vast blaze
Why am I like this.
So... Quick go loyalty.
Too quick.
So fast to trust.
To love.
So easily lured into something that always ends up hurting me.
Too nice.
Not nice enough.
They say I'm good looking or talented.
That anyone would be lucky to have me.
And yet.
Aand yet.
I'm
Still
Alone.
I'm tired of being the person they talk to but never see.
I'm many people's friend
But I have very very few friends.
What I freely give some take without caring where it comes from.
Without thinking that it might just be harder on me than it is on them.
I'm tired.
But no ones cares.
I'm dying.
But they demand more.
When will it be my turn.
To be loved
To find my people.
To be able to entrust and equally be entrusted.
This sounds so rinse wash repeat.
But it's all I've got left.
I've been bled dry.
I can't keep getting up and willfully giving away parts of myself to people who didn't even know that they had stolen them.
My heart is heavy.
My soul is darkening.
My mind only turns to mellow thought.
And yet I still wait.
For something.
Someone.
Somehow.
ashen kayak
solemn geode
elfin plaza