but atp im so tired of her bullshit that her threats or whatever dont affect me in any way, im at the point where i repeat okay for probably 63 times before she either calms down or goes away pissed
#Kr1z's journal
limber obsidian
mf has a wheel for car games and display cars all around and apparently has no hobbies
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you know life is good when you can walk outside with just a hoodie without feeling cold
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THE PC DOES NOT TURN ON🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
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THE PC TURNS ON🔥🔥🔥
now i need to sort out my grandmas pc
the fucking case for it is so ass that its misaligned for the psu
so i cant screw it in and proceed
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okie im done done done with my pc, cloned my nvme n shi and yeah
now full focus on grandmas pc
- my room is finally looking like a room and not a electronic dump
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im officially back in gym
just came home from my 2nd gym day
i had a whole ass year of a gap
feels good to be back
getting in my protein too
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i love my fuckass bike
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Been a second since ive said anything
What ive done so far:
Fuck all
Joking, during easter i studied for my upcoming exams, still going to the gym strong (despite feeling sore from last monday), uhhhhh ofcourse still attending my tutor lessons n allat
Been playing gang beasts and elden ring lately, pretty fun
gonna go make something to eat for myself, got home about half an hour ago from gym🔥
ill make dumplings
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Joking, during easter i studied for my upcoming exams, still going to the gym st...
oh yeah i finished watching JJK culling games pt1, idk how i forgot abt that
i finished it yesterday bruh💔💔💔
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peak
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after 4 tries, my dumbass finally passed the schools driving exam theory
now off to the real driving theory, which if i fail i need to do the school's theory exam again
but still, finally bruh
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icl when i got elden ring, i really did think this would be one miserable experience, because every time i see this game on my feed, everyone makes it seem so difficult
its really not that difficult, theres some grinding and learning when it comes to bosses, but the game is a lot easier than every1 makes it seem
a little let down by that tbf but the game is awesome
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Had a crazy reality check today:
Mock exam for the upcoming biology exam, holy shit i got cooked - scored 25% on the first part and fuck knows how much in the 2nd, hasnt been graded yet
ive been slowly preparing myself for the bio exam in the last 2 weekends, went through some topics or whatever you wanna call them, subjects, thinking i understand this and that well
it made me realize in what state im in, that im not ready to write this exam, that ill get cooked in it, and chances are i fail
im not confident in my knowledge, not anymore, this mock exam shattered it all to the point where im stressing over the real exam
which is less than 2 months away
plenty of time, i guess, but i feel absolutely shit about myself now
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Today was certainly something
Had the driving theory exam today - thought it was at 15:30 so i arrived at about 15:11 to not miss anything cuz yk anything might happen
so im sitting there, time is now 15:30, im stressing my balls off, hoping i pass cuz id have to go through my driving school theory again (which was miserable)
sat there for another 10 minutes, out of curiosity i check the email i got about the exam again
15:00
I missed the fucking exam
Never felt so helpless in my life, went to ask when i can sign up again for it or something
and holy shit i mustve been blessed
they were apparently doing another exam at 16:00 and if one mf doesnt come i can go and do it
AND SO THE MF DOESNT COME IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i BARELY, just BARELY pass it, 27/30
never been so relieved in my life
what a fucking rollercoaster of emotions
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grandmas new pc nearly done🔥🔥🔥 just have to reset bios n allat and then clear my files
wiring is a fucking mess but who cares it doesnt need to be pretty, itll remain untouched for the next 6 years once i set it up for good
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what an exhausting week, really
glad that its a friday night
unfortunately i will have to wake up relatively early to go to some place that sells plants cuz my grandma wants even more fucking plants
oh well, they said i will be the one driving so whatever, i like to drive
i dont have my license just yet but i did pass the theory this week, and also have a provisional license for over 2 years now
what i dont find cool is that everyone in my family has an automatic car and i prefer to drive manuals💔💔💔💔
but whatever, more practice before i take my driving exam innit
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but whatever, more practice before i take my driving exam innit
holy traffic jam bro
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okay im finally done done with building my grandma a pc, got everything important transferred and apps working so thats cool
got a 250gb ssd too
ill take extra storage any day
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well shit i gave it to my stepdad to try and it worked
idk why it isnt 4 me
it works
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decided to invest in the stock market cuz why not
threw in like 10 eur and unironically ive made a profit so far
ive made just under 2 euro🔥🔥🔥🔥
ill keep ts up for a bit and see where it all takes me
i dont mind losing the 10
not life changing money
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lol ive lost like majority of that 10 i threw in
im slowly growing it back with bitcoin
man i fucking hate leg days
definitely my least favorite gym day
but they aint gonna grow by themselves
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i missed one of the weapons and you cant get it after a certain point in a game
im forced to do NG+💔
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i dont want to grow up
i want to stay 18 forever
adult life scares me
responsibilities
taxes
work
no free time whatsoever
and to think that as a kid i always said that i wanted to be grown up
its true now and i hate it, i want to go back
i want a life with lots of adventures, lots of friends, lots of stupid and silly activities, i want to explore the world, i want to swim in oceans,
theres so much stuff i want to do but simply cant
i want to make it all work but coming from a previously occupied and poor country, i doubt ill be able to do that
Im already lucky enough to be born into a family thats above average but compared to the rest of the world its nothing
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i want to make it all work but coming from a previously occupied and poor countr...
its putting a lot of stress on me, and i shouldnt really be worrying about that, not right now
it doesnt help that i dont know what i want to do later in life either - i originally thought i could do IT shit like programming/coding, but i now realize just how miserable the life of a programmer is even with allat money
that shit is not for me at all
everyone says to do a job that i like and enjoy doing...... i havent enjoyed a single thing yet despite trying so many other things
how am i genuinely supposed to know what im gonna do for the rest of my life at just 18
the human brain keeps growing up until 25 or even longer, but yet at 18 im getting a pat from society and getting told to find what i want to do for work for the rest of my life
im so lost and its not even funny.
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my mom is tryna put me on sum fuckass minimum wage job but i keep hearing bad stuff about it from friends
one even said that they dont pay what they promise
and its a bit similar to my previous job, but ofcourse less pay
i hated my previous job and dont wanna do that shi again
ive applied to sum other jobs but they spin the wheel for who gets chosen
they reveal that tomorrow so i hope im picked there
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my mom is tryna put me on sum fuckass minimum wage job but i keep hearing bad st...
i do not wanna work at that fuckass place
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i denied it
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ive applied to sum other jobs but they spin the wheel for who gets chosen
and i supposedly got one job from that
so ill have to go to some place and get the info later next week
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so ill have to go to some place and get the info later next week
ill do an update to this tomorrow
im going there in 15h from now
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I got a job
BUT
theres a but
my starting day is 29th june💀
and i fly back into my country on that day
so uhhh unless i can start on the 30th or whatever...
or work extra to yk, cover that day
either works
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finally getting closer to my drivers license
my instructor just sent me to do the driving school's exam
dunno when thatll be yet but damn
about time
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Im so tired
i want to forget everything and just sit near a river on a nice warm day
and have a moment of peace
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Right, uhhh i have my first exam literally tomorrow
its biology
when we did a mock exam about 2 months ago i got 26%
im not confident in my knowledge
i guess ill just have to see how it goes
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Right, uhhh i have my first exam literally tomorrow
i lowkey think i got cooked
but i should pass
but if anything, barely, if i had to guess
works for me
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YEEEAAAHHHH summers here
limber obsidian
where can we vent?
#huddle-vent-1 #1388372407794008258 unless they don't work for you?
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dunno what that was about but
I PASSED MY DRIVING SCHOOL's EXAM🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
RAHHHRAHHH
now off to the official one... which fuck knows when thatll be
oh and rezero keeps bringing us bangers cuz wym the latest episode got a 9.9🥹
back to back peak bro
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got my math exam tomorrow
lowkey
idgaf abt it rn
probably will minutes before it starts
but it should be ok
i really cba to study im completely drained
mentally
atleast right after the exam i can forget everything and be happy for the next 3 months
i hope this summer will actually be more productive than last