#Birthday

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eager walrus
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Tomorrow is my 20th birthday. I'm not excited. It's the first one without my dad in the picture. Can't say that's too bad considering on my 18th we fought whilst intoxicated. I feel distressed. I remember too many things. They demand to be felt but I just can't. The old me is long dead. Decayed. No. Not really. It's like a puzzle. One piece of the puzzle always remained intact whilst the rest were moved, damaged or replaced. Even now I can't help myself from derailing off topic. Courtesy of a messy past I suppose..
Sometimes I lose track of who I am. Which mask is on display or if any, at all. I fear the substances have altered my mind in an irreversible manner. Paranoia is consuming me slowly. Whilst the past is drowning me. I wonder if I'll ever be free. Or if this is my fate. My brain keeps shutting off. Just like that. All thoughts, emotions and traces of me vanish. Oh. I was talking about my birthday… Right. I don't think there is much to say, other than the fact I won't be able to enjoy it. Quite the contrary. Probably. I want to escape.

hushed mountain
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Not poetry

eager walrus
hushed bluff
eager walrus
hushed bluff
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Yeah I know bud

hushed mountain
eager walrus
hushed mountain
eager walrus
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I don't recall saying "just bad" ever being constructive criticism or feedback

silent tendonBOT
hushed mountain
eager walrus
hushed mountain
eager walrus
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Why should I take "feedback" from a self absorbed person that can't even read between the lines? You call it pitiful yet you don't understand any of it, or seen anything else I've written. A ball of yarn to a non weaver, will always just be a ball of yarn.

eager walrus
hushed mountain
silent tendonBOT
eager walrus
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The projection isn't

hushed mountain
eager walrus
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Riiiight. And that tooootally shows.

hushed mountain
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Lol can’t believe I was right. Why would you write poetry without reading any of the greats?

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Or rather, try to write poetry

eager walrus
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The delusion of granduor reeks with this one. Reading old poetry doesn't make you a poet nor will it ever give you the skills. You read just to show off. Because, yet again, you show your lack of knowledge. Ironically I own a book by Fyodor Dostoevsky and one by Franz Kafka

hushed mountain
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LOL

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Just realised you’re probably a child so I apologise for what I’ve said, you can easily get better

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But remember, owning books you haven’t read is the definition of meaningless

eager walrus
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And now you try to further boost your own ego. Sad. Lack of imagination can't be taught. Its clear you called what I wrote bad because you needed an ego boost. If that wasn't the case you would have been capable of addressing anything about it. You just use this enter poetry thing to try and seem better than you are as well as trying to fill the gaps in your miserable personality. I'm not giving you any more attention.

hushed mountain
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Notice that no one liked the poem, yet you are still convinced that it is great, and your readers who are more educated than you are wrong.

eager walrus