dull furnace
With this audience I chase validation
to feel happy.
My worth wavering
with what you say and how you feel.
The emotions on your face that help me
weigh in my designated place.
Am I on a low level or high one?
What I hate is a mess.
A loud mess shows my background.
To hear it makes me uncomfortable
to the point I want to get out of my skin.
The mirror wields my feelings for the day.
The hope is for the mirror to accentuate me
in a way I would like.
I do exactly what it takes.
I look at the clock.
My plan for my body.
A lifetime without a treat
means to have results.
I have to do this as I am my own opponent
at times. If I don't do this, it eats me
but not my hunger.
Appeasement is something I don't like to feel.
A desire I wrote with changing rules that show
my zeal in accordance with pain.
arctic bobcat
tranquil totem
late cedar
spare jolt
gusty dove
left gull
light zealot