Let Me Wither Away

[viscid jasper]

(English is not my native language, correct me if I spelled something wrong.)

I wish I could die for a second,
And wither away, like roses,
Which will bloom on my grave,
And after a time, they will all wither away.

I don't want to question my life and my whole self,
But I can't do anything because you said I am worthless.
I'm nothing, nothing, nothing but worthless,
Even though I try my best, I'm nothing but worthless.

Listening to calm beats, while cutting my legs with a scalpel,
They taught me that was the only way to die,
and the only way to bloom again.

I lived all my years searching for an easy way,
But all I want now, is to let me wither away.

[signal wolf]

I feel like 'cuz feels out of place. Just put because, it still works the same.

Spelling stuff: tho should be though, tought should be taught.

[viscid jasper]

Thanks!

[warm crystal]

Is there another way you can interpret your 4th stanza, the “listening to calm beats” paragraph? I feel like you need to describe that, in a way that your reader can feel what you’re feeling

[viscid jasper]

I can put more adjectives. Maybe they can help.

[warm crystal]

Hmm I don’t want to suggest how I would write it - it is your piece and how you interpret how you feel is the general sense of poetry so please, take your time with it

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