there is a curse to being quiet.
when my heart becomes the only thing I can hear, while every other sense feels detached.
I succumb to the silence that i've known so well.
the silence I keep going back to.
when I'm shaking, taking every breath as if it was my last. crying anxiously because I don't want to be heard. because i don't believe anyone will help me. I succumb to silence.
when i'm in the dark, desprately trying to get myself together. get all the pieces of me before i drift into an impossible dream. when i'm being left with the thoughts that won't stop.
I succumb to silence.
"why would i leave when the silence is too comfortable to escape?"
what's the point in talking about my problems when no one i've told has ever helped me? if I can't help myself, how will anyone else?
only putting bandaids, that force me to hide myself like i'm not even there.
I may not always be alone, but the feeling is too familiar to forget..