Lovis lobotomization chamber | Huddle | Page 1

frigid quartz Nov 7, 2025, 12:37 AM

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Take a seat. My name is Lovis. I am a 17 year old girl from nothern europe. I came here because, alteast to my knowledge, nobody i know is in this server and i dont have to be worried about anybody seeing it.

So whats my deal you may wonder? I have ADHD (combined), social anxiety and most likely depression. Altough thats not diagnosed and i have no intention of seeking a diagnosis as it might do more harm than good in my case.

I have pretty much 2 friends in school, 1 who i sometimes hate and cant even fathom why im friends with her. The other that i tbh barely interact with while in school but we talk daily on snapchat. My others friends i dont see much, maybe talk to once a week but nothing more. I do value my relations with people, but i doubt they value me.

My teachers mean so so so much to me. Especially my swedish/english teacher who is also my mentor.

Recently ive gotten worse. I hate myself more than ever. My body, my face, my voice, my mind, my personality and so on. But who doesnt? Im not special for that, infact i am as mediocere as they come. I struggle in school even tho my teachers tell me im smart, i have an IQ or rougly 120 but that doesnt mean shit.

I have already predicted my death, ||suicide||. Its not what i want but i feel its how its gonna be.

Responses are encouraged so go ahead.

tw: ||sh, suicide||

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wsg gang

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first post

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wow im not sure where to start

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uhm

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my heads gone empty atm

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let me introduce myself

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my name is Lovis, im a 17 year old girl. I have ADHD and social anxiety, and is filled to the brim with self hatred and thoughts about ||sh||

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wait imma get roles hold your horses

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alr here we go

frigid quartz Nov 7, 2025, 12:43 AM

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frigid quartz my name is Lovis, im a 17 year old girl. I have ADHD and social anxiety, and is ...

i also suspect that im depressed, would not surprise me in the slighest

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i just did the MADSR-S test

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i did one in connection to my ADHD diagnosis, back then i scored a 13 (very mild depression), this time i scored a 35 (right at the edge of severe)

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i dont want to die but i dont want to exist, does that make sense?

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i feel like my life has to have some bigger meaning for me for it to be worth living

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i dont want to be gone forever and ever, that used to send me into panic attacks as a kid

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wait imma redo my intro in the description

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hold

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kay fixed

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i should be studying rn

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i have a grammar test tmr

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ill be back tmr

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rock on

frigid quartz Nov 7, 2025, 12:59 PM

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Yoyoyo

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Im in school rn

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Had my grammar test

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Nu clue if I did good or not

frigid quartz Nov 8, 2025, 8:56 PM

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im back gang did ya miss me

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decent day

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massive plot twist in the serie i was watching

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crazy fr

frigid quartz Nov 16, 2025, 5:25 PM

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i totally forgot about this server

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i got meds

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yay

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and uh

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i cleaned my ENTIRE room

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a deep cleaneven

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and i threw out a bunch of stuff

#Lovis lobotomization chamber