A Suggestion - Fantasia ‘Cinnamon’

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Recounting heated rainy arguments -
In tremor nightly, sick of elements?
Mystics afar losing sight of stars
Both knees down, repentance floods and mars

Assignment muddling, a dancing shuddering
But revolution turns my face back forwards;
To wish, the struggle might turn a shuffle
And my crime stained on a coin’s obverse

Golden sun might blind, but warm hands guide
Though brutally beaten, red and away thus shied,
A lone room intrudes a smile or two,
Shall late-night mysteries haunt our deepest blues.

I do realise that it looks quite sad, but it isn't really that sad, okay?

Also the title seems to make no sense, because it doesn't, unless you know what people I am referring to. It has no direct connection to the poem, but rather describes the subject, just like 'Wayward' and 'Patchwork'.

There are a lot of references to my own life (and my other poems) in this poem.

[nocturne sequoia]

could i ask for the context of

Recounting heated rainy arguments

"dm" is also ok

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it's literally Eutaxia

but worded in a slightly misleading way

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here you go you have the answer

in effect i am shostakoviching

[nocturne sequoia]

lmao

specifically, leningrad?

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eighth quartet

if you are referring to making up excuses for describing something else then maybe also yes

[nocturne sequoia]

okay

i have an interpretation of the title that doesn't make sense

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unlike shostakovich i do not want ||-----||, that is to be clarified

[nocturne sequoia]

and is probably too incorrect

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you can guess

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it's something i searched yesterday

it is not about me, is it

[obsidian vector]

no

[nocturne sequoia]

ok

it's too incorrect to be mentioned

[obsidian vector]

i do not hold hostage your search history

[nocturne sequoia]

i did not claim that

but you do hold mastery over your own

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i mentioned trying to hack your google account when you were streaming tho

if you remember

[nocturne sequoia]

was I streaming

[obsidian vector]

no

long ago

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no

okay

if you search up the meaning of [insert noun], that was why i said

that it may be about me

but no

it's just a coincidence

didn't expect it to be about that anyway

[obsidian vector]

i already searched long ago

but interesting

i recall now

[nocturne sequoia]

anyways pls ignore aforementioned guess

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that is quite an interesting coincidence

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i feel ashamed that it's the first guess I had

but else i can't think how cinnamon encrypts

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nabla said the word 'cinnamon' earlier this week

[nocturne sequoia]

who in the deuce

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you don't know nabla

go to 'dm'

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it's a cosmetics brand