outer vapor
I loved you ever so gently,
Your captivating brown eyes and olive complexion led me here,
A place of uncertainty,
A place where I once felt the safest between your chin and your ribcage,
A now distant memory I can only see through the polaroids,
A seeming never ending relationship that could've lasted a lifetime,
And now, with your absence, the bittersweet longing I feel in my bones has come to a halt,
The halls of my university scream your name as if they have forgotten you,
I let out a heavy sigh as I saw you in my class this morning,
You hadn't sat next to me, and we hadn't talked like we used to,
Forgetting to look at me or avoiding my eyes so you wouldn't fall in love again?
It wasn't just me you hurt; my mother still asks about you, asks if you're coming over for lunch like you used to,
Somewhere somehow, I killed you, I buried you deep but you still come to haunt me,
A now fading memory of someone I used to know - and when you took my innocence I knew it was going to be you, because it had to,
I long for your arms again, the odor of your sweet cologne, I find you in the symbols presented to me in my waking life,
And now, I mustn't, you have restricted me from your being, but I will always remember you, for loving me the way I wanted to be loved
Who are you?
somber heron