#Ken5014 Fetch Vent Corner
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I scared of dropout
No more excuses
Pls
Ok I’m done
That JavaScript project makes me go crazy
And insane
Omg I’m shit I stare at people
And idk man
What shit me
I shit my brain
lol I never contribute much shit
I feel sick of life
So shit as messed up
I’m seeking for peace
It’s bad
Like shit bad
I don’t know
I have no mood
That’s bad
That’s shit
Everything sucks
Idk something
Sometimes I don’t feel like answering questions
I should’ve put them on read yk
Idk
That’s how the human world works
And regarding group work
I’m cooked
Like I don’t know what to do
How to do
Never mind
I’m screwed
Isn’t the part that is scary
Not able to graduate
And dealing with shit
I’m stupidly stupid
I should’ve left them on read
Like not even reading the messages
Man
Even seeking for help is tough
Like no one fucking cares
Who the fuck cares
I’m just dumb
Really dumb
One shot
Lisa
Whatever
Oh my god
Omg
Yeah
Poor social skill
With people
Definitely
But not like they going to help
Like who the fuck cares
How do I deal with people
And how the hell
Am I surviving for group work
Hopefully
Hopefully yeah
Like everything innt is messed up
Everything
I should’ve been independent like almost everything
And tried out financially
Once that happen
I probably move out
I don’t know shit
I’m tired
I’m really tired
At best
Idk
Like what should I do
A few more minutes
The tutor will talk about group work
And like woah that’s bad
You see
There’s nothing
Literary nothing
What shit supposedly
My staring ocd makes things worse
Worse
I’m all alone now
And this ain’t good
Yeah feels bad
And shit
Dealing with people is hard
It’s part and parcel of life
What I pretend I didn’t know
Like what now
It’s just messed up
In the head
So what
I just get screwed over
Over and over again
What else is there left
Nothing
If I don’t get my diploma
It’s game over
It’s the end of the world
Afterwards will be dealing with people
And cure that staring problem
So many parts yeah
And it’s quite a headache
Headache
Dealing with this shit
Going through all that shit
Tried to be a normal person
But I became a abnormal person
You notice that there’s one strange kid
Then you know it’s me
Idk man
Idk how
And idk how to describe
But even if I tried
No one listens
No one cares
I should stop daydreaming
If only I could work
And have the money
I could escape from hell
That’s been the thing I wanted to achieve
I still fucking stare
I have an idea for group work
Do something simpler
So many people
Fucking hell
I’m trapped
It’s annoying af
So shit
I’m almost late
Wait
There’s no way I’m alive out of this
So many projects
And uh
I’m fucking cooked
For the English assignment
Must be persuasive
And what not
Other projects have already been stressing me out
What the hell
Man
Really sick and tired of all this shit
And that’s not fair
It’s not
And uh
I can’t deal with this shit anymore
Really fucking tried
One word
Tried
I probably think about something
I feel like people hating me (which is somewhat technically true)
Somewhat
Because of staring ocd
Getting a diploma is fucking hard ya
So difficult
Got this
And that
And it’s frustrating
And that’s so fucked up
Ya idk
Man
I’m going crazy at full speed
Pls
Pls
Clam the fuck down
Let’s see
Idk
Anymore
But ya man
How do I contribute
How?
And I’m boring
Suddenly family cares
Suddenly they ditch me
Yeah
That’s how it is
Like I can’t do anything about it
Ok I’m thinking
How do I survive
But it’s fucked up anyways
Like I don’t want to swear
To
Never mind
I can’t think
Of shit
It’s going to be hard anyways
I tried contributing
Getting tired ya

It’s bad
Like idk man
How to deal with shit
Let’s see
I come to class
But it’s awkward
I know there isn’t anything good about it
Yeah the module I’m in idt it’s useful
Like idk
I keep getting freaking distracted by my parent s
They like to distract me
Omg
So many homework
And my groupmates probably hating me
I’m cooked
Probably ignore distractions
And just focus
Focus
Otherwise I may remod
You know what I mean?
Pls help this child
Bro I’m cooked
Almost late
Omg
And my plan somehow worked
To get that diploma
But bad news is the group work
For front end
I need something to prove that the functionality works
Pls
Idk
If I’m almost there
I’m almost there
Not to remod or fail any modules for this semester
But next semester will be tough
Tough ya
My watch battery ran out
My watch died
And uh
Thanks to gen ai my coursework is ruined
It’s my fault for being too reliant on them
My plan is almost falling apart
To get the diploma
🙁
It’s bad
It’s bad
Everything is messed up
Why
Why
Why
School idk
Finding a job is tough and messed up my life
Idk if I find one
If it’s possible
Beside the retail F&B jobs
…
I can’t stand it anymore
I can’t fucking stand it anymore
Everything is like going to crash on me
Everything is going haywire
Omg
I can’t
I just fucking can’t
Deal with this shit anymore
I can’t
Idk if I should just give it up
Like give up
I put way too much pressure on myself
I keep putting pressure on myself
On my fucking self
Yeah
It’s so fucked up
It’s so shit
I know right
Who couldn’t fucking care
…
…
This is way too much
I repeat
This is way too much
I just think it’s fucking hard
It’s way too fucked up
Screwed up
Messed up
Like
Idk
Idk
I really don’t know
You know how fucked up it is
Just to get flunk out
And like
What shit am I dealing
And how am I going to deal with the shit
That shit
And it’s all messed up in the head
Idk man
I really don’t
Vro
It’s the end of the world
It’s the end of the cycle
It’s gone case
Beyond death
Yeah
I smack the bloody self on the head
Idk what to do
Idk
Way messed up
Way too messed up
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhh
I’m going. To. Take. A. Break.
If I can’t get that 5%
It’s fine and it’s fucked up
Because I’m good at flunking out
You know
Wasted my time on this shit
Even ai can’t help
And fuck
I stared at someone
Thanks to my staringocd
The person hates me now
Great
And uh
I’m idk
Idk
Im scared
I’m scared
I think uh that coursework is tough
Meant to be
And my stupid staring
Why i fucking state at people
Why
Omg
Fucking hell
Yeah
I’m fucking wasting time
Achieving nothing
And fuck that state
Stop staring at people
Omg
Fuck me
Screw
This
Crap
Of
Shit
That’s it
So sick and tired
And that staring issue
I kept staring
Now great
People won’t talk to me
And plus it’s group project
So idk
I hope I can graduate
Now have to worry about next semester
And internship
Those are the barriers
And gateways
That I need to face
Inevitable
K
And yeah
That’s sad
I
Hope the
Staring thing
Will get resolved
Like don’t stare at people
Because of the ocd
Vro
Haiz
I just hope things don’t screw up vro
And yeah
Pray hard
Idk
Idk
Don’t flunk up
Don’t stare
These 2 things are basic
Yeah
Yeah
I wish I don’t do bad things
I wish I didn’t do bad things
Pls
Pls
Pls
I know
Things may not go as planned
And like
I know
I thing
I wish
I hope
Yeah
I decided to change the fate
Of things
Some still remain as it is
I need to change myself
Because myself is bad
Real bad
I don’t care about anything else
I just want a job
That’s why to achieve this
Resolve staring issue
And do well
That’s all
I must contribute
To group work
That’s the key
And somehow Im managing to do that
Without letting my mental health affecting me
But the stupid staring ocd
Like I fucking stare at people
Needs to be resolved
Needs to go away
Like seriously
It’s not an option or choice
It’s mandatory
Like if this staring issue doesn’t exist
I would be at better stake
And better condition
Like seriously
I can’t have everything
I know
But I want my life easier
Like less fallback
You know
Like
I already faced shit
Yeah
Yeah
There’s one group work
That is hard to contribute
And im thinking how should I contribute
And that staring again
I just don’t want to fucking stare
I just don’t want to fucking stare
There are left 2 more group work that I need to think how to contribute
Then Im fucking done
Im tired
Sorry for the long rant
Man time flies fr
It does happen
And it could happen anyways
Anyway
Im tired again
Im just so fucking tired
Sorry for the longest rant
Oh god if only I can get earlier
Right now
Yeah
It’s exhausting to plan
For group work
To protect myself from group project
There’s a lot of planning
On what group work I suppose to do
And how to contribute
That’s the tricky part
To get that diploma
You think everything is easy
You wish
I also wish
But
What’s the point
Not to say it’s useless
But I don’t see anything to it
Or the point of doing it
I realised someone said what listening ear
Either they are trying to be realistic and wasting time
Or they are unhelpful
Idw to say who
It’s tiring
It getting tiring
Tbh
At this rate
At this point
Im idk
Idk what to do
When things gets tough
It always gets tough
That’s what I am
Idfk
Things aren’t going to work out
As it seem
Idw to say i repeat
It sounds cringe
And im tried again
Wow
In reality no one cares
Even if I got mental health
They except you (me) to reply
Like
Idk man
I just wish I don’t have the staring condition
I bet no one understands
And no one cares
I feel that no one has this condition
Just focus on this 2
Staring issue
Group work
That’s all
That’s final
Even if they say they are a listening ear
Idk man
That’s final
When things seem bad
They always are
That’s final
Things gone bad today
Argued with someone for group project
Some laughed
Trying to protect the things that I’m doing
Just worried they are taken away
And people say I never do much
Today is such a bad day
To do group work
Because it’s like protecting yourself
And like arguing is bad
So therefore group work is bad
And like idk man
If they not happy with me
They all complain
Idk
Im trying to do shit
And protect myself
Which is hard
Like Im assigned to do that feature
Idk
Today I did stare
I fucking stare
And forgot about the quiz
That’s why I never take notes or revise
Im that bad of an asshole
Omg
Suddenly things get tough
3 things bad today
That’s all
I hope I can pass
It looks possible now sooner
But later may not
And dam my shoe
Irritating
I wish I didn’t stare
And can contribute to group work
It looks kinda shit
For my group work
On designing the prototype
Yeah
I wish I don’t want to argue with them anymore
Im tried
Anyway
Idk
Im just really unlucky
Whatever I stepped on it breaks
I feel like this is bad
In a bad way
Like things doesn’t matter anymore
But like
I feel like things are too late as it seem
I see myself as a bad person
Ik
Yeah man
I tried to do group projects
Like 4 person work
Worth of work
Idk if that make sense
But I worry next semester will be harder
Because there may not be splitting of work
Im tired
Like yk
I can feel people talking abt me
Idk Im sick and tired
Looks tired
Maybe Im going to be late
I ordered spicy noodles
That’s bad idk
I did badly
For shit reason
I should’ve studied harder
Like my time management used to be good
Now it’s poor
Like sometimes I study
Sometimes I don’t
It’s frustrating
So it’s kinda messed up yk
My life
Like Im not good at studying
Im not good at coding
Im good at nothing
Fr
Like it not fine
It’s gone yeah
You know how messed up life can be
Like what life throws at you
And what mistakes I made
This is how I feel about life
Yk
Like I regret
I don’t want to
Idk
As
Things may get worse
As it seems
As it peek
The peak
Sam
Damm
How the hell can I survive
Idk
This seem messed
Up
Like
Holy crap
Yeah idk
Depressed as fuck
All alone again
Great
Uh
.
It doesn’t feel surreal
Idk
And uh
Idk
My mood got drained
My energy got drained
Copy paste code
I prone to type wrong code
Omg
Like why I type the code not working…
Im so stupid
Im dumb
No happy
Then whack me
Idk
I stare more than i talk
No excuses
Why they fucking laughing at me
Idk
Tired
I worried I might take a small revenge
Idk
Promise to end
Idk
My results ain’t good
And I keep staring
The ocd
That’s sad
Idk it looks like we are doing a campaign
Which is tough
And fucked up
I’m tried for this shit man
Wow sounds so tired
And like it’s so tough
And like idk man
Why we got so many of this sort of things
Start a campaign
Project work
I’m not ready for this shit man
It’s so tired man it’s so tough
Why idk
Like first staring issue
Next campaign
Next projects
Next next semester
Which is going to be tough
I’m talking about passing and not remod
Like not getting A
Even that is tough
Like I’m not so sure
I mean stay back one year may not be a big deal
Idk it’s funny
People say I got improve like after a few sessions
Like it always happens
Idk I’m like very introverted
And scared of people
I have the tendency of being scared of people
Idk man
Like this staring ocd is playing with my life
And I know I messed up with presentation
And I have to pitch the campaign
Using presentations
Idk man
So sweaty
Like shit
And like i may fumble
Shit darn it
Need to present again
I really don’t like this module
For this reason
But I have to go through it
Just to get my diploma
Like idk
For group work
I’m already keeping a record of what I contributed
And the evidence as well
Just in case
I think
Idk man
Why I can’t seem to trust people
And like myself
And like I screw things up
I think if I behave like that during internship
And suddenly improve
Isint it weird
Idk
I really have some ocd
And mental issues
Idk
I feel like I deserve this
I’m born like this
For some reason
And that ocd has to be staring
And like I’m cooked
I’m fucked up
I’m messed up
Like I mean to people it’s obvious
I can’t mask well
I used to be able to mask well
Like my issues
Idk
Like it’s so messed up
Now I’m unable to mask up
I wish I can mask
Especially during my internship
And idk yeah
They always skip me
Because why
I’m weird
Like I noticed
Yeah
Everyone makes fun of my awkwardness
Like if ur not part of them
Being abnormal
Not on purpose
Like that’s how human are
They just laugh at you
Or skip you
They see you as low level
That’s what happening in my country
Like srs
Even if it’s first class city
Behaves like that yk
First class city not health for mental health people
That’s my take
I’m so lonely
I don’t really know
I can’t
I just can’t
Like how messed up can things be
Sad
High key depression
Highkey depressed
After my results
Idk if I should cut myself
Idk
Maybe I’m talking rubbish
Sad
Troublesome
I never slept cuz I can’t sleep
And on ocd meds
So now there’s a problem
The presentation
And the need to show the cert thing
I can’t sleep over 2 consecutive days
I took some pill
For staring ocd
Mainly ocd
Really I don’t feel tired
But my brain feels tired
It’s painful
It’s a torture
Like not being able to sleep
Idk
It’s all messed up
Yeah
And it’s all gone for
Idk
It’s freaking bad
Idk what gets better
Nothing gets better
Everything seems to be worse
At it’s peek
I don’t freaking know
It’s it’s
Like it’s
So shitty bad
Idk
How bad will things become
Darn it
So shit
Idk what’s bad man
If failing seems to be an option
Idk
So many projects
So fucking depressed
Just have to tolerate for 3 more weeks
I fucking stare again
Great
And I wish to disappear
Not to be seen
If people don’t like me
I don’t join the party
I avoid them
Simple
And problem solved
But for these 3 weeks
Problem not solved
I can’t deal with shit anymore
Bro
My head is spinning
Is like headache
And like so many assignments
And projects
And deadline in like 1-2 weeks time
How am I able to cope
Idk man
I don’t want to repeat any modules
So scary
Idk
Bye
Tired
Bro
Can’t sleep again for 1 day
Stop meds
Stop pills
May relapse
Idk
Like the assignments are much
And the tiredness are much
And it’s going to last for 3 weeks
I hope I can bear with it
Vro
Quite bad yeah
Thanks to that staring ocd
And the mess i made
For my brain to be wired up
…
Left 3 weeks
Hang in there
Idk if I die halfway
…
I worry next Semester I won’t do so well
I’m worried af
lol they asked me to chill
I’m tried
Lack of sleep
Thanks to staring ocd
Like seriously
Ohh
Haiz
Don’t know if I get kicked out
So sick of life
Everything is falling
Everything is falling apart
This is falling
Everything is falling apart
We are complicated
Idk
Oh damn
They locked the doors and the access card ain’t working
I’m literally like tired
My brain hurts without the meds
I feel terrible
I’m can’t
Idk
I drank alcohol
Yeah
It’s shit man
Like how many more
Darn it
When I’m scared I stared at people
Sigh
Haiz
Idk
And like
3 more projects to go
1 presentation slides done
1 project done
2 projects half done
1 project haven’t started yet
Deadlines are crazy
Gosh
Yeah
Gosh
Ikr
I didn’t believe I could survive
Like having a group
And contribute
Idk it’s possible
But I still ain’t confident
And idk if convince is the right word to use
Like it’s funny as shit
Cuz it is
And so tired
As hell
Lmao
Not funny
But yeah
You get the idea
Hopefully
Staring issue
Undue projects
Deadline is closer and nearer
In 3 weeks time
Idk if I could survive
And
Like access denied
And idk
My head is just tired
My head is just spinning
lol so tired
And tired
And tired again
Know how tired I am
Waiting outside
So tired
So tried
Bruh
Like so hard to contribute shit stuff
Like I’m giddy
And like I try my best
Idk
Looks weird
Tired af
And I stare
Maybe I’m scared
Like a pussy
Like stop staring
Thanks to the staring
People will hate me
Idk
Really darn freaking tired
Idk
Like my progress and process is more and more worse
Idk why
I feel that way
I feel it
Like it’s going to be break
Idk
I feel like fuck up
I’m scared
Idk myself
Anymore
Idk what to do
And like
Wtf
I can’t
I just can’t
It’s so fucking tried
Tired
And I’m so fucking weird
I have a constant feeling of it
Because I fucking stare at people
Stop
Just stop fucking stare at people
I know that you are curious
I know you are stressed
I know you are scared but
Ken5014
Stop fucking stare at people
No one likes that
And uh
That’s all