viscid pivot
"My favorite color is blue."
I say, the start of every ice breaker when it comes to meeting a guy. Favorite color. Favorite food, favorite animal.
The favorites are important.
"I want to be a.."
The job, your dreams, hopes aspirations, everything. Where you see yourself in a few years. To see if you'll even work out in the end.
"I want a hugeee house, with lots of animals!"
I say...the future. The scary part. It's getting serious.
"I want to be a mom..two kids! Actually..."
The future. My future, his future. All of it. Does this mean something?
"Of course ill be your girlfriend!"
It's official. I think i see myself with him forever..
"We should move in together.."
The next step. Everything is getting so real! I think I want to marry him..hes perfect for me!
"We bought our first house together!"
It's just like the one I said I wanted! He remembered! I cant wait to raise our children here.
"I'd love an oval shaped diamond..on a gold band"
Hes asking about rings, and venues and...everything i think he might propose soon! I see myself with him forever.
"Yes yes yes! Of course I'll marry you!" We are engaged! One more step until im officially his! Till legally we are married!
"Im pregnant." I say, this wasn't how I planned it to go, I didnt want to be pregnant before our wedding..but hes the father! I couldn't be any happier. I cant wait to raise our baby.
"It's twins?!" We announce. Shock screaming over us, the perfect amount. Just like we talked about! He will be such a good father...
"Why dont you respect my wishes!?" I barely yelled. We barely fought. We always made up. I wanted our kids in the wedding..I wanted to wait he didnt.
"Why do you keep arguing with me?!" We fought more..and more, the stress was bad for me. Why is he being like this?
"My favorite color is blue."
I say. Repeating the cycle once more.
light brook
buoyant zealot