The places you live
are not where I can go
not really
because I have learned
that some homes
are not meant to be kept
only visited
in memory
in late nights
in the space between thoughts
Gravity
feels different now
not like falling
but like being pulled
toward something
I am not sure I am allowed to hold
and still
I don’t resist it
The softest thing I know
is how easily this could break
how something so quiet
so careful
can still carry
so much weight
If you could see yourself
standing where I am
you might understand
why this is harder than it looks
why something this simple
does not feel simple at all
The way you exist
in my life
is not loud
not certain
but it lingers
in the way silence feels different
after you leave
Time slows around you
just enough
to make me notice
how quickly it all disappears again
how moments stretch
only to end
Your voice
stays longer than you do
it echoes
in places I wish it wouldn’t
because it reminds me
of what I don’t have
When you’re quiet
I think too much
fill in the gaps
with things I’ll never ask
with answers
I’m not sure I want
The first time I noticed
I didn’t know
what it would become
and maybe that’s the problem
some things grow
before you can decide
if you were ready
The way you care
is real
and that’s what makes this harder
because there is no easy reason
to walk away
nothing to blame
Safe
was never supposed to feel like this
not something
I have to question
not something
I have to measure
What we don’t say
has become everything
it sits between us
in every almost
in every pause
in every moment
that could have been more
And I think
that’s what hurts
not that you were never mine
but that you were close enough
to feel like you could be
and just far enough
to never fully stay
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Part 13: https://discord.com/channels/944439929734312006/1484387436791468212