I love to sleep.
I love how it clears up my slate.
Snap... and all the bad time's all passed.
Snap... and all the tears are all passed.
Snap... and all those feelings are gone.
I love to be asleep
And i love to wake up
I love to choose what to do with my day
Oh how i have so so much time
Oh what a new beginning
Oh i get to start over once again
I love to be awake
But if there's one thing i hate
Its the in-between.
The part where you close your eyes
and count to 100 and 200 and 300
as you pray
'Please, just please
let me fall asleep'
Where you shut your eyes and clutch your blanket
For you don't know what you'll find if you open them in the dark.
Where you try and think of songs or a good movie to keep your deepest darkest thoughts at bay
but they surface anyway
And then you try not to cry
but you do
so you try to be quiet
but you cant - so you close your eyes and count to 100 and 200 and 300 until you lose count and suddenly a terrible terrible scene floods your head and all you can ever do
is pray to god-
so you shut your eyes even tighter and chant
'Please oh please god just let me be asleep
please just let me snap through the night
and please let this torture end.'
Sometimes it does
sometimes it doesn't.
So you're up at 3am with your notebook spitting out ink and insomnia that you manifested yourself for all you have ever been is a self destructive fool
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I love to be asleep
I love to be awake
I love to sleep
I love to wake up
All i want is to not be alone for the in-between
Be it when i go to bed
Be it when i get up
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'Please god, let this end already
let me close my eyes and snap it all away
please god, wipe my slate clean once again.'
~Jinx