#vent bc feelings r too much

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torn crag
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theres so mày

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i want to comit them up

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i dont want them anymore

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‘it makes u human’ well then i dont want to be human

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i want to fucking die i font want to be here anymore

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i can sneak a look when support workers r doing my medicztion

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or

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i could keep it away abd wrap it ina tissue and save it

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then take it all

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mybe i should do thag

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i do want to die

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if it gets three vites im doingut

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or maybe i should js do it

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whi cares about what others think

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im the only one that matters

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its my life

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i should get to choose

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no one deserves to kill me

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only i do

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fucking planning my death

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it would take a while

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hang on

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200mg of setraline every day

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thats

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22 days

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mum would notice if i didnt have my sertraline

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if i dont have it i turn into an unstable piecpf shot

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other than just unstable like i am now

torn crag
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whats 42 divide into 2

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ok wait 21

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omg

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rven less

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wonderful

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ok

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21 days

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worth of setraline

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lets go 22 js go be safe

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22 days

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holidays are 18 days

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if i start tomorrow i can do it by the end of the holidays

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i need to get better at masking so i dont look like i havent had my sertraline

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my memory turns to shit when i dont have itbc fuckign everything traulatises me when im like that

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i cant remember how long it took for the effects to start

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when i overdose the egfects take about two or three hours

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i can do that

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im not takikg my sertraline tmr

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its decided

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ill start saving it up

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i cant do this shit im getting my fucking blade

torn crag
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im crying now

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i fucking hatemyself

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im saving up my sertraline i dont fucking care

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im crying si hard

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i heary dad outside

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hes talking an dlaughing

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i dont liek this

torn crag
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it just confirms that i have no one

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i have one of the ugliest mbtis

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istp

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😭😭😭

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this does wonder for my confidence and self esteem

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it made me start ceying again

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im so fucking sensetive

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ugly whore

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im so alone

torn crag
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i was really proud of this drawing

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i didnt get the reaction i wanted so now i feel like its shit

torn crag
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something else

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it made me feel alone

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im crying at the thoight of it too

torn crag
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i feel said

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she doesnt like me

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she doesnt trust me

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i dont think im good enough

torn crag
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i cry

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i cry

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i cry

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im alone

torn crag
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sertraline my beloved

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save up to 4200 setraline and overdose

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if anyones wondering

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i didnt overdose

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i didnt take my meds today tho

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currently the sertraline is sitting in my bef

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im gonna keep collecting it tho

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just incase

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i have a jeadcuave

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im having fun on star stable tho

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ignore the quality

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i shoudl drink water

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im too dcared to message her

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i think she hates me

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i want to let her message other people

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IT THE EDG HORSE INTO THE THING

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IT HAS ALL MY TACK ON IT

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HELP ME

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my horse is so pretty

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girlfriend chose this one to level ip

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i love friesians

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IMCRYING THIS UODATE US SO PEAK

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I HAVE A VIDEO OF CLUBS SOING DRESSAGE WITH THE JUMPY PONIES

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ITS SO FUNNY HELP

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I LOVZ IT SO MUCH

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i think i feel guilty

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my mums buying me lots of stuff bc im going to jacaranda place

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im scared to share it zll because i dont wznt to seem like

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likr a bad person

torn crag
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i trued to vomit

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i feel so fat

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and gross

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also being fat is only a bad thing when it comes ot myself to whoever is readint his

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im fuckikg narcistic or soething and everything is about me

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idk

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but

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i feel so fucking cross

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and i hate it

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i shouldnt have eaten so much

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i had three and a bit slices of pizza

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it was too much

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i feel so gross

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i dont like

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i vomited

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but not alot

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and there was a bit too much blood

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and i hurt my knuckle grim my teeth rubbing against ut

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i feel so gross

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i dont want to eat

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i need to get better at saying no to food

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atleast when im at jacaranda place i wont have to eat

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itll be easier to have nothing

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i think i can do that

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hopefully i can get down to the fiftys

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im sorry pookie but i cant message

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im like

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too dudtressed

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i cant

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my head hurts

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i think its because i vomited i now have a headache

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im gonna cry

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i cant do anything

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im ugly anf wirthless

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and useless

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i cant fucking do anything

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im 14

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and i cznt think of a single achievment ive ever had

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theres nothing impressive about me

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i saw a tiktok that said that insecure people r the modt nzrciidtic people to exist

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its true

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i am a narcicidt

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i am horible

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i have no redeeing qualities

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im horrible

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im the wordt person to ever exist

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im so gross

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and disgusting

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im so sad

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i said i wasnt going to overdose again

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im gonna keep keeping my sertraline

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just incase

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so i can finzlly fucking die

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theres nothing goof about me

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and i keep tzlking about myself

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which just proves how horrible i am

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but this is my vent

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i should be allowed to talk about my problems

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but im a horrible person for talking about my problems

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i should be caring for others

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and not thinking about myself all the time

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and stop putting myself first

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if i do that people wont like me

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im sobbing now

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i can feel my dtomach

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ilam

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im so gross

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im so disgusting

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i cant handle this

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im so fucking gross

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i dont want to be alive

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im crying even harder now

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i thought i blocked him

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how did he get accesss to my nupber again

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im in so much pain

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i dont want him to message me

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i dont fukcing like this

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im crying so hard

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i dont like being alive

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i want to timeskip to when i have enough sertraline

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where did i put my 200mg

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i js need 4000 more now

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if thats 200 a day

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hang on i need my calculaot

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r

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20 more days

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i csn keep sh to keep me going until then

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i have one new one

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i think one of the teacher aids at school accoddntally saw it

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i hope he didnt

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i dont want my mum to know i still have a blade

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i dont like thinking about my body

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every time i do i start uncontrollably crying

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im thinking about food and its making me wznt to throw up

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i wont have to worry about this soon

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i wont have to worry about anything soon

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im fake

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i dont actually have anything wrong with me

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im a poser

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everyone around me jas actual problems

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i dont

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im js pretending

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the tears are slow now

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but still there

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ew

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i gross myself out w these words

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it makes me want to sh

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that distresses le

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why did u do that

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i want to open it w her

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but i need happiness

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i realy fucking need it right now

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to keep me from slitting my wrists

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mamihlapinatapai

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i started uzumaki tosay and also finished it today

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i didnr do any school work

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i relate to shuichi

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i feel gross

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i cant even drink wtaer

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i csn only taste and feel salt

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ive had so much salt its all i can taste

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i want water so bad

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but im so full i cant

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dreidel dreidel dreidl

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if i was in a rubber room i would genuinely dance and sing

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ir would be kind of freeing

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like its kind of all i want in life

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jesus christ theres so much salt

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i feel like the salt is all im breathing in

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i hate the soubd of a trumpet

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it reminds me of my dad

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i hate it

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stfu chloe

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ill beat ur head in

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i feel guilty now

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quora lowkey so helpful

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i heart quora

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im crying so hard

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my mym wont let me open my illit doll

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i told her i needed some happineds znd is till said now

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and she still said no*

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whoch is ok

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like im not beong sarcastuc and i dont blame her

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its ok

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but i need some happiness

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in something

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im in so much pain

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i need something to make me hapy

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its all me

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its actually all my fault

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im not exxagerating

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its actually all my fault

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its actually all my fault

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im crying so hard

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i hste tjis

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i js like stop sobbing to say a south park quote

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ew

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cringe master

torn crag
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shes happy

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im happh

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i love her

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so much

torn crag
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torn crag
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63.9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SCREAMING

torn crag
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i thought she was asleep but shes still online

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she doesnt want to galk to me

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thats ok

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ill be ok by myself

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im sad

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im trying not to cry

torn crag
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i em eating chocolate

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none of its really that good

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ill have water instead

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im not having dinner tonight

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i already decidied

torn crag
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im crying so hard

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i cant stop crying

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i want to fucking due

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die

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i just want to ducking die

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someone kill me

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please

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i bought the shoes

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but the backs arent black

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and i didng know

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and i soent 8000 on them

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im gonna fucking nill mysle

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fplease someone kill me

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im sobbing go tintok

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i cant stop crying

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and im venting to her

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im putting all my weight on her

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im a bad perosn

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its all my fault

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im making her feel bad

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i cant stop crying

torn crag
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shes teying to get rid of me

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she doesnt want to talk to me anymore

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i cause her too much stress

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she wants me to sleep so she doesnt have the pressure to talk to me

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if i shut down znd not talk then she will stress more

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mayb i should js say ill go to sleep

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i dont wanr her to feel pressured to talk to me

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its a lie

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she doesnt actually want to talk to me

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im boring

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and depressed

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and constantly not okay

torn crag
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im trying not to cry

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im so alone

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im a horrible person

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i just need to keeo playing my star stable

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but i feel like duch shit

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i font want to eb slidv

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why do i like torturing myself

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i want to rip my heart out

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it hurts so much

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i dont know why

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its lie acheing

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i dont want to see it

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i dont want to see jt

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i wont want to see it

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i dont want to see it

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i dont want to see it

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i dont want to see it

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i dont want tosee it

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i font want to see uti

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i dôt want to see it

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its causing me so much distress

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i hate

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i hate

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o hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

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i hate

torn crag
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torn crag
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vro ive gone down a rank

torn crag
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whys my mindset so toxic

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ok

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i cut

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it looks really bad

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it should be find

torn crag
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ouchies

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it hurts

torn crag
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my mym knows

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she broight me a bandaid

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i should put it on

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i out it on

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it is now safe

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i was scared i would have to get stitches

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luckily i dont think i have to

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unless i tell my mum

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then i might have to

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but i dont think i have to so we alg

torn crag
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im sad

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i know why

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but im not gonna say

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im sad tho

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mewhen i had my overdoses

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im sorry

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im a bad girlfriend

torn crag
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my mums taking away my bladeeeeeeeeeee

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i am upsetttttttttttttt

torn crag
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lwokey

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i ||ate my girlfriend out||

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😋

torn crag
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anxiety

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anxiety znd scaredbess

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im scared

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im reallt rzally scared

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my heart feels weird

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i dont think im able to message anymore

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im scared

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i kinda want to cry

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im really really scared

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i dont have my blade anymore

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i cznt cut

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i could reopen my really baf one

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i feel nauseous

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my mum brought me good

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food

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i dont think i can eat it

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i want to throw up

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i cry

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im crying

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i font know why

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i do

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but i dont at the same time

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but i cant ´ike be here

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im having my daily crashout

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i had too good of a day

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that means the crash will be really bad

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it is

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im hurting

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theres so much wrong with me

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i hate it

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im crying

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i dont like

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im just crying and doing races on dtar stavle

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its as closest as ill get to being a good rider

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im so fucking narcissistic ew

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why am i always thinning about lyself

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i take criticism so well because i know im bad at everything i do

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i keep crying and not crying

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i cant eat im gonna theow up

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i cant dtop ceying

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im sobbing so bad i cant see

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i dont want her to be dragged fown w me when shes already not feeling good

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i hate mydelf

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im gonna soend all day crying tomorroow

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i cant stop crying

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i cant stop fucking crying

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i hate myself

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im so narcistic

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i always fucking think about myself

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im horrid

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im crying so much

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i dont want to be alive

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i want to bea good perosn

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its so hard

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its not true

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noen of it

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nothing goes righr for me

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why am i so

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always about me

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why

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am i like thid

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i just want to iverdose and die

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my mym had to watch me take my medicstoon now bc she found my stash bc she cleaned my bed

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now i have no chance

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i xant to fucking end it

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i cznt handle any of thid

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im so much

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im so much

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i cznt handle this

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i want to fucking die

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i dont like being alive

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i donr want to be alive anymore

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i want to die

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im do alone

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i ahveno one

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absolutely no one

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i will never have anyone

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im invisble

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and tol much to handle

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im so invisible

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im just

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there

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a bacjground character

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in everyones lives

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thatd ok

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ill die soon

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and be replaced

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thats ok

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i dont want ro be alive anymore

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i relaly rzlaly dont

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my mum hates me

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my sister hatede

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my girlfriend hates me

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my friends hate me

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i ahve no support

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i have no one

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i have my dogs

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bur theyre not enough

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im sorey molly and bonnie

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im relaly soeey

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i do t want to be alive anymlre

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i dont want to be alive anymore

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i dont want to be alive anymore

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i dont want to be alive anymore

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i dont want to be alive anymore

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i dont want to ve alive anymore

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im so thankful for my puppy bonnie

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im sobbing so hard i csnt breathe

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and she cuddles up next to me and keeps her breathing stable so i csn clam down

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i havent fully clamed dow’

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i still am fidnign it hard to breathe

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but shes still with me

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she keeps me safe

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she protects me

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i cannot breathe i cannot breathe i cannot breathe

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someone said to me do not die

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ill try

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ill try

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bonnie will protect me

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shes my good baby

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my myms leaving the house i think

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when shes gone i can scream

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i can scream and cry when shes gone

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i dont care about my sidter

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i need to scream

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iml wait until my myms gone

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sleeping baby pictures for everyone

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im shaking so much

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can my mum leave

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i need to scream

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so desperately

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my sisters laughing with her friends on call

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i can never be that ahppy

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im alone

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i need to screa

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please leave

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i can silentlt screa

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im shaking

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so much

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i need to scream

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cringe ass mf

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im scared im not supposed to be on my pgone

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i dont care if my myms gone im gonna scream

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my throat huets now

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bonnie please save me

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i dont want to be human

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good thing im going to a mental indtitution in two weeks

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i

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cant

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fucking

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handle

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this

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i cant

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i physiclaly fucking cant

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i cant

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bonnie sqve me please

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shes curling up with me

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my mum was walkibg up the hallway and she came closer to me

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she wont save me

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shes a dog she cant

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i started ceying really loudly znd bonnie came over and curled up and licked my tears znd snot away

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baby bonnie good puppy

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me 🤝 yozo oba (minus the sexism)

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i keep crying

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she will look after me

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bonnie always does

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she always protects me

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she stull loves me even when i cznt get out of bed

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she comes in z’d vidits me when i cant get out of bed

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when she wants to sleep she comed znd sleeps next to me in my bed

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she still loves me even when i cznt play or walk or train her

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she still offers the toy all the time

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and tsoetimes she brings it into my bed so im able to play with her

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she loves me even when im not a good person

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dhe still comes to me and loved me

torn crag
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i relate to it sm

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on an unhealthy level

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i want to vomit up my misfortunes

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i have so many

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i dont want them anymore

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‘it makes you you!’ well then i dont want to be me

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if carrying all these misfortunes makes me ME i dont WSNT to br me

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bonnie still looking after me

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she licks away the tears

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and she hugs me when i get a tone with her

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im so much of a burden

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i want to timeskip

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i dont want to be where i am now

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im still ceying but i think ive cslmed down

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my mym

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told me thzt if i like lying do much i dhould go live with my dad

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dhe says that alot because she knows it hits hard

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if i had to live with him

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i would actually woman up and off myself

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i cant handle it

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im crying more at the thoight of it

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i need to stop ceying ive used all my tisdues

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my mums back

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idk what to do

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i want south park back on

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i need comfort

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bobis still with me atleast

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my fluffy puppy

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i dont want to live w my dzd

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i dont want t live w mt dad

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i really really dont

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i relaly dont

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i really dreal’t doe

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im crying i need to not cry ive run out of tissues

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i have both my babies with me

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they trust me

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i cannot find my headphones

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im goinf to use my old ones

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im going go watch coraline

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so i dont rip my eyed out

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or tear open old cuts

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im wat cj inf coraline

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i have to use my new headphones it feels odd to not use them

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sua my beloved

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i love coraline

torn crag
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im gonna fucking jill myself and its my mums fucking gault

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fuckinf hate her

torn crag
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im trying not to cry

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i dont actually have anything wrong with me

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i need another blade

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i need it

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i need to go deeper

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i need to go so deep im rushed to the hodpital

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it wasnt good enough this time

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ig nees to be better

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i only got it taped today because we waited for dayd si i couldnt get dtitches bc it took do long

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my girlfriend has vlades

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maybe i can try get her to give dome to me

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i need them

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i need something to be wrong with me

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to justify my issues

torn crag
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imsofuciffnndagat

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im so senstivie

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whats fucking wrong with me

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i wqng to die i relaly want to die

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i dong like this

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i eat too much

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torn crag
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she spied on our lives through the little dolls eyes

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and saw that we were unhappy

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she said she loved us

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but she locked us here

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and ate up our lives

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i dont want to be a bad person

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i am

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but i really dont want to

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why arent you LISTENING TO ME

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because youre CRAZY

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someone turn me into a doll

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i just want to sit there

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not think

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not feel

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how do i do a lobotomy

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ik its a wholeass meme now

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but they genuinely look like they would help with my problems

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i need another blade

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i really need another blade

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i need one so bad

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ill ask my girlfriend if she czn get me one

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i need one do fucking bad

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i want my mouth stitched shut

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i want my nose sitched shut too

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i dont actually have any problems

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i dont know why im like this

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im just fake

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im not real

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i inow im cringe cor this but im no longer human

torn crag
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i think she hates me

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cry

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i need a blade

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i dont like cherry coke

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velvet plinth
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cherry coke is the root of all evil

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im not ill enough

torn crag
torn crag
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im so

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icky

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i can barely type

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i just want to cry

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im so

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done

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i cry

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om crying now

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im so difficult

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i take and never give

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im so

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exhausted

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i dont wanr to be alive

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my mym has to watch me tzke my medicayion now so i cant kepe collecting it to overdose

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i wish i hadnt gon to scarketts w liam

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it was js so much more exhausting

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i shouldnt have eaten so much

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im so full

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i think ive got traula from that

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thatd do pathetic

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i want to collapse

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and be

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like

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jelly

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not existing

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im horrible

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im a horribke persin

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im a horrible girlfriend

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someone do thid to me

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im so sad

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why am i such a bad person

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im not caring at zll

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imso horrible

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im crying

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im so alone

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i deserve to be alone

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im so horrible

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i want to disappear

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no one will miss me

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it wont actually affect anyone

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theyll all get over it

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it might affect them for a month or two but after that theyll be fine

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maybe i dhould cut everyone off

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unfriend everyone

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never talk to anyone again

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just

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didappear

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i cry

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why am i so mean

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why am i so inconsiderate

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why am i so narcisstic

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!ranj

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!rank

fleet wyvernBOT
torn crag
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im a failure

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i should cut everyone off and never talk to anyone ahain

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i dont need friends

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liam still hasnt friended me abck

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he wouldnt have forgotten

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hes not that type of person

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hes js choosing not to

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i want to collapse and never get ip

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its all fake

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none of its real

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nothing is genuine

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everyones lying ti me

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im so sad

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i just wznt to bleed

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its making me cry more

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im not able to do ut

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i just want to bleed

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i need a blade so bzd

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i should ask her for one

torn crag
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its teue

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she does hate me

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i didng want to face it

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she doesnt need me

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she has other people

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she doesnt need me

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maybe this id the end

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i shouldve known it would end like this

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she has others

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she doesnt need me

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its ok

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shes got jia and addi

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thats enough

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and fashion pookie

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she really doesnt need me

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like actually

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she doesnt actually need me

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im sure she doesnt wznt me either

torn crag
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im so fucking

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ew

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ew ew ew

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im not having dinner

torn crag
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shes either asleep or hates me

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im so fucked

torn crag
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im cry

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im crying

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why am i crying

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i want to kill myself

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i dont want to br alive

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i really dont

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i dont want to be alive

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i really really really dont

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im ceying

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im crying

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im so horrible why is this affecting me so much

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im not even go be there anywhere

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its making me panicc

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i need to put my phone down

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just pit it fown

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go away

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just i need to go away

torn crag
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i think im js sad that i dont have snyone

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it makes me envious

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like im happy for her

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so much so so so happi

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bur im also sad i dont have anyone

torn crag
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does she want to get rid of me

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i think she does

torn crag
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im js really sad

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i dong know why

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i have no energy im so sad

torn crag
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i think she hates me

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i did fhe wrong thing

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it was annaccidnt and i didnt know the ohtcome would be what it is but i shouldve expected something leike this wouodve happened

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its all my fault

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i shouldnt have done that

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i thought they would like it

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and it was funny

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but now they think im in danger

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and they r like shirting on it

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and now sh ehates me

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and im probably gonna be the reason

torn crag
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i dôr have anyone

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i have no friends

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i have no one

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i will nevee have anyone

torn crag
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it is my fault

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its also my fault that im alone

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people dont like me theyre js masking

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i shouldnt take it to heart as much as i do but i cant help it

torn crag
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my fucking eye hurts

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im gonna play roblox

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maybe it will make me feel better

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none of its true

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its all a lie

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i want to cut myself please

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i cznt stop crying

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it wont let me into riblox

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i want to kill myself

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im gonnaa sk for one of he rbalded

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then im slitting my wrists as soon as my mym is askeep

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why wont it work

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i cznt stop crying

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i want to hzng myslef

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i wznt to leave

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i dont want to be alive

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i dont want to be alive

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someone fuckifn kill me

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please fukcing kill me

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imissed it

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i missed the fucking cat

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im useless

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i dont wanna be aliveee

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im sobbing my fucking eyes out

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its all my fucking fault

torn crag
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im actually so alone

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im crying again

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im so alone

torn crag
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gonna fuckif hng msyelf

torn crag
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its jelaousy

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nothign goes right for me

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im starting to cry and im in the fucking car

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im not gonna be able to talk to maggie

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im js gonna play the game the whole tome

torn crag
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im crying and watching heeroz compilations

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i love them

torn crag
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lies

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its not true

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shes lying to me

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its a lie

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i know it is

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but its ok

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im ok

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ill be ok

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ive got illit

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i love them

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ill probably cry when i get home

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but thats okay

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i have illit

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i love illit

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i can trust them

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theyll never make me feel upset

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does this sound parasoxisl

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i still dont know the full meaning behidn that wird

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but idc im taking zvery bit of happiness i can get at this point no matter where its from

torn crag
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i dont xant it ever again

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no sleepovers

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nothing

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i dont want anyone

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i just beed to stay in my bed

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all day

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forever

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i cznt leave

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i ahve no use

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im a horribke rider

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i live a horrible life

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i have no chance

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in this world

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i have to wait to kilk myself

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until then ill just stay in my bed

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and watch south park all day

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refuse to leave

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eventually go back to oublic school

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start getting hooked on drugs znd alcohol

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and die of an overdose that way

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perfevt plan

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i cant stop crying

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i need a fucking blade

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please

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someone

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i want to fir

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i really teally want to

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i cant figure out how

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no one i know has a pool

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i coulf always find a random person ont he streets pull

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FUCK IFF

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UR LYING TO ME

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UR FUKIN LYING TO ME

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U RLYING TO ME

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ITS ALL A LIE

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STOP LYING TO ME

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I CANT HANDLE THIS

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SHES LYING TO ME

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SHES LYING

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SHES FUCKING LYING TO ME

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i cant let her know i know

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atleast not now

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because im tokf uxking mych for her

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maybe tabts why shes lying to me

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im too much

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too much of a burden

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i have so many problems

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i need to fucking did

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die

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i asked for help dying in the vent channel

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hopefullt someone will help

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itll be okay

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someone will reply

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they will help me out

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and then i can be gone

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finally

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gone

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give people time

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it will be okzy

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maybe someone will help

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hopefully

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we keep our hopes up

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its all a lie

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none of it is trye

torn crag
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i want to do stuff i like

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it never works out\

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or i dont do a good job

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i dont want to give up horse riding

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but maybe i should

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imnot good at it

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i probably wont improve

torn crag
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oh

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yikes

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im

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actually alone now

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i have my mum

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my girlfriend

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thats it

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thats all i ave

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my sister doesnt want to be my sister anymore

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i dont blame her but it still hurts

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if i was her i wouldve done this much sooner

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its ok

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ill be at jacaranda place in es than a week

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thenshe wont have to see me very often

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im js gonna

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not leave my room i dont think

torn crag
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she hates me

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my mum hates me

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she hates me

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i dnt have a sister anymore

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i think i still have scarlett

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but i dont see her much or talk to her much]

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im doing a thing w zoey tonight

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i dont want to

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i want to stay in bed and cry

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i dont want to

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just stop messaging

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ur alone anyway

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stop trying to make it seem like u have someone

torn crag
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i couodve done so luch more

torn crag
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i need to not put tuff on her anymore

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even if she says she wants to know

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i need to stop

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im not doing either of us any good

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im so gross

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she hates me

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i hate me

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e veryne hates me

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so ew

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i shouldnt do anything ever again