diamond 1 deathmatch

[digital plover]

hi! i struggle with confidence issues a lot and when i feel insecure, i usually cant a-word too well and am being very hard on myself. i used to think my a-word was horrible and definitely my biggest issue but i've had multiple coaches tell me its good, i just cant do it to my full potential if im not feeling confident. but i still find it difficult to believe sometimes, so i wanted to know what u guys think.
please be as kind as possible in your messages, im very sensitive
(the shaking in the vod is me being mad at myself)
vod: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=marFfJ6qAMY
warmup ends at 1:10 i was just messing around in it
tracker: https://tracker.gg/valorant/profile/riot/jedy%23bat/overview

[daring shard]

How I imagine you irl when you shake your mouse

https://tenor.com/view/cat-angry-gif-10073916071412886160

Mechanics look great, probably some movement stuff you could iron out but I doubt that's what's holding you back

You were 1 kill off winning the DM for crying out loud

https://tenor.com/view/hockey-only-game-bryzgalov-anahe-gif-8306971

I know it's not as simple as "stop getting angry" but you're on the money with the confidence thing

[digital plover]

thats very accurate

i do know my counter strafing isnt the best and i do feel awkward in a lot of fights so my movement is definitely not the best, but i feel like if i just took more fights and got more comfortable it would get better as well

everything comes down to confidence :(

[daring shard]

That's why we have deathmatch

Derive confidence from your own skill and worth rather than your performance

Yeah you may have whiffed that one shot but you're not suddenly a worse player because of it

You are that guy