grave totem
Dear... y/n.
Writing this took some sleepless nights,
Because every time I write it the words dont feel right,
i hope i did a good job, and you understand this poem,
I've been counting hours since I last sent you one
I loved you so much i quit self harm
Only to then notice scars on your arm.
I loved you so much, I stopped hating myself
Because true love makes you forget about your own mental health.
one day ill get married to
someone other than you
ill have it all planned out
the place, the music, the vows
her walking down the aisle with her father
ill listen to a song thats not ours
and spew plenty of promises, "forever"
ill cross my fingers behind my back
and pretend I forgot my promise at 13 to you.
Ill lie, and say that she is her
ill look into her eyes, blue.
trying so hard not to imagine them as yours, amber.
clever rain
jaunty dagger
low smelt
hollow tinsel
whole crow
gloomy yarrow