#Talking abt my boyfriend.../Ranting abt stuff
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Okay what the fuck is my health okay after what's going on for abt 2 or 3 weeks? Its like I hate him, now I love him whyyyy???????? Like dude why? is this okay?? Then I feel like breaking up with him then I don't want to because I don't want him to feel sad because I broke up with him like oh my God I don't know what to feel now ☹️ tbh I just wanna go for a car drive or a walk so I could take this out of my head
i could give some advice if u want
Sure 😊
Sorry I just got out of school rn
coolio
Soo uhmm I dunno man I feel like he's acting different or maybe its just me overthinking a lot I told my friends abt it but they don't really know how to answer it. He's been working a lot lately but the thing is I keep overthinking he's like cheating on me or like I dunno this is confusing this is my 3 time dating someone but this guy hes nice and a lovely guy. The others 2 guys I have dated were like so rude to me. And I think its because I'm new to it and I
had people leave me before so like uhmm..i just probably like waiting I guess I dunno to leave me also sorry if it sounds weird like the whole paragraph..🧍
Oh sorry about that
Oh
sorry if i sound like a bad person
i just have stuff going on in my life that causes me to snap sometimes
Ahh..
Yea.. I mean I'm kinda like that with stuff thats going on with me. I sometime aruge with my parents
Hello 🧍
He was talkative a lot and even answered me when I got out of school but now it’s like short answers, sometimes a lot talk then leaves me on read I guess or I think
Oh
but then again
you can always try to relight it
like a candle
u just gotta find the match
He's from Brazil..
Yeah
What do I do though? In like the virtual date night?
video games are a wonderful thing eh?
Yeah we barely do that though
I dunno if he has that..
He likes those war ones.. Uhhmm
Uhh is it normal for guys to follow different girls who are like popular and shows like uh.. Body parts? in the internet?
uhh
no
yk what we guys call those guys?
gooners
the worst of the worst type of guys
the scum of dudedom
So what do I do with him? I feel like breaking up with him and I don't fucking want to hes like my everything but now knowing like some weird and confusing parts of him its like "ew I'm actually dating this guy who is 3 years older then me and ruining my life with my overthinking and stuff" its like wow.. I don't know what to do.. But as the same time I don't have a heart to do it because I don't want him thinking he wasn't good enough or like.. Kill his self.. He lost his dad
yk
you can find someone else
someone better
you dont deserve a gooner as your bf
no one does
I can't say it I'm scared and for some reason I don't wanna lose him. I mean I would always told myself "oh yeah he's busy at work or karate he will text you later there's nothing to worry about" but its not even working the positive I have been saying to myself for so long. He even if he actually did he got me an stitch plushie which was kind oh my god I dunno what to do I can’t say it I’m scared to let go
yk
you could do a test on him
Where like people like.. Text them? To see if they are actually cheating?
yeah
like make a fake insta account
make it
something for gooners
try messaging him
if he gets interested in that stuff
and wants more
well..
sorry to say
but i guess his not the one
But I don't want to do it I want like someone else to do that..
I'm scared to face the truth abt him
Tbh I just kinda wanna wait before I do or anyone does that because he did say that he was gonna come where I am in like a month so if he doesn't come were I am I will do it or anyone would do it but for now I'm just gonna talk abt him or rant abt stuff here hehe..wish me luck...ig 🙃
Wishing u luck
hate to break it to you but the girl he follows is an OF model
He doesn't follow her no more
But thank you
But if he does again I will talk to him abt it
I wanted to say that what the other person talking about "gooner" thing it doesn’t necessarily mean he’s bad it could maybe also mean he’s addicted to the websites and maybe can’t control it and it’s actually common some people even have it in marriages talk about it with him or something figure it out because of something like that doesn’t mean you have to break up (if you’re comfortable speaking to him about it ofcourse)
Okay uhmm back because I wanna talk about him again... I keep thinking I am losing him again and he hasn't said "I love you" to me for like 4 days and it's really worry me and I have been the only one saying it to him and he's not saying it back it's really freaking me out I told my cousin and my friend and my friend said "talk to him or distract yourself" then my cousin said "I know your probably to kind to do this to him but be dry" I dunno what to fucking do I feel so lost rn but I kinda want to do what my cousin told me too do uhh
FUCK NAH I'M BEING FUCK ASS DRAMATIC 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I GOT HIM TO SAY IT FUCK BRO I TOO FREAKING ATTACHED TO THIS GUY
Fuck bro.. I uhh keep making things worse for myself (it's about me and my mom)
Uhm
So I was playing around with my cousin like fake fighting which I started then I hit his fist with my phone then I forgot and my mother saw and she was like "oh stop fighting with your COUSIN!" she turns around faces the front of the car then says "oh and put your feet down" which was already was and I got pissed off and like kick her behind her head which I really didn't I was like faking then she quickly turns around and went like all AUGH!! like mad which I would really get why then she said "what you do/did" then I lied then I told her "okay give me your phone" but i said no because I was talking to my friend and my boyfriend then uh.. She said "you don't really act like this only around your cousin" I stayed quite then talked back. Knowing I actually how do I say this? I act normal with my friends and cousin but like around my mother who is kinda strick and protected over me I act different. Also everytime I am with my cousin she acts so differently it's very noticeable she act silly or like cute whatever but it's like really not and like it's weird I even told her about it and she didn't seem to care??..
I want my music right now it will really help me rn..
Dude should I worry??.. He's playing mic up with some girl
He's also not even saying I love you back to me again
Im starting to think he's cheating or just distancing from me..
She left but he's still playing
Told my friend she said what if it's his sister
What if its not though??
This guy friends everyone he meets on roblox
He even has his discord on his roblox bio
What if he's starting to move on and I didn't even notice because how attached to him..
He takes long to answer me back like either he's texting his friends or just busy probably even ignoring me he's always online he sometimes texts me just not like all the time it's like small or medium sometimes and some large 🙁
I should had took 2 gummy sleeping pills so I could forget about this and move on with my day but I didn't..
I'm just here on my bed watching Arrow I feel the gummy slowly kicking in
Hate overthinking in long distance relationship..
Or either just.. Goes offline after I text back like am I doing something wrong? What's going on? I'm trying my fucking best here to stick with you and your just over here like ehh to me like what the fuck am I doing wrong??
At least he still has the playlist he made for me it makes my heart warm up a bit..
@dapper sapphirehello, maybe its a good idea to tell him how you feel? he will probably comfort you and reassure you that he still loves and cares about you
So @sweet vault like this? because I just wanna make sure before I like send it to him..
"Helloo I'mma just talk/ask questions if you don't mind but like
Is anything okay with you? Or at home? Or anywhere else out there? Because you seem to not act like you yourself a bit and like I'm starting to kinda get a bit worry by that. And also Is something going on? Because like when I text you back you just seem to like leave me on delivered or just go offline which I don't mind okay I'm just like curious/worry about what's going on.
Also is there something I showed be like warned about? I noticed that you have your discord on your roblox bio which I don't really mind like I said because I know your like adventurous and curious out there in the world and on online but is their something I should be warn about?..
Also I know you gonna like maybe, kinda hate me for this a bit but I'mma ask again are you cheating on me? I'm just wondering also because like I'm just starting to overthinking again.. "
You should definitely rephrase it
It sounds a bit like he's the issue
Instead of asking him of there is an issue
Maybe just ask him how hes doing
Tell him you miss him
And miss talking to him
And that you love him and you'd really appreaciate if he told you that more too
Do I just say that to him like normally or just make that to a sentence because like if I make that to a sentence i feel like I would make it long again.. And also I don't know how tbh
Also I feel like if I just said that to him he could probably understand it and just try to figure it out i dunno but I'm still gonna try your idea don't worry
So like this? Also sorry I keep asking for like reassurance I just need to know if I am doing this correctly
"Hi how's your day been going? I'm starting to miss the way you used to talk to me like before. And I would loved that you just tell me what's going on instead of ignoring it.. "
Its better
But i still think it comes off a little angey/agressive in the end
"Hi how's your day been going? I'm starting to miss the way you used to talk to me like before. And I would loved that we had a good conversation because I miss talking yo uou"
Hmm.. Okay I will try that thanks
You're welcome 😄
Never mind I just feel stupid at my self for all of that..
Well communicated. Technically a partial answer but you really deserve a better one. He doesn't have to tell you what's going on but he should at least say something like I don't wanna talk about it if that's the case. As for how the relationship is doing, really just dodged the question which is interesting. I would say you are owed a proper answer regarding something like your relationship status
I can see how his response to you laying everything out would make you feel dumb, but you are doing all the right things here
I feel so freaking stupid at myself
I said sorry to him
Kinda felt like I was making him mad at me
Ah, now that clears things up quite a bit
I will probably not be doing that anyways now..
He cleared up the issue, so I would say there isn't a need for anything like that
And my god that's.. quite a lot for a person to bear. Makes us remember we take our own lives for granted sometimes
Doesn't make me feel much better about my own life but still
Ahh
I seen some of your life story thing I feel awful about it and for you
Hope your doing well though
You shouldn't be going through all of that..
Thank you. We are objectively doing better than before but it's complicated and I'm still a shell of my former self
Mmm.. That's good also no problem, Void
Too many red flags. You should end the relationship.
Know the difference between co-incidences and patterns.
For your own good.
Good luck
I think i will be fine but I will still keep updating about it
The signs are all there. The only question is when you decide to act on them. The sooner the better.
It's clear he wants to end it and doesn't have the guts to say it directly
Just prioritize your own sanity
And end it
So you can heal
It takes time
Will be hard
How about a break? That's what I was thinking.. But I dunno if he will be okay with that..
Read all your messages on this thread right from the very start
And you will realize you should end it
A break will do nothing
Oh..
Sorry you had to go through this
..
@dapper sapphire Our opinions are just that, opinions. Please do not feel pressured to take anyone’s advice, just use your judgment to make the best decision for you
I made the mistake of being pressured to make certain decisions because of others and I can confidently say it made things worse
Though based on what I know now the end result might have been the same in the end..
Oh okay.. I was starting to overthink abt it when Cat said that
I will just try to bush it off..
I do think your previous issue was addressed. Just keep in mind what you’re looking for in this relationship. If you aren’t getting it, then it might be time to reconsider
Basically is he meeting your needs. Though do keep in mind there should be space for people to not be doing okay too
Oh alright thanks..
But at the sametime I don't wanna do that to him 😕
I totally get that. Yeah, losing people is tough and it hurts like hell. It’s okay to think about what’s best for you and what you want too. If you want to stay, stay. If you want to leave, leave. So long as you’re not rude or hurtful, it’s okay to leave if you determine that to be the best option for you.
And I never told anyone about it
I feel disappointed at myself because I couldn’t say no
I mean he's not really giving that sometimes..
And for leaving or not. I had thought of that many times and I even cried to my mother about it
Tbh I just want to be myself.
I mean I am
Just I feel like this is not me
All of this is not me
Some are
Just some not..
So if I’m understanding correctly, he coerced you into ||doing a sexual favor that you didn’t feel comfortable with||? Context here does matter of course. He’s allowed to ask but if it was reasonably clear to him you were uncomfortable and he pushed anyway that wouldn’t look too good.
He did said like "if you don't want to do it then don't do it" but I still did it anyways..
Gotcha. If you’d like to be better at setting boundaries and standing up for yourself then I’d try to work on that
People share private stuff with people close them. I shared my most private stuff I didn’t tell anyone else in my case. Whether we think about it or not, we risk them knowing things about us if things end or if you’re really unlucky them betraying the trust you place in them.
If you have an issue with that, then bring it up with him. If it’s a need he can’t fulfill properly, then you need to decide if it’s something you can live with. It’s okay for you to decide you guys aren’t compatible
I would say if you feel forced to not be yourself then that’s not good. A partner is someone you should feel most comfortable feeling yourself around
No I do feel comfortable around him just like I don't know who I am I never really thought of that tbh
Doesn't sound bad but it will take me some time to do it
Ah I see, and yeah I struggle with that too. Who really knows for sure what their place in this world is
Yes if it doesn’t come naturally to you that will take time and effort
I would start by determining what your boundaries with people are, and this can apply to people beyond this relationship. If you feel the need to communicate boundaries ahead of time, I would start there. Of course determining what those boundaries are needs to come first
Am I or we lock in??? 😭 I just saw that not that long ago
Talking about the ring also because we were talking a bit to each other
@dapper sapphire a break might have a negative effect because its not always that it helps
Sometimes a break is also a break from fixing problems and issues
you're not in the wrong for worrying about it a lot of weird things can happen on mic up
thats true
Nevermind this guy got rid of the ring FUCK bro I though i was locking in also today I feel much better than yesterday which it good
Damn...
Whyd he removed it
I dunno
Things ended or?
No no no we still together just that I thought the ring ment something he does have it on his insta though
But he got banned but like 3 days ago he got unbanned
Oh
Nvm he put it in his pronouns.. 😭
Well, I can't say I know what to make of that
I guess just have him update you on the situation after he talks to doctors or whatever
Right
Very good then
Yes
I dunno why but i just started to get this werid feeling like 3 days ago it's really starting to concern me and worry me a bit, I'm thinking if it's because my family, friends, or boyfriend. it's just been off and I feel like I have not been me a little I keep having attitude to my parents but when I am around people who I am close to it’s just.. Gone? No attitude but a bit of like "ugh.." my November has been very off this month if I'mma be honest..and with me and my boyfriend he did came but the thing was his mother won't let him out so.. Yeah I didn't really get to meet him but we have been okay with stuff and life, but I have a feeling he has much on his plate right now and yes I did ask if he was okay he said he was so yeaahh.. Uhmm dunno what else to say here..
Oh and he keeps saying "ye" IT'S PISSING ME OFF I MEAN YEAH I USED TO SAY IT BEFORE BUT NOT ANYMORE AUGGGHHH!!! AND NOW I KEEP OVERTHINKING HE DOESN'T LOVE ME NO MORE WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FREAKING DO THIS!!
Holy overthinking alert over here Jesus Christ WHY CAN'T I STOP OVERTHINKING IT'S BULLSHIT ALL OF IT I FEEL LIKE HE'S CHEATING ON ME NOW OMG FUCK OVERTHINKING DUDE THIS IS BULLSHIT!!
And then panic attack they came back it's annoyingg!! 🙁
All of it is annoying
I'm probably too annoying
I'm okay 🧍
God.. Just reading people book life stuff on here is sad it's makes me sad and care for them but thing is I wouldn't know what to do because they are either older than me or probably around the same age I mean I know I have the Role on me, thing is I wouldn't know if my meaning would come out bad or nice to them. look I care, I do care like really fucking care where the point I start crying in my bed and just hoping that some of the people here who are dealing with bad shit in their life don't actually like commit into like dying or doing suicide. Like this one person (I'm not gonna say their name/user on here because I don't know if they will feel comfortable about it). Let's call them 'Alex' I'm reading through all the shit they are going through with their family and them actually wanting to commit to dying fucking breaks my heart. Look I know I shouldn't probably be caring about them because I am young and I wouldn't understand what they are going through but it still breaks my heart that they are going through this and them wanting to die. I don't want them to die but it's life though thats what I understand. learning from TV shows, movies, or even myself sometimes.. Some words could work for some people and some to others wouldn't , Ms Chére out. (not dead or anything just sleeping or watching YouTube)
😔
Do you think it would be hard to a an actor? I mean I had dreamt about it for 3 years or 2 but never thought about it until now because I do drama at my school now, thing is they were gonna do a theatre thing..it was about Willy Wonka and I wanted to do it so bad. Thing was I didn't had the guts to do it because I was scared and also because of this girl who is in my "friend" group just everytime she talks to me makes me feel uhm how do I explain it I dunno small like squish up together with all my sacredness and anxiety. like last time at drama.
Our drama teacher told us to partner up with some people and do some acting up on stage about a pizza delivery which was funny as heck until it got to us I felt scared but mostly confident to be doing it and then when I was done acting I felt like "oh my God I did, I freaking did it" I felt good at myself for doing something that I couldn't do. That was until it ended and that girl let's call them 'lily' (Not real name). lily came up and said "oh I thought you were not gonna do it" type thing if I remember she said then she hit me with the "I couldn't hear you". Dude LIKE COME ONN!! I felt proud of myself and she had the guts to hit me that I felt "oh" not a "oh!" a "oh.." yes the one with dots in it the one where you know you did something bad or just the person who did something wrong just ripped the shit out of your heart that you really loved.
I felt so disappointed at myself for that but the thing is that I was so confident too when I was up there on stage, I calm down and tried at least to use my theatre voice if I even had one out there, just to let people see that I'm not just a shy kid in a small group with speaking problems with being up on stage I wanted to show them that I could possibly had something in me that I didn't know or they didn't know that was in me but no when lily said that. All the bad stuff I could have think about all came back in me "was my voice low..?" or "did they even hear me..?"
But I am glad now I am a MC I don't even know what it stands for but all I know that I am a announcer for like coming up stuff like music and steam but that's only when they have musicals coming up like a winter showcase I mean yeah I'm kinda scared for that because of lot's of people are going to be there watching me but I think I got it and for my lines they are kinda dumb but I like dumb. My drama teacher push me into doing it not like a 'mean push' like a 'confident push' into doing something I wanted to do even though I didn't show it. Im really fucking glad I did join. I'm just so happy and excited for doing something that I really wanted to do, Ms Chére out.
It feels weird going to my cousins house now his dog died today. seems so lonely again. I wish I could had seen her one more time but she's gone ☹️..
Uhmm so I kinda had arguement with my boyfriend yesterday because he thought I was a furry sence I hadded a zeraora pokemon pfp on and I keep denying it and he kept talking about it. Until later on we kept arguing then he showed me that one baby gif which was popular before on TikTok then I told him "bro thats so annoying" and then.. Uhh.. He send me another one, i said "are you fucking for real". Then he sended me a photo which meant he was mad if I'm thinking..then uh now he hasn't talked to me for about 20 hours which is about like the whole day and I had seen him online but not texting me I'm really fucking worried and I don't know what to do
And I did text him like on Instagram.. you know sending him reels and to see if he's okay now but I doubt he his right know and. I Just wanna cry right now because I feel like all of that is my fault, I really don't know what to do
Also I did see him play with someone people he met on roblox yesterday and today it kinda really bothers me..
Hey are you alright?
Yeah I'm alright a bit thank you for asking, matt
Okay so I'm backk uhh.. Honesty don't dunno if our relationship is gonna last but thats what I think and also because I'm oversensitive or Overthinking a lot. I mean he did unfollow all the girls from his insta account but on his tiktok he has just been following some but not like a lot I mean just a little. Just like today I was going through his tiktok following (which all girls do) then I saw this femboy girl? I dunno it was uncomfortable to see him follow other girls. I know, I know someone is gonna tell me to talk to him about it or either end it. But my dumb ass can't do it I don't have the courage to do it, what do I do? Or what should I do?. because once I saw that I was like "okay I'm done with this" and started to unrepost couple things, either I'm doing something stupid or I'm doing something right.
I snaped
Understood why just to end the conversation right there. too much to handle. But still that pisses me off and sorrow from him
And for the drinking part.. Uhm.. You could say I did drink a bit of ||alcohol mix with others.|| From my mother drink that she usually drinks to fall asleep out of. I took it
Only because I was having a anxiety attack and overwhelmed/overthinking a lot (it reallyed calmed me down) but I won't do it again I promise this is only once and never again.
I apologize to him..
He hasn't said anything back but I did see him online,.. I dunno man, I just feel like a fool but I know I shouldn't be because I told him about unfollowing other girls like 3 or 4 times.
OKAY FUCK BRO I GO A DAY WITHOUT TALKING TO HIM AND THIS IS WHAT HE DOES!??
I'M FUCKING TRIED
I'M LOSING MY SHIT
SHOULD I JUST BREAK UP WITH HIM ALREADY!??
FUCKING HATE THIS GUY
I think I'mma do it
I have the balls too do it
Okay so I don't I'm scared
Never mind I have the balls to do it and I did it
It will be good for my mental health and everything
So I'm free I guess back to being single. Better then anything to be honest, now I could worry about me and my life then some boy dragging me down.
||Hope he doesn't have the inappropriate photos I took for him..|| I'm so young I shouldn't be doing that in the first place, Jesus Christ old me what where you thinking!?? 😭😭
Also that's was like my 3rd guy I ever dated 😭 holy shit bro when would I get the guy that is just right for me. Maybe women who knows also.. I'm not straight I never was I'm actually bisexual which I would hide it. But I am proud of it and not gonna change anything for me I like the way I am right now.
Wonder how I would tell my mom about it though because she reallyed loved him but it's whatever isn't it? Guys will show their true self to you and either it could be bad or not.
Also I could finally be my self now instead of hiding now and have more gifts for me as well which I will be sharing with my friend of mine and a keychain that I will be giving to my teacher or dad or maybe brother so yayy
I will give it two days for my title of my huddle so people who reads this, knows about it a bit then I'mma change it.
So get to see how my fucking relationship with this guy was, anyone who is reading this hi