The coffee’s gone cold again.
I keep forgetting to drink it
because every night ends the same—
me sitting at this crooked table,
talking to a sky that never answers back.
I tell it about my day
like I used to tell you.
How I passed by that little store downtown
and they were playing the song
you used to hum under your breath
when you thought no one was listening.
And for one stupid second
I turned around with a smile already forming,
expecting to find you beside me again.
God, grief is cruel like that.
It lets you hallucinate warmth
before reminding you
your hands are empty.
I still set two cups out sometimes.
Still leave space beside me in bed.
Still catch myself saving stories
to tell you later.
There is no later anymore.
The night feels heavier without your voice in it.
Even the moon looks tired of watching me unravel.
I sit here whispering your name into steam and silence,
pretending the wind might carry it
somewhere your bones can hear.
They buried you only six feet under.
Six feet—
that is such a small distance.
I have seen taller walls.
I have climbed steeper things.
Yet somehow
you are farther away than the stars.
I speak to you
and the earth keeps you.
I beg for one sign, one sound, one impossible miracle,
but you do not answer me.
You do not talk to me anymore.
And I hate how life keeps moving
like losing you was a small event,
like the world did not split open that day.
People tell me you are “at peace.”
But what about me?
