followed by nuclear bombardment of Afghan cities, Hiroshima and Nagasaki
#🎪bruh-fart
placid sail
heady crow
heady crow
stone blade
heady crow
heady crow
upbeat bobcat
real tinsel
did his limbs get detached from his body in an extremely painful way?
pastel quartz
did his limbs get detached from his body in an extremely painful way?
idk what was his fate
real tinsel
was there a lot of blood?
pastel quartz
was there a lot of blood?
dont ask me idk
stone blade
LMAO|
stone blade
хи
stone blade
yeah hi 🤝
obsidian bough
pastel quartz
upbeat bobcat
sturdy otter
https://tenor.com/view/jinx-the-cat-jinx-big-foot-cat-fuck-you-makesweet-gif-242...
im laughing way to hard about this
11/10 would crash my car again
stone blade
im laughing way to hard about this
why
sturdy otter
why not? the cat looks funny
stone blade
it do
real tinsel
upbeat bobcat
stone blade
no but I like girls that look like that
real tinsel
no but I like girls that look like that
me too
real tinsel
wow
stone blade
after my friend told me
real tinsel
ivan womanovski
stone blade
ok so
story time
with ivan
I get in the bus with my roommate vlado and we start traveling
I stand still in the middle
and next to me is a plastic sheet and beyond that are the seats
literalyl on the first seat next to me some alt girl is sitting next to me with some red hair streak
on one side
and we're traveling
I saw her when I entered but didnt look at her
then I look at vlado at some moment to check where he was and he sat right behind her
when we aproached the end of the bus stops cuz the bus' last stop is at the uni
the girl got off at the previous one cuz theres a school next to the uni
and after we got off he's like
"yo bruh she didnt stop chatting about you with her friend on the phone the entire time we were traveling"
stone blade
no no listen
he could read what she was typing
and she was I guess messaging one of her friends right and telling her how I look
literally this has never happened to me ( to my knowledge)
I legit got simped on in the bus
real tinsel
yes ivan she wants to strapon you
you have blue hair you're hot and your name is ivan
stone blade
i am not into that
real tinsel
i mean i would strapon you
stone blade
thanks homie
I am chatting with another girl I am into a little
and shes into me a little
and she adores how I look
never in my life would I think I look good to other people
real tinsel
aww
real tinsel
you look good to me ivan
heady crow
stone blade
but she will be coming to study over in my university
real tinsel
but she will be coming to study over in my university
aww
real tinsel
Like im actually lost
no you're ivan
real tinsel
I look good to people?????
yes
real tinsel
People actually think I look good and hot?
yes
stone blade
apparently
zenith wagon
nothing like holding the gun with your mouth while healing up
real tinsel
nothing like holding the gun with your mouth while healing up
stalker moment
real tinsel
nothing like holding the gun with your mouth while healing up
how do you know he's holding it with his mouth
heady crow
zenith wagon
how do you know he's holding it with his mouth
both hands busy
real tinsel
both hands busy
there's another
abstract path
What are paradox and aRTS games generally?
sturdy otter
both hands busy
the glory of the monopot
real tinsel
What are paradox and aRTS games generally?
Paradox is a game developer, RTS is Real Time Strategy
real tinsel
Paradox is EA but for RTS games
sturdy otter
they do publish some good RTS tho
abstract path
time to consume estrogen
real tinsel
need me a girl who will forcibly make me consume cyanide
any date that gets me killed is a hot date
abstract path
Cyanide is a chemical, but which one?
sturdy otter
the one that kills you realy quickly but also realy painful
placid sail
one of my relative's friend was killed by a cyanide in the nineties 
real tinsel
one of my relative's friend was killed by a cyanide in the nineties <:PepeHappy:...
how
my ex tried to kill herself by eating those nutlike thingies that contain microscopic amounts of cyanide in them
jesus my exs were retarded just like me
placid sail
it was mixed into food allegedly
it was a story mentioned once by my elder relative who isn't known for telling bullshit, so I believed him
real tinsel
it was mixed into food allegedly
ahh if he had survived he'd be Rasputin 2
just needs to do a bunch of batshit crazy stuff first
placid sail
it is quite hard to survive cyanide poisoning, hence it's popularity as a cliche weapon of suicide by spies
real tinsel
my ex tried to kill herself by eating those nutlike thingies that contain micros...
it was almonds
placid sail
ahh if he had survived he'd be Rasputin 2
wait was rasputin poisoned by cyanide?
placid sail
my ex tried to kill herself by eating those nutlike thingies that contain micros...
should have went for apples' seeds
real tinsel
oh yes she did that too
placid sail
damn daniel
real tinsel
still too many
i also tried to poison myself in like 2018 or 2019 with 300 grams of coffee
being a teenager and mentally ill is hard man
placid sail
I can imagine
my only luck was that though I was very prone to mood swings and depression, suicide was always very repelling for me
huh. actually, I had a suicidal girlfriend, too
well, I'm not used to thinking about her as a girlfriend, but technically she was
anyways, she was into that shit a lot, luckily, unsuccessful at that
abstract path
being a teenager and mentally ill is hard man
99% of teenagers are mentally ill nowadays
I do wonder and don't wonder why.
real tinsel
99% of teenagers are mentally ill nowadays
nah a lot of them pretend to be mentally ill for social credits
abstract path
Humanity is retarded and parents are bad is all imma say
real tinsel
look at me i'm mentally ill and an absolute failure
then there are people who say they are mentally ill but are academically successful and have big circle of friends
abstract path
then there are people who say they are mentally ill but are academically success...
Well i mean sure i have qounds
placid sail
then there are people who say they are mentally ill but are academically success...
one does not always cancel out the other
real tinsel
one does not always cancel out the other
well not all of them yes
placid sail
for example, to mention gf again, she has classical bipolar disorder
real tinsel
but things like severe depression, schizophrenia do fuck you up in a lot of ways
placid sail
half of the time she is a sad immovable plank, contemplating suicide
the other half she has more energy and motivation than I ever had or will ever have
placid sail
but things like severe depression, schizophrenia do fuck you up in a lot of ways
yeah, those one make you handicapped effectively
abstract path
Well i mean sure i am a lump of hyperactive positivity and affection
real tinsel
my ex thought i have bipolar too because i'm exactly like that
abstract path
But i still feel all the wounds of the past...
placid sail
my ex thought i have bipolar too because i'm exactly like that
you should check for that
ex's diagnosis isn't good enough
real tinsel
my therapist said i may have it but she's not sure
placid sail
and if you're indeed bipolar, it is quite treatable
real tinsel
i am very good at hiding my symptoms involuntarily
abstract path
Same ;^;
heady crow
abstract path
Lmao
real tinsel
like, the parasite inside my head just ratatouille's me into normal mode as soon as i'm around people
abstract path
Damn
real tinsel
like, the parasite inside my head just ratatouille's me into normal mode as soon...
for this reason i can't tell my therapist about everything even though i want to
placid sail
for dummies like you two, blood tests are on the way in the near future, since there were some researches on correlation between psycical disorders and blood makeup
but still, a half-decent psychotherapist or a psychiatrist should figure you out without it
real tinsel
for dummies like you two, blood tests are on the way in the near future, since t...
i hope they can just diagnose you through that
real tinsel
but still, a half-decent psychotherapist or a psychiatrist should figure you out...
not if you keep involuntarily hiding everything like a fucking retard
psychotherapists can only go so far, they're not mind readers
placid sail
they don't need to know your inner workings letter by letter, some keystone indicators are usually enough
though it is an obstruction, but don't worry, you're not guilty for it in any way
you should try to find a specialist you're most comfortable with, it will probably help you open up
real tinsel
i was reading about mentally ill people in the past and man we're lucky to be born in this age. They used to literally beat you up for being depressed because they thought it would "make the demon go away"
placid sail
perhaps try some online therapy, if almost everyone at your place is shit
I was doing psychotherapy via skype, it's not that bad 
real tinsel
it's not that they are shit, it's just that i have a very difficult mind
placid sail
though one of my friends dislike it a lot, says it lacks physical contact for him, but since you're not exactly comfortable with people, online therapy may be even more preferable for you
real tinsel
no i am more comfortable with talking irl than talking in a voicechat/videochat
placid sail
i was reading about mentally ill people in the past and man we're lucky to be bo...
I mean, my relatives were advising me to go outside more, do some sports and, you know, just stop suffering lol
so we're not exactly above medieval thinking yet
real tinsel
I mean, my relatives were advising me to go outside more, do some sports and, yo...
yeah they do that to me too
there's some buff guy who keeps pushing me into gym because it helped him and he thinks it will help me
i used to go to a gym 2 years ago and it didn't help
gym is for people who aren't confident and stuff, i don't have confidence issues
placid sail
to be fair: there is a lot of data on regular physical activity indeed improving many psychological problems including depression
but it isn't that improving alone, and... it is fucking hard for, say, a depressed person to have a regular physical activity
real tinsel
man i can barely get myself to take a shower once a week
placid sail
yikes, smelly khajit
abstract path
but it isn't *that* improving alone, and... it is fucking hard for, say, a depre...
God no
real tinsel
even though i feel uncomfortable as hell when i'm dirty, i can't get myself in the shower
placid sail
I understand
real tinsel
and when i do get in it takes me 3 hours to get out because every 20 minutes i need to take a break
placid sail
I live like a rat myself
abstract path
I kinda got over that by getting into mind a nice, warm shower every day
abstract path
and when i do get in it takes me 3 hours to get out because every 20 minutes i n...
For me it took 2 hours because i enjoyed the warmth xD
placid sail
don't shame yourself over being too lazy or unproductive
it actually increases your mental strain a lot
abstract path
It really does, yeah
placid sail
if you can't do it, fuck it, it's not like you're gonna die because of it; when you'll have the strength and will to do it, you'll do it
real tinsel
don't shame yourself over being too lazy or unproductive
being like that for a while is okay but when it takes too long it kind of gets in your head
like if we were to ratio it, i'm extremely productive one day for every 14 days where i lie in bed like a fucking dying snail
placid sail
maybe one day Falco will marry you and you'll get to live in Italy and find some good psychotherapist there
I wonder how good is the science of psyche there
real tinsel
maybe one day Falco will marry you and you'll get to live in Italy and find some...
why it*ly jesus
out of all the countries
placid sail
isn't Falco italian?
placid sail
hey, what's wrong with Italy? it's a cool country
a bit criminal, but which country isn't a bit criminal?
real tinsel
i don't know everyone seems to have a country they hate so i favored italy
no specific reason though
real tinsel
i was gonna choose france but there are sufficient amount of france haters
abstract path
Yes
placid sail
abstract path
Oh i agree
real tinsel
should really change your mind soon, or Falco will marry Bruno instead
then i'll hate finland too
abstract path
But it's sad to see humanity fall way more down
placid sail
to fall?
listen, buddy
we're currently living, in comparison to all previous times of history, in a literal golden age of humanity
all this current happenings are not very cash money, but it's actually nothing compared to shit humanity used to navigate before
real tinsel
we're currently living, in comparison to all previous times of history, in a lit...
it's so sad that this is true
real tinsel
But there are other aspects i currently mean, like the human brain
what about human brain
abstract path
It degeneratet since humanity began to exist
placid sail
But there are other aspects i currently mean, like the human brain
again, if you would have been born a century, no, even a half century before, you would be shit out of luck, mental health wise
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
but being born in the current year, you have pretty good chances to actually figure out your mental problems and actually live a happy and fulfilling life
upbeat bobcat
abstract path
I think i did
upbeat bobcat
abstract path
Atleast we don't eliminate whole countries anymore for their golden temples
upbeat bobcat
About that...
upbeat bobcat
They nuked Japan because Gachimuchi is based in Japan, USA sillies
real tinsel
I wasn't *that* wrong at this point
your point was valid until you compared now to the past
the past was way more fucked up than now
upbeat bobcat
Past is more fucked up because it was always covered up but now it's coming up on surface, now is not so different, covered up again but we don't know shit
real tinsel
like i said before, if you can go pay a psychotherapist to help you cure your depression now, in about a few centuries ago if they figured you have depression they'd beat you until you bled to make the depression go away
that was the logic they had
abstract path
True xD
placid sail
it is probably one of the very few occasion where comparison is actually very helpful, because modern media tends to dramatize shit to the boiling point to just keep people agitated, which isn't very good for said people's health
real tinsel
it is probably one of the very few occasion where comparison is actually very he...
staying away from most media is one of the best things i had done a few months ago
placid sail
media was always the same
perhaps, but the media now is globalised
real tinsel
then i crawled back into my cave of negative news again
placid sail
poor exo suit can have a panic attack about things happening on the other side of the globe
abstract path
perhaps, but the media now is globalised
And 99.9% here don't even watch it
placid sail
it wasn't possible at all previously
upbeat bobcat
perhaps, but the media now is globalised
But at least you have access to global
placid sail
what good does it give you though?
abstract path
We just get informed about current crisis like "ukraine bla bla bla"
real tinsel
what good does it give you though?
man that is depressing
placid sail
it is a legit health improvement, to try to decrease your mass media consumption
upbeat bobcat
For instance, lot of people in Russia doesn't even know what's going on just behind their doorstep, those are just depending on locals, not global. When you have global, you have lies but at least you have different viewpoints
real tinsel
humans have come so far in almost every way but are using it for mostly self gain
placid sail
For instance, lot of people in Russia doesn't even know what's going on just beh...
lemme tell you something from the place of happening so to say
our babushkas here monitor the tv fucking 24/7
but it's all just government propaganda
upbeat bobcat
Local news
abstract path
For instance, lot of people in Russia doesn't even know what's going on just beh...
Yeah...it really is just waves most of the time
placid sail
*Local news*
there isn't any news here other than pro-government news anymore
upbeat bobcat
I know what you talking about, I'm living in a country where almost every side is ready to go for war and war has been happening on south-east non-stop believe me.
placid sail
everything which was at least slightly not pro-government was destroyed half a year ago, and it was only the remnants of independent media which was being destroyed for last 20 years
upbeat bobcat
And our governments are not so different
placid sail
so yeah, the only thing babushka here gets from watching a tv is a tremor and irrational fear of europeans and ukrainians
placid sail
And our governments are not so different
just two old geezers fucking everyone's shit up
but yours got funny moustache, I guess
upbeat bobcat
Dude he's tall like
abstract path
just two old geezers fucking everyone's shit up
Totally Agree
real tinsel
real tinsel
but yours got funny moustache, I guess
who is the funny moustache guy
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
Well europeans are...good and bad
it's not that lever exaggeration here
placid sail
it's "NATO is inbound in your city tomorrow and will rape your dog if we're not to act first"
abstract path
it's not that lever exaggeration here
Yeah....some people are that scared, ik
real tinsel
it's "NATO is inbound in your city tomorrow and will rape your dog if we're not ...
why the dog jesus christ
upbeat bobcat
this is the only mass media i'm willing to consume
real tinsel
what has my dog done to anyone
abstract path
Yeah apparently
placid sail
too political
upbeat bobcat
Yee
real tinsel
oh shit i just realized it's getting political
upbeat bobcat
O hai Crystal, nice to see you here
real tinsel
O hai Crystal, nice to see you here
my man how many drugs are you on
placid sail
two marijuanna
undone wave
upbeat bobcat
I don't do drugs, I'm a natural idiot
abstract path
upbeat bobcat
But what I meant was the topic above was like whole ignorable, I'm just opening a new one here
real tinsel
thank you my friends do seem to mistake me for Giancarlo Esposito since i've made my head bald
upbeat bobcat
undone wave
Bravo Vince
placid sail
this meme is now forever associated with some young weirdo from germany for me
real tinsel
but it's growing back now and now i look like Alexander Degtyarev's skinny version
placid sail
which is an accomplishment, actually
real tinsel
this meme is now forever associated with some young weirdo from germany for me
which one
upbeat bobcat
abstract path
this meme is now forever associated with some young weirdo from germany for me
Lmfao
upbeat bobcat
Uu are you older than me
placid sail
I am starting to feel like some creep
real tinsel
Uu are you older than me <:Hmmge:928322910123347978>
yes i am haha stare at me from the bottom
abstract path
upbeat bobcat
Wha
abstract path
Like the uu
upbeat bobcat
Mang I'm a boomer
abstract path
Me kinda too sometimes
placid sail
turkish boomer sitting in a discord, YEAH RIGHT
abstract path
I have a mental age of about 18 mate
upbeat bobcat
I got 7 
real tinsel
I have a mental age of about 18 mate <:kek2:944014970901897297>
i have a mental age of i wish i was dead how about that
real tinsel
you'll get used to it
abstract path
True
placid sail
just smile mang what the hell
abstract path
Lol
real tinsel
upbeat bobcat
abstract path
Like that would be easy by that age sometimes
I think only a good ol joke can get em to smile, or some good times with their fellas yk?
Talkin bout good times they had with eachother, maybe on a campfire with some beer
Maybe on a grill, idk
Nostalgia can be good in many ways
upbeat bobcat
This is me in a nutshell so
placid sail
you aren't obliged to smile more or in particular situations or at all, it's just dentists' propaganda
abstract path
True heh
abstract path
This is me in a nutshell so
Rip
real tinsel
you aren't obliged to smile more or in particular situations or at all, it's jus...
dentists invented smiling to sell more dentals
everything is based around capitalism
placid sail
of course
upbeat bobcat
Khaa solved the puzzle
real tinsel
Khaa solved the puzzle
i always do
upbeat bobcat
9 out of 10 dentists are sad now
real tinsel
that's why they call me the jigsaw
real tinsel
9 out of 10 dentists are sad now
aww that's okay i'll make them smile
placid sail
dentists invented smiling to sell more dentals
of course, what are other possible reasons? mammals treat smile like an act of aggression!
it's only who do it "in a friendly way"
real tinsel
of course, what are other possible reasons? mammals treat smile like an act of a...
exactly
abstract path
that's why they call me the jigsaw
That name is so fucking familiar i could nearly say it's out of a video game
placid sail
worldwide dentist conspiracy
placid sail
That name is so fucking familiar i could nearly say it's out of a video game
"I would like to play a game"
real tinsel
it's only who do it "in a friendly way"
pfft, "friendly". Everyone who has ever smiled at me died, fact
abstract path
pfft, "friendly". Everyone who has ever smiled at me died, fact
smiles
placid sail
"I would like to play a game"
you know, funny little guy who makes deadly traps for people with guilty consience
placid sail
pfft, "friendly". Everyone who has ever smiled at me died, fact
h-huh?
upbeat bobcat
real tinsel
h-huh?
time is a linear path so technically speaking in a four dimensional world they're already dead
but they've smiled at me
upbeat bobcat
That reminds me of some Star Trek episodes lmao
real tinsel
in an indirect way, smiling at me got them killed
placid sail
time is a linear path so technically speaking in a four dimensional world they'r...
that's a close fucking dodge, mister probably-serial-killer
real tinsel
haha nooo why would i ever do serial killing pff
real tinsel
i still can be if someone who will love me and make me feel special enters my life and tells me she likes femboys
my ex got close to turning me into a femboy but she didn't make me feel special
placid sail
i still can be if someone who will love me and make me feel special enters my li...
dude, you got to have some integrity
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
you're not just some piece of trash to change completely only to serve someone's tastes better
upbeat bobcat
Be a strong, independent man
placid sail
funnily enough, but loving oneself is actually very helpful and healthy
real tinsel
funnily enough, but loving oneself is actually very helpful and healthy
very difficult though
upbeat bobcat
Aye
placid sail
like, hard to believe after all this mass media bullshit be yourself! love yourself! live laugh love shit pants!
placid sail
very difficult though
yeah, haven't figured it out yet myself
real tinsel
loving oneself has to be more than just a skill
placid sail
it's not really a skill, more of a change of your inner workings
real tinsel
i can love another to the point of giving my life away for them. But when it comes to myself, i wouldn't really do much for myself
placid sail
dissolving of harmful ideas and habits and replacement with something more adequate
heh. kinda sounds like my bipolar ex-gf
it may be that your inner workings state that your worth is nothing, so the only possible way for you to feel good about yourself is to be very loyal and helpful for someone else
real tinsel
dissolving of harmful ideas and habits and replacement with something more adequ...
that's the really difficult part though. I try to do that a lot but every time i'm faced with failure. The best i can do is this pseudo-self-confident bullshit
real tinsel
it may be that your inner workings state that your worth is nothing, so the only...
yeah i think it has something to do with my childhood
placid sail
that's the really difficult part though. I try to do that a lot but every time i...
if changing your deepest convictions was easy, there would probably be none psychological problems whatsoever
but people would probably be very unreliable and volatile, I guess
and that is not very good for survival, you know
speaking of survival and your self-esteem being completely fucked up: it is actually likely to be connected
as in, many of our strange and disfunctional quirks, phobias and habits are actually minds' mechanism of adaptation and experience integration giving a failure
i.e. there was probably some experiences in your younger life and especially childhood which constituted to the idea of you being allegedly a bad and unworthy person, and now this conviction clings to you and impair you quality of life
but luckily! this malfunctioning adaptation could be rewritten by something else!
real tinsel
how though
placid sail
the same way you were convinced deliberately or accidentally before that you're shit
by providing empirical argument to yourself that proves otherwise
real tinsel
man i've been trying that a lot
placid sail
and probably add it up with cognitive behavioral therapy
it's the hottest shit currently
real tinsel
right now my only hope is meds
i've tried the self-improvement stuff like self-loving and cbt and trying to be more physically active etc
doing stuff you like and all that too
i'm into art stuff which in a way make me feel good
looking at art makes me feel good
but it really is more than just this. I have chemical imbalances and no amount of non-med stuff can fix that
i'm afraid meds will make it worse but well it's either that or throwing myself off a 16 floor building
placid sail
my personal experience showed me that just doing all this techniques and exercises by the book or from the internet is not as twice as good as working with a professional, unfortunately
combine that two, and it is very potent
but if you're convinced you need meds, sure dude, nothing bad in it
real tinsel
not convinced, certain at this point
placid sail
again, you need somebody to prescribe it to you, not because you won't get a receipt without it, but because doing psycho meds can be quite tricky, you need somebody to monitor you and change dosage or the drug if needed
real tinsel
i don't actually want meds because i have an irrational phobia of medications
real tinsel
but i know i need them so i'm gonna force myself to take them
placid sail
because antidepressants are notorious for being shit first 2-4 weeks
real tinsel
i don't actually want meds because i have an irrational phobia of medications
it's to a point that i'm even afraid of paracetamol
placid sail
it's because the drug indeed influences the function of the nervous system, and it tell you "what the fuck are doing with me you slut" these first 2-4 weeks
but after that, if the medication was chosen correctly, it's a breeze
placid sail
it's to a point that i'm even afraid of paracetamol
if you were to be prescribed antidepressants
you are likely to receive tranquilisers as well for the rough first period
so your phobia of meds won't be as hard
real tinsel
with needles?
real tinsel
i'm afraid of them. When i get a needle i faint
not like i lose consciousness. I just become very weak physically
my skin goes all pale and stuff
placid sail
do you realise why are you afraid of them?
real tinsel
well yes i'm afraid of every sharp thing
cuts hurt
but when i accidentally cut myself it doesn't have the same effect as purposely cutting
there have been a few times i had deeply cut myself but since they were accidents, my body didn't react to them
placid sail
so, you kind of don't trust the purposeful cut to be safe, then?
real tinsel
i think yes
placid sail
wanna hear about a funny phobia of a friend of mine? to ease up a bit
real tinsel
go on
placid sail
so there is a childhood friend of mine who always was very, very afraid of mushrooms. she couldn't eat any dishes with them, and if she ever to see a mushroom in the forest, she would literally scream, close her eyes and run away
it was to the point she wasn't very comfortable with beer and bread, because, you know, in some way it contains mushrooms too
she tried to figure it out, had some therapy because of that and general anxiety, but it was just an irrational fear she couldn't do anything about
and then, around being 25-ish, she suddenly had a breakthrough she told me about
one day, she remembered why she probably had that fear
it turned out, when she was very young, some friend of her father or something showed her some mushroom and jokingly told her that is very poisonous and she can die by just touching it
she was very scared by that and by her memories, spend her whole day washing her hands and crying
and after that, she just forget that this ever happened, but since it was such a distress for her mind, it remembered forever that mushrooms are very dangerous
real tinsel
it turned out, when she was very young, some friend of her father or something s...
ohhh this is what my therapist was talking about when she told me about the butterfly effect
placid sail
and so, a little stupid joke in her childhood turned intro real danger for her mind that she remembered forever
real tinsel
i was wondering what butterfly effect has to do with my fucked upness
placid sail
funnily enough, when she realised that it all came from that memory, her phobia has become much weaker
she is still not very fond of mushrooms, but she understands why she reacts in such a way to them
real tinsel
my fear probably comes from a doctor taking my blood when i was 5 or something. She lied to me saying it doesn't hurt and she's just gonna look at my hand and then bam my finger has a cut on it
but knowing that doesn't ease up my needle/cut phobia
placid sail
it could be so, or it could be from your general anxiety, which in turn could be based on some unsettling experiences of the past
the point is, our fears and convictions can be very strong but be based on something very trivial from the past
the mind is to protect you from any dangers whatsoever. if the mind is convinced that the danger is real, it is really hard to prove it otherwise
real tinsel
the mind is to protect you from any dangers whatsoever. if the mind is convinced...
it's extremely difficult
placid sail
but it is still possible
so there is a chance for you to leave your fears behind, one day
real tinsel
i used to think i'm afraid of pain and not cuts/needles but a while ago while going through extreme mental difficulties, i used to burn my hands for no reason whatsoever
placid sail
mental distress makes you lose focus and attention
you can become very clumsy and unintentionally harm yourself
real tinsel
no it was intentional harming
placid sail
oh, I see
real tinsel
there was no reason for it though
placid sail
there is a possible reason, though
real tinsel
for a while i thought about doing something criminal but not hurting/killing someone
so that they could lock me up in an asylum
but i didn't do it because asylums are scary
and since i'd be a criminal i thought they could experiment on me and stuff
which is a no go for me
placid sail
sry playing league gonna reply but slower
real tinsel
damn how are you playing and texting here
placid sail
no it was intentional harming
so, if I recall correctly, some people tend to harm themselves during mental distress not only because of self-harmful tendencies, but because people try to instinctively "change the channel" of their perseptions
like brushing your face with very cold water
real tinsel
so, if I recall correctly, some people tend to harm themselves during mental dis...
huh
placid sail
btw, that's a good method to ease the stress sometimes - to try to change your attention to bodily perceptions
have a cold shower, have some pleasant smell in your room, have easy walk outside etc
and much better and less harmful than burning yourself up!
placid sail
damn how are you playing and texting here
I'm bad at both
real tinsel
same
placid sail
for a while i thought about doing something criminal but not hurting/killing som...
seems like you really want help but don't know how to get it
real tinsel
yes it's expensive
placid sail
which is a very sane intention
real tinsel
i tried self-help by reading a lot but it only helped a little
like before i couldn't control my irrational thoughts at all
now i can control some of them
placid sail
yeah, self-help is... lacking, I tried
real tinsel
yeah, self-help is... lacking, I tried
it helps, but very little
placid sail
now i can control *some* of them
oh, you actually got some results? nice!
real tinsel
oh, you actually got some results? nice!
yeah i've managed to figure that my main trigger is stress. Stress increases my irrational thoughts and once or twice made me hallucinate as well
placid sail
it is actually quite admirable, to gain such results all on your own
real tinsel
aww thank you
placid sail
good job, seriously
that is proving that you're not some lost cause psycho or something, so you really should try to get the professional help as well
real tinsel
well professional work is expensive and i'm not very capable of work right now
placid sail
damn, capitalism sucks sometimes
so, we're back to Falco marriage plan huh
I think I was just playing with our boy Bruno
real tinsel
so, we're back to Falco marriage plan huh
hell yeah i'm gonna be Falco's househusband
real tinsel
I think I was just playing with our boy Bruno
did you kick his ass
placid sail
no, he was my teammate, and he actually played pretty well
gotta compliment him when he comes here
heady crow
real tinsel
i like my beer in room temperature
sturdy otter
as long as the room is cold that okay
placid sail
yo bruno good job, you played nasus quite well
upbeat bobcat
I like my cold in beer temperature
sturdy otter
no like 20 celsius or something
perfect room temp is considered at 21°C and 60% humidity
sturdy otter
how wet did you get? o-O you know what, dont answer that, it could get into the wrong context
upbeat bobcat
real tinsel
how wet did you get? o-O you know what, dont answer that, it could get into the ...
depends on my mood
sturdy otter
temp is a mood in its self realy
abstract path
"I would like to play a game"
Lol
Bro imagine
🗿
I do be learning enchanting table
upbeat bobcat
Dam, waiting all that time to leash all this out ha
upbeat bobcat
undone wave
Jesser we need to cook dark elixir
real tinsel
Jesser we need to cook dark elixir
jerma we need to cook people
mortal dirge
new ghost recon
upbeat bobcat
Seems like ready for full release
stone blade
abstract path
Lmao
heady crow
heady crow
heady crow
upbeat bobcat
heady crow
placid sail
dang, my job is funny sometimes
it's either full day of slacking or ALL RIGHT OPEN FIRE from the very start
abstract path
placid sail
vid is so funny you've posted it twice?
abstract path
Gone deep for that one though
placid sail
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
the bride is so beautiful
heady crow
placid sail
there goes my cornea, watch it as it goes
upbeat bobcat
Funky
placid sail
I enjoy future funk a lot, actually
heady crow
Future funk is trve kvlt
placid sail
placid sail
котенька :3
upbeat bobcat
heady crow
placid sail
stone blade
real tinsel
vid is so funny you've posted it twice? <:kek2:944014970901897297>
it was so funny i'm gonna post it too
and this one because it made me laugh
placid sail
and this one because it made me laugh
it's like a not very sophisticated neural network trying to make a joke out of random materials
real tinsel
it's like a not very sophisticated neural network trying to make a joke out of r...
that was suspiciously specific
are you behind the sophisticated neural network that makes this type of memes?
placid sail
...
upbeat bobcat
Don't tempt me
placid sail
Don't tempt me
gloomy roost
stone blade
imagine unironically living in america bro
placid sail
stone blade
yes actually
undone wave
Learning German so I can eventually leave and have affordable healthcare and public transport. I understand this has no effect on systemic issues present in both countries but at least I can be a selfish bitch and live out a slightly better life.
Two of many reasons I enjoyed my visit in 2019
heady crow
Chad
abstract path
imagine unironically living in america bro
That would be horrible
abstract path
Learning German so I can eventually leave and have affordable healthcare and pub...
It's just all controlled chaos with a corrupt government
But atleast better then america so go ahead
heady crow
undone wave
It's just all controlled chaos with a corrupt government
the American political system is the biggest fucking joke
abstract path
Fucking YES IT IS
undone wave
Can't wait. I still have 13 episodes to catch up on
abstract path
Like dude they don't even know how to get a propper fucken president that DOESN'T do war
undone wave
My intro to political science class was just roasting the setup for an entire semester
undone wave
M.I.L.F.
Mann, ich liebe Froesche
undone wave
🐸
abstract path
heady crow
abstract path
Why they angy
undone wave
look at thsi fuckig cat
heady crow
Jinx :)
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
I'm in da club babyyyyy
undone wave
RLcraft 
upbeat bobcat
And low fps
undone wave
Imagine not having a quest book
upbeat bobcat
What mc version it is, like 12.12
heady crow
upbeat bobcat
grizzled meadow
thanks for coming by
(probably after Easter I'll be more present like I used to be)
stone blade
hi
upbeat bobcat
Falcooo 
heady crow
heady crow
placid sail
and yet, here we are~
onyx birch
upbeat bobcat
heady crow
real tinsel
since when did 4chan screenshots become wholesome instead of someone's racist edgy schizo rambling
heady crow
upbeat bobcat
since when did 4chan screenshots become wholesome instead of someone's racist ed...
its just probably 900 something something chan
real tinsel
i invite everyone who sees this message to send me their nudes
heady crow
heady crow
stone blade
wtf
sturdy otter
what da
heady crow
stone blade
you smell like you farted
undone wave
undone wave
cursive ether
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
wh... how the fuck is that even possible? are they giving parrots guns??
real tinsel
wh... how the fuck is that even possible? are they giving parrots guns??
of course they are. You do realize which country we're talking about, yes?
placid sail
I mean... I thought it was comically exaggerated...
ay yo khaaytil
you do know russian, right?
I have some spicy memes
real tinsel
I have some spicy memes
i love russian memes
real tinsel
sometimes i don't understand them when they're a russian inside joke
placid sail
nah these ones are simple
real tinsel
i'd delete my internet too after these jesus christ
we have these types too and sometimes they also hunt young men
placid sail
I can't believe there are these horny idiots on a fucking avito
real tinsel
one time i put an ad on lalafo (azerbaijani stuff selling site like the one in the video) for a job and some guy called my number from there. After hearing my voice, dude went full horny (yes i have petite femboy voice) and started offering me money for sex at his house. After i refused he went a little low and said "what about a blowjob in my car?" to which i also said no. He then said that his brother owns a workplace etc and he could get me a job there for sleeping with him
then he said he's gonna go buy himself some cigarettes so he ended the call and after about 20 minutes he called me again but i didn't pick up
THEN
my man called me continuously for a whole month. The first 2 weeks he was calling every hour of the day, then he slowed a little, calling only once a day
eventually gave up
placid sail
man, that is India level of horny 
real tinsel
oh and i forgot to say he was masturbating on the phone. He didn't tell me he was but i could tell from the way he sounded that he indeed was choking his meat
i never put any ad on any website after that
man people are scary-level horny
placid sail
dude, I can hear you wank, at least send me some cash on my phone number, it ain't free you know
real tinsel
he texted me on whatsapp too and his profile picture was him with 2 kids (which i assume were his kids)
placid sail
surprising amount of horny idiots are actually married with kids, because, you know, family life isn't much of a sex holiday anymore
and also your country is quite traditional, which always brings the number of weird hornies up, which is ironic
real tinsel
and also your country is quite traditional, which *always* brings the number of ...
isn't that the case with most traditional countries? I mean look at india
and arabistan
placid sail
but, oh well, at least now you know that you're quite irresistible to some creeps, but still
real tinsel
arabs that come to my country always come to fuck
placid sail
it's because you can't put the genie back into the bottle
sexual drive is a part of human nature, denying it won't make it go away, only puts it underground, where it gets stronger and even perverse
real tinsel
but, oh well, at least now you know that you're quite irresistible <:kek2:944014...
why of course i am irresistible. I am the embodiment of femboy which both men and women want in this generation
real tinsel
Bruno be hatin
i've seen bruno he's hot
real tinsel
he's too buffed to actually be a femboy tho
he'd be the one femboys want
real tinsel
no i am perfectly straight
i only joke around with the gay shit
or am i?
yes i am
placid sail
... and only gets pegged by your gf, from time to time
YA KNOW
silly straight stuff
real tinsel
yes
real tinsel
my butt muscles are strong from holding in my fart all the time
hers weren't so i did peg her
sturdy otter
buttcheeks to strong, the squats every day did work out again
real tinsel
buttcheeks to strong, the squats every day did work out again
hell yeah
placid sail
hers weren't so i did peg her
the battle of cheecks
the one who slaps the hardest gets to slap
the stakes are very high
sturdy otter
xD
undone wave
undone wave
Use Wisely.
zenith grove
undone wave
NP 
sturdy otter
omg i need it
undone wave
Come back when you've MMMMMM read the manual
undone wave
I promise not to mint it on the blockchain or anything
heady crow
heady crow
placid sail
h-how... how is that enjoyable for any involved party
stone blade
because finland
abstract path
Finland
Can be weird
stone blade
stone blade
yeah the 2nd one isn't funny
heady crow
stone blade
they are
heady crow
stone blade
i dont do that
heady crow
heady crow
pastel quartz
same
real tinsel
yeah the 2nd one isn't funny
shut up ivan you're not funny go get some bitches you stinky tarkov player
real tinsel
aww
heady crow
'
real tinsel
how would someone even get help with something like that
do you just barge into a therapist's room and say "i masturbate to eastern drawings of children give me help"
heady crow
do you just barge into a therapist's room and say "i masturbate to eastern drawi...
if someone here i think its you who can test it out
real tinsel
no i only masturbate to gachi
heady crow
🤝
real tinsel
https://gizmodo.com/a-man-tore-his-lung-from-masturbating-doctors-say-1848799773
so did he already have a condition or was it caused solely by masturbating?
heady crow
placid sail
so did he already have a condition or was it caused solely by masturbating?
"The man only had a history of mild asthma and denied any other known risk factors. So, near as the doctors could tell, his masturbation had to be the culprit. When the doctors looked through the medical literature, they did find a few reports of this injury likely brought on by sex. But this seems to be the first documented instance of self-love being to blame."
real tinsel
"The man only had a history of mild asthma and denied any other known risk facto...
so that's a no
real tinsel
fapping makes me sad anyway i don't fap
dire mesa
Does he have nanomachines?
placid sail
fapping makes me sad anyway i don't fap
huh. that's peculiar
upbeat bobcat
Masturbating only bring a moment of joy, then it passes, only doing this depresses a person in a long run. So the psych of some people just replace that momentarily joy with sadness vice versa. I guess it's similar to *some" cheating people, doing the same thing with a same person over and over again bores, even depresses them.
Topic goes much deeper than this but eh
real tinsel
Masturbating only bring a moment of joy, then it passes, only doing this depress...
no it just reminds me of my ex sometimes
upbeat bobcat
Topic goes much deeper than this but eh
That's what i meant by this, almost everyone's psych is different.
It makes you sad in the end because you miss your ex or just plain hate?
real tinsel
It makes you sad in the end because you miss your ex or just plain hate?
first one
i am unable to hate people even if they do the worst thing ever to me
my other ex kind of fucked me up a lot but i still can't hate her
upbeat bobcat
I know the feeling, was like that couple years back but it passed somehow
real tinsel
I know the feeling, was like that couple years back but it passed somehow
inability to hate people or missing your ex
upbeat bobcat
Both kek
real tinsel
my friend keeps telling me to live for the spite of my enemies or something like that. Except i've got no enemies
upbeat bobcat
President of US is your enemy
real tinsel
nah with that logic the entire human race should be my enemy
but they're not. Probably because i don't really care
heady crow
real tinsel
undone wave
Running to CNPP with 30 blunts in your mouth is a valid alternative to using the psy helm
real tinsel
@sturdy otter i almost forgot to remind you today that under no circumstances should you ever touch a knife while you're half asleep
real tinsel
Running to CNPP with 30 blunts in your mouth is a valid alternative to using the...
for once i'm going to play the game like this instead of super carefully pre-planning everything before i do them
abstract path
Running with the thought of hatred to society through chernobyl makes you wish for a bloodbath
undone wave
Is joke idk if it would work
real tinsel
Running with the thought of hatred to society through chernobyl makes you wish f...
yes sharpie, society is fucked up. Here's a doggo video to make your day
placid sail
yes sharpie, society is fucked up. Here's a doggo video to make your day
that little jump from realization
real tinsel
that little jump from realization <:kek2:944014970901897297>
i love this video. I first saw it probably in 2017 or something
it keeps coming back to me every once in a while
placid sail
yeah
it's like that old video where a bunch of cats ran past a guy, then another cat runs by too, stops near the dude, he points the cat at the direction where other cats ran away, and the lonely cat promptly runs there too
real tinsel
it's like that old video where a bunch of cats ran past a guy, then another cat ...
that one keeps coming back to me too
man confused animal videos are cute
real tinsel
there's also this spinning gorilla video to which i made a bunch of edits
this is the original
this is one of my edits
placid sail
this is one of my edits <:kek2:944014970901897297>
that's a nice loop
stone blade
abstract path
Lol
upbeat bobcat
upbeat bobcat
What a fat ass
pastel quartz
undone wave
cursive ether
placid sail
good steal
cursive ether
what
real tinsel
good steal
no honor among thieves
cursive ether
i still dont understand what you mean by that
i have severe brain damage please be nice
real tinsel
unlike you virgins, this is my own content
cursive ether
amazing
placid sail
what
I thought you took the meme and remade it on the fly and admired your take on it
or I guess it was not the case?
cursive ether
i mean im the only person who has posted kiryu shitting on this server
real tinsel
i mean im the only person who has posted kiryu shitting on this server
no you're not
real tinsel
someone posted this too a while ago
cursive ether
thats not the same
real tinsel
thats not the same
it's a kiryu shitpost
cursive ether
i said "kiryu shitting" not kiryu shitpost
real tinsel
ahh
placid sail
what are you guys arguing about
cursive ether
kiryu shitting
real tinsel
stupid internet stuff
at least we're not arguing about politics
imagine caring about politicians, couldn't be me
cursive ether
im sure we could make a video of kiryu singing "i shitted in my pants" into a political argument
real tinsel
im sure we could make a video of kiryu singing "i shitted in my pants" into a po...
it is the internet after all
placid sail
yamero
cursive ether
it is the internet after all
yep
real tinsel
i just remembered i have yakuza 3 in my humble choice which i still haven't redeemed
i'm gonna hornypost
too late, already hornyposted
placid sail
being I while since Exo rerereposted алле блять
feels lacking without it and bruno's femboy memes
real tinsel
placid sail
you're getting baguetted for this
placid sail
ahhhh, excellent
real tinsel
i used to do this when i was in high school
i got all my classmates numbers and then when i got home i called them all one by one just to make weird sounds on the phone
they didn't appreciate my humor though, just ended the call after realizing it's me
placid sail
progressive art is not for everyone
real tinsel
indeed it isn't
it is for me though i love progressive art i'm gonna show you one i love
real tinsel
i have a somewhat hard time identifying genres but i love this painting
not sure if it's progressive or something else
placid sail
oh hey that's actually nice
heady crow
muted raven
real tinsel
i have a somewhat hard time identifying genres but i love this painting
painter is called Salman Khoshroo
heady crow
real tinsel
painter is called Salman Khoshroo
real tinsel
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/260028412045950978/965336416315928576/nec...
probably because it's 60 mbs
heady crow
maaybe but usually when linking files above the upload limit on dms/servers it embeds
dont know why its different on this one
pastel quartz
what a career
upbeat bobcat
I love when people hate me because of where I'm from and my religion on paper
fallen pagoda
the sidorussy
placid sail
Been a long time since I yearn to learn things with memes.
you old geezer /j /pos /nm
upbeat bobcat
I know they are the chan headlinks or w/e the name for those, I just don't know what they represent and not so curious 
upbeat bobcat
sturdy otter
<@368797790899273738> i almost forgot to remind you today that under no circumst...
to be fair you forgor to remind me for nearly a week before xd
real tinsel
to be fair you forgor to remind me for nearly a week before xd
yea
sturdy otter
funny enough i at least didnt gut my self in the mean time
i would say thats progress
real tinsel
thanks to me
if it wasn't for me you'd have turned yourself into human goulash by now
placid sail
it's the eyes of an innocent lamb that ruins the whole badass image
muted raven
undone wave
placid sail
streamlet
real tinsel
tell him if he would like a tequila mixed with his enemies blood and as side dish each of their eyeballs dipped in mcdonalds ketchup
undone wave
Onion ring
real tinsel
did someone tag me i heard a beep
upbeat bobcat
