#Ken5014 Fetch Vent Corner

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pale moth
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I do crazy shit

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I scared of dropout

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No more excuses

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Pls

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Ok I’m done

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That JavaScript project makes me go crazy

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And insane

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Omg I’m shit I stare at people

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And idk man

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What shit me

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I shit my brain

pale moth
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I’m really tired with dealing with people

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And answer people questions

pale moth
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lol I never contribute much shit

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I feel sick of life

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So shit as messed up

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I’m seeking for peace

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It’s bad

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Like shit bad

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I don’t know

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I have no mood

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That’s bad

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That’s shit

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Everything sucks

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Idk something

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Sometimes I don’t feel like answering questions

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I should’ve put them on read yk

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Idk

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That’s how the human world works

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And regarding group work

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I’m cooked

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Like I don’t know what to do

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How to do

pale moth
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Never mind

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I’m screwed

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Isn’t the part that is scary

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Not able to graduate

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And dealing with shit

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I’m stupidly stupid

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I should’ve left them on read

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Like not even reading the messages

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Man

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Even seeking for help is tough

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Like no one fucking cares

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Who the fuck cares

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I’m just dumb

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Really dumb

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One shot

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Lisa

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Whatever

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Oh my god

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Omg

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Yeah

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Poor social skill

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With people

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Definitely

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But not like they going to help

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Like who the fuck cares

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How do I deal with people

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And how the hell

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Am I surviving for group work

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Hopefully

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Hopefully yeah

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Like everything innt is messed up

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Everything

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I should’ve been independent like almost everything

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And tried out financially

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Once that happen

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I probably move out

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I don’t know shit

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I’m tired

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I’m really tired

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At best

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Idk

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Like what should I do

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A few more minutes

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The tutor will talk about group work

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And like woah that’s bad

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You see

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There’s nothing

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Literary nothing

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What shit supposedly

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My staring ocd makes things worse

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Worse

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I’m all alone now

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And this ain’t good

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Yeah feels bad

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And shit

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Dealing with people is hard

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It’s part and parcel of life

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What I pretend I didn’t know

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Like what now

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It’s just messed up

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In the head

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So what

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I just get screwed over

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Over and over again

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What else is there left

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Nothing

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If I don’t get my diploma

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It’s game over

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It’s the end of the world

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Afterwards will be dealing with people

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And cure that staring problem

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So many parts yeah

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And it’s quite a headache

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Headache

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Dealing with this shit

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Going through all that shit

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Tried to be a normal person

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But I became a abnormal person

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You notice that there’s one strange kid

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Then you know it’s me

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Idk man

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Idk how

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And idk how to describe

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But even if I tried

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No one listens

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No one cares

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I should stop daydreaming

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If only I could work

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And have the money

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I could escape from hell

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That’s been the thing I wanted to achieve

pale moth
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I still fucking stare

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I have an idea for group work

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Do something simpler

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So many people

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Fucking hell

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I’m trapped

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It’s annoying af

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So shit

bold acorn
pale moth
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I’m almost late

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Wait

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There’s no way I’m alive out of this

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So many projects

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And uh

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I’m fucking cooked

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For the English assignment

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Must be persuasive

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And what not

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Other projects have already been stressing me out

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What the hell

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Man

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Really sick and tired of all this shit

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And that’s not fair

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It’s not

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And uh

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I can’t deal with this shit anymore

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Really fucking tried

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One word

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Tried

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I probably think about something

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I feel like people hating me (which is somewhat technically true)

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Somewhat

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Because of staring ocd

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Getting a diploma is fucking hard ya

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So difficult

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Got this

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And that

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And it’s frustrating

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And that’s so fucked up

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Ya idk

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Man

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I’m going crazy at full speed

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Pls

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Pls

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Clam the fuck down

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Let’s see

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Idk

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Anymore

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But ya man

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How do I contribute

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How?

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And I’m boring

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Suddenly family cares

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Suddenly they ditch me

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Yeah

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That’s how it is

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Like I can’t do anything about it

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Ok I’m thinking

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How do I survive

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But it’s fucked up anyways

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Like I don’t want to swear

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To

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Never mind

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I can’t think

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Of shit

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It’s going to be hard anyways

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I tried contributing

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Getting tired ya

pale moth
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It’s bad

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Like idk man

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How to deal with shit

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Let’s see

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I come to class

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But it’s awkward

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I know there isn’t anything good about it

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Yeah the module I’m in idt it’s useful

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Like idk

pale moth
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It’s going to end

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Quite tired

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Quite fucked up

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How shit can it get

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Worse

pale moth
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I keep getting freaking distracted by my parent s

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They like to distract me

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Omg

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So many homework

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And my groupmates probably hating me

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I’m cooked

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Probably ignore distractions

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And just focus

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Focus

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Otherwise I may remod

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You know what I mean?

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Pls help this child

pale moth
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Bro I’m cooked

pale moth
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Almost late

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Omg

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And my plan somehow worked

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To get that diploma

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But bad news is the group work

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For front end

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I need something to prove that the functionality works

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Pls

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Idk

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If I’m almost there

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I’m almost there

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Not to remod or fail any modules for this semester

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But next semester will be tough

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Tough ya

pale moth
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My watch battery ran out

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My watch died

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And uh

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Thanks to gen ai my coursework is ruined

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It’s my fault for being too reliant on them

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My plan is almost falling apart

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To get the diploma

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🙁

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It’s bad

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It’s bad

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Everything is messed up

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Why

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Why

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Why

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School idk

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Finding a job is tough and messed up my life

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Idk if I find one

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If it’s possible

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Beside the retail F&B jobs

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I can’t stand it anymore

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I can’t fucking stand it anymore

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Everything is like going to crash on me

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Everything is going haywire

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Omg

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I can’t

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I just fucking can’t

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Deal with this shit anymore

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I can’t

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Idk if I should just give it up

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Like give up

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I put way too much pressure on myself

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I keep putting pressure on myself

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On my fucking self

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Yeah

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It’s so fucked up

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It’s so shit

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I know right

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Who couldn’t fucking care

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#

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This is way too much

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I repeat

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This is way too much

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I just think it’s fucking hard

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It’s way too fucked up

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Screwed up

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Messed up

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Like

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Idk

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Idk

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I really don’t know

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You know how fucked up it is

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Just to get flunk out

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And like

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What shit am I dealing

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And how am I going to deal with the shit

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That shit

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And it’s all messed up in the head

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Idk man

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I really don’t

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Vro

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It’s the end of the world

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It’s the end of the cycle

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It’s gone case

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Beyond death

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Yeah

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I smack the bloody self on the head

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Idk what to do

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Idk

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Way messed up

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Way too messed up

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhh

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Ahhhhhhhh

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I’m going. To. Take. A. Break.

pale moth
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If I can’t get that 5%

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It’s fine and it’s fucked up

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Because I’m good at flunking out

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You know

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Wasted my time on this shit

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Even ai can’t help

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And fuck

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I stared at someone

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Thanks to my staringocd

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The person hates me now

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Great

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And uh

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I’m idk

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Idk

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Im scared

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I’m scared

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I think uh that coursework is tough

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Meant to be

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And my stupid staring

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Why i fucking state at people

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Why

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Omg

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Fucking hell

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Yeah

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I’m fucking wasting time

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Achieving nothing

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And fuck that state

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Stop staring at people

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Omg

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Fuck me

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Screw

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This

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Crap

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Of

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Shit

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That’s it

pale moth
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Never mind my course work works

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But I don’t have android to download that fake app

pale moth
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So sick and tired

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And that staring issue

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I kept staring

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Now great

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People won’t talk to me

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And plus it’s group project

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So idk

pale moth
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I hope I can graduate

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Now have to worry about next semester

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And internship

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Those are the barriers

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And gateways

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That I need to face

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Inevitable

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K

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And yeah

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That’s sad

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I

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Hope the

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Staring thing

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Will get resolved

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Like don’t stare at people

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Because of the ocd

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Vro

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Haiz

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I just hope things don’t screw up vro

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And yeah

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Pray hard

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Idk

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Idk

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Don’t flunk up

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Don’t stare

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These 2 things are basic

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Yeah

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Yeah

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I wish I don’t do bad things

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I wish I didn’t do bad things

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Pls

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Pls

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Pls

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I know

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Things may not go as planned

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And like

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I know

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I thing

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I wish

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I hope

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Yeah

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I decided to change the fate

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Of things

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Some still remain as it is

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I need to change myself

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Because myself is bad

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Real bad

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I don’t care about anything else

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I just want a job

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That’s why to achieve this

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Resolve staring issue

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And do well

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That’s all

pale moth
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I must contribute

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To group work

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That’s the key

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And somehow Im managing to do that

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Without letting my mental health affecting me

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But the stupid staring ocd

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Like I fucking stare at people

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Needs to be resolved

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Needs to go away

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Like seriously

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It’s not an option or choice

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It’s mandatory

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Like if this staring issue doesn’t exist

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I would be at better stake

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And better condition

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Like seriously

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I can’t have everything

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I know

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But I want my life easier

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Like less fallback

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You know

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Like

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I already faced shit

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Yeah

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Yeah

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There’s one group work

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That is hard to contribute

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And im thinking how should I contribute

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And that staring again

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I just don’t want to fucking stare

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I just don’t want to fucking stare

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There are left 2 more group work that I need to think how to contribute

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Then Im fucking done

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Im tired

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Sorry for the long rant

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Man time flies fr

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It does happen

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And it could happen anyways

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Anyway

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Im tired again

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Im just so fucking tired

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Sorry for the longest rant

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Oh god if only I can get earlier

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Right now

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Yeah

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It’s exhausting to plan

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For group work

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To protect myself from group project

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There’s a lot of planning

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On what group work I suppose to do

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And how to contribute

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That’s the tricky part

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To get that diploma

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You think everything is easy

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You wish

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I also wish

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But

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What’s the point

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Not to say it’s useless

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But I don’t see anything to it

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Or the point of doing it

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I realised someone said what listening ear

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Either they are trying to be realistic and wasting time

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Or they are unhelpful

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Idw to say who

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It’s tiring

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It getting tiring

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Tbh

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At this rate

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At this point

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Im idk

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Idk what to do

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When things gets tough

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It always gets tough

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That’s what I am

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Idfk

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Things aren’t going to work out

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As it seem

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Idw to say i repeat

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It sounds cringe

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And im tried again

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Wow

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In reality no one cares

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Even if I got mental health

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They except you (me) to reply

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Like

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Idk man

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I just wish I don’t have the staring condition

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I bet no one understands

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And no one cares

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I feel that no one has this condition

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Just focus on this 2

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Staring issue

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Group work

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That’s all

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That’s final

pale moth
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Idk man

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That’s final

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When things seem bad

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They always are

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That’s final

pale moth
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Things gone bad today

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Argued with someone for group project

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Some laughed

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Trying to protect the things that I’m doing

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Just worried they are taken away

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And people say I never do much

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Today is such a bad day

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To do group work

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Because it’s like protecting yourself

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And like arguing is bad

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So therefore group work is bad

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And like idk man

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If they not happy with me

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They all complain

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Idk

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Im trying to do shit

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And protect myself

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Which is hard

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Like Im assigned to do that feature

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Idk

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Today I did stare

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I fucking stare

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And forgot about the quiz

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That’s why I never take notes or revise

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Im that bad of an asshole

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Omg

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Suddenly things get tough

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3 things bad today

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That’s all

pale moth
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I hope I can pass

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It looks possible now sooner

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But later may not

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And dam my shoe

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Irritating

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I wish I didn’t stare

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And can contribute to group work

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It looks kinda shit

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For my group work

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On designing the prototype

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Yeah

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I wish I don’t want to argue with them anymore

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Im tried

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Anyway

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Idk

pale moth
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Sad as fuck

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Sad man

pale moth
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Im just really unlucky

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Whatever I stepped on it breaks

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I feel like this is bad

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In a bad way

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Like things doesn’t matter anymore

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But like

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I feel like things are too late as it seem

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I see myself as a bad person

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Ik

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Yeah man

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I tried to do group projects

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Like 4 person work

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Worth of work

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Idk if that make sense

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But I worry next semester will be harder

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Because there may not be splitting of work

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Im tired

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Like yk

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I can feel people talking abt me

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Idk Im sick and tired

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Looks tired

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Maybe Im going to be late

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I ordered spicy noodles

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That’s bad idk

pale moth
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Im going to be late

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Sad

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Tired

pale moth
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I did badly

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For shit reason

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I should’ve studied harder

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Like my time management used to be good

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Now it’s poor

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Like sometimes I study

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Sometimes I don’t

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It’s frustrating

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So it’s kinda messed up yk

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My life

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Like Im not good at studying

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Im not good at coding

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Im good at nothing

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Fr

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Like it not fine

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It’s gone yeah

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You know how messed up life can be

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Like what life throws at you

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And what mistakes I made

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This is how I feel about life

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Yk

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Like I regret

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I don’t want to

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Idk

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As

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Things may get worse

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As it seems

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As it peek

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The peak

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Sam

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Damm

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How the hell can I survive

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Idk

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This seem messed

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Up

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Like

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Holy crap

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Yeah idk

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Depressed as fuck

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All alone again

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Great

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Uh

pale moth
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It doesn’t feel surreal

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Idk

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And uh

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Idk

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My mood got drained

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My energy got drained

pale moth
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Yeah it’s messed up

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Idk stressed as hell

pale moth
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It’s going to take a while

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For 5%

pale moth
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Copy paste code

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I prone to type wrong code

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Omg

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Like why I type the code not working…

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Im so stupid

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Im dumb

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No happy

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Then whack me

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Idk

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I stare more than i talk

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No excuses

pale moth
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Why they fucking laughing at me

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Idk

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Tired

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I worried I might take a small revenge

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Idk

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Promise to end

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Idk

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My results ain’t good

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And I keep staring

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The ocd

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That’s sad

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Idk it looks like we are doing a campaign

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Which is tough

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And fucked up

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I’m tried for this shit man

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Wow sounds so tired

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And like it’s so tough

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And like idk man

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Why we got so many of this sort of things

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Start a campaign

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Project work

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I’m not ready for this shit man

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It’s so tired man it’s so tough

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Why idk

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Like first staring issue

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Next campaign

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Next projects

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Next next semester

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Which is going to be tough

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I’m talking about passing and not remod

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Like not getting A

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Even that is tough

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Like I’m not so sure

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I mean stay back one year may not be a big deal

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Idk it’s funny

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People say I got improve like after a few sessions

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Like it always happens

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Idk I’m like very introverted

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And scared of people

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I have the tendency of being scared of people

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Idk man

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Like this staring ocd is playing with my life

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And I know I messed up with presentation

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And I have to pitch the campaign

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Using presentations

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Idk man

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So sweaty

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Like shit

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And like i may fumble

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Shit darn it

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Need to present again

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I really don’t like this module

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For this reason

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But I have to go through it

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Just to get my diploma

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Like idk

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For group work

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I’m already keeping a record of what I contributed

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And the evidence as well

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Just in case

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I think

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Idk man

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Why I can’t seem to trust people

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And like myself

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And like I screw things up

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I think if I behave like that during internship

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And suddenly improve

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Isint it weird

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Idk

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I really have some ocd

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And mental issues

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Idk

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I feel like I deserve this

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I’m born like this

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For some reason

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And that ocd has to be staring

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And like I’m cooked

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I’m fucked up

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I’m messed up

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Like I mean to people it’s obvious

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I can’t mask well

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I used to be able to mask well

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Like my issues

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Idk

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Like it’s so messed up

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Now I’m unable to mask up

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I wish I can mask

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Especially during my internship

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And idk yeah

pale moth
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They always skip me

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Because why

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I’m weird

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Like I noticed

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Yeah

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Everyone makes fun of my awkwardness

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Like if ur not part of them

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Being abnormal

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Not on purpose

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Like that’s how human are

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They just laugh at you

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Or skip you

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They see you as low level

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That’s what happening in my country

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Like srs

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Even if it’s first class city

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Behaves like that yk

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First class city not health for mental health people

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That’s my take

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I’m so lonely

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I don’t really know

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I can’t

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I just can’t

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Like how messed up can things be

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Sad

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High key depression

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Highkey depressed

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After my results

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Idk if I should cut myself

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Idk

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Maybe I’m talking rubbish

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Sad

pale moth
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Troublesome

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I never slept cuz I can’t sleep

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And on ocd meds

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So now there’s a problem

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The presentation

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And the need to show the cert thing

pale moth
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I can’t sleep over 2 consecutive days

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I took some pill

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For staring ocd

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Mainly ocd

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Really I don’t feel tired

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But my brain feels tired

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It’s painful

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It’s a torture

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Like not being able to sleep

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Idk

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It’s all messed up

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Yeah

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And it’s all gone for

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Idk

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It’s freaking bad

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Idk what gets better

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Nothing gets better

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Everything seems to be worse

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At it’s peek

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I don’t freaking know

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It’s it’s

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Like it’s

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So shitty bad

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Idk

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How bad will things become

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Darn it

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So shit

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Idk what’s bad man

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If failing seems to be an option

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Idk

pale moth
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So many projects

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So fucking depressed

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Just have to tolerate for 3 more weeks

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I fucking stare again

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Great

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And I wish to disappear

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Not to be seen

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If people don’t like me

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I don’t join the party

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I avoid them

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Simple

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And problem solved

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But for these 3 weeks

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Problem not solved

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I can’t deal with shit anymore

pale moth
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I worry to much

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Because my assignment due date is closer

pale moth
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Bro

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My head is spinning

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Is like headache

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And like so many assignments

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And projects

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And deadline in like 1-2 weeks time

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How am I able to cope

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Idk man

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I don’t want to repeat any modules

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So scary

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Idk

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Bye

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Tired

pale moth
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Bro

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Can’t sleep again for 1 day

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Stop meds

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Stop pills

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May relapse

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Idk

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Like the assignments are much

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And the tiredness are much

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And it’s going to last for 3 weeks

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I hope I can bear with it

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Vro

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Quite bad yeah

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Thanks to that staring ocd

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And the mess i made

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For my brain to be wired up

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pale moth
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Left 3 weeks

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Hang in there

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Idk if I die halfway

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I worry next Semester I won’t do so well

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I’m worried af

pale moth
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lol they asked me to chill

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I’m tried

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Lack of sleep

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Thanks to staring ocd

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Like seriously

pale moth
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Ohh

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Haiz

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Don’t know if I get kicked out

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So sick of life

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Everything is falling

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Everything is falling apart

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This is falling

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Everything is falling apart

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We are complicated

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Idk

pale moth
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Oh damn

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They locked the doors and the access card ain’t working

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I’m literally like tired

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My brain hurts without the meds

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I feel terrible

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I’m can’t

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Idk

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I drank alcohol

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Yeah

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It’s shit man

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Like how many more

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Darn it

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When I’m scared I stared at people

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Sigh

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Haiz

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Idk

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And like

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3 more projects to go

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1 presentation slides done

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1 project done

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2 projects half done

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1 project haven’t started yet

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Deadlines are crazy

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Gosh

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Yeah

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Gosh

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Ikr

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I didn’t believe I could survive

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Like having a group

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And contribute

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Idk it’s possible

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But I still ain’t confident

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And idk if convince is the right word to use

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Like it’s funny as shit

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Cuz it is

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And so tired

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As hell

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Lmao

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Not funny

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But yeah

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You get the idea

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Hopefully

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Staring issue

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Undue projects

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Deadline is closer and nearer

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In 3 weeks time

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Idk if I could survive

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And

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Like access denied

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And idk

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My head is just tired

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My head is just spinning

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lol so tired

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And tired

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And tired again

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Know how tired I am

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Waiting outside

pale moth
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So tired

pale moth
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So tried

pale moth
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I hope I’m not that insane

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But idk

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My head a bit spinning

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Really exhausted

pale moth
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Bruh

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Like so hard to contribute shit stuff

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Like I’m giddy

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And like I try my best

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Idk

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Looks weird

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Tired af

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And I stare

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Maybe I’m scared

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Like a pussy

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Like stop staring

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Thanks to the staring

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People will hate me

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Idk

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Really darn freaking tired

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Idk

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Like my progress and process is more and more worse

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Idk why

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I feel that way

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I feel it

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Like it’s going to be break

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Idk

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I feel like fuck up

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I’m scared

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Idk myself

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Anymore

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Idk what to do

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And like

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Wtf

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I can’t

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I just can’t

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It’s so fucking tried

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Tired

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And I’m so fucking weird

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I have a constant feeling of it

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Because I fucking stare at people

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Stop

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Just stop fucking stare at people

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I know that you are curious

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I know you are stressed

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I know you are scared but

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Ken5014

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Stop fucking stare at people

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No one likes that

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And uh

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That’s all

pale moth
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Really fucking tired

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Omg

pale moth
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Omg presentation today

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Fuck I’m unprepared

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Need that slang

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Wtf

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Idk

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Bus breakdown near me

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But yeah

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Fucking hell

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So stressed out

pale moth
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lol I’m cooked

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I can have a choice of running away

pale moth
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Why fucking hell oh shit

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Idk

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Fuck

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Need to pitch a campaign

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What for