glacial ruin
Trigger Warning, suicide In the dark I contemplate my fate, distant memories tear asunder my soul,
I shed my final deluge of tears, eternity's pain streaking upon my face,
Exhaled my final breaths of despair, broken words uttered into the blackness,
Mind forever bound in anxiety, racing thoughts dancing within my skull,
Why am I so lonely, why must tragedy be my destiny?
Once I dreamed a wonderful vision, picturesque scene of joyful splendor,
Her hair braided and beaded, her laughter a sweet symphony in my ears,
Her love as deep as the ocean, she promised eternal bliss unto my heart,
Oh did I trust to be that way forever, together we made love under the stars,
Why did I believe that she cared, how could I know she would betray me?
Hearts are as fragile as clouds in the sky, as changing as the phases of the moon,
Yet my heart is as stable as a mountain, as solid as reliable stone,
My feelings I adorned upon my sleeve, as though jewelry of honorable intent,
My love is as constant as the flowing of time, once given eternal shall it remain,
Why now does my heart feel like sand, why has it ruptured and turned to dust?
No longer shall I worry such notions, no longer shall I experience that pain,
One final act of woeful defiance, one final duty to perform upon this world,
With this dagger I shall carve out my future, razor sharpened steel used in despair,
My future is bleak as a desert at twilight, as empty as the landscape of the moon,
Why was this my only choice for relief, why must I die to find peace?
Into my wrist goes the tip of my savior, a line up my arm drawn out of anger,
Repeating this action on opposite arm, watching crimson torrent as I finish my quest,
Inside my thighs I slice with precision, opening my arteries to free my wicked soul,
Now I await the coming of the darkness, patiently I await the ending of my existence.
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