#a star to call my own

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cursive hare
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[ a star to call my own ]

for we are but scattered by a singular star
yet i hold a galaxy within me
this galaxy revolves around one star
that star being you

for when i see you, sadness wilts away from my bones and between them grow a new vine
a vine holding delicate pink camellia that wound and bruise and twist into themselves whenever you leave me in this hollow mindscape
i'm left sour, stripped of any hope for a chance
a chance that maybe, one day, we can finally bask in this silence

because i know that it will not be like this again
because i cannot force the words from your throat
and with that, i shall wither away in the silence you've placed upon us
or perhaps it was the two of us
and the ones around us who've forced us into it
you're a flame in my heart that refuses to burn out
not even these tears i shed can wash that flame away

and sometimes i wish i had that control, to know that i will see you again, to know that we will speak soon-

perhaps it's not your time, then
and i should be patient with you
because maybe we both think the same when we're around one another
and we feel the same, too
the same need, want to be around one another, yet not gaining the courage to utter a word

you always approach me when it's too late
and by then i only wish to be alone
but at the end of it all
i just want a star to call my own.

  • vv.
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The poem is a contemplation on a relationship with someone who is a central figure in the speaker's life. The speaker's emotions are expressed through metaphors of stars and galaxies, symbolizing their profound feelings for the person. The poem suggests that their relationship is complicated and full of silences, possibly due to external pressures or personal inhibitions. The speaker desires a deeper connection with the person, but their attempts to do so are met with hesitation or reluctance. Ultimately, the poem expresses a yearning for a meaningful connection, represented by the metaphor of having a star to call their own.

cursive hare