it’s believed that time holds styptic properties,
but we, humans, resort to desperation;
where our own blood is supposed to heal mental scars,
and where suffering stands as the ultimate mean of liberation.
yet, once the anguish washes away from your trembling hands,
you realise you’re the one who made up your own carnefice.
the one that wears your face upside down,
so naturally, the solution was deicide.
when we can’t find ourselves in our own reflections,
we abandon the world itself.
no matter if your body gushes or moans,
it’s always the absent to blame,
“amen”.
you always return to that same conclusion, that singular dream,
which could never be explained without reopening your wounds.
and you will do that anyways, are you afraid of salvation?
an infant that never saw light won’t see the darkest as grim.
denying humanity, returning to zero,
everything in order to differentiate yourself from you;
as it’s impossible to remember
at what point of time it felt like you exist.
you’re no hero, just a slave on strings you carved from your hair,
a myth of conjoined counciousnesses that writes itself just to be burnt:
o, ouroboros, you finally awakened,
so come forth, and devour yourself liturgically,
as your spirit wanders to another.
no place on earth offers comfort anymore,
and everything in you has burnt away.
so for the last time, you called out for the divine
expecting silence that reflects your abandoned heart.