#Doing this ig

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stuck dove
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(contains mention of r@pe jokes, suicidal thoughts )

It’s not a big issue or problem that im dealing with and but yeah so recently things haven’t been quite nice ….
I just wanted to vent really badly about how sometimes I feel like I’m someone who’s never special in anyone’s life and that im just that one backup friend everyone goes to when they feel tired or when they don’t have anyone.
I never vent to anyone about my problems bc their reactions are always smth like “im sorry” “oh” when I send someone 2 long paragraphs when someone’s day is going bad even when I’m at my lowest.
Recently, at my apartment I got bullied. Those people sent me ||r@pe threats|| and said stuff like ||you should kys|| and started body shaming me. The bullying gets worse everyday and I haven’t told anyone. It hurts me. What did I do to deserve such words.
I can’t tell anyone this irl because.. I just can’t.
Pretending to be happy everyday is so fucking hard.
I really feel like ending it one day so this all bs is over. Like anyone would notice.
No matter how hard I try, somehow im never enough to my friends. One of my closest friends dumped me yesterday all bc of a small disagreement. All our friendship all the paragraphs I wrote her just disappeared and all of it is just meaningless words now.
God please im so sorry I try my best to be okay.

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I know my problems arent even 1% of what people go through

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I overreact a lot

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I just

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Idk

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I wanna disappear

wet parcel
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Hey how are you doing now sorry to hear that your going to through a lot of things and it's a though time for you even if your problems aren't even 1 % of what people go through doesn't mean your overreacting especially the bulling you mentioned seems very serious you should feel safe at your home why are you hesitant to report it ?

stuck dove
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It’s getting worse

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I don’t wanna cause trouble to any one

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I hate this

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I cry and then people ask me whats wrong

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And I have to pretend again

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Im just trying my best right now

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Now i understand why it’s me

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My friends are going though so much and I’m here crying about something thats not even close to what they go through

opal trench
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No lavi

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Dont do this

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U dont deserve any of this

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Ily more than the world

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Ur not overreacting

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U deserve to be happy too

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Im here for you man

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Ilysm

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Think about me

stuck dove
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I know I love u more tysm but I just can’t anymore im sorry

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I started doing that again…

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My habit is back

stuck dove
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Idk why I feel like this

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I know there are some people who comfort me and love me

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But I feel unseen sometimes

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Like no one would notice if im gone

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No one ever says anything when I’m gone

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They only say it when I remind them

stuck dove
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Im so tired

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Idk why everyone is so pissed at me for no reason

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Im both mentally and physically tired

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My habit wont stop

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No matter how hard I try

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I just wannna be loved

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Sometimes I think I’m not enough

stuck dove
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My mom hates me

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Perfect

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She called me a selfish brat and so many names

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I guess shes right

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Idek anymore

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Why does everyone hate me so much

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It was just a mistake

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No one would care

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It’s just a small cut

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Who would even notice

remote spruce
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This one small cut will be there permanently no matter how much you try to get rid of it

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You'll keep saying that phrase again and again and it'll be a habit, a bad habit

stuck dove
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Omg

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Im literally gonna faint

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Why am I never enough

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I leave all my work to comfort someone and do everything I can

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But it’s never enough

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Never

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No one even notices that im done with life

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Im starving but cant bring myself to eat

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My sleep paralysis is back

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I wake up in sweats

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I started crying so bad today anf al my mom told me was that im acting childish

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I cry

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Every fucking time like a baby

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I need to grow up

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My moms right

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Why can I be no ones favourite

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I think everyone is done with me

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And cant take me anymore

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I feel like a burden

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I overreact so much

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I feel scarred

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All those cuts on my hand make me sick

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Ive started fainting again

stuck dove
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Omg

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My hands are shaking

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Idk what’s happening to me

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I wanna end this all please

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Why does everyone hate me sm

stuck dove
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I did it again

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I feel so fucking ashamed

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Wtf is wrong with me

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I cant do this omg

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Im such a fucking crybaby

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I hate myself

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Im mean to people

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Im rude

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Im selfish

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I guess I got too comfortable witht them

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All of them hate me now

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I swear I didn’t mean to be rude

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I just

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Im so sorry

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Now I get why im no one’s favourite

stuck dove
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Idk where I lack

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I try so much

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To comfort people

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And I end up with no thank yous

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No u made me feel better

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Nothing

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What am I missing

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I wanna end it

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I cant anymore

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I got my hands on expired pills

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Thats it

opal trench
stuck dove
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I failed

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Why

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I accepted my fate yesterday

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And now I’m back here again

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I hate this

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It all hurts even more now

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If I locked my room

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It wdve given me time

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And I wouldn’t be here

stuck dove
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This year genuinely couldn't get worse

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I just wanna be gone

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I can't take it

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I still have a choice

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And this time I'm very clear with what I will do and when I will do it

stuck dove
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I cant do this

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Today is the worst fucking day ever

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My friend passed..

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I couldn’t even say one last goodbye

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This shit is

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So fucking unreal

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I don’t belive this

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Please god