isolationist and somewhat of an introvert too.. but that probably will make matters worse for others and I think I'm just a special (in the wrong way) case..

But I think after some time it'll be fine, when you get into uni and all

Also that thing is common in some Pakistani parents sometimes when you tell them somethings wrong they just dismiss it thinking it's all made up in your head

But ehh maybe they could be trying to look out somehow? even if they're getting the completely wrong idea

Also I was missing sending you some random songs

[rough holly]

hahahahah you’re always welcome tooooo

[mossy delta]

Let's say , atm I average at b or a do you think I get an A* on the finals if I keep doing papers ?

[warm totem]

Yes, I'm also averaging B's and A's and my teachers advised me that if you keep doing more papers, you'll start to know how the examiners want you to answer so yes, got for it! And all the best!

[glossy pewter]

It’s actually really possible because when you do the exam they mark using thresholds so your grade might increase

Because when I did igcse

Always got a and b when doing tests

But then got A*s in final paper

So don’t give up anything is possible

[mossy delta]

Thank you for the advice , was about to give up

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to greenfalcon#1104

[glossy pewter]

Ah no prob 😆

[olive wadi]

remember that when u give up u lose by default , but if u try u will do something its always better than doing nothing

[balmy bloom]

i hate my dad

he forces me to learn things i dont want to

[glossy pewter]

What things do you mean

[upbeat jolt]

Parent pressure

"become doctor"

😔

[thick birch]

I skipped bio in a levels so that they can't force me to study medical...now i think just could've studied an extra subject

[olive wadi]

bio isnt some subject u can study as extra yk its quite big in syllabus and also whats done is done no point in saying what u could of done now murdock

otherwise i can go on for days how i wanted to and should of been allowed to just go for social sciences

[upbeat jolt]

i dropped bio in IGCSE to study computer science

i found my vocation

best decision ever

parents can cope