CL’s Box | Huddle | Page 2

timber bridge Feb 20, 2026, 3:01 AM

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I need to just

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not get close to people like that again

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i’ll pull back next time

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i’m sorry

timber bridge Feb 20, 2026, 3:41 AM

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oh my god

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Why am I thinking of T again

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I see one reminder and I’m

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ughhhhj

timber bridge Feb 20, 2026, 5:06 AM

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ok watching hazbin instead of self harming

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that made me sound like a chud

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traumatic

pliant nebula Feb 20, 2026, 2:58 PM

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Im proud of you

pliant nebula Feb 20, 2026, 3:01 PM

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timber bridge ok watching hazbin instead of self harming

HugRat

timber bridge Feb 20, 2026, 10:59 PM

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ugh

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I feel sick

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or anxious

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hmnhshgbn

timber bridge Feb 22, 2026, 2:35 AM

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i feel like relapsing

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I’m so anxious about

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something

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hhhh

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but i just feel like relapsing late at night and then having some odd sort of self-care

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like that one night

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i did it and then after crying a bit i got snacks and just watched gameplay of no, I’m a not a human

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the music was really calming

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even though my leg was burning I felt kinda happy

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and my mom helped me get a snack instead of telling me to go back to bed

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it was nice

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Ughhhh

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why do i linger

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my scars are kinda faded

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just marks now

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why does this always happen to me

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I had a good day, why do I feel like shit now?

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this is always the case

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I always just feel empty

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when all is said and done

timber bridge Feb 22, 2026, 4:25 AM

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i feel like dying

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I’m so

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paranoid

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Hhhh

timber bridge Feb 22, 2026, 6:14 AM

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they’re going to sleep ig

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alone again

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they’re the only person I really actually talk to anymore

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hnmbghn

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I want to relapse

timber bridge Feb 22, 2026, 6:31 AM

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eating so I don’t do it

timber bridge Feb 23, 2026, 2:19 AM

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did virtually nothing today

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my head hurts

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I tried doing homework but everything kept going wrong

timber bridge Feb 23, 2026, 2:39 AM

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I feel so lazy but I’m so unmotivated to do anything

timber bridge Feb 23, 2026, 3:59 AM

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I kinda wish I were dead rn

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I hate myself so much

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It’s unbelievable how much I despise myself

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I hate looking in the mirror

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I want to gouge my eyes out seeing my body

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I’m so ugly I’m so ugly I’m so so ugly

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You wouldn’t have loved me

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You couldn’t have

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oh my god please talk to me normally

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I just want it to stop

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Everything is so empty

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I need to relapse again

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I need to find the razor

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I guess I’ll suffer through the scars on my leg at school

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my head hurts

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I wish I could drown in this bath tub

timber bridge Feb 23, 2026, 5:33 AM

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I think my life might be falling apart again

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no one to help me

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again

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just like always

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just rawdogging this shit

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I wish someone cared

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I wish someone understood

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i wish someone would care about me like i care about them

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why can’t anybody help me

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why can’t they understand

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I hurt

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it hurts

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I can’t talk to anyone

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I barely do

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virtually no one

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talks to me

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especially since I broke up with him but he barely talked to me in the first place

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ughg

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I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

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Nobody cares

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nobody cares about me

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not about that I have to say, what I go through, my interests, nothing

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nothing nothing nothing

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that’s all I am is nothing

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to anybody

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I’m NOTHING

timber bridge Feb 23, 2026, 5:56 AM

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I’m

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actually nothing

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I’m so fucking insignificant

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I might unfriend everyone rn

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I’m so tired

timber bridge Feb 24, 2026, 3:40 AM

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me when I only feel love anymore if it’s sexual or through a character

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what the fuck is wrong with me

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I’m so gross

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so disgusting

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so awful

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I’ll never be normal

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never be good again

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I think I might be too far gone

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I’m too broken to fix

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I’m trying I really am but every day’s the same and it gets worse inside my head

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I want to leave

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I feel displaced

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I want to be dead

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nothing is coming later

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I’m worthless

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I’m a desperate dog begging for scraps

timber bridge Feb 24, 2026, 4:15 AM

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I wish someone would want for me like I want for them

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I feel like nobody wants me anymore

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I truly am worthless

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I want to bleed

timber bridge Feb 24, 2026, 4:34 AM

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I wish I were fucking dead

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Fuck you Z

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He’s just sooooo much better than I am

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You’d follow him to the ends of the earth but won’t even talk to someone who used to be your best friend

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fuck you

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fuck you fuck you fuck you

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fuck you and your perfect body

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fuck you and your new friends

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just FUCK

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YOU

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I’m gonna do it

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I’m gonna cut again

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I’m so fucking tired

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I don’t wanna feel

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please numb the pain

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need to get this fucking

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screw

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off

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the familiar sting

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It’ll burn tomorrow

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nobody will know

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they wouldn’t care anyway

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i don’t think anybody actually cares

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nobody loves me

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why do i even care anymore

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I wish I could die

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I wish I could just be dead

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who would even miss me that much

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they’d move on in a day or two

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I’m worth nothing

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not even tears

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im so pathetic

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im sorry

pliant nebula Feb 24, 2026, 5:47 PM

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timber bridge they’d move on in a day or two

I wouldnt

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I dont know if I told you or if you knew how worked up I got over Uz, and that was him, I am not very close with him as I am with you.

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I burst into tears, and frantically texted B incoherently because I just about burst into a hysterical fit of sobbing and I cried off and on for hours and I pretty much cried myself to sleep that night, and I got very little sleep that night and it was so bad that my friends even noticed something was wrong with me at school.

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but that was my friend

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not my best friend

timber bridge Feb 25, 2026, 4:11 AM

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great

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okay

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one more thing to worry about

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one more plop of shit on my plate

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please don’t get cancer

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I’m

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actually going to fucking kill myself if they die

timber bridge Feb 25, 2026, 5:19 AM

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here it comes again

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breaking down again

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I’m so tired

timber bridge Feb 25, 2026, 5:38 AM

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https://open.spotify.com/track/2RTLIQRc8yogHh08waQDVa?si=QrJkSAy_QQua-vVzYEBVtw

Spotify

I Know It's Over

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https://tenor.com/view/clown-makeup-clown-makeup-bozo-gif-26049773

Tenor

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how I feel relating to this

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how I feel in general

timber bridge Feb 26, 2026, 2:55 AM

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I’m so anxious

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hhhghh

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I feel like there’s a pit in my chest

timber bridge Feb 27, 2026, 7:11 AM

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i think i might actually do it soon

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i should write notes

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although i dont know what to say

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if things get worse

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no, probably when.

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i dont think my future is there

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i dont think people actually love me

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my existence is just futile

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i wont love

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i cant love

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i just want to fall asleep

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and not wake up

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never wake up

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peaceful breaths

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until the air leaves my lungs

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and my heart beats until it fades

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i’m sorry

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i hurt so many people and ruined so many things

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i just want to be okay

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but i’ll never be okay

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i’ll always be broken

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nobody will want me

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no family

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no friend

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no lover

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once they realize what and who i am

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a burden, a chain, a cage

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a poison

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i wish i had my faith back

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maybe then i could feel love

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but god probably hates me

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he scorns me

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no righteous being would wrap their arms around me

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i wish i could feel the warmth

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i’m going to hell for what i do

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i break everything

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i’m sorry

timber bridge Feb 28, 2026, 5:32 AM

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i think envy is my sin

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i’m so

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ugh

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i hope i die soon actually

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i’m moved on from so quickly

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nobody even realizes i’m struggling

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4.0 but i slash my thighs

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happy in class but i feel empty and lifeless inside

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of course someone would move on quickly

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i dont make an impact

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i’m so fake

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i’m so unloveable

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everything’s my fucking fault

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i told you i told you

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why didnt you believe me

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ugh

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fuck me

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fuck you

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fuck everyone

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fuck everything

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when i’m gone

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yes

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when

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when i’m gone

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who am i kidding

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no one will fucking care.

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i’m kind of done

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dont text me

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dont say you care when you clearly could give less of a fuck

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i never meant much to anyone

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fuck it all

timber bridge Feb 28, 2026, 5:54 AM

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i hope i die right fucking now

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hit me with a heart attack god please

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kill me kill me kill me

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i’m no child of your’s

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i’m nothing and no one

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it’s my fault.

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i got too close again.

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you screwed it all up again, s.

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you’ll screw up everything

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absolutely everything

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until there’s nothing left

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what a pointless

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pathetic

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petty

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fucking

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asshole

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you are

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fucking bitch

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you’ll die alone

timber bridge Mar 3, 2026, 5:05 AM

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i want to kill myself so fucking bad

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i think

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it’d be better for everyone

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if i did

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i wasn’t going to be anything anyway.

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people already move on.

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already have moved on.

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people i cared about but hurt.

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it’s fine.

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at least i wont hurt you anymore

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i dont deserve love but i craved it

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but i don’t think anyone will love me anyway

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i don’t know what to say in any notes

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other than i’m sorry

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i’m sorry for being a bad friend

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a bad daughter

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a bad partner

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a bad sibling

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i wish i could bleed out from these cuts on my leg

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the scars nobody cared about

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wasted blood. wasted skin.

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waste of space.

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waste of money. waste of life.

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i was never good enough.

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why’d i think for a second that anyone could love me

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i just

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ruin it all

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maybe when i die i’ll feel love.

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death’s cold embrace

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hugging me

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like my mom used to

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like my dad used to

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like she used to

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before i ruined everything

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and when i take my last breath i’ll feel peace

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maybe i’ll feel happy for once.

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i’ll feel like i mattered.

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i’ll feel like they loved me.

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i know it’s just a fantasy.

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i wish it would happen now.

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i wish my heart beat would slow and i’d feel something.

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feel as i stop functioning.

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it was all pointless, anyway

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everything i touch just withers away

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everything but me

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maybe when i take the pills

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or drown

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or slash my wrists

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maybe i’ll feel the pain i inflicted

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i hope i don’t make it through the night.

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i’m sorry

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for ever trying to love anyone

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i just hurt you in the end

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or maybe you didnt care about me in the first place.

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or i was just there to make you feel something.

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if there’s anything i’m good for, it’s being the drifter in any relationship.

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i really tried to be fine with it

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i tried to live mom

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i tried to stop hurting myself

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i’m sorry i couldn’t

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i’m sorry.

timber bridge Mar 5, 2026, 4:43 AM

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i wish i could get over one single thing in my life

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i just constantly feel crowded

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and everything’s a reminder that i messed up

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i saw someone today

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idk if they saw me

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i tried to get away but i sort of wanted to stay

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idk, maybe they want to ignore it just as much as i do

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i’d want to ignore me too

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i wish i could forget about everything

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i wish there was some kind of drug i could take

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but the only vice i have is cutting

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and scars linger

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my thigh is full anyway

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down to the knee

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sometimes i feel like it’s the only real thing i feel

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the sting is so painful and prevalent

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hard to doubt

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like any emotion i have

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i doubted a lot with you

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as i do with anybody

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i feel like it’s all fake

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i doubt you actually care about me

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i doubt anybody loves me

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maybe i’m not worthy of it anyway

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it’s better if i stay away

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i don’t think they miss me

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but i hate looking at you

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i just want to forget everything

timber bridge Mar 5, 2026, 11:43 PM

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i don’t have anywhere to post my art anymore

timber bridge Mar 6, 2026, 1:56 AM

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ugh

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i hate looking at your stupid fucking matching statuses every day

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he’s just so much better than i am

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better than i ever was

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everyone’s fucking better than me

pliant nebula Mar 6, 2026, 2:08 AM

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timber bridge i don’t have anywhere to post my art anymore

I love it twin

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It looks so good

timber bridge Mar 6, 2026, 5:10 AM

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thinking about it again

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i think too

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too much

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again i wish i could forget

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i wish i could forget your face

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the terms of endearment

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i just hate

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ugh

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you say you care but i dont think you do

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did you ever care about me?

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did i even make you happy?

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i feel like all i do is provide comfort or validation for people

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that’s all i felt to you sometimes

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i don’t think people think about me half as much as i think about them

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over analyzing everything

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every point in time

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invading my brain

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you probably don’t think about me

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i’m moved on from so quickly

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am i even relevant?

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what do i do

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for you

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for anybody

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but then again

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someone else is better

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i’m no good

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if people move on just like that, the answer is clear.

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no tears shed

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i hate me

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i wish i could die right now

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i’ll never be everything they are

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not even good enough to cry over

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worthless

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i wish you would stop occupying my brain

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all of you

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even though the few interactions probably don’t mean anything

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why do i ruin every bond formed

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i just need to not let people in anymore

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all it’ll lead to is disappointment

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someone says they’ll never leave

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bullshit.

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you said you’d always be there for me.

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so why am i staring at these texts and replaying these empty exchanges as if that were true

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because it’s not

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it never is

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everyone always leaves in some form

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things never stay the same

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and i’m always left behind

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i don’t care if the absence didn’t look like it does traditionally, it still feels like leaving.

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cutting the string is easier than facing that pain though

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but it still hurts

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nobody’s gonna love me in my sorry miserable awful fucking life

timber bridge Mar 6, 2026, 5:56 AM

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oh my god i wish i were dead

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why i am i genuinely so heartless but then i feel like my heart is going to explode

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i’m sorry

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i’m so so sorry

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fuck

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this is why no one fucking loves me

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i just push evefything away

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i need to stop rereading

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everything

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but pain is the only real thing i feel

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anything else feels fake

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fake love

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fake happiness

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false sense of security

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what fucking security is there in my life now that i’ve cut off almost everyone

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they’re happier without me though

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i jusy know i

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I just know it

timber bridge Mar 6, 2026, 6:29 AM

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i want to take the blade out again

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idk

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i wish i could fall asleep and not wake up

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i dont want to wake up tomorrow

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i’m tired of waking uo

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my only irl friend wont be there tomorrow

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at school

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i want to sleep

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and not wake up

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i can’t even cry anymore

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i just feel like nothing

timber bridge Mar 7, 2026, 2:27 AM

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https://open.spotify.com/track/0NjW4SKY3gbfl2orl1p8hr?si=TnoUd-scTbyNYR6-L-N2xg

Spotify

IFHY (feat. Pharrell)

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🫤

timber bridge Mar 7, 2026, 9:16 PM

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shit

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shit

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shit

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i really hope he didn’t see that

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i knew this dress was too fucking short

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the scars are visible even theough tights

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hhhh

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i don’t want them to know again

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not like they cared very much the first time

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but they’ll still treat me like a child

timber bridge Mar 8, 2026, 5:58 AM

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i hate myself

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i don’t feel like we’re friends anymore

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i feel like i’ve ruined all chances of even communicating like that again

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you probably don’t even want to interact with me

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whatever

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it is what it is ig

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this’ll keep happening until i have no one left

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i just want to cut everyone off

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i feel like it’s better for them

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my presence is a plague

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they’ll get over it

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they’ll move on

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i’m easy to forget

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you’ve probably already forgotten me anyway

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i want to cut again

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i’m tired

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i just

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ugh

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i’m tired

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i’m tired of this

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i want to leave again

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i just want to forget

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i hate all of this

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nothing will go back to the way it was before

timber bridge Mar 9, 2026, 3:49 AM

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killing myself after seeing that

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oh my god i want to fucking leave

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couldn’t you have waited a month

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A FUCKING MONTH AT LEAST

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i know i fucking suck but holy shit

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i’m just that fucking worthless, feelings switch that fucking fast

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hhhhh

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i want to cut so fucking bad

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but they wont heal in time for the trip

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fucking

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ugh

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i hate you i hate everything i hate me i hate me i hate me

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i’m so fucking pathetic

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you probably never even liked me

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you just liked when i made you feel better

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who am i kidding

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no one will fucking like me

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never never never love me

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no one wants a girl that freaks out over every fucking inconvenience and cuts herself

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no one wants a girl that could never believe she has any worth at all

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no one wants a girl like me

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i’m no

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fucking

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romantic material

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almost everyone i meet says they used to have a crush on me but never admitted it

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i guess i just fucking spoil that

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or maybe they’re saying that to make me feel better

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i don’t wanna think

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i’m tired of thinking

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get out of my hesd

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get out get out get out

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i just want to go away

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i’m tired of seeing everyone

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i’m tired of seeing their matching statuses

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i’m tired of seeing you gush

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i’m tired of everything

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i’m

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i just want to end everything

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i’m the most worthless pathetic awful shit for brains person ever

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I just want to OD now

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i’m so tired

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i’m so tired of hearing people saying the care and then pull some shit that makes me want to destroy myself

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you never cared

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never cared

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never

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nobody fucking cares

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nobody ever stays

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i don’t even know why i’m back again

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i should leave

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i should distance

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who would fucking care

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in the long run

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it’s pointless

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no one’s crying over me for days on end

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i’m not a lasting memory or interaction

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i should just go

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I’m useless

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i don’t add anything

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awful awful awful person

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I need to cut

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i need to cut so bad

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i need it

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i need to bleed

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i need the validation

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i need the real feeling

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i need the pain

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i deserve it

timber bridge Mar 9, 2026, 5:26 AM

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i’m gonna fucking commit

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i swear i don’t mean a single thing to anyone

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i’m just

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there for your entertainment

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or to comfort you

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that’s all i fucking was

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all i’ll ever be

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i’m so tired

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i’m so fucking tired

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i’m tired of meaning nothing

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i’m tired of everyone moving on so quickly

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i’m never enough

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i’m never FUCKING ENOUGH

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i’ll ever be enough for anybody or anything

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nothing i do is ever fucking enough

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even while i slash my thighs

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I’M TRYING MY FUCKING BEST

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I NEVER PLEASE ANYBODY

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NO MATTER HOW FUCKING HARD I TRY

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i couldn’t please you. i can’t please my friends. i can’t please my parents.

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I JUST CAN’T DO FUCKING ANYTHING

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not pretty

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not smart

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no good no good

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i can’t do SHIT

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I FUCKING HATE YOU

timber bridge Mar 9, 2026, 5:52 AM

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hyperventilated so hard my heart cramped

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you’ll never understand

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nobody fucking understands

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no, they all have someone who wants them

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someone who fucking cares

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who fucking cares about me

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nobody fucking nobody

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you’ll never fucking understand how it feels.

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you’ll never know how it feels to rip open your skin with a blade and have nobody love you or care about it.

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you’ll never understand how fucking painful it is to never be enough for anyone or anything

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you’ll never know how it feels to want support but still nobody fucking cares when you want to kill yourself

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i want to KILL MYSELF

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i want to die so fucking bad it weighs on my chest like there’s a ton of weight crushing it

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and still

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nobody

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fucking

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cares

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i am so worthless

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i’m so fucking worthles

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i knew i wouldn’t make it to 18

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i wish you could feel hw fucking bad it hurts right now

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you’ll never ever understand

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i thought someone fucking loved me but now i realize no one could ever fucking love me

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i’m so fucking unloveable

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i’ll never be loved

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i’m never going to be anything

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i just want to get it over with right now

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i’m so fucking unbelievably tired

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i want someone to weep over my dead body

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i wish someone fucking loved me

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nobody ever actually loves me

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i’m nothing

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i’m nothing to anyone

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nothing

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nothing nothing nothing nothing fucking nothing

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i hope everyone will hate me just as much as i hate myself

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i hope you know

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how much i fucking

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hate myself

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i don’t even know who i am anymore

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i don’t even think i’m real

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 12:32 AM

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i truely think

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you never cared about me

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i was just comfort for you

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i didn’t mean anything

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and i still don’t

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you don’t miss me at all

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i bet you’re fucking relishing in my absence

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like i was just a weight that pulled you down

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whatever

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everyone has someone new now that they clearly love more than me

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just forget about s

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i thought i meant something

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no, i just shouldn’t think i mean anything ever again

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walk away like i never mattered

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no tears

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no remorse

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no sadness

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just jump into your new perfect fucking life with the better person

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i’ll always fucking be the other friend or woman

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completely irrelevant

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maybe at one time i was important

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but not anymore

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just throw me away

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expendable

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disposable

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taste me and spit me out

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i leave a bitter taste anyway

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 3:09 AM

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i want to gouge my eyes out

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you’re all doing this on fucking purpose i swear

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 3:48 AM

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i genuinely just

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fucking cut my

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||gens||

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fuck

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i’m

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there’s something wrong with me

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fuck it hurts

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fuck fuck fuck

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i want to leave so fucking bad

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i’m so tired of seeing your stupid fucking

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ughgf

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just leave

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no one will care no one will care no one will care no one will care

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they wont

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he wont care

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he wont care he doesn’t care he’s never cared

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nobody fuckingcares

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i hate you i hate you i hate me

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i hatemyself so much

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more than anyone could efer know

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fuck youb

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it hurts

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fuck it’s burning

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it hurts so bad

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 5:12 AM

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I wish i could have my mind wiped

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i wanna forget

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everything

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 1:15 PM

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i just had a dream about them

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 9:00 PM

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if stress doesn’t kill me first i’m gonna do it myself

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i fucking hate school i’m struggling so much already on here and it’s just PILING ON

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i’m leaving for good if one more fucking thing happens i swear

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most of them wont care anyways

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not even important to servers anymore

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or their relationships

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if we’re even friends anymore

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we’re probably not.

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i’m asking the point every day

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what the fuck’s the point in staying if we’re not friends like that anymore

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i feel so helpless

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hhh

timber bridge Mar 10, 2026, 9:39 PM

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i need to stop thinking

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i think you were talking to them near the end of us

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there’s no way you bonded in less than a fucking week

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maybe i’m just overthinking

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but still

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it’s

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hhh

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i’m gonna kill myself

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i feel sick

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i can’t focus

timber bridge Mar 11, 2026, 3:43 AM

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ugh

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my fucking cycle started

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oh my god shut the FUCK UP

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i genuinely don’t think you ever cared at all

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about me

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it was never about actually liking me

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was it?

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it was about the fucking validation i gave

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i dont think

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you gave a fuck about me

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hardly cared about my issues

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barely cared about my self harm

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flirted with someone else and called it a fucking joke

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hours i spent worrying about you and waiting for you to text first but instead you were talking to someone else

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saying goodnight and then staying online

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you probably were talking to her near the end of it.

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sorry i was shitty too, okay? but i feel like it was just a constant state of awkwardness and waiting for something while i struggled every day in depression meanwhile you’re out wearing your fucking heart on your sleeve for someone else

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i guess that’s all i was fucking good for. solving your problems and saying i love you.

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i’m sorry i got distant. i was in the worst fucking time of my life when we started, and it felt like you barely cared.

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even fucking X cared more than you, despite him being a manipulative asshole

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but then all of that other shit happened, taking a break and getting back together, and then i lose him because he was an asshole, but it still hurt. yeah, it made me distant and i’m sorry. but i feel like you weren’t communicating much either.

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and then almost a week later you’re mr lover boy again

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fuck

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i hope you’re having the time of your fucking life

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dont you DARE say you still care about me and that you’re guilty about it because you’re fucking NOT.

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you DON’T care. you never did.

timber bridge Mar 11, 2026, 4:17 AM

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oh my god ivliteraloy fid it

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i hurt you i fuckihg jhurt you

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it!s all my fault

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slways my fault

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im onbakill myself

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you wont care if i do

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its okay if i leave

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i should start writing notes

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i’m sorry im sorr im sorry im sorry im sorry

timber bridge Mar 11, 2026, 11:01 PM

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i feel so nauseous

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ugh

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school is so hard with all this shit on my mind

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i think too much

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i think i’ll hurt everyone

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or i already have

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whatever at least when i’m gone they wont care if they hate me

timber bridge Mar 12, 2026, 1:40 AM

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i’m getting worried my scars wont fully heal or fade away in time for the trip

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i wish it wasnt so hot there and my parents want to bring swim suits

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hhh

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i dont want my parents to ask why i’m wearing swim leggings again

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sorry mom i just dont want you to see the layers on scars on my thigh

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fuck me

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i always ruin myself

timber bridge Mar 12, 2026, 5:34 AM

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i’m so tired

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i have a fcking B in math now

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ugh

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i still have so much to do

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i wish you didn’t occupy my brain so much

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i can barely think

timber bridge Mar 12, 2026, 7:08 AM

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staring at the ceiling

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i think i’m reaching my breaking point

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why do i do so much for people who wont reciprocate

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idk

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i want to cry

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maybe it would help me sleep

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i just

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i’ve messed up everything

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i’m sorry

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i’m a bad person

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really bad

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person

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if i’m even a person

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i don’t feel like one

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i don’t feel real

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it doesn’t feel like i’ve earned my worth among humanity

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i don’t deserve to heal

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i don’t even think i can anymore

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too damaged

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can’t be repaired

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i’m tired

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i don’t mean anything

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i shouldn’t mean anything

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i’m just

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nothing

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it was all nothing

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everything i do

timber bridge Mar 13, 2026, 2:03 AM

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i’m relapsing so hard after this trip

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i don’t care how much it hurts

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i’ve held out for too long

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i need the control

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i need the pain

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i need to be punished for everything i’m doing and everything i did

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i’m so stupid

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i really want to kill myself

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i want to disappear

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i ruined everything

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i really ruined everything

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i’m sorry i was so shit

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i really wanted to be better

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but every day got worse and worse

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i felt like everything was weighing so much that i couldn’t feel anything but pain

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it’s even worse now

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i’m sorry

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i’m an awful person

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i wish you listened to me

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when i said i was bad

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because i am bad

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i’m so fucking bad

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bad friend

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bad partner

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bad person

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i dont deserve anything

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the only thing i’m worthy of is death

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death and pain

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i can’t love anything

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not even myself

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and no one will ever love me

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i really should just

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get it over with

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why can’t i do it

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why can’t i just fucking die

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i need to just

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take the pills

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overdose

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take 10

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20

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30

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how ever many it takes

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i just need to do it.

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i need to get out of everyone’s life

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so they’ll be happy

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happy without me

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because all i do is ruin their peace in the end

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it’ll be fine

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it’ll all be fine

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i’ll die and things will be all better

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everything will be better when i’m gone

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you’ll be better off with me dead.

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you all will be.

timber bridge Mar 15, 2026, 7:09 AM

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i’ll never be capable of love

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i hope i’m dead by the time i’m out of school

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i don’t know if i see any point in life anymore

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i’ll just be

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alone

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no one will ever love me

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and i’ll never love them

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selfish coldhearted bitch

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i’m an awful person

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disappointing my parents

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even though i’m mad, i’m glad you’re happy with someone else.

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your life is better without me in it

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and it’ll be even better when i die

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i wish i could do it right now

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ugh

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i just

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i wish i could get high or something

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i want to forget everything

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literally everything

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i want to forget meeting you

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i want to forget helping you

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i want to forget everything you said to me

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i just want to forget

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you’ve probably already forgotten about me

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no worry about me

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how much i want to die

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you have no idea

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how much i hate myself

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nobody has any idea how it feels to hate yourself so much that you can’t love anything

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i lose interest

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i distance

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i separate myself from reality and watch myself do things i can’t even control anymore

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i become apathetic

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i don’t believe anything is real

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i’m all bad

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no good

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awful awful person

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i belong in hell

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that’s how i felt in december, that’s how i’ve felt since.

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it only gets worse

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it was so hard to express my feelings

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i’m sorry i wasn’t good at it

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i’m sorry i’m an awful person

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it’s so hard for me

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to do anything

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emotionally

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i just know everyone wants to be rid of me

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i’ll be doing them a favor when i kill myself

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you’ll be so happy

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to be free of me

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i know you will be

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people will smile when i send my last message

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it’s the right way to go

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it’s the answer

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just get rid of myself in the equation

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and everything will be solved

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you wont need me

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i know you’ll never need me because you don’t need me now

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did you ever really need me?

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like i’ve said before

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i’m temporary

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i was just made to be temporary for everyone

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they all leave and move on eventually

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and i become nothing more than a pale memory

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and they’re fine with that.

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so dying is the answer

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it’ll bring relief

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i just know it will

timber bridge Mar 16, 2026, 12:11 AM

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ugh i hate myself so fucking much i’m so fat and ugly

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i hate this dress

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i hate this bra

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i hate my boobs

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i hate my waist

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i hate my tummy

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i hate my arms

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i hate my legs

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i hate my face

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i’m so fucking disgusting

timber bridge Mar 21, 2026, 6:23 AM

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i’m glad i reached out and apologized

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i feel a little happier

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i just hope things get better as time goes on

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i’m a little scared about some things though

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i dont want to mention one but

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i’m afraid my scars wont go away

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like they did on my wrist

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i’d think the ones closer to veins wouldn’t fade

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idk

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i just dont want someone to see them

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especially my parents

timber bridge Mar 22, 2026, 12:49 AM

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i drew at the start of spring break

timber bridge Mar 23, 2026, 4:54 AM

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ugh

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why does it always come back to me

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i dont want to go to school tomorrow

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i didnt even get to relax during spring break

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i’m barely practiced on my audition

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it sucks

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i’m never gonna get in

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I really dont want to go back

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i’m just

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so tired

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i feel so worthless all the time to everyone

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teachers, parents, friends

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even though i’m doing everything to make people proud

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my 3rd quarter perfect grade was smeared by 2 points in a class

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2 points enough to be a failure.

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to be looked down on

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hhhh

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i guess i just need to get back into again

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masking everything

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not talking about it

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if this week goes bad i’m gonna ruin my thigh again

timber bridge Mar 25, 2026, 3:25 AM

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ughghhb

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they’re getting new friends

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getting tired of me

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i knew it

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i’m so tired of this crippling feeling

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for once i want someone to be jealous of me

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that makes me sound like a bad person

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but i’m always wanting for what other people have and what they gain in my absence

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i hate

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everyone being happy without me

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especially z.

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she pisses me off

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always matching statuses with her better friend and acting like nothing we had meant anything

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3 years of friendship and what do i get?

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fucking sidelined

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and treated like a punching bag for her emotions while she practically buttfucks her other friend

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Hhhh

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i hate that line

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" You’re not gonna look me in the eye and tell me nothing we’ve been doing together meant anything to you because I know that’s not true. "

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i know it’s from a stupid indie cartoon but it really hurts

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that’s how i feel

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how i felt

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when she made me feel like a fucking clown

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talking, waiting, crying, wondering over her

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all while she treats me like shit

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and now i’m jealous of her

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jealous that she’s happy and her life is just so much fucking better than mine

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without me

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fuck you dude

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i hope everyone sees your true colors

timber bridge Mar 25, 2026, 10:49 PM

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i hate myself so fucking much

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i fucking failed i fucking failed

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UGH I’M SO FUCKING STUPID

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i’ll never be picked

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i dont even knkw if i had a chance before but now i never will

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i’m just proving myself to be a failure

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that’s all i ever fucking am

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failure

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big fat F

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i’ll carve it into my skin

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i’m always a fucking failure to everyone around me

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nothing i do is ever an accomplishment

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i’m always a failure

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from the day i was born

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i shouldnt have been born

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i wish i couldve saved everyone from the embarrassment that i am

timber bridge Mar 26, 2026, 4:22 AM

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i want to stop thinking about it

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i wish i didnt have that class tomorrow

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ugh

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i keep wanting to cry everythime i think about it

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i did so fucking bad

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meanwhile everyone was happy

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my throat was swelling while i sang and i felt like i was going to break down

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and then i had an anxiety attack in the bathroom

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fuck i’m ruining my skin care

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hhhh stop crying

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god they dont even care

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" i’m so sorry!! " yeah you’re so fucking sorry

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you never care about my issues

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but i have to be kissing your ass over your’s, right?

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4 years of preventing you from killing yourself and what the hell do i get

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moving on again always moving on from me

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when do i get to move on from someone

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i’m always stuck

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all the time

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it’s not fair

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i

#CL’s Box