The same thing

[split ingot]

I stand there as I look in the mirror.
My face screams tired.
But this is a sign things get worse.
Less sleep, less appetite.
A sickness I can't treat.
Where does this come from?
My heart beats.
Increase in blood flow from my fear.
My future I can clearly see.
This is day 700 of the same thing.
You probably think I don't want to get better
but I have never told life to worship my miseries.
To continue them.
What shall be the title for today?
That has been intended for me to know.
It hangs on my walls.
Done to trigger me.
A new title but the same feeling.
I can't sleep to forget,
for I see my helpless
self reliving my bad memories.
So don't tell me to be grateful.
This doesn't grow or change anything.
I don't see the fruits ripen but I see them rot.
The whole process similar to me.
As the ungratefulness you don't like sips
into my veins,
this feels familiar.
The same uninteresting movie I am forced to watch
over and over again.

This is a basically a series. A continuation of this character. From a shoulder to breach on and a warped scene or a warped mind for context.

[little crane]

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[split ingot]

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