Suicide Inside -Rider

[junior sluice]

Trigger warning: this is a garbage poem so you might find yourself triggered by that

@rain estuary

@analog geyser

@reef perch

@flat hearth

@little wedge

@sturdy grail
@upbeat tendon

[livid latch]

This honestly is almost an exact recap of a moment in my life

The poem isn't that garbage it's quite unique

It shows a lot emotion and at least for me it flows okay

It's not as good as your older poems but it is quite nice and unique

[lucid belfry]

*It's not as good as

your older poems but it is

quite nice and unique*

- Charpa | @Me for help

[junior sluice]

copium

[livid latch]

Think what you want, I'll still have this opinion =)

[flat hearth]

good poem, not that great , makes me feel sad for some reason but anyway its good.

no feedback here, i dont find any faults

[junior sluice]

You say not that great then you say you don't find faults

This one is more storytelling anyway, (still garb)

Believe it or not, it all happened to me, I was literally numb, couldn't see colour or anything, my vision was blacking out, I literally stared at my dad for a solid 30 minutes with a dead gaze, usually I have trouble keeping a straight face but this time I became a machine

@woven pagoda

[woven pagoda]

I liked it, but it is sad. It is a good poem though

[junior sluice]

@weary rune

[flat hearth]

wait dont tell me this was real

[junior sluice]

He tried his best but I didn't feel a thing, I couldn't see his skin colour, my peripherals faded away

[flat hearth]

....damn

that kinda thing only happened to me when i tried to lift a box [of prolly 25 kilos rice and i had no clue]

[junior sluice]

That's just lightheadedness, I became a different being

[flat hearth]

oh no, it was my first time[context: we were packing donated thigns for orphanage during christmas at school and finally we were stackign the boxes to keep it organized]

[junior sluice]

Ah

[flat hearth]

and then i look at the box thinking its like prolly jsut well light[totally ignored the fact that i write rice on top of it] and and lifted it up

to literally here my back crack and damn

and then i like panicked and screamed at my other friend to take it

and literally my ears kept ringing for like 10 whole minutes

[junior sluice]

You know the big water bottles that go into the dispensers, I hold those and do squats with them, then I gotta lie down because it compresses my chest very hard and it lights my head, I'm thinking it may have contributed to my pneumothorax surgery

[flat hearth]

and my vision kept like blacking out and coming back in

[little wedge]

It is damn not a garbage poem. I'm triggered by the trigger warning.

[lucid belfry]

*It is damn not a

garbage poem. I'm triggered by

the trigger warning.*

- crescendos_1209

[flat hearth]

damn

nah my parents dont allow me in the gym in the first place

[flat hearth]

it was my first time, scary experience indeed

[junior sluice]

I'm triggered by your lies

[flat hearth]

and i couldnt freaking bend for like two days

[little wedge]

If only I could curse...nvm

[junior sluice]

I woke up after surgery and tried to stand up to take a walk, I felt so incredibly light headed that my soul left, I sat back down and sat there like i was drunk beyond repair

[flat hearth]

damn

i never had such terrible light headed situations before

[junior sluice]

I've had too many

[flat hearth]

hm, but i kinda had headaches every single day in like eleventh grade

and by headaches i mean the throbbing ones

now thankfully i dont

[junior sluice]

People say I need a hug but my parents both hugged me, I felt...... nothing

[flat hearth]

numb

ur numb

[junior sluice]

Yes

I know

[flat hearth]

dw! ull be okay in the end!

itll only last for sometime

[junior sluice]

We'll see

[flat hearth]

as long as you believe its gonna be all okay, it will

[sudden bluff]

wonderful poem 👏

[junior sluice]

@reef perch

[rain estuary]

This one is not metaphorical or profound as your other poems..... but this is great in its own rights... I love how the paragraphs are short ... shows the reader how u really were dissociating the whole time.

[rain estuary]

U don't need a hug ... u need love and care and support rey

[junior sluice]

Go on though

@grim chasm

[hearty light]

Ahem, would suggest taking it to the #1056779405491453992 as the mentions of self harm isn't something you can do on post own

[junior sluice]

There's not a single mention of self harm and the word suicide is written once

Wth are you talking about Keshav

[hearty light]

The name, plus the last line

[junior sluice]

Who the hell is going to get triggered by a single word

Like I get that some things create imagery but not here

[hearty light]

We'll never know, plus the rule is kinda strict on this stuff, sorry can't do anything about that, I'm doing what I'm told

¯_(ツ)_/¯

[thin summit]

Rules are rules suicidal poem goes sensitive

[hearty light]

Dude that pfp looks pedo 💀

[little wedge]

Once in VC I might

[analog geyser]

It's nice. I love it. But it's not one of your bests. I've read better from you. It's not garbage tho. It's different from the ones you write usually. It still has suicide but how one is dead inside. I really liked this concept. Good job.

[sturdy grail]

This is so emotion😭😭😭

[junior sluice]

It stays up.

[hearty light]

Well, what's you context by it stays up?

[junior sluice]

?

[hearty light]

Basically wdym it stays up?

[junior sluice]

I'm not taking the poem down and sending it to sensitive for one word that has no effect on the readers imagery or mental

[hearty light]

Well, sorry for this but @reef perch , deal with this one

[junior sluice]

Wth dude

This is not strict, this is unreasonable, nobody is getting triggered by a single word

[hearty light]

Look dude, I have three options, tell you and you abide, I have to take this poem down and give you a timeout, or give you last warn which leads in a ban

[hearty light]

The rules strictly says that no mention of self harm is allowed in this channel

[junior sluice]

There's no self harm in it

[hearty light]

Mention means any way possible, even metaphorically

[junior sluice]

Give me the line

[hearty light]

Last line

[junior sluice]

Goddamn, how about this

We'll wait for maybe another mod to get online and ask them as well

[hearty light]

I don't want any changes in the poem, it's really good as it is, just shift it to the sensitive section

[junior sluice]

If another mod says it as well I'll move the poem

[hearty light]

3-4 mods and staff did agreed to put it in the sensitive section, wanna see a screenshot?

[junior sluice]

What if I put a spoiler?

[hearty light]

Nope, shift it

Rules are rules, this is the last chance I'm providing

[reef perch]

I agree with keshav

@ any mod

This poem belong in sensitivity section

[hearty light]

@junior sluice please, this is the last chance, I don't wanna be harsh

[upbeat tendon]

thats derealisation, another symptom includes being unable to speak, because you lack the incentive to do so, even when people are right there asking you things. ive been there several times

[junior sluice]

Bro how does one take it down

I found it

[hearty light]

Just press and hold the poem and click delete message

[junior sluice]

My bad, I thought I had done it