#My corner of the cyberscape ig

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versed roost
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And so the ranting begins.

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I don't feel like anyone really needs me just because they want me.

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I feel like the seasoning on the meal, the pepper that no one really thinks about until it says hello

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I'm an afterthought, sort of

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And I feel selfish for being here. I feel like a cliché for venting and feeling like this.

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I'm a genuine person, so why am I in the background? I hid under my bed for an hour and the only reason anyone came looking for me is so I could put away a d6

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So I could out away a D6 IN A BAG THAT WAS TWO FEET AWAY FROM THE GUY LOOKING FOR ME.

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I don't feel like a main character even in my own story. I don't even think anyone is going to read these in detail. I wish I had ||pyromania|| or something so that I could be unique to others

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But I don't. I'm just average.

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So yeah. I'm not thinking about ||suicide||, but I'm quite sure that my family wouldn't realize I'm gone until they wanted me to get them a soda or something. Have been debating hiding in the backyard until they looked for me.

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I can't convince myself to send messages in the other channels bc I'm convinced no one would read it or no one would legitimately care. I'm probably just annoying.

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I love getting pinged btw

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I just feel invisible, like everyone tunes me out or just forgets cause their passive state is apathy toward me

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I've tried opening up to my friends and they either ghost me, joke it off, or blame me

versed roost
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It's like everyone decides not to talk to me

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I'm just the crumb you brush off your screen because it's annoying

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I take second place to people's entertainment

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I see all these other people getting comforted and I think, "what's wrong with me?" It's like no one wants to go to the effort to talk to me

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I'm a doormat

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I can't talk about myself

elder tendon
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yes, i did read everything here, and i truly believe you’re a great person

elder tendon
elder tendon
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i do truly care about you so much, the people in your life are wrong

versed roost
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@elder tendon I don't know exactly how to respond, but thank you. That helped, ig. It's not just about being important, I want to be wanted. I hate to correct anyone or be annoying, so I just let people walk over me. I want to be someone people remember and miss

elder tendon
# versed roost <@995409196726091936> I don't know exactly how to respond, but thank you. That h...

it’s okay, you don’t have to have an immediate response, just consider what i said. if you do want to feel truly wanted, you need to find better people in your life. the current people don’t value you as much as they should. same thing with feeling annoying, the right people will not make you feel that way. i promise you, if you surround yourself with better people, you yourself will feel so much better

versed roost
elder tendon
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lounge is open to all

versed roost
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I cannot live around nihilism.

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It scares the crap out of me

versed roost
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My in person "friends" are nuts

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They ask me how I am and keep asking, not letting me talk

versed roost
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My family never once even thought I could possibly be right about what I'm feeling. My friends act like I'm their personal NPC to hang out with, and they never text me except to ask about times and if I can come over. One guy I thought i connected with is completely ghosting me whenever I ask for help

versed roost
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I don't feel like I really have a personality.

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I'm just neutral. I feel boring

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Eh

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Idk

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I don't like the feeling. I'm just... A mirror of those I hang out with?

versed roost
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Haha, well, I guess I'm a nihilist now

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A little bit