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earnest scarab Feb 21, 2026, 1:14 AM

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letme he harsh

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HARUHI

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imourn it

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is it bad that if a genie came and asked me for my 3 wishes it would only be to be in ohshc as haruhi

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like

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oh hawd

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season 2 pls come

earnest scarab Feb 21, 2026, 10:17 PM

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so i blocked them

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i

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i don’t know what to say

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my friend convinced me to

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i can’t

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i regret it so bad

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imsorru

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i regret it

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pls

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fuck

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so bad

terse fern Feb 22, 2026, 2:35 AM

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do u want me to give u some space?

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im sorry im not good with relationships

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me?

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ill give you some space

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just so yk im not tryna ignore u

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i just forgot abt discord

earnest scarab Feb 23, 2026, 12:01 AM

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yeah ok

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i got into therapy Ithink

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well

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initial consultation is gonna get planned

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it was kinda hard to ask

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i just sort of blurted out can i get into therapy

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and she said yes

terse fern Feb 23, 2026, 2:07 AM

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thats good

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therapy can help alot

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idk abt suicidal thoughts tho

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i think u might need a hotline for that

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sry to make this abt me but i got my new duck todayy

earnest scarab Feb 23, 2026, 11:20 AM

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that’s cool but i set the reply sets for no replies on this now

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she helps with those thoughts too the woman that i’m gonna meet

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https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1462845673757212854/1474168343954194535/FF377F40-DA9D-414A-807D-A456EA0D24C4.gif

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theygot together i hustwanna cuttTtt Ohmygod

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iwllstart haahhahHjj

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fuckck

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Imgonnatjrowup

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icnat do english now

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how am i meant to

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idontfeel well ohgawd

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icant even text my ma cause she left her phone at the garage

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so she won’t see it

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idont wanna go

earnest scarab Feb 25, 2026, 5:13 PM

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i don’t wanna go back to public school

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this month is just pure hell

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i’ll be guaranteed a fail if i go back to public

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i wanna pass i do

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but my motivation is literally gone

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and i’m stupid as hell

earnest scarab Feb 25, 2026, 5:34 PM

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i wouldn’t even mind going back to it to be fair

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like

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i wish i could restart secondary school

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i don’t fit in anywhere

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it’s hard to socialise

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if i go back im gonna be lonely and dumb and DEFnot pass!!!hahahahahhaj i can’t be ugly anddumb this isn’t fair

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my friend who is in y7 is in top set

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like

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oh yeah she enjoys doing her maths homework hahahahahah

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it’s so unfair

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i just wanna be likeable

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i wanna make friends

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i wanna be pretty

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if i was pretty i would have so many even if i had to force myself to be social

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i would like to go back to my old school

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but no

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it’s impossible for me to go back there

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nobody likes me there

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i liked that uniform too

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i don’t even know what i wanna do in the future

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nothing

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oh yeah this year / month specifically i lose all motivation haven’t given in any of my homework or revised in over 3 months

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then i block people thinking it will make me happier and cause its for my own sake

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no

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it feels worse

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i don’t even know basic subtraction

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well

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Ok but it takes me awhile

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to do it

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there’s this study homework help group on wednesdays 9-12.15

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did i say i would go

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yes

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is it free

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yes

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is it only 3 sessions

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yes

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did i go

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no

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“blabla and blabla were very disappointed because they had so much stuff ready for one on one”

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yeah

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causeall i do is disappoint people

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it’s not even one on one

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it’s lit a group

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i hate silence

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i hate being talked to about the work because it’s probably the easiest question and people can hear me needing help on that

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exams in 3 months

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god

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and my therapy sessions r gonna be 50 mins after monday lessons which are 9-1.30

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i feel like such a waste of space

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i feel bad for my mom

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she could’ve had a passionate outgoing, social and smart child

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but no

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i wanna curl up in a ball on my bed and sleep forever with my phone

earnest scarab Feb 25, 2026, 5:45 PM

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earnest scarab oh yeah this year / month specifically i lose all motivation haven’t given in an...

and 1st therapy session this monday i’m kinda scared

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and i got told that my eyesight is concerning

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and i’m going to the doctors soon cause of how lazy and demotivated i am

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“maybe something to do with you not going outside or vitamin stuff”

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can i live in peace

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just kill me actually

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i tried studying

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i was gonna do my maths workbook for 3 hours

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but no my mom has to come down after her zoom meeting talking about how we look at colleges and stuff

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i’m 14 can u stop

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maybe i should just end it already

earnest scarab Feb 26, 2026, 3:47 PM

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earnest scarab “blabla and blabla were very disappointed because they had so much stuff ready f...

i actually wish i went

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one of the reasons i didn’t go is because i don’t like being talked to about problems in a quiet room cause i believe ppl wil think im dumb

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MY FRIEND WENT THERE

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AND SHE WAS ALL BY HERSELF

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BRO

earnest scarab Feb 27, 2026, 10:07 PM

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ihate sounding young

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whyam i being bullied for my age role

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ihate being sensitive why am i sobbing over this

earnest scarab Mar 1, 2026, 10:58 AM

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i hate this song so much

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well i don’t hate it

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i love it

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maybe a bit too much

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i barely listened to it when we were friends

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but it reminds me of how our friendship sounded

earnest scarab Mar 2, 2026, 11:27 PM

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i had my first therapy session today

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they r 50 mins long

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and holy it went by fast

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i communicate better when i’m ranting

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and like it’s calm

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not in a tense room or stuff

earnest scarab Mar 5, 2026, 5:08 PM

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i really don’t care if some people get sent threats

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like

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prodarkshippers

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nd that

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the other weirdos

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they can get more for all i care

earnest scarab Mar 7, 2026, 2:49 PM

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“do i creep u out” but its me getting overwhelmed when two people r messaging me at the same time

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gosh

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it actually makes me stressed for no reason

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i miss my soulmate so bad

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he made me so happy

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i’ve never felt like that before

earnest scarab Mar 9, 2026, 11:08 AM

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i’m so pissed

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like

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ok

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i just got out of maths right

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and like 10 mins before it ended we got given our report

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which gets given like every 30 weeks

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and

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i can’t omf

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“she has the potential to secure a pass”

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yeah

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ok

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i’m killing myself

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genuinely

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why am i so dumb

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“she’s beginning to get the basic concept of yadadqdq”

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yeah

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okimgonna relapse

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why do i have to be so dumb

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why can’t i enjoy studying

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whyam i so stupidohmy god

earnest scarab Mar 10, 2026, 1:00 PM

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my friend isn’t coming to the study group tmrw cause they finished all the homework they got set

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lowk im only going there to have fun with them

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bro

earnest scarab Mar 12, 2026, 2:11 PM

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my ma bought me a mic yay

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it’s coming tomorrow or saturday

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not like i have anybody who likes calling with me sigh so why do i bother

earnest scarab Mar 13, 2026, 11:48 PM

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why would i care if my voice gets mocked

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haha

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did i get the mic just because of my voice

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yes

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did i get too comfortable and got ‘joking’ threats

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yes

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‘shut up ur singing is horrible’

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okay

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i can’t

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omsobbing this isn’t fair

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i do all these things to get liked

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but i’m too annoying

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what’s the point in staying close to anybody

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if i get too comfortable then i get annoying

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is it js me

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like

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just me entirely

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i let my true personality show and suddenly i’m annoying

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i miss him

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he stayed

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he didn’t care

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but now he’s gone

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it’s been over a year i need to get over him

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why can i never find love

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genuinely

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maybe i’m not made for love

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i want a relationship

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i hate this

earnest scarab Mar 16, 2026, 8:41 PM

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i want to live in a big house

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in the countryside

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in the spring

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with a nice big garden

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with a swing that looks out at hills

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i want wispy transparent ish white curtains

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i want a kitchen with a window ahead so i can see the garden when im making stuff

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i want a grey striped cat with green eyes

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i want a dog

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a golden Labrador that runs around happily

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a small village i would accept

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a nice one

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where it’s a small community and everybody is kind to each other

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where i don’t need to worry about a job

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where i don’t need to worry about communicating with anybody

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no phone

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i want to smell coffee from my kitchen

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it will be nice and wood

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i want my bedroom to be fairly large

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with sage green striped bedsheets with white ruffles around the edges

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bed set

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or a light yellow one

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and i can eat all the mango sorbet i want

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listening to music

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eating jam toast as i sit down at the square wooden table with four seats but only i sit there

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i can hangout with people in the village if i want

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a square where small cafes and shops are

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and houses fairly far

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my house being the only one on a side

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on the right

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i think

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and the others can live on the other side down the road

earnest scarab Mar 16, 2026, 11:44 PM

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i miss him so much it hurts

earnest scarab Mar 17, 2026, 3:24 AM

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i feel paranoid

earnest scarab Mar 17, 2026, 3:53 PM

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i hate my mom sometimes and i know im probably sensitive but she’s planning on selling our house (she’s been saying it for years). Our house is cluttered as hell because she hoards everything and i’m so frustrated right now, she bought 2 couches for ‘decoration’ when someone comes to take pictures. she chooses a ugly colour for her new ‘kitchen’ she’s putting in and says she takes me and my sisters opinions to account but she never seems to care. It sucks so much living in a house where i can’t walk into the living room without hitting my knee on something. Our house will never get sold and im getting so sick of her

earnest scarab Mar 23, 2026, 4:35 PM

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ugh

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i met this guy and he’s funny as hell

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and i went to therapy today right

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and told her ab him

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saying “oh i js worry about waking up blocked”

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i come back home and he’s acting weird

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dude

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i’m gonna throw up

earnest scarab Mar 23, 2026, 10:22 PM

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i wish somebody would stay

earnest scarab Mar 23, 2026, 10:22 PM

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earnest scarab i come back home and he’s acting weird

i mean i asked if we can call today

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“yes i hope” or wtv

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over 4 hours ago

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lol

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“do u want to”

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“ofc i do”

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then

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why

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I don’t want to ask

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i feel sick

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ok i feel too sensitive but he deleted specific reposts too

earnest scarab Mar 23, 2026, 11:20 PM

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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idk

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i think like

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when i get attached to somebody

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i wanna call them every day

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and when i don’t

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i just think “oh they hate me”

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and stuff

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nd it makes me overthink

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but ykw

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we made a spotify playlist like

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2 days in

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1?

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idk

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it’s my main playlist nd he said it’s his main now

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and silence on call isn’t even uncomfortable

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look how pretty reze is

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UM

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but

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cus it’s like wow he’s heard of montell fish before

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which i was SO SUPRISED

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when i heard

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cause i’ve always suggested montell to somebody

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and i love you by fonaines d.c he knows

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DUE WE LIT HAVE THE SAME MUSIC TASTE

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LIKE

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i don’t hate a single song in the playlist

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sure i’ll skip songs if i don’t feel like it

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but i don’t hate any

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the thing is

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lloke

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i’ve never face revealed to somebody without a filter on

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specifically that one wolf fox thingy on snapchat

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i’m genuinely so chopped

earnest scarab Mar 25, 2026, 1:52 PM

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dude

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why can’t my family be normal

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my sister went to egypt for 6 days with her friend right

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and her and her friend had like a disagreement cause the friend was late to the airport and wouldn’t get up or something

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and

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she came back today

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nd my ma and her are arguing

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because my sister is already stressed enough as it is

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she hasn’t got a stable job

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she’s pregnant

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the house is a mess

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like

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ugh

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and while she was gone my ma was meant to sort out her room

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cause she was gonna move into the living room

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becaus she pregnant and the room upstairs is too small

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i feel so bad for her

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thy argued about how my sister wants my ma to write her a letter or something that told her to get out of the house in 2 weeks

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something with the council helping her get a flat

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but th thing is

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it’s literally mainly just the house

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if our mom actually locked in cause dude it hasn’t been clean for over 7 years

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and i’m so tired of it

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no room in this house is clean

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1 room has carpet

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the bathroom is too small and there’s trash bags in there all the time

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there’s random shit in the kitchen

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why can’t i just grow up in a clean house

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i want the best for my sister

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but the thing is with my mom like

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she says that she’ll clean a room (like focusing on the kitchen or living room for example)

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then only moves rhe stuff to another room

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and doesn’t actually do anything

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or she’s switching around all the time and nothing is happening

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she keeps talking about how she’s gonna move out but doesn’t do anything

earnest scarab Apr 2, 2026, 3:30 PM

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wwwww

earnest scarab Apr 8, 2026, 4:36 PM

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being left on delivered is so fucking tiring

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you’ll post shit on ur story and i’ve been left on sent since 3am

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i’m not even attached anymore it just pisses me off

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ive had so many urges to block but i doubt it cause what if i regret it heavily afterwards

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such a bitch

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god

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it’s not that hard to just reply

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if u don’t wanna reply or ur not in the mood jsut tell me even if it’s hard

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even if i dislike it

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or just full on tell me u don’t wanna be friends anymore

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he’ll text me on dc but won’t check tt

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whatever i’ll just distance

earnest scarab Apr 12, 2026, 4:51 PM

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i feel like my mom is getting sick of me

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like

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ok

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one day she was acting rlly weird but then it’s like oh she has been working the whole day

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and at her work there’s like

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no breeze

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wind at all

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and it was so hot

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so i tell her today that i threw up like 20 mins ago

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like just now i told her

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and her work isn’t like a job where she has to keep working

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and she just ignored it?

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she js said that it’s because i’ve been playing on my game too much🫰🫰😅😅😅

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then hung up

earnest scarab Apr 13, 2026, 6:37 PM

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ihav attachment to my ipad and she’s taken it away till the weekend🫰🫰🫰🫰

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imgonn relapse probably

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igenuinely can’t miss this game event i don’t care ill smash her phone if i have to

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ugh

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she doesn’t care about me anymore

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she only cares about my grades

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iwanted to just show her a drawing and she said wait till the weekend

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why are u like this i hate you

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u used to love my passion for art

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you knew i lost motivation for it and the moment i get it back u act like this

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she’s been mean the whole day

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i told my therapist about it

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ughfhhh

earnest scarab Apr 13, 2026, 6:40 PM

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earnest scarab igenuinely can’t miss this game event i don’t care ill smash her phone if i have...

i’ve waited 2 years for it aahhahahahahah she says there will be another one but there won’t be

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ok it’s whatever

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i can get it on my pc

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but i was so proud of that drawing

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and she doesn’t even care

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i want boothill

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i miss argenti

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ifidont get boothill i’m ending it i’ve waited so long

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and i waslate to his rerun

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hessaved me

earnest scarab Apr 14, 2026, 10:42 AM

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ikeel smashing my phone on the floor out of anger i fear it’s gonna break soon

earnest scarab Apr 19, 2026, 5:38 PM

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5 months without studying at all im scared to go into maths tmrw

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imnot gonna be here for much longer so i cba

earnest scarab May 14, 2026, 7:20 AM

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hello

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i am going to maths exam🥶

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i still haven’t studied at all

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so

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let’s risk it

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even tho i uhhh forget everything

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ihate liars like i was grounded for 2 or 3 days so i couldn’t play or text and my duo is playing with somebody else when i hopped back on fn and then she said to play at 8:30 sharp bur then she’s still playing roblox with her friend till she’s meant to sleep at 9

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my legs itchy

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really itchy

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only one of them which is annoying

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ifeel so controlling

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well i am

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butliek

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ufhhh

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icant help it

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i feel the need to be in control of people’s actions and jus everything

earnest scarab May 18, 2026, 11:37 PM

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i hate my sister so much bro

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she calls me selfish for everything

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i’m obviously not gonna help u putting ur bed up if u just called me selfish

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and now she js called me selfish for not wanting to put the cat in my room for the night

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IM THE ONLY ROOM WITH CARPET AND SHES OLD??

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can she just move out already i hate her so much

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she moved to the living room too so now she’s next to me

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i didn’t want to get up for the toilet last night cause i was scared she wasgonna criticise me for something

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i’m so uncomfortable around her

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sorry the cats disturbing your dog and your sleep

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but she’s a fuckingcat bro

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she’s YOUR cat

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my dogs already ruined my carpet

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