I have bought myself an elliptical trainer
#🎪bruh-fart
heady crow
Yes me
clear prism
💪
heady crow
Now what is a elliptical trainer
placid sail
it's preused, so it wasn't even that expensive
placid sail
Now what is a elliptical trainer
(khaaytil from the picture is not included)
you may ask, bz, my dude, you fucking idiot, you dumb moron, why would you buy that, you can just go outside and run there
real tinsel
(khaaytil from the picture is not included)
which one is me
real tinsel
you may ask, bz, my dude, you fucking idiot, you dumb moron, why would you buy t...
you can but these are actually fun to use
they're less like a training equipment and more like an entertainment carousel
placid sail
my answer is, I hate outside! also I was almost ran over once while running there, also the people are annoying and 9 months out of every year it's too cold and deathly slippery there
placid sail
which one is me
yes
real tinsel
nice
placid sail
also apparently good for your knees but tbf I just hate outside
heady crow
my answer is, I hate outside! also I was almost ran over once while running ther...
Good for you for coming upon this conclusion. Hope youll enjoy the trainer my dude
Also which city did you live in again? The capital right?
placid sail
yup
heady crow
Ah ye
clear prism
He lives in the Moss Cow
real tinsel
was that moskva or sankt peterburg
placid sail
yes
real tinsel
nice
heady crow
I can see every month apart from summer being a pain then
clear prism
The Cow made out of Moss
heady crow
Too south
real tinsel
The Cow made out of Moss
the cow can't be made out of moss, silly
it's not even a stable building material
clear prism
Then why did they name a city after it
clear prism
Ahhh
placid sail
every winter I try my hardest not to break a coccyx (what a funny word) by slowly walking, let alone running
since our public services are shit and every road and path here turns into an ice slope
real tinsel
fragile boy bzeek
placid sail
you wouldn't last a day here kiddo 
real tinsel
if i slapped your ass would that make your entire pelvic bones fall like pants?
placid sail
I would grab your hand with my buttocks and make a surprise throw
then I would pick you up from the ground with buttocks, again, and do a SUPLEX
that'll teach you
clear prism
This has gone into a strange direction
placid sail
khaaytil is horny on main, it couldn't go anywhere else
clear prism
Ah yes, the big horny
placid sail
okay serious question now
has anyone here played Phoenix Point and if so, when was the last time you did it and what's your opinion about the game?
clear prism
Played it on release for a few days but honestly man, it is a very niche game if you ask me. Very easy to grow bored of and repetitive. Since it does not come with a Multiplayer, that is
placid sail
Played it on release for a few days but honestly man, it is a very niche game if...
ah yes, that's why I asked when was the last time
so, apparently
it was pretty meh on the start
but from that point till now, there were a lot of dlcs added, bugfixes and shit, and allegedly it's good now (if you're into XCOM like games at all, naturally)
so I was trying to see whether someone has experienced the full package and is it actually good now
plucky void
I have a friend who played it back at release, he didn't tell me much
no idea what it's like now
swift scarab
Benis
plucky void
:DDDDDDDDDD
plucky void
violens :DDDDDDDDDDD
swift scarab
Yeh :DDDDDD
clear prism
@placid sail
clear prism
👌
placid sail
the only thing I know about PP (lmao) is that they shilled to epic
I remember the hype when peepee was still in development
ORIGINAL CREATORS OF XCOM! NEW COOL SETTING! NEW MECHANICS AND MUCH MORE IN-DEPTH GAMEPLAY!
and then was the release and everyone was like pffffffrrrr
hype is the mind killer
may I present to you
the big lad
clear prism
Goddamn
heady crow
https://tenor.com/view/perkele-ebin-fugg-shoot-gif-12686744
Fugg :DDDDDDD
Weird to see finnish shitposts here
pastel quartz
what in the god damn hell is that THING
heady crow
clear prism
I have two finnish shitposts hidden away, deep in my archives
heady crow
plucky void
absolute unit
arctic kraken
plucky void
real tinsel
khaaytil is horny on main, it couldn't go anywhere else
why do you keep saying that
i'm not on main i'm on brainfart
if i was being horny on main aldo would probably kick my ass out of the server
placid sail
if i was being horny on main aldo would probably kick my ass out of the server
gullub gullub
real tinsel
I AM THE MEH
you're the MBOmnis
clear prism
Yes, MBOmnis, you are MBOmnis
real tinsel
he was trying to escape his execution by changing his identity
quasi sundial
based?
real tinsel
yeah i'd say it's pretty based
quasi sundial
plucky void
real tinsel
time to end my friday by snorting 25 megagrams of beryllium dust
placid sail
time to end my friday by snorting 25 megagrams of beryllium dust
sounds very industrial
mortal violet
stupid fucking cta
placid sail
I thought you're more into farming
real tinsel
i'm into anything that lets me manage massive amounts of shit
also isn't industrial farming a thing?
yeah, googled it, it's a thing
placid sail
also isn't industrial farming a thing?
“Beryllium is used in a lot of secondary applications,” he says. “The most common are aerospace, nuclear power plants, cars, computers and even in making golf clubs and mountain bikes.”
real tinsel
the beryllium is for my personal consumption
placid sail
either you're doing farming on mountain bike or you're breaking your sweet farm theme
placid sail
the beryllium is for my personal consumption
wack
real tinsel
i will snort it through my nostrils and become a vegetable for 28 hours, after which i'll cease being a vegetable
real tinsel
should have consumed some poisonous plant then
why
placid sail
because it matches your theme!
placid sail
poisonous plant will not necessarily kill you either silly
placid sail
why would i consume poison
why would you consume beryllium dust then?
real tinsel
beryllium dust is completely safe
plucky void
consoom
real tinsel
and that's a fact
placid sail
i have an allergy to poison
I've just gome myself a spare chromosome by reading this message
placid sail
beryllium dust is completely safe
no it's not
real tinsel
stop stealing my chromosomes while i'm distracted bzeek
placid sail
you gonna ruin them with beryllium anyway shut it!
placid sail
because it's not a healthy snack
real tinsel
it's not a snack it's for snorting
why do you snort your snacks bzeek
you weirdo
@everyone @placid sail snorts his snacks
wait someone told me that tagging everyone is disabled
have i been bamboozled
real tinsel
Did he get banned?
no he just doesn't have any of those
slate crown
why tf are you using light mode
real tinsel
maybe he's partially blind
mortal violet
he's just russian
real tinsel
or maybe he likes being flashbanged
placid sail
@everyone <@231842552729305098> snorts his snacks
clear prism
Nah
real tinsel
which one
clear prism
Yes
real tinsel
somebody get this man out of here, he's gone crazy
clear prism
At least I am not edgy 🤣
clear prism
🤝
plucky void
alo
real tinsel
da
upbeat bobcat
Happy Friday's ma dudes
real tinsel
happry friday's mayoman
placid sail
you too mayo 
mortal violet
crystal you said you were leaving the internet
clear prism
schtolker
upbeat bobcat
Can we talk about sdalger here?
clear prism
Yes
quasi sundial
upbeat bobcat
real tinsel
man either facebook is filled with vanilla people or i'm finding vanilla people
upbeat bobcat
https://imgur.com/gallery/d5ZiETx
When you try to redeem your free monthly game on Epic Game Store
real tinsel
this is like the most old person talk i've had with a person on the internet
translate it yourself i'm not translating shit
real tinsel
fart chunki bratanim
upbeat bobcat
real tinsel
yeah you like that don't you, you turkish cockroach
real tinsel
this is the context
glad kelp
crystal you said you were leaving the internet
Shut up and gimme sdalger book on english
real tinsel
she asks "but why is his name fart?"
I said "because الإسهال صحي جدا بالنسبة لك was not available"
she says "i don't know in which dimension this joke works but i'm not from that dimension"
clear prism
she asks "but why is his name fart?"
I said "because الإسهال صحي جدا بالنسبة لك ...
Ha. Ha.
👏
real tinsel
thank you
placid sail
dude you're trying to crack a joke on facebook they're probably 600 years old
real tinsel
i do realize i have achieved comedy
real tinsel
dude you're trying to crack a joke on facebook they're probably 600 years old
no way she looks like 30 at most
placid sail
it's the photoshops
real tinsel
bzeek how are you using your photoshop that it goes boom boom boom
silly boy bzeek that's not how you use your photoshops
voice
placid sail
was that an advertisement to go into voice chat
grizzled meadow
was that an advertisement to go into voice chat
I think they were talking about stuff that doesn't go well with Discord
real tinsel
i've been there, he does have a cummable voice
grizzled meadow
The moment I joined they were all "ah well yes we love Stalker"
real tinsel
I think they were talking about stuff that doesn't go well with Discord
before you joined they were talking about something about germany in the 1940s
but i left because the other guy started yelling
redcell
placid sail
khaaytil turn on your mic you shrimp.
real tinsel
man speaks like he ate his microphone
real tinsel
khaaytil turn on your mic you shrimp.
no
grizzled meadow
man speaks like he ate his microphone
Fucking true 
Here's @clear prism talking about military stuff
placid sail
it shoots with pills that will make you live for a very long time
real tinsel
still a win
real tinsel
it means i can go jump off a cliff or something
real tinsel
exactly
if i knew i wouldn't die i'd start jumping from high points like from top of a cliff, mountain, high buildings and even airplanes
i'd also very likely irradiate myself to see what it feels like
gloomy roost
grizzled meadow
Let me know if someone actually say something against rules
They're accountable for what they say in there as well
real tinsel
i literally told you they were talking about germans in 1940s
placid sail
They're accountable for what they say in there as well
are you for real
grizzled meadow
are you for real
Yes
placid sail
lmao mayo is spamming soundboard again
real tinsel
yeah i wasn't actually paying attention to what they were talking about
grizzled meadow
@upbeat bobcat spam soundboard
placid sail
real tinsel
i feel like an expel because all the muteds are together and i'm at the bottom alone
quasi sundial
this is the context
repost
placid sail
i feel like an expel because all the muteds are together and i'm at the bottom a...
haha
stinky
okay Falco is away, resume the racism
LMAO
AND JUST LIKE THAT HE'S BACK
placid sail
сыграл тобой как на скрипке сынок
grizzled meadow
p!translate EN сыграл тобой как на скрипке сынок
foggy mantleBOT
quasi sundial
@clear prism say it in vc
placid sail
man I'm rolling
upbeat bobcat
Now you want soundboard
upbeat bobcat
No soundboard
Oo now I got what you said
placid sail
Now you want soundboard
blast donacdum full power
grizzled meadow
Oo now I got what you said
Fucking bzeek talked about soundboard
I expected soundboard
No soundboard
I'm mad
gloomy roost
upbeat bobcat
I thought you were saying don't use it lmao
placid sail
SOUNDBOARDS ARE OUTLAWED
upbeat bobcat
I don't wanna interrupt too much
placid sail
GET THIS GUY
damn, those guys really know shit about guns
I only remember my name because I wrote it on my hand
upbeat bobcat
want me to do a little oops
placid sail
he already told you he was waiting for it to happen!
real tinsel
I only remember my name because I wrote it on my hand
nooooo you deleted it from your steam
upbeat bobcat
But this gonna be special
placid sail
nooooo you deleted it from your steam
so you won't doxx me you stinky
slim osprey
God damn that's a lot of people on vc
placid sail
no you don't
placid sail
sure
real tinsel
want me to prove it
placid sail
yes
real tinsel
i'll prove it
placid sail
go ahead
upbeat bobcat
Ak47
placid sail
redcell's voice is funny
upbeat bobcat
I don't even know what's happening anymore
placid sail
it's like a surprised buzzsaw
upbeat bobcat
They are doing what Gran Turismo doing to cars
stone blade
give cat meme
upbeat bobcat
upbeat bobcat
quasi sundial
give cat meme
placid sail
Stepan!
upbeat bobcat
stone blade
Literally me
placid sail
placid sail
yea yeah lmao
gloomy roost
upbeat bobcat
Falco I'm confused they are talking about big scary black guns
quasi sundial
ah ye the new AR the N1 77
real tinsel
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
you slut
quasi sundial
placid sail
upbeat bobcat
Man I'm just modding Dragon Age Inquisition atm and these voices in the background adds so much
quasi sundial
shit ass game
placid sail
Man I'm just modding Dragon Age Inquisition atm and these voices in the backgrou...
I was considering playing ARAM while listening to that
but I gotta bounce soon
upbeat bobcat
Sadge
real tinsel
so like a regular podcast
upbeat bobcat
More like podracing
real tinsel
falcooo they're being racist in vc
upbeat bobcat
Uh oh
placid sail
they bald kid who shouted wolves
upbeat bobcat
Aldo is in
real tinsel
same
i blame the 25 kilograms of beryllium dust i snorted
oh now the gtanil is gone i'm in the muted group
scenic sable
falcooo they're being racist in vc
Who was it?
real tinsel
i'm not alone anymore
real tinsel
Who was it?
no one, i was fooling with falco
placid sail
they're just discussing guns so no prob
scenic sable
Don't cry "wolf", damn it. 
real tinsel
i blame bzeek for enabling me
placid sail
don't mix me into that you asshole
upbeat bobcat
placid sail
that didn't imply that someone said anything or that you're supposed to say it
get bent
real tinsel
unless it's from a masculine mommy with massive tits, then i'll receive my spanking
it's enabling me
clear prism
What is all this tagging lol
real tinsel
bzeek did it
scenic sable
Both of you, shut up and don't 'bait' the moderators. 
placid sail
What is all this tagging lol
it's a friday evening
clear prism
Oof, that is my cue to leave
real tinsel
weren't you gonna go to the store to buy food
placid sail
yeah I gotta go now too, grass ain't gonna touch itself
scenic sable
No.
placid sail
If Aldourien talked I'm going to lose it
I asked him nicely to say something in Spy voice, but he's a meanie, as usual
grizzled meadow
Also yes don't bait us
scenic sable
I was spying, but it appeared to have been bait.
real tinsel
i will now cease baiting the mods
zenith grove
grizzled meadow
What is all this tagging lol
Me tagging you
placid sail
of course it was a bait, don't you know that khaaytil is a dummie? besides, falco was already there and listened for a while
damn, I don't want to go :c
real tinsel
yeah coincidentally they always say the racist things when there are no mods. As soon as a mod enters their racising stops
grizzled meadow
I'm starting to think this is for real
real tinsel
okay i'll cease
grizzled meadow
Khaaytil baiting us again?
real tinsel
they've been talking about guns only for like 2 hours
grizzled meadow
Aldourien won't be pleased...
real tinsel
see you next friday brainfarters
upbeat bobcat
heady crow
yeah coincidentally they always say the racist things when there are no mods. As...
Who?
grizzled meadow
I can't protect you if you fuck with Al...
scenic sable
Do we really have to babysit all of you in VC because some idiots are false flagging?
Eventually I'll appeal to remove VC altogether.
grizzled meadow
Do we _really_ have to babysit all of you in VC because some idiots are false fl...
Nah I don't think we really need to do that
But of course if we REALLY found out that shit has been going on in there, it's another thing
placid sail
is it really that bad?
heady crow
Inb4 someone starts recording and starts snitching?
placid sail
does discord save the logs of voicechats or what's up with that?
grizzled meadow
does discord save the logs of voicechats or what's up with that?
Nah of course not
(from what I know)
heady crow
does discord save the logs of voicechats or what's up with that?
Ppl joining and leaving ye
grizzled meadow
We're only trying to mantain the same happy mood everywhere, this means that everyone have to follow rules
VC can't be the exception
placid sail
Ppl joining and leaving ye
ah, you mean, someone can just go in, hear something and make a complaint
heady crow
Possible. Usually bots made for logging edits, ppl joining etc also log the time of ppl joining and leaving voice chats
scenic sable
I swear #🎪bruh-fart is going to give me cardiac arrest one day..
placid sail
okay, to clear this up: I joked once about it, khaaytil joked a few times about it, but there was nothing racist in chat or bad in vc to my knowledge
scenic sable
I will ban you if you do.
placid sail
and honestly, there are so many vc's going there day by day that if there was something wrong in there, you would have had problems already
swift scarab
Understandable
swift scarab
ich höre französisch
swift scarab
heady crow
swift scarab
Hjonk
swift scarab
That would kill anyone instantly
real tinsel
That would kill anyone instantly
it would kill a peasant from 13th century instantly
real tinsel
it wasn't a question, it was a fact
swift scarab
Plate mail do be kinda thick though
real tinsel
how is a peasant going to afford plate mail
real tinsel
plate mail?
glad kelp
No
real tinsel
i don't think many people make that nowadays
swift scarab
how is a peasant going to afford plate mail
I don’t know, ask Henry from Kingdom Come: Deliverance
He figured it out
real tinsel
i can't speak with a game character, silly
they're programming and they can't communicate with real world
swift scarab
Ah, so that’s the issue with Mark Zuckerberg
swift scarab
Porn
glad kelp
No horny
glad kelp
Nou
Anything else damn
I don't want anything reminding me of my previous relationship...
clear prism
Bruh
glad kelp
Ok it was my fault and it fucking hurts
glad kelp
Ain't we?
glad kelp
Most of the stuff i do literally reminds me of them
Idek why
It just felt so connectet
And then poof
It was because at first we were drifting apart and "your games are more important then me"
Bullshit
They didn't even wanna tell me before
quasi sundial
watch me naynay
clear prism
Hm
glad kelp
Atleast they'd reduce the pain i would go through
quasi sundial
glad kelp
Sort of
clear prism
Well yes, usually you want the proper reason why
real tinsel
It was because at first we were drifting apart and "your games are more importan...
crystal that sounds like a stupid ass excuse
glad kelp
It was
clear prism
^
glad kelp
Until they said the truth
glad kelp
It was because i wasn't there
Because i wasn't "a boy"
I always was a boy basically damnit
clear prism
Precisely, it seems like a very weird reason to break up over
glad kelp
"You're just soft and your voice is high pitched" you know i have both deep and high pitch voice
quasi sundial
Because i wasn't "a boy"
real tinsel
"You're just soft and your voice is high pitched" *you know i have both deep and...
man you're like 17 it's normal for you to have retarded breakups like that one
glad kelp
Yeah
heady crow
So in other words, they found you too feminine?
Femboys?
clear prism
Imma be honest
glad kelp
I'll wait till they get back maybe
clear prism
That is a dumb reason to break up over
stone blade
honestly its really fun going into spotify and sinking into the black metal hole
glad kelp
Even if they knew they could
clear prism
Then perhaps they said it because they knew a reason such as "you are too feminine" is dumb
glad kelp
And trust was there until it wasn't
clear prism
So they added some extra baggage on top
glad kelp
Yep
It still hurts
:v
I have been
Crying for 2 hours
And feeling this pain since 8 hours
Wooo
real tinsel
it's gonna hurt for a while then you're gonna realize it was retarded and move on
quasi sundial
oh man 
glad kelp
Yeah...
quasi sundial
it's gonna hurt for a while then you're gonna realize it was retarded and move o...
this, nowdays I feel so pathetic for crying when a e hoe would ditch me
glad kelp
I mean sure they weren't dumb...but making such excuses
quasi sundial
no
glad kelp
this, nowdays I feel so pathetic for crying when a e hoe would ditch me
What do you think how i feel???
stone blade
i click copy link and it doesny copy the fk
real tinsel
this, nowdays I feel so pathetic for crying when a e hoe would ditch me
why do you people even make e-relationships or whatever it's called
retarded
quasi sundial
What do you think how i feel???
its alright, it happens to everyone, and if u feel sad theres nothing wrong with it
glad kelp
I know
quasi sundial
why do you people even make e-relationships or whatever it's called
needy af
quasi sundial
no
just block them
going back to retarded/abusive relationships is a big mistake
glad kelp
The onliest thing that stayd there was my everlasting kindness
clear prism
Trust me on this, if they broke up with you over this? Not worth it
glad kelp
I never said I'm going back to the relationship
clear prism
In fact, screw them
quasi sundial
call them a whore
glad kelp
No.
quasi sundial
go down but go down shooting back
eager quest
for how long were u together
glad kelp
Rhey deserve clearly better
clear prism
At least call them a coward
real tinsel
just block them
if they had broken up with a rational reason i'd probably be against blocking but yeah, you should block them crystal
clear prism
Because that is what I see here
eager quest
lol 1 year is nothing for a long-term relationship
and if u broke up cuz of that reason
then
idk its not even really a reason
quasi sundial
eager quest
no way that person calls u too feminine after one fucking year and not in few weeks
real tinsel
man don't do shit because of other people
eager quest
well thats ur problem but i dont blame u cuz they shouldve known what theyre getting into
glad kelp
man don't do shit because of other people
I didn't
glad kelp
well thats ur problem but i dont blame u cuz they shouldve known what theyre get...
I mean....i always made them come back
So they blocked me, on everything
If you wanna forget your partner
Then block them
Well
eager quest
not worth the struggle imo, if ur gonna find someone for a long term relationship then go ahead, u will see in time or sooner than later if it works out
theres really 2 situations, them being u either wanna get laid quick or actually build something
quasi sundial
brainfart-friday more like sadge-friday
quasi sundial
minecraft
eager quest
but 1 year, with that person coming back multiple times and then breaking up cuz of this lie of a reason
real tinsel
brainfart-friday more like sadge-friday
eager quest
i dont think its worth it
glad kelp
I hope they atleast get back to say their sorry or summin
quasi sundial
I hope they atleast get back to say their sorry or summin
woman never do that
eager quest
probably wont, dont expect it
real tinsel
at first it was bzeek trying to help me cope with schizophrenia and my mood disorder but then some others saw us talking and joined so it became a thing
glad kelp
woman never do that
Damn
real tinsel
bzeek is brainfart official psychiatrist
eager quest
bzeek is brainfart official psychiatrist
oh dude i will never share my problems publicly here
glad kelp
Welp time to become like them 🤓
quasi sundial
at first it was bzeek trying to help me cope with schizophrenia and my mood diso...
I have schizophrenia trait mod in my zomboid server
eager quest
i may seem like a cool guy on the outside but i hide the darkest places on earth and the darkest secrets in my heart
glad kelp
I will officially not say sorry to anything
eager quest
too much to talk about so i wont bother telling people here my problems
glad kelp
Damn
clear prism
Lol
eager quest
What *are* one of your problems?
i dont really wanna get into detail
and saying that im stressed out 24/7 wont prove anything
glad kelp
Then don't get into detail?
eager quest
so theres ur answer
eager quest
too much to do, no rest, i can barely sleep, i dont see anything interesting in life anymore
and theres more reasons
glad kelp
too much to do, no rest, i can barely sleep, i dont see anything interesting in ...
Damn
I don't see any much interesting in life neither sadly
At such age it's a surprise i would expect
eager quest
i mean it comes with time but im seriously just drained
eager quest
idk how u feel and what uve had happen to u but a little breakup because some bimbo called me too feminine wouldnt scale up to the other shit in my life
real tinsel
I have schizophrenia trait mod in my zomboid server
nice, i think i've seen that mod
real tinsel
idk how u feel and what uve had happen to u but a little breakup because some bi...
he's 16 or 17
eager quest
being highly in love isnt that good of a thing especially when younger
eager quest
try to control ur desires or u will end up controlled, manipulated, changed because of someone and will do stupid shit and expect stupid shit because u are blinded by love
grizzled meadow
Ah we have another young blood among our ranks
real tinsel
Ah we have another young blood among our ranks
it's crystal
glad kelp
XD
real tinsel
kris is crystal you dumbo
glad kelp
HIIII
grizzled meadow
glad kelp
XD
eager quest
check ur eyes
glad kelp
grizzled meadow
So wait
glad kelp
I'm staying this way
grizzled meadow
You break up with your ex?
glad kelp
Da
eager quest
her*
real tinsel
yeah but don't literally fuck him
grizzled meadow
Him her whatever
glad kelp
Yeee
eager quest
wait was it a she or he
glad kelp
She
eager quest
ok
glad kelp
Ha
grizzled meadow
eager quest
Should have told me that before
well now u know
glad kelp
Well the shared account thing was just because of the big trust and i did agree on it but like
grizzled meadow
I also noticed you removed that thing from your bio thing
glad kelp
Sorta really was a red flag
glad kelp
I also noticed you removed that thing from your bio thing
I really did
eager quest
trust me, dont let urself get controlled by ur own emotions, especially love
grizzled meadow
I really did
I didn't want to get into your business and avoided asking
clear prism
Same here
glad kelp
trust me, dont let urself get controlled by ur own emotions, especially love
I had to learn that since i knew it and still didn't get it
clear prism
Shared accounts are never a good idea, really
eager quest
its a free app, get ur own
glad kelp
Lol
clear prism
I always say "If you do not trust your loved one enough to give them privacy, then you might as well quit"
Trust is a give/take sort of deal
glad kelp
It was because we actually did trust eachother smh
clear prism
If you do not give, then just taking will end up toxic
real tinsel
I always say "If you do not trust your loved one enough to give them privacy, th...
this is pretty much why i quit. Schizophrenia and relationships don't go well
glad kelp
Yikes
mortal violet
what happen here 
glad kelp
Well i feel better now atleast
clear prism
Keep your head up, ok?
glad kelp
But I'm still not off my mind of quitting gaming
eager quest
i dont expect much nowadays because women are women, no offense to any girl here
clear prism
You got this
glad kelp
i dont expect much nowadays because women are women, no offense to any girl here
Yeah they are
eager quest
they will walk all over u and mostly never understand ur true feelings
glad kelp
Dw about it
eager quest
men are lonely as fuck
glad kelp
Yeahp
eager quest
as a girl u can just look good, walk on the street and get paid to fuck someone
eager quest
why do u think theres more men who kill themselves
tho its not always the case
men are just overall lonely as fuck
real tinsel
they will walk all over u and mostly never understand ur true feelings
not always the case though
glad kelp
why do u think theres more men who kill themselves
I wouldn't wonder
glad kelp
they will walk all over u and mostly never understand ur true feelings
Not always the case but mostly
stone blade
the one that started it all
eager quest
as a girl u can just look good, walk on the street and get paid to fuck someone
@gloomy roost ive seen women on the street asked some naughty shit, looked at seductively, etc
eager quest
its not that hard of a thing in their case
mortal violet
reminds me of this video
glad kelp
<@247088934788661258> ive seen women on the street asked some naughty shit, look...
I mean sure sounds tempting but why?
Lol
real tinsel
my ex didn't really understand my true feelings because she's a bit judgy and almost nobody who isn't a schizo can understand what being a schizo is like. But she checks on me from time to time. About 2 weeks ago she texted me to see if i was doing okay, despite us breaking up 10 months ago
real tinsel
What was she thinking?
uh what
clear prism
I never got into relationships all that much but the few times where I did, it got out of hand because they became downright obsessive. Getting upset over me not responding quick enough was the first signs and soon it became shit like "Who are you messaging" or "Who are you playing games with?" until they started deliberately telling me to spend time with them instead of playing with my friends
Classic shit, you know?
eager quest
I never got into relationships all that much but the few times where I did, it g...
thats exactly what i was referring to
unless u find an actually caring woman it will always end up like that
clear prism
The next stage, where they are outright hostile towards you, is the worst
eager quest
and dont doubt women, some manipulate people really damn well because theyre too fucking blinded by love and lust
clear prism
And that is when I call it quits because what the fuck, seriously
eager quest
have some self control
glad kelp
I never got into relationships all that much but the few times where I did, it g...
Welll i would almost say "it's normal" because they expect you to cheat on them smhhhh
Like why did u even come here
eager quest
Welll i would almost say "it's normal" because they expect you to cheat on them ...
yeah thats cuz they dont trust u lol
glad kelp
You gotta buld trust
clear prism
Trust is a big thing
eager quest
u either didnt prove to them that u can be trusted or its their problem
clear prism
Well honestly, they all have trust issues because people were shitty towards them in the past
But this one girl, oh boy
stone blade
me and who
grizzled meadow
@glad kelp
In my life (at least so far) I have had to let go a lot of people, not because we were in love or something, it has always been friendship stuff, but I think the feeling is the same, or at least close to it
It's impossible to remain impassive or otherwise give a damn when faced with such a feeling, it's something that hurts, it doesn't go away overnight, you are also young, it's an "important" kind of pain, the kind that make you grow as a person
It's not light stuff and you have every right to feel bad, even for months, try to metabolize it as you see fit and when you feel up to it, move on and don't look back, try to treasure all the good moments because one day you'll forget them, same goes for the bad ones
Don't ever feel inferior or like you are nothing, no one has the right to say things like that and if they tell you, screw them, because only you really know yourself, not others
You are still young and have a whole life ahead of you, the brightest tomorrow always comes, just as it is certain that the sun rises every morning
clear prism
She was really manipulative. Like really, lied a lot and kept on trying to make me out to be the guilty one. However, I notice whenever I get manipulated which is why it never worked on me
grizzled meadow
me and who
Me, all of them
stone blade
me falco and khatyl and ghosty and bruno
grizzled meadow
Okay you can be the one holding the beer
clear prism
<@968032152358883368>
In my life (at least so far) I have had to let go a lot o...
Damn right
grizzled meadow
Ivan play the guitar
eager quest
<@968032152358883368>
In my life (at least so far) I have had to let go a lot o...
i agree with the inferiority thing
its just as some would say "character development" because thats what it is
glad kelp
<@968032152358883368>
In my life (at least so far) I have had to let go a lot o...
Man thanks, seems i really needed that
Bless your heart falco
eager quest
younguns are young and unexperienced, chasing love, contradict me or not
its just u gotta have self control
clear prism
Right well, before I go and dig into this food. @glad kelp if you need to talk more about this, feel free to message me. Until then, keep your head up, stay on it and get better 💪
glad kelp
She was really manipulative. Like really, lied a lot and kept on trying to make ...
My gf wantet to manipulate me to get over there which i wantet to do anyways so i was like "o-k"
I never really got there sadly
Oh well
eager quest
u can also message me, im a depressed and cold fuck but from experience and from others i guess i could be of use
glad kelp
It is
eager quest
especially since im mentally scarred to the full
glad kelp
We heard that last time already
eager quest
yeah i know
glad kelp
Having your face peeled ain't no fun shit
eager quest
ti si majmun
stone blade
ne
eager quest
da
glad kelp
Niet
glad kelp
Markiplier: i have never done drugs
Also mark when he playd fnaf: drugz
eager quest
i think im gonna sleep on the balcony
glad kelp
Damn
eager quest
only issue is i dont wanna catch a cold
glad kelp
With the mosquitos?
eager quest
ye im not home currently, im like 5 hours away (on car) from my house and my dad's in the other room making the ground shake with his snoring
eager quest
and the balcony has this little bed or bench thing which is really comfortable and i dont feel like getting up
glad kelp
Aww where?
eager quest
25 degrees apparently but the breezes are very powerful
stone blade
so much
glad kelp
25 degrees apparently but the breezes are very powerful
Time to get blown by the wind then
gloomy roost
<@247088934788661258> ive seen women on the street asked some naughty shit, look...
I've never been on the streets much so I wouldn't know
grizzled meadow
eager quest
nice 10 hour delayed reply
grizzled meadow
@glad kelp
glad kelp
Mmm carpender brut
I have
Forest photo
Literally cleaner then the fucking sink water
I even tested
The PH level of the water
It's clean and refreshing
Don't take it outta the pond though
grizzled meadow
like game soundtrack level good
It's Hotline Miami after all
glad kelp
Lmao
real tinsel
It's Hotline Miami after all
ah so it is a game soundtrack
glad kelp
https://youtu.be/iq-kDl_4wCU bro sans jokes at it again
mortal dirge
gloomy roost
plucky void
heady crow
grizzled meadow
ah so it *is* a game soundtrack
Carpenter Brut is the dude that wrote the Hotline Miami OST
heady crow
quasi sundial
Carpenter Brut is the dude that wrote the Hotline Miami OST
based musician
pastel quartz
heady crow
eager quest
i cant sleep
clear prism
Have you tried not thinking about it?
heady crow
Well see how my night goes. Couldnt sleep till 5am yesterday
Whats up with you tho ghosty
eager quest
Whats up with you tho ghosty
idk
i mostly cant sleep because im stressed out and always thinking about stuff
and also because i cant get this one person out of my fucking mind
clear prism
Want to talk about it?
eager quest
Want to talk about it?
nothing to do about it, just a person that i miss a lot and havent talked to in a while
heady crow
Ye i feel you. For me i just always listen through an album when i fall asleep so i dont go around thinking about actually important things
eager quest
by a while i mean 2 and a half years
eager quest
not all of a sudden, shes been in my head for a long time
needs to pay the fucking rent
doesnt wanna leave
eager quest
and i cant do shit about it because she might have changed her phone number
and i feel guilty because its kinda my fault for us not talking for a very long while
slate crown
i think the most important thing people should learn is moving on
eager quest
i think the most important thing people should learn is moving on
i know how to do that and ive done it many times
but some things u just cant forget or get rid of
slate crown
sorry i don't really know the context yet i just came here
eager quest
Why do you think it is your fault?
i dont think its my fault, i know its my fault
but my actions leading to our inactivity was caused by a massive crisis in my life
so idk
still kinda my fault
clear prism
In our lives, bad times are just a simple truth. They happen at the worst of times, are very intrusive and often burn connections we used to have
That is life. But you can always rebuild those connections. It is never "too late"
eager quest
i was very close to that person in multiple ways and aspects, but then just quickly lost touch
she tried reaching out to me but i was too devastated by what happened at the time
and no i wont say what happened, maybe not now anyway
clear prism
That is alright, it is not the topic you want to talk about anyhow
However what is important is that you went through rough times and we all react different when it happens
It is alright to feel that way but once those times are over, you can always make amends
I am sure she will understand. If not? Well, then perhaps it is better off staying buried
I doubt that would be the case, though
eager quest
I am sure she will understand. If not? Well, then perhaps it is better off stayi...
im sure she will, we had a special type of connection which im willing to share
slate crown
my S/O got into an argument once and cut off all communication with each other for years. After slowly talking to each other and we've been together for 10 years ever since. Take this time to better yourself, you two will fall back in love all over again trust me
clear prism
If you are comfortable with it, sure
eager quest
If you are comfortable with it, sure
well, long story short, i was a pro dancer for like 7 years and i think u can see where this is going
she was my partner for a really long time
clear prism
Now that sounds like a strong connection
slate crown
yea definitely sounds more stable than most relationships
eager quest
uh-huh
thats why i said special type of connection
we were partners for a good several years, and especially at that level of dancing it was something
clear prism
Truly something to behold?
eager quest
i wont get into details about the actual hobby, so i wont mention that our synchronisation was perfect and we meant a lot to each other
slate crown
would you consider this person your "soul mate"?
eager quest
but the things we both have been through at the same time and so on
the bond is just insane
clear prism
She definitely sounds like she means a lot to you
slate crown
damm i wasn't expecting to be sad in a thread called brainfart today
clear prism
Having such a strong bond and seeing it go quiet. That certainly is a heavy weight on the mind, I can understand
eager quest
would you consider this person your "soul mate"?
i have other friends that i have good connections with and that i know for very very long times but yeah, this particular situation is just
something
d i f f e r e n t
slate crown
whatever happens bro, you have my full and sincere support
clear prism
So what is stopping you from reaching out again? Except the whole number ordeal
(Though I am sure that can easily be solved with some digging)
eager quest
So what is stopping you from reaching out again? Except the whole number ordeal
the guilt
clear prism
Mhm. That always keeps you shackled down and stops you from progressing
slate crown
yea best way to solve guilt is to somehow talk it out
eager quest
i miss her so bad but i just feel guilty and shitty for leaving her
clear prism
Ah but you see, you were in a bad state of mind during those times
eager quest
and yes in case ur wondering, after the massive crisis i previously mentioned, i quit the hobby
slate crown
right
haughty shore
https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/868492828827856966/991252903102775356/d...
Your father obviously did not tie you up to a railing and hit you with a spanner for playing ball inside the house and breaking the wall clock. That is the only way you become a man.
eager quest
had to deal with life stuff
clear prism
and yes in case ur wondering, after the massive crisis i previously mentioned, i...
Naturally, your priorities shifted
eager quest
she just means something different to me and i cant forget her (not that i want to anyway, but sometimes the mere presence in my mind defeats me)
cant tell if im a pussy or not
slate crown
https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/720109182229151847/963090440322686976/e...
trying to have a moment here do you mind?
clear prism
cant tell if im a pussy or not
Well no, it is not that
Guilt, regret is often accompanied by fear. After all, you see this as a big mistake which still haunts you, no?
clear prism
But here is the deal. There is nothing to be afraid of because in essence, there is nothing to be guilty of
slate crown
true
clear prism
Look. We humans are deeply flawed, we make mistakes
Grave, awful mistakes. We do it all the time
slate crown
Our mistakes shouldn't define who we are
clear prism
But that does not necessarily mean there is no way to repair and rebuild
You can always take that step towards betterment
It all comes down to one thing. Are you prepared to take that bold step?
You might say "No", deny having progressed or even say you are in a bad state of mind right now
But I would disagree. See, you are thinking about this right now. I am sure you have thought about it a lot ever since
Subconsciously, you are ready. Why else would you keep thinking back to it?
slate crown
damn you're good
clear prism
Have some confidence. Not just in you, but in her too
eager quest
dunno i just dont have the strength to do it
clear prism
Perhaps not now, yes. Things can not change over night, after all
eager quest
idk man my whole life kinda went downhill after that one thing
i lost a lot of self esteem and mental strength
clear prism
Naturally. When we fall, we tend to fall pretty hard, yes?
And yet, you can always get up, no matter how bad the fall was
eager quest
worst thing is that my health changed too
routine, stress eating, scoliosis, loneliness
anxiety
depression
slate crown
been there too bro
clear prism
Of course, such live changing events always tend to reflect on you physically too
eager quest
been there too bro
well ive been here for more than 3 years now