#Talent

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wild lotus
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What’s the significance of 145?

wild lotus
# sharp delta What’s the significance of 145?

145 is the score I received as a child on an IQ test called the WISC-V. It promised me untold riches while it brought me alienation and pain.

From that moment forward any accomplishment I had was looked on like "of course he could". People assumed I could do things without trying, understand things without having to learn. Kids made fun of me.. because teachers always pitted me against them. I was the highest scoring child that took the test (in my small school).

And I have zero to show for any of it. I am not smarter than anyone. I would not wow you. In fact, I've struggled so badly in life.. addiction, prison, etc. while other people — some I would even consider purposefully ignorant — manage to thrive. Hence the meaning behind this poem.

mild fogBOT
sharp delta
# wild lotus 145 is the score I received as a child on an IQ test called the WISC-V. It promi...

Even though I know nothing about you have you ever considered that maybe it’s not that you’re untalented, maybe it’s just that your brain is ahead of where your life is right now. Like having a high IQ doesn’t mean your talent shows up early or obvious. Sometimes it just means you know there’s more in you but you don’t know where to put it yet. And that gap feels awful. It feels like you’re doing all this effort just to prove to yourself you’re not nothing, and it still doesn’t land. Like you’re trying to convince yourself you matter and it’s exhausting. But talent isn’t always a clear skill or something you can point at. Sometimes it’s just how curious you are, or how you overthink everything, or how frustrated you get because you feel unused. That doesn’t mean you’re failing, it just means you haven’t found your thing yet. You don’t lack talent, you lack direction and time and maybe a bit of patience with yourself. And that’s not a character flaw, that’s just a stage.

You’re not empty or behind or broken. You’re just unfinished, and unfinished doesn’t mean untalented I think you just need to give yourself a moment to find who you are and what you like this is from the perspective of someone who knows nothing about you so I have very unbiased opinions this all