did we really grow up too fast?

[verbal kettle]

@light frost has sent a notification! - @waxen belfry @true spire @spiral thicket @lusty quiver @spark heron @pale willow @zenith owl @celest seal @pure socket

[pure socket]

YOU JUST POSTED ONE 10 MINUTES AGO-

[light frost]

for some reason I wanna write a lot today..

😅

[pure socket]

it do be like that sometimes tho

[hollow oyster]

Wonderful! @pure socket has just progressed to level 9!

[limber spade]

I can tell you can't sweep this under the floor and time hasn't been enable you the opportunity to build a world with the good things that comes from that specific scope
Is okay to have the paranoia from any single thing...
Never are going to end the bad days from an intended bad day
The soul is always will go froze, and overthinking is something that you can't sell well, no one does like to think
You hope to see colors that can clears your mind but you ended up beated up and poor at the same time

[light frost]

mhm.. so what do you think of it

[pure socket]

it good poem

[light frost]

woah-

[pure socket]

idk what else to say

[light frost]

not done yet.. so I'm still waiting..

[limber spade]

But is like, no matter if the disk is scratched, the mind is a powerful place that can help you escape every day from the real time zone you are in or you rather run towards a new time line y'know?

[light frost]

no I'm glad you like it thank you

[pure socket]

bro im
having a stroke trying to understand this

[limber spade]

Honestly i believe the lower we are the higher we are connected with life!

[limber spade]

Which part?

[light frost]

same here could u please explain

[light frost]

what if I said the whole thing..?

[light frost]

lower where and higher where

huh

[pure socket]

im gonna be brutally honest it is the whole thing

[light frost]

agreed

mister I'm a kid explain in child words please

😅

[limber spade]

Oh sure, its a way to hide all the negative thoughts as a ball that inside contains letters of any type and size, everyone has a second chance, a button, an option of rebuild itself the structure of thoughts but it is like ,updating yourself until you are able to find that control and pull the lever to the next level, as like in a game as cuphead is designed for you to have a bad day, you'll always be in a state of mind that your life is paused if you dont stand to try, if you dont move you dont see life moving as a way to explain colors and feeling alive

[limber spade]

that is not a excuse lol, i was like that at 15

but i understand

different lifes, and reality all confused

[light frost]

lolz I was jk but thank you so muchhh

[light frost]

true true

[light frost]

yeshhh

[limber spade]

and dissociation it plays a fundamental role

lol

[light frost]

mhm

but sometimes there are days where you js wanna disconnect with the world

[limber spade]

disconnect and upload?

[light frost]

though in a few days you'll be alright

[limber spade]

duuh

[light frost]

yk like how sometimes you js wanna disappear?

and never ever come back

like those times

[limber spade]

is a present that you have

[light frost]

yeap

[limber spade]

a choice you decide

[light frost]

yes

[limber spade]

cuz you decide to whether you hide in a pocket or be dead weight in the water

or launch yourself into a planet

actually, it dont really matter how you dissapear

it matters how you are going to come back to earth

[light frost]

you're already home on earth but it feels like a cage

[limber spade]

you see, life is abstract so you can fill the idea with personal experiences you collect

[light frost]

some days

[limber spade]

let's say, you're disconnected

[light frost]

wow-

[limber spade]

so you are disconnected from life itself

so you are not in earth

cuz you are not existing

you are existing for yourself

and no one is watching you right?

[light frost]

.. huh

[limber spade]

that's why people tell you you are in the clouds

[spiral thicket]

another great poen :)

[limber spade]

cuz you are missing some logic

[light frost]

again thank you

[light frost]

ouh-

[limber spade]

yea

but that is good

[light frost]

mister did you just call me dumb

[limber spade]

cuz you are taking things in the core

[light frost]

👀

[limber spade]

y'know?, life can be prettier if you accept your world as it is

[light frost]

yesh and thanks

[light frost]

there's good days and bad days and on the bad days.. it's a whole different story

[limber spade]

but you can change the narrative tho

lol

is never an ending to determine whether is bad or not

it builds you again

[light frost]

mhm

[limber spade]

lol

look

[light frost]

yesh

where

[limber spade]

We are a chain

[light frost]

👀

[limber spade]

right?

We are growing through time like snakes

Some people call it a curse cuz we don't like to show ourselves as snakes

[dusky yacht]

*Some people call it

a curse cuz we don't like to

show ourselves as snakes*

- klein158

[limber spade]

Is discomforting

[spiral thicket]

there's a point when we can't even see those good days :<

[light frost]

but snakes are so cute

[limber spade]

But, for you, it must be comforting

[light frost]

and interesting too

[limber spade]

Let's take it as snakes with poison

The poison that people talked to you sometimes

The poison that some of your family give to you as of fights

Problems

[light frost]

yeah it's sad but then there's the good times that you can always look at

[limber spade]

A bite and you end up in the floor

[light frost]

oof-

[limber spade]

Yea

That's why you have to be in comfort with your complete chain

lol

[light frost]

but they get up again and hurray life's full of ups and downs

[limber spade]

They have new skin

thats what i am trying to go actually

[spiral thicket]

i like that. the good times ive spent in life always lifts me up.. but ngl its momentary pleasure

[limber spade]

you are just surviving

and surviving

lol

and building a tough skin

[light frost]

but hey it still makes you smile and feel better so it's a good thing

[limber spade]

depending on the season

[dusky yacht]

*but hey it still makes

you smile and feel better

so it's a good thing*

- bdjkcuqvowibq

[light frost]

positive thinking brother

[light frost]

yeap

[spiral thicket]

yeah :<

[light frost]

true

[limber spade]

duh

[light frost]

thanks for the lecture sir

[limber spade]

what lecture?

i am not even done 😂

but if you want to okay

[light frost]

whaaat

[limber spade]

bruh???

[light frost]

u still have a lot to say..??

wait really..??

[limber spade]

?

[spiral thicket]

lol

[limber spade]

yes

[light frost]

is this about snakes again

[limber spade]

did i said i was done?

i switch to a lot of areas in my head

lol

[light frost]

OMG U GONNA BRING IN CROCODILES NOW??

[limber spade]

hmm

[light frost]

ouh.. wait so if you aren't done please continue

[limber spade]

lol

first of all

Your emotions switch the order when you are happy

Is like, a queue

You are in the position 1

[light frost]

on no- here it comes..

[limber spade]

ee

[light frost]

ok

[limber spade]

if you dont want to i can stop

xD

[light frost]

lolz nooo I was jokinggg

[spiral thicket]

xd

[light frost]

I wanna hear it out

[spiral thicket]

go on i want life lessons too

[limber spade]

Well

XD

even bro appreciates it

[light frost]

yesh

[light frost]

hey I do too

but so confusing

[limber spade]

Let's change the environment, you're in a queue to buy a book, and in the course of this one changes your mood

[light frost]

cuz u using snakes.. and poison.. and making every word so poetic.. and it's getting confusing than math

[light frost]

the course..?

[limber spade]

From chill to bored, and prolly in the meantime angry cuz you weren't able of do somethin else

[limber spade]

is a progression

[light frost]

ouh..

[limber spade]

okay!, in the progression of the day

[light frost]

go on Sir..

[limber spade]

you go from bored to angry and from angry to happy

you'll see that when you started you were happy

but that it drained out quickly

[spiral thicket]

if the book i was gonna buy is sold out after i waited for 5 hrs..

[limber spade]

exactly

and there my friend

is when it enters your resistence against this emotion

[light frost]

depends..

butttt

[limber spade]

exactly

[light frost]

what if I get smth else to cheer me up

[limber spade]

thats why i said, is when it enters the resistence

exactly

that is a condition

lol

[light frost]

mister is very very wise

[limber spade]

you switch it

bruh

i just kow

know

[spiral thicket]

how old r u

[light frost]

of course you kow

[limber spade]

20

why?

[spiral thicket]

nah ur so wise

[light frost]

so an oldie too of course no wonder why mister so wise

[light frost]

frrr

[limber spade]

wbu?

[limber spade]

the age it dont matter tho...

[light frost]

sir I am just a child

[limber spade]

i was talking to antizin lol

[spiral thicket]

im a child too, 17

[light frost]

so the experiences.. 👀

[limber spade]

what?

17?

man

3 years of difference

[light frost]

I'm younger than you both

[limber spade]

you are a kid then

if you are 15

then you are just a kid

[light frost]

gonna be 16 in a few months

[limber spade]

lol

[light frost]

yeap..

for now

[limber spade]

for now

lol

[light frost]

uh huh

🥲

[limber spade]

but bro is not achild

nonono

bro is not a child

shut up

[spiral thicket]

aah not that im that mature

[limber spade]

ohh

i see

[hollow oyster]

Wonderful! @limber spade has just progressed to level 7!

[verbal kettle]

@light frost is now following @limber spade.

[limber spade]

is more about how you grow up

[light frost]

mister did you ever write about snakes

you seem to be passionate about them

[limber spade]

i did write about almost anytihng

[light frost]

👀

[limber spade]

anything that comes from my head

[light frost]

woah.. so cool

[limber spade]

i had a lot of that ones around the server

but i think with time they erase it or idk

[light frost]

I'll be looking forward to reading your poetry then

[light frost]

REALLY..??

[limber spade]

yea

[spiral thicket]

me too, always in to read everyones poetry <3

[light frost]

yeshhh

btw mister what was ur feedback to this poem do u even have one or was it js that lecture..?

[limber spade]

well

i just readed once, and figure it out in my head

[spiral thicket]

xd

[limber spade]

and i just write what i understood

lol

i didnt even fniished tho

but thats ok

[light frost]

OH MAH GAWD- STILL??

[light frost]

nooo I wanna kowwww

[limber spade]

lol

[light frost]

send the whole thing I'll be waiting

[limber spade]

woaa

[light frost]

tick tock

[limber spade]

rn i am at work but is all alone, so i dont rlly know if ill be able to finish it :c

hehe

[limber spade]

who is it there?

a bomb?

Bam

LOL

[light frost]

haha

also u can send it later or js forget it ur choice

[spiral thicket]

https://tenor.com/view/explosion-explode-clouds-of-smoke-gif-17216934

[light frost]

mister is very busy it seems

[light frost]

haha

[limber spade]

i will prolly forget it lol

my head is always in a lot of places

literally

[spiral thicket]

wow.. its been months since ive chatted

[limber spade]

i forgot what i did even ate

[light frost]

we have our answer everyoneee

[limber spade]

no fr, i forgot what did i said rn

[light frost]

sir.. you need to get out more often and what about your friends

[limber spade]

who got you smiling like that bro?

😂

[light frost]

u js showed us u old..

[limber spade]

ayeeee!

[light frost]

without saying it..

[limber spade]

comeo n

[light frost]

mister u so talented haha

[limber spade]

is jst 4 years

[light frost]

(with respect)

[limber spade]

well almost

lol

[spiral thicket]

i meet them irl or like normal texting

[limber spade]

XD

[light frost]

sir remember to get good sleep or it can really mess with your memory

[limber spade]

my memory is not the same tho

heh

i can focus whenever i want in my goals in life now

[light frost]

you literally said it been months

[limber spade]

lol

[light frost]

ouh.. I hope ur memory gets better

[limber spade]

well, i am gonna do something around here, but nah

you'll understand later

[light frost]

you should take better care of your health yk

[limber spade]

:>

[spiral thicket]

uhh.. maybe
we aint even gettin enough time

[limber spade]

you want me to give you a lecture ?XD

[spiral thicket]

what happened?

[hollow oyster]

Wonderful! @spiral thicket has just progressed to level 5!

[light frost]

wdymmm there's so much timeee

[limber spade]

well, the pain it changed me it affected some parts of my brain that now i want to forget things instantly so badly that i started without knowing

[spiral thicket]

no ive got no time
studies, exams n stuff

[limber spade]

and the things i can't forget i try to describe them to have control over it

[light frost]

health and u and ur own self comes first mister u should be ur priority but that changes if u have a family so it's smth else and it's ur personal life so ima leave u to it and js hope things get easier for you

[limber spade]

but yea, that is the summarized reason of why

[limber spade]

COME OON

I HAVE 200

20

[spiral thicket]

ohh

[limber spade]

I AM JUST AN YOUNG ADUTLT

😭

[spiral thicket]

take care man <3 hope u get better

[light frost]

some have families young yk

[limber spade]

i won't, instead i will grow from there

[light frost]

nth wrong with it

[limber spade]

but do you think i am sociable?

or like

come on

i am afraid mostly of woman and animals

😂

[light frost]

mister.. idk what do u expect

[limber spade]

i think you are making fun of me lol

XDDD

but is funny

[light frost]

AND MISTER USED SNAKESSSS WHAAAA

[spiral thicket]

great..

[limber spade]

cuz i think of snakes as chains

[light frost]

nooo sorry if it sounded mean

[limber spade]

yea

[light frost]

but really..

it's kinda funny how u afraid of women and animals..

sorry..

[limber spade]

is okay

[light frost]

permission to laugh..?

[limber spade]

i find it funny to

too

lol

yea

[spiral thicket]

xd

[light frost]

haha lolz

[limber spade]

xd

[light frost]

it's seriously fine though everyone different

[limber spade]

yeaaa ik

Is just that life can be a breath that goes into nothing, just it last a few seconds and it's gone

[light frost]

u can get better while growing up too ever heard of that..?

[limber spade]

Would you wonder if you are in a completely green space and just wonder if you have a past life?

[light frost]

yeah true

[limber spade]

but there are glasses in the room but it dont have xray

[light frost]

I like to live in the present and focus on my future

[limber spade]

is just a metaphor of how you dont want to see clearly what you're lacking

[light frost]

looking at the past will make u hold back

[limber spade]

touching the past

[light frost]

ouh

[limber spade]

thinking in the past makes you not do the mistakes you did

[spiral thicket]

i do that sometimes

[limber spade]

lol

duuh

[limber spade]

ikr?

[light frost]

but sometimes it makes you think about it again and again and again and kinda makes you get lost in utt

it

[spiral thicket]

thats reality now ig

[light frost]

but again everyone different so it depends on the person

and their past too

[limber spade]

is just a variable bro

remember that

for your whole life

just a variable

[light frost]

imagine if someone had a really really bad past full of bad things they'd never want to go to back and take a look

[limber spade]

they will grow eventually

[spiral thicket]

yeah.. not a fixed value.. xd

[limber spade]

if they are still living

[limber spade]

duh man

[light frost]

that takes time

[spiral thicket]

sry

[limber spade]

with fixed values they are afraid to mangamanet memory lol

althought i dont like c for the moment

xd

[limber spade]

nah man take it easy

no one rlly looses here

is just a clarity time

lol

[light frost]

isn't it loses..?

[limber spade]

i make up my choices

💪

[light frost]

mister I can see the memory issues already.. hope everything really works out for you

🤧

[limber spade]

bruh

[light frost]

did you mean your words..?

[limber spade]

xdd

[light frost]

lolz

[limber spade]

lol

what did i said

no stop

i dont remeber

xd

[light frost]

haha

[limber spade]

[light frost]

wow..

[limber spade]

no seriously

[light frost]

I really actually feel bad

like seriously

this is why health matters ppllll

[limber spade]

i jsut feel like you are making fun of me yet dxd

[limber spade]

nah nah

no break the third wall

shut up

i am just a temporary person

no judging

[light frost]

nooo js actually really saddd I'm not making fun sorrryyy sorry to the power hundreddd

[limber spade]

[light frost]

everyone isss

[limber spade]

math.pow()

[light frost]

I'm not judging

[limber spade]

but people persists in the heads

i dont persist in the head of anybody

is the difference

thats why i am temporary from anyone

[light frost]

huh

[limber spade]

lol

yeayea

[light frost]

everyone is for everyone

[west cobalt]

top, in case no one wants to scroll all the way back up beautiful work you’ve done

[hollow oyster]

Wonderful! @west cobalt has just progressed to level 3!

[limber spade]

everyone means from people you get to know

[light frost]

death exists..

[limber spade]

in your scope

the only thing is having a legacy

so iwont have a legacy

not grandchildren

[light frost]

awh thank youuu

[limber spade]

nothing of that

[light frost]

ouh

[limber spade]

thats what i meant for efveryone

[light frost]

mister we diff

[limber spade]

lol

[light frost]

I want a family in the future 🤧

[limber spade]

i dont think i'll have a family

[light frost]

LIKE JUST IMAGINE

A KID LOOKING UP AT YOU AND SAYING IN AN ADORABLE VOICE I WANNA BE LIKE DADA OR MAMA

[limber spade]

look at me, i am a overthinker that prolly has autism, has 20 years

[light frost]

AWHHH AHHHHHHHH OMG I'D MELTTTTT

RIGHT THEN. AND THEREEEEEE

[limber spade]

and is lonely

lol

[light frost]

it's okayyyyy

DUDE

IT DOESN'T MATTER OKAY LIKE IF YOU MEET THE ONE THEY WON'T CARE AND THEY WOULD WANT TO TAKE CARE OF YOU

AND DID YOU KNOW

also you might not believe this but I do.. before everyone came into earth their name was written next to someone's.. their partnee

their partner

so u have ur soulmate too even if you both haven't met yet

one day I hope you meet it though

[limber spade]

what if we never met?

she can die in the process

of one of her actions

a war

anything can happen

if i dont move, i won't be able to

so i just will move for my own good

[light frost]

very diff thinking cuz me being Muslim and for me I believe they'll be waiting in heaven for me hopefully

[limber spade]

heh

sounds comforting

[light frost]

mister can I ask something

[limber spade]

sure

[light frost]

TRUST ME IT ISSSS JS THE THOUGHT MAKES ME FEEL SO WARM BC DUDE IT'S A PROMISE FOR ME LIKE IF I GET HEAVEN THEN ANYTHING I WANT I GET AND I PRAY MA MAN DON'T WANT MORE THAN JS WIFE

[light frost]

doesn't it ever feel lonely..?

I mean for me I'd want someone to experience all the moments with yk.. like the cute dates and silly flirt moments..

it's js sooo 🤧🤧🤧😭😭😭😭😭

I'm waiting for that day..

[verbal kettle]

@light frost is now following @west cobalt.

[limber spade]

is a repetition of every day doing the same, without any of love, the imagination does everything it the rest,

plus, the sittuation i am at rn, i dont help me at all

i only can ensure my future to be valuable

but i cant ensure to be loved

cuz i never had anyone in my life to care for

and if i had, was merely text

[light frost]

msiter psychology says if everyday is the same it can mess up your mental health so I suggest trying new hobbies getting fresh air and talking to people

[limber spade]

like distance relationships ig?

but heh, it just dont works

[limber spade]

i am doing that hehe

i am supporting myself

[light frost]

trust me mister you might feel that but I know there is someone

[limber spade]

but i have this feeling

[light frost]

you should

[light frost]

what is it..?

[limber spade]

there is no one for mee

lol

[limber spade]

this feeling i am not of the liking of no one

[light frost]

I'm sorry to hear that but hopefully one day you'll have a happy life

[limber spade]

i will

i will earn money, and do things

and i will be at peace cuz if i fill myself of this feeling then i will be okay

[light frost]

u can say that but I will never ever believe it bc I js know everyone has at least someone looking out for them even when you don't know

[limber spade]

the only thing i will be missing is love

i dont have tho!

not childhood friends, no connections

[light frost]

nahhh I am sure you would be an amazing partner to who ever ends up with you and they better treat you rightt

[limber spade]

i can't even imagine having a family hehe

[light frost]

I imagine it and cry about it and then pray pray pray

[limber spade]

i dont see myself meeting a person

[light frost]

it helps..

[light frost]

you never knowww what the future holdsss

[limber spade]

there is no one by my side lol

[light frost]

and always have hope

[limber spade]

that's true tho

i just have to trust in the process

[light frost]

I would say god but do u believe in god

[limber spade]

partly

[light frost]

yes and it can be hard sometimes but keep holding onnnn

[limber spade]

i am holding on to myself

[light frost]

can I ask what's your religion or is it too personal..? your choice

[dusky yacht]

*can I ask what's your

religion or is it too

personal..? your choice*

- bdjkcuqvowibq

[limber spade]

tbh

i dont really believe in something as religion

[light frost]

ouhh for me I trust in god

[limber spade]

i just feel that someone created everything

[light frost]

ouh..

[limber spade]

i am grateful for living

[light frost]

true bc obv there has to be a creator

[limber spade]

and for my happy moments

but i dont trust in anyone tho

[light frost]

it's alright

[limber spade]

i just follow into connections to have a future

cuz i want to survive

and i want to live

cuz i like to live

[light frost]

for me I trust in God so it's different

[limber spade]

i dont really like that

sorry if we differ in that

i had traumas

[light frost]

bro don't be sorryyy

[limber spade]

and things that made me think that way

[light frost]

rememberrrr we diffff everyone isss

[limber spade]

this feeling i have is one sided

as you have feelings one sided

[light frost]

no no I can understand u don't have to be sorry it really is fine

[limber spade]

heh

and look

[light frost]

yes

also I hope you recover from the traumas..

[limber spade]

my way to think about life, is merely speculations of my poor mindset from back then and now trying to upgrade it thanks to my new clarity of lfe

so, i am not into hate

neither into say i am special

i strongly believe in myself

still i have leaks

i haven't been able to cure

[light frost]

you can say that but sorry I will disagree because I believe every human is special and unique in their own way

[limber spade]

so i sometimes dont support myself as it should

[light frost]

everyone has..

[light frost]

😭

[limber spade]

ohh, brb, clients

did come

[light frost]

🤧

bye bye

hope you have a great day

and that everything works out for you

[light frost]

@formal copper

[formal copper]

We'll have to live with a heart, full of pain
Could be a killer line in the end ngl

It's so flipping relatable

[light frost]

RIGHT AND THANK YOU

[light frost]

agreedddd

[light frost]

@nimble cloud

[nimble cloud]

this is so meaningful! you delivered the message well!! btw great opening

took me long enough to scroll all the way up lol

[light frost]

thank you so muchhh

[light frost]

haha yeah I was getting lectured

[nimble cloud]

it's nice that you can get feedback!!:))

[light frost]

fr I loved ittt

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@gaunt osprey

[gaunt osprey]

I love this its amazing how you explain being young wanting to be old

[light frost]

awh thank youu

@tardy salmon

[light frost]

@timber shore

[frank root]

this poem is so real

[light frost]

thanksss

[light frost]

@fast marlin

[fast marlin]

Tis good poem. Title is good too!. I like it !

• id say comma after “wanted to be”, from each step to caged in your mind, is very good i like it a lot. This should be practiced and read out loud as a slam poem/performed. love it

[light frost]

thank you so muchhh

[light frost]

@warm inlet

[light frost]

@unborn jay

[unborn jay]

Wow, sucker punch to the gut. It encapsulates how hard growing up can be. I love the formatting for "Now Every Single Word" The ending is nice, it's saying although everything's messed up, it not necessarily the fault of anyone. The only thing that didn't feel right to me was the line "Look at who are and what we used to be" the flow was bit off on this one. But overall loved it.

Also is that ASL in your bio?

[light frost]

thank you so muchh

[light frost]

sign language..?

[unborn jay]

American Sign Language.

[light frost]

🤟🏼 dis thingy?

[unborn jay]

Yah, ASL for I love you?

[light frost]

u part is the name of um my crush so uh yeah hehe.. 😅

dies of embarrassment

[unborn jay]

Aww that's sweet

[light frost]

haha thanks 😭

[unborn jay]

Alright I have to go, but I'll check out the other poems tomorrow, that good?

[light frost]

of course and thank you again a lottt

[unborn jay]

Of course. You're poems are really good.

[light frost]

@pale willow

[pale willow]

uh is it a poem

what-

if it's a poem where's the poem.

OH I FOUND IT

I love it, seriously

first of all the way you wrote " Single Word Is Judged and such " is so impressive, I love how you expressed the situation of almost every other kid in 5 stanza's, it's really good and emotional.

Good Job man!

[light frost]

haha sorryyyy a lot happened hehe..

[light frost]

thank you so muchhhhh

[pale willow]

: )

[shrewd hedge]

Dude great poem
I like how you emphasized "every single word is judged"

[dusky yacht]

*Dude great poem I like

how you emphasized "every

single word is judged"*

- wild_at_heartt

[shrewd hedge]

Why did the bot say the same thing?

Anyways I loved how you captured almost every person's inner thought in a beautiful verse

[light frost]

idk how bots work tbh hehe

[light frost]

thank you so much very glad you liked it

[light frost]

@steady granite

[light frost]

@whole jacinth

[light frost]

@tight mountain