only a father knows
The sound of the house locking down
Water bottles being filled
The ice cup in the freezer
The dog settling for the night
Only a father knows
How many clicks it takes
To turn off the Christmas tree
How many steps to your room
The sound of your breathing
over the sounds of his home
Only a father knows
How to put your blankets back on
without waking you up
How to kiss your cheek so gently,
Where to step so the floor doesn’t creak
Only a father knows
How to close your door so quietly
When to let go of that bated breath
When to take the next
Only a father knows
The tears he sheds in prayer
The ache his knees feel from it
The fears he holds in his heart
Only a father knows
The swell of pride when he sees you
Dancing and laughing
Smiling and jumping
Only a father knows
How impossibly small you were
As if I could hold you in one hand
Now look at you
Only a father knows
The jealousy that you
Can tie better fishing knots than me
And you’re only three
I know many things you don’t, little one
Secrets I keep locked away for you, later
I hope I get to meet your children
And you can talk to me about the things
Only a father knows