pearl sparrow
Lately ,
Iāve been retracing my teenage diaries
to know what couldāve gone wrong
The pages turn to stories
and the memories play into a haunting song.
Controversial topics , political essays
we unveiled truths amidst society's craze
Burning lanterns and hallways of lies
Million dollar smile , and hand on my thigh.
Then you looked at the sun
and saw someone else under the veil
Heard from far witches
Kept a track of everyday
But by the time you knew
It was too late.
A Flash of insight , truth revealed
Found the source of the whispers
Your shoulder cold as ice
The fear you tried to hide
Cause familiarity breeds contempt
But it made me love you.
The way that I was living was killing me
You made me do things so differently
He says I need to let the light in
I say baby whatās the point in trying ?
Like a wretched damsel in distress
I watched you unravel every last piece of decency I possessed
Parties wouldnāt mean much,
Iād be drinking in a car with you
Iād be as good as dead in their minds
Cause it was you who made me feel alive
Now before your memory fades
When u call me Iām all over the place
The first step is always most difficult to take
with all the complications of being best friends at 28
Whether u put a diamond in the ring or not
at the end itās just a stone to throw
And I wouldāve given you all of my gemstones
Now one drink is all I need to forget you
Didnāt let a flame touch me, but in the end
It was your ashes that grew
If you wanted me to leave u shouldāve just said it
But no, you had to say words that sounded so poetic
Was it amusing the way I acted so damn pathetic ?
Cause all the self help books you read
You know I read them too.
So its only me who knows
that you didnāt follow them through.
And I canāt help Iām not the love that you wanted
But why leave me the definition of unwanted
Now troubled daughters will turn into twisted wives
(contd in comments)
wispy goblet