#vent bc feelings r too much
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i need to stop spamming her
and let her play poni game
i stop
i need to stop
she needs every bit if happiness she can get
i need to respect more
she keeps saying its ok
so tbat means
i stop
i need to stop
phone on 10 oopsies
i hate how gross my back is
i hate it so mych
i beed to stop eatung
im crying
i hate mysekf
i hate my body
im so gross
i feel so gross
i hate this i hate this i hate this
i want to disappear
im shaking
i loooked at food anf started crying
i cant handle this
why am i like this
i saw her face and started crying again
i want to be gone
im so uoset
w everything
i dont like ut
i really dont like ug
i dont feel good
at akl
im shaking sm
honestly will i be alive by then
im crying really bad
im so stressed
im so stressed and scared and upset
i cant handle this
i cry why is my thought process this
im gonna try and have non fatty foods all day tomoorrro
maybe that will make me feel better
why why why whyw hy
why
whywhywhywhy
why
why
whywhy
why
why
why
why
why
why
why do i think like thid
why do i act like this
why do i feel like this
hopefullt maggie can help tomorrow
idk hwo but i still hooe
i tiktok then daydream and animak crossing
it feels patronising
its not my life
im safe
and haooy
uts not my life
im okay
im cuddlibg w my puppy
and daydreaming
and listening to illit
its not my lufe
my life is okay
lovely
ok
im going to say it
smmedw
hdpimmedw
waiy
but its not her fault
it is mine
so is it really a fault
like
its obviously not her fault
but am i at fault alot bc of how my brain is wired
i need to not think'
i cant know anything
i cant think of anything about it
im protecting myself
surely
lies
im gonna try not have dinner tonight
we shall hope and see
envious
im envious'
im so
i want to cry
im so upset
i want to chop most of my limbs off
theyre so gross
I am so gross
i want to ovmt
i wnt to vomit all my misfortunes out
i hate them
im crying at the thought of it now
i hate it so much
i wish i could switch mmyself off
like power off ike a robot
maybe i should do my excercises
im gonna do them
im so wobbly
i cant see
im gonna faint
danxe time
why am i like this
genuinely
why
i fucking hate myself
people think im nice but im a horrible person
fucking somoene please get me a blade
like please
maybe i can get merlin to take me to spotlight to get a sharppener
no
its officeworks
they r bsically the same tho
pleas smeon ekkill me
i dont want to be conscious or alive
im a horrible person
no one needs me to be alive
im crying
i hate myself so much
i hate my situation
i hate me an eerything to do w me
i hate i hate i hate
i cant think of any things that r good abput me
theres nothigbs
i cant stio cyrin
i hate this
jusy fpcus oon horsey game
just focus on that
it could help
i want ot fucking die
please
theres no way
everyone aroud me has made it imppossible for me to die
no one will just let me die
cant they see im in enough pain as is
why give me more by keeping me alive
i have no one
i am no one
i
am vry
mentally unstable
i shouldnt message anyone
because mi so mentally unstable
i need
to
stop
i
cant
deal
with
this
its
so
bad
i
dont
fucking
need this
im
shaking
so
fucking
much
thsi==is
is
so
much
im only fucking 14
i shouldnt have to deal with tbis
IM 14
IM
FUKCING
14
WHY
JUST WHY
WHY ME
WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK
I
WANT
T
DIE
I
CANT ESCAPE ANYTHING
I NEED
TO
FUCKING
DIE
THIS IS TOO MUCH
TO HNDLE
IM
14
I
AM
FUCKING
FOURTEEN
IVE BEEN DOING THIS SHIT
FOR YEARS
SINICE I WAS FUCKING 7 OR SUM SHIT
THATS
TOO
FUCKING
LONG
why me
why me
why me of all people
why do i have to be like this
why me
surely i wasnt that bad a person in my past life
i didnt think i was that bad of a person
am i really this horrible
everyone does tho
everyone does
im fake\
im not real
i dont want to be real
i dont know what im doing wrong
i dont know what ive done to have to suffer this much
i have a new goal
im not making it to my 15th birthday
i will die before september the 2nd
i need to
i cant deal with anything anymore
i need to start working
ive done everyhing worng
what have i done
what have i done
what have i done
what ae i done
i cant believe this
i thought i was dooing a good thing
i did it wrong
im getting worse by the day
maye ike
i can run away
i can pull a dazai
except ill die alone
i could jump off the bremer bridge
maybe people will put flowers where i jumped this time
i wan my srtraline
that was an easy way to die
i fucked it up by takign too littl
i shouldve done more
i shouldve done more research
i need to blow my nose ive been crying too much
ive ruined everything
tomorrow
i could js run and leave the house now
but my bonnie
im not rady to say goodbye to her yet
ill tell her tomorrow
or i could do what liam tried to do
or i could climb barretts fence and run away then
jump into oncoming traffic
whoever reading this none of this will happen
trust
i want to die of srtraline tho
it was like
almost fun when i had my overdoses as bad as that sounds
like
before anything bad happened i was js rlly shakey and had lots of adrenaline
but like
i was messaging the katseye server
it was sigma
people talked and liked me
ok wait
i can try and stay home alone tomorrow
and i can probably break the medication box
wait
i have to waiit until my mum has bene to the pharmacy to restock on sertraline
ok
i must wait
and listen
ill try keep an eye on the medication boxes
ill keep u guys updated
ok
plan
1 keep an eye out for sertraline restock
2 soon after mum restocks i ask to stay home alone
3 make sure i take all the mdeictaion before she gets home
4 try and hide the empty boxes
ok
ive cried so much im lie numb
im like
my head feels like it did when
i think my mums crying
im scare
ok
nvm
she was laughing
its ok
ok
i need
to keep an eye on when my mum goes to the pharmacy
ok
until then
pretend everyhting is ok
donnt eat
and play horsi game
and watch south par
im sorry miz
it was bound to happen
i have no hope
im being so annoying
i need to stop
i neet to
idk
idk
idk
idk
idk what to do
im stressing
idk what to so
im still stressing
im not okay
i want to talk to maggie
she helps me feel better
i want to talj to maggie
im not okay
my headphones r on 10 percent
i can pribavly charge thel at school using the laptip chargers tho
i love lucky girl syndrome so much
its my song
im claimung it
i need to learn the dance
anyone reading this please listen to it its so peak
jesus christ i look so depressed
took away my metronome im deep in shallow
i dont like where i am right now
i want to skip to another day
anothe months
a few months in the future
im scared and i dont know how to stop
im sorry
im sorry im not being happy
i dont find it possible right now
im sorry im dragging u down w me
im horrible
i drag people down
tired
i saw maggue today and i feel better
but i also at maccas and that was at 12:30 and i still am not able to eat anything else im so full
im fonna cry
i got the weongf one
i dont want to give it to her
she wong like it
im so sad
im scared to message her so ill put stuff here
i caught last icelandic needed
and now i never need to go on glacier island again (i dont like the island)
and i found out that the island u can see from blizzard island is infact glacier island
omg instantly vro
omg and immdeiately i got a stat aura height thing
YES
๐ฅน ๐ฅน
WEEEE
i can see glacier and blizzard from royal island omg
65 more places left iin my backpack for horses
im gonna go to lunar
ill have the most luck there
i need to stop
i keep doing things wrong
i thought i did things right
i never do
im gonna try catch another horse with the pearly hair for her
i feel bad abt the book so maybe this will make up for it
also guys im not gonna kms i was js going through a really bad time the other day ๐ญ
im not okay
after i fill up my backpack ill sell then go to training island
im gonna get jellybeans
im catching so many diva arabians
i dont understadn
i think im gonna cry
its making me so anxious and stressed
yk what
mi gonna close discord
byebye anxiety
its ok
everythung will be ok
byebye discord
im gonna sell with onoe extra backpack space bc it doesnt make logical sense to go on another island
i think this is pretty good
it makes me feel
sad
useless
pushed down
upset
and just down in general
i kind of want to cry
i have none
i dont have any of them
i dont feel good
i feel like a five year old
im barely getting any achievments
i havent done literally anything
im sad
no
stay confident
im happy with my little donkey
i was doing everything at my own pace
im ok
its all ok
ill probably cry later tonight
i need a smaller avatar
i like being small
i dont want people to noticr me
eaa i wish i wasnt good at mask
im still upset
sleep didnt help
i hopz haooy paws will
my fingers r so cold but merlin has the heat on
oh my god
i thought she was writing a break up paragraph
im still anxious but much less now
i think im gonna end tonight not ok again
its ok
tomorrow will be fun
its mothers day
i can do stuff w my family
give my mum and grandma presents
do stuff go to the movies do weeding at grandmas place w the dogs
itll be good
im gonna try and avoid answering the discord until her illit
i hate my stmach
i hate my nzck
i hate my legs
i hate my arms
i hate my cheeks
i hate my back
theyre all so gross
i vomited up all the food i js had
im nor having dinner
maybe a snack but no proper dinner
ive gor horse riding as soon as i get home too
im haooy andexcited for that tho
i wanna weigh lyself when i get home
eueueueueueuee im so toxic
idk how to stop
i fel like theres something in my throat
confusion
like i can taste saliva and blood from it and its like a lump
im probably exaggerating tho it should be fine
but like still
i wnr to send a picture but it has me in it
its of copper boy tho
ignore me
focus on pretty boy
i love copper
i always feel better after a ride w him
ill listen to music then tell how the ride was
so anxiety and sugma
help i forgot to come back
so it started off and i was so so so so so so so so so so so so so si so so so so scared
like really really scared
and i got on and was scared but started like trying to relax by sitting deep in the seat and beung confident and IT WORKED
we did four canters
2nd one made me feel like a show jumper thats how powerful the canters were
and then 4th one we nearโy ran out of the arena HELP
i panicked and forgot to steer so we did a VERY sharp turn like i could feel the leaning
and then we did leg yeilding and it went perfectly minus my anxiety
and rhen we did copper cardio
so western riding and fast tritting around the arena
i had alot of anxiety w that but its ok bc it ended well
and that was the ride but ayayay
no dinner for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
she may be avoiding me which is ok
im not making it easy to talk to me
my mums pissed at me
my sister said she didnt want me around
im
nithuing
i said for the first time in my life 'im happy with my life' then this happened
i should never be happy again
eaeaeaeaea whats wrong w me
ok
whats wrong
i dont feel good
because
that made me feel pushed aside
and that others were preffered over me
ive had a day at school
idk what to do w my mum
my eating disorder
the fear for hit
and my own mental health issues
thats why
abdbaj
its ok
just message
its ok
i
dont
need
to
know
everything
i dont
why do i want to
why do i feel like i need to
to distract from my own life
its ok
jus
play horsey game
why
whywhywhwyhwyhwyhwywywywwwywwywywyhwyhwyhwyhwywhyhy
im so upset w my fuckuing chud life
i wish i was a good drawer
i wish i was good at so many things
im so
im gonna crry
im so upset with my life
i never shouldve thought i would be okay
im gonna go back to my bed so i cancry
i dont want it to be tomorrow
im crying to the audio 'im gonna be honest I'm only looking at ur titties'
im so fucking fragile rn
why did thzt make me start crying
why did that make le starrt brutally sobbing
im so uoset
im so uosey
my mums trying to get me to call a helpline
i dont wabt to wait fucking 40 minutes
i js want to see maggie
im bit okay
im bit okay
im not okay
im not okay
im bit okay
im the one im ur idil
idol
im the one im ur idol
gojzxonhayo daiyo
loyal fans
idk korean
omg wait
ut didnt give me the right song
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
I'm the one, I'm your idol
๊พธ์คํ ๋ค ์ข์์
๋๋ ๋ง์น loyal fan
(Fan, fan, fan, fan)
ํ์ณ๋ด with fan account
๋๋ ์ํด, ์์งํจ
๋ ๊ฐ๋์ง ๋ง, ๋ณด์ํจ
Prada๋ณด๋ค ๋น์ผ ๋์ฒด๋ถ๊ฐ ๋์ธ๋ฐ
๋ฒ์กํ ์ ๋๋ค ๋ ์ ๊ฑฐ๊ธธ ๋ ํค๋งค?
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who? Who?
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
It's me
It's me
It's me
Me, me
It's me
"Hey, just say I'm your fave"
I yelled, "๋, hilarious"
Oh, my, my, my, my
์์๋ฐฉ๊ด like tortilla
Why? Why? Why? Why?
This ํ์ฌ๋ ain't no joke
It can't, can't, can't, can't
๋ต๋ต๋์น, post me on your 'gram
Sphere ์ ๊ดํ์ ์ปคํ ์ด๋์
๋ ํฐ๋ง
์ฌ๋ ค, ์ฐ๋ฆฌ ํ๊ต ๋์๋ณด์ headline
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who? Who?
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
It's me
It's me
Me
Me, me
It's me
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias (it's me)
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
It's me
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
Who's your bias? I'm your bias (it's me)
Who's your bias? I'm your bias
whos ur bias im ur buzs
its me
hey
just say im ur fav!
i need to stop
she doesnt want go message me
i need to stop
go play horsi game
it will help
it really very much is
i cant gind heehee
i cant gind her anf its making everything si much worse
i need heehee
my heehee๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
i made copper
hes green now
GNEEPY GNARPY
im dcared to message her so ill message here
merlin really wanted to maje thus cinnamon roll thing food and so we r making that
and we bought bubble tea diy stuff
so i made bubble tea at home
and it looks znd smells so cool im so excited
when i ginish baking w merlin im gonna play horsi game
im so glzd i got out of going to school today
i cant handle being there
tmr is ippi show too!!!!
dipndots and rides im so excited
ut better go well
i will be so uoset if it doesnt
i wanna wear my skirt and my pretty shirt
nvm when merlin leaves im gonna rip up my room to try znd find heehee
i need her to come to the show w me
my feet hurt sm
ive been stzbding for two hourd
the bubble tea kinda atstes likr shit i dont really want it
i want something more like healthy
stop
making
everything
about
urself
im not the most important person
i dont neef to make it always about me
i need to step back
and stop
because i am not the cente of attention
i wish i was in thailand
it would be so cool
eaeaea i dont have anyone to talk to
eeaaa im lonelh
its ok
i js need pony game and heartbreak high
itll help
im gonna put my phone fown
byebye phone
i think ill go shower i want to be clean
byebye guys WEEOOOO
i kept falling awleep in dhower
i cant find heehee
im gonna cry
i neex heehee
where is she
please reappear
guys
i hzf a gut feeling she was in the car
me heehee
i genuienly geel better
i wish she wasng in thailand
i wish she was sitting next to me
i wish she was helping merlin and i make the cinnamon rolls
i wish i ciuld play the competition hub on horsi game w her
i wish upon a fish
HELP
its okay i have my heehee
ok so
my issue is
i feel like no one is ever there for me except for illit
and wonhee is a part of illit and my heehee is kind of like my illit
do that why im so attached to it
i heart my illit
i have so many videos saved on my tiktok of illit
i need to go through them bc it always makes me smile
brother can he fuck off
im leaving the number here idc
i feel bad
but like i dont want to he around him
hes js trying to show his love for me
but i still dont want to he around him AT ALL
these trackiedacks make me look and feel fat
im gonnz change into shorts
i dont want to ruin the convo so ill send here
idk where i am on this map help
i dont have enough tokens
ehh
im
i need to disappear
im so
not okay
i want merlin to leave
shes been here too much
tomorrow will be good i hope
im ruining her vibe
i cant apologise yet either
im so sorry
i dont wsnt to message ever again
i just want to cry
i hwant to dissappeaaaarrrrrr
please let me disappear
be there to help
push urself down further
im gonan cry but its ok bc shes happy
im crying but im happy for her
shes happy and thats what matters
ill never get that opportunity
ill never have a family
my sister hates me
my mum pushes herslef under a bus for me
ill never get that opportunity
im really crying and i need to stopp bc mum could coem up at any second
i am notokoay
i need to stop comparing
it is really my fault
i wipe tears and move on
my eyelashes look like eyeliner theyre serving
ew my face is so long
stop crying
just breathe
its
okay
horsi game
omg maybe star stable
no i dont want her to think shes done something wrong
i really wanna play it tho
its ok js play horsi game
i feel bad for lillian
im the only person scarlett doesnt want to cut off
its ok
annbekle
breathe
its okay
deep breaths
its okay
no
dont think about that
think about horsi game
i can breed and try and get the breeding unique coats
ok
yes
do that
thank you for the empathy i appreciate it alot

im js like hiding under a blanket waiting for merlin to leave
wdiamtam
wwinbp
wwinhgc
isaffc
ihbswac
63.3
it was 62.4 yesterday
not good enough
need to get to 50
thats 13
i can do it
i just need to stop
i can do that
and pilates
i can do that
mercellus and the cleaning lady found their homes
wiehah
4029 training tickets
i want 7k
i am not okay
food will not help
i dont think anything will
i js have to wait for it to pass
again
like i always do
atleast i didnt eat all my dinner
i deleted messages i dont want to annoy her
ill send them here
i got a legendary chest in horsi game
and i got an island unique coat horse on volocano island
idk how
but it js spawned there
also the rarer chests r more common on volcano and im assuming higher level islands
i have 8 rare chests now
1 legender 8 rare and liike 23 common
i feel bad i have so much luck in this game
i want her to have more luck
GUYS
I GOT AN INFERNAL CHEST
IM SO HAPPU
aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I FOUND A VOLCANIC BALL TOO
SO NOW I CAN GET MINERALSSSSS
after i mine this and get the next treasure chest im gonna go to jungle island and get the herd of marwaris
IM SCREAMING
GUYS
IM SCREAMING SO BAD
A FRIESIAN
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
IM ACTUALLY SO HAPPI\
IM SCREMAING
im scared im really scared to message her
im really really scared
im gonna keep trying to get her bad apple achievment
yikes
mind u its 20 apples per 1 thing
im scared uim scared im scared
esa idj what to do
anneble
sybau
message
go away thoughts
just message\
LOOK AT THE FEEEETTTTT
im smiling im so happi w my friesian
I DECORATED MY PONI
im not gonna send a picture bc shit colour choices but idc im happi w it]
i am gonna style it maybe
im sending pictures anyway im so happi
I LOVE IT SOOO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAAAA
You know what?
Not even God can stop me
I'll like you
I'm a diamond
๋๋ฌด ์์คํ ๋ด ๋ง์์
๋๋ฅผ ๋ณผ ๋ ๋น๋ I can't
I can't stop myself
Am I selfish?
๋์น ์๋ ๋ ๋ง ๋์
์ง๊ธ ์ด ์ค๋ ์ด ํจ์ฌ
๋ ๋ด๊ฒ ์์คํด
Boy, I ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (my love)
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
Oh, my crush, that's all my wish
๋น์ด ๋๋ ์ด ์ค๋ ์ ๋ชป ์ฐธ์ง
ํ์กฐํด์ค you gotta
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
์ด์ฐจํผ ๋ ๋ด ๊ฒ, ๋ด ๊ฒ ๋ถ๋ช
๋ ๋ง๋ฆด ์ ์์๊ฑธ
ํ๋๋๋ ๋ ์ ๋ ๋ฐ ๋ค์์ง
์ข์ํด 'cause I wanna
๋๋ ์์ด๋ make me higher
๋ ์๊ธฐ๋ฉด
์์๊น? ์ด๋จ๊น? ์ด์ํ๊ฒ ๋ณผ๊น?
์์๋ง์ผ๋ก ๋ oh, cherish my love
If you, if you, if you love me or not
๊ถ๊ธํด ๋์ ๋ง
๊ณ ๋ฏผ์ 3์ด๋ง ๋ my way
๋ ๋ง์ ๋ ๋ฒ์งธ
๋ด ๊ฐ์ค๊ฐ ์ฒซ ๋ฒ์งธ
์ ๋ ๋๊น์ง ์ง์ผ, ๋ด ๊ฐ์
Boy, I ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (my love)
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
Oh, my crush, that's all my wish
๋น์ด ๋๋ ์ด ์ค๋ ์ ๋ชป ์ฐธ์ง
ํ์กฐํด์ค you gotta
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
์ด์ฐจํผ ๋ ๋ด ๊ฒ, ๋ด ๊ฒ ๋ถ๋ช
๋ ๋ง๋ฆด ์ ์์๊ฑธ
ํ๋๋๋ ๋ ์ ๋ ๋ฐ ๋ค์์ง
์ข์ํด 'cause I wanna
Cherish ์ด ์ค๋ , ๋ cherry on top
Cherish ๋ด ์์ฌ์ด ์ํด you're mine
์์ญ๋ฌ์ญ ๋์ ํ์ ์ ๊ดํ ๋ถํ์ฌ๋ผ
๋ฌด์กฐ๊ฑด ์ง์งํ ๋
Boy, I ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (my love)
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
Oh, my crush, that's all my wish
๋น์ด ๋๋ ์ด ์ค๋ ์ ๋ชป ์ฐธ์ง
ํ์กฐํด์ค you gotta
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
์ด์ฐจํผ ๋ ๋ด ๊ฒ, ๋ด ๊ฒ ๋ถ๋ช
๋ ๋ง๋ฆด ์ ์์๊ฑธ
ํ๋๋๋ ๋ ์ ๋ ๋ฐ ๋ค์์ง
์ข์ํด 'cause I wanna
I'm a diamond
๋๋ฌด ์์คํ ๋ด ๋ง์์
๋๋ฅผ ํฅํด ๋น๋
๋ค๊ฒ ๊ฑด๋ค์ค ๊ฑฐ์ผ
whos ur bias?
IM UR BIAS
its me
ME ME
!rank
eaeaeaeaeaeaea im depressed again
i hate the sound of my sister playing instruments
i wish i do more w my life
i dont do anything
ever
i cant go in my room or my depression will get so much worse
so im stuck here
i dont want to be here
i wont ever gtgtafc
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that makes me feel upset and depressed
the second i start typing my mum tells me to find something else to do
i dont want that
i dont want this
i hate my life
i hate myself
i ruin absolutely everything
for everyone
im so
depressed
im starting to cry my eyes are burning
i want to disappear
im gonna get off my laptop and go cry in my rom and read fanfics
brb
imsurprised that sent through
peakest song ever by peakest group ever
ok
what r my probles
i need to name them
im jealous and envious
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amnbatahtesih
med
tfifidhtlwbicse
my sister hating me
my own depression that happend rvery day
i cry
im not okay
iso
cant gocus on anything
i cant focus on fanfic
my issues r too big
horsi game
ejjejejejejeejejejjejejejejejjejejejjeje
domeone cut off my hands znd fingers
pleas
im not okay
ok
horsi game
itll pass soon
ok
ill go to royal and try get the donkey and andy
and ill fill up my backpack
then ill sell and go to training island
its gonna be okay
this stuff will pass
and u will be ok again
just breathe
and move on
30 more backpack spaces
i sent a message
see its ok
u dont need to be a fucking coward
im crying again
i need to stop thinking
its gonne be okay annabelle
u just need to focus on something else
it will pass
focus on something else
go
now
ill never look or feel pretty
STOP
STOP BEING UPSET
JS GO AWAY
GO DO UR FUCKKING HORSI GAME
for my sister to be happy i hae to be unhappy
im crying more i dont want to go to school tomorrow
maybe if i stay up all night and sleep in
everyone keps lying to me
12 more backpack space yayyy
6 slots left
what the- ned r u jackin' it??
kinda
im so difficult
i hate myself']
i can never do anything right
i ruin everything
i was trying
i thought i was trying
i didnt do a good job
at all
i need to try harder
i cant tho
im
somuch
its not like we were together in the first place
i cant tell her i love her im not okay
at all
im not okay at all
i want a blade
i really want a blade
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peak lyrics
this song makes me cry
i hate my life
i want my future self to be able to tell me it gets better
i thought it would get better years ago znd it still hasnt
i cant stop crying
i dont want to go to school tomorrow
i js want to cry in my bed
im not okay i dont like this
i cznt dtop sobbing
its nog anyone else that id the problem
its only me
its not like im trying harder for someone rlse
its me
illit me tuoned
ill never be good enough for myself
thzts where the problem lies
i only care about what i think
and therefore only i can help myself feel better
znd i hate myself anf dont know how to love myself
znd that will take years to heal
do ill be like this until i can be good enough for myself
whihc will probably never happen
so im always gonna be like this
i want older me to tell me its gonna be ok
only i can help myself
i hate myself
im not doing a good neough job
i need to do better
fucking hell
im the reason i look llike this
i need to do better
im crying now
its unfsir
why do i have to be like this
im so fucking gross
i could dance
that could help
im gonna do that
i danced
i feel like im gonna throw up
i think thats a good thinf
im so fucking gross jesus christ