#Talking abt my boyfriend.../Ranting abt stuff

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dapper sapphire
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Talking abt my boyfriend...

dapper sapphire
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Okay what the fuck is my health okay after what's going on for abt 2 or 3 weeks? Its like I hate him, now I love him whyyyy???????? Like dude why? is this okay?? Then I feel like breaking up with him then I don't want to because I don't want him to feel sad because I broke up with him like oh my God I don't know what to feel now ☹️ tbh I just wanna go for a car drive or a walk so I could take this out of my head

sage blaze
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i could give some advice if u want

dapper sapphire
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Sure 😊

sage blaze
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ok

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tell me about the dude

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@dapper sapphire

dapper sapphire
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Sorry I just got out of school rn

sage blaze
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coolio

dapper sapphire
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Soo uhmm I dunno man I feel like he's acting different or maybe its just me overthinking a lot I told my friends abt it but they don't really know how to answer it. He's been working a lot lately but the thing is I keep overthinking he's like cheating on me or like I dunno this is confusing this is my 3 time dating someone but this guy hes nice and a lovely guy. The others 2 guys I have dated were like so rude to me. And I think its because I'm new to it and I
had people leave me before so like uhmm..i just probably like waiting I guess I dunno to leave me also sorry if it sounds weird like the whole paragraph..🧍

sage blaze
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hmmm

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honestly

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ive had 6 exes

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they all ghosted me and cheated on me

dapper sapphire
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Oh sorry about that

sage blaze
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sorry, theres this guy who wants to suicide

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busy with him rn

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so much very sorry

dapper sapphire
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No no no it's okay

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I understand

sage blaze
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4 fucking hours

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and his been asking ways to die

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ngl its starting to piss me off

dapper sapphire
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Oh

sage blaze
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sorry if i sound like a bad person

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i just have stuff going on in my life that causes me to snap sometimes

dapper sapphire
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Ahh..

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Yea.. I mean I'm kinda like that with stuff thats going on with me. I sometime aruge with my parents

sage blaze
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wassup

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im back

dapper sapphire
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Hello 🧍

sage blaze
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so back to your bf

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how was he in the start of your relationship?

dapper sapphire
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He was talkative a lot and even answered me when I got out of school but now it’s like short answers, sometimes a lot talk then leaves me on read I guess or I think

sage blaze
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hmm

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ngl

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i feel like his fire died out

dapper sapphire
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Oh

sage blaze
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but then again

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you can always try to relight it

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like a candle

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u just gotta find the match

dapper sapphire
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But he's always busy at work

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So I dunno..

sage blaze
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find a way to get to him

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maybe a date night

dapper sapphire
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He's from Brazil..

sage blaze
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elaborate

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oh..

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is this one of those online dating things?

dapper sapphire
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Yeah

sage blaze
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ohh

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yeah

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um

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virtual date night

dapper sapphire
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Howw? I'm busy at school sometimes

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I dunno abt Sunday?

sage blaze
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sunday is a beautiful day

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try to figure out a day that works with him too

dapper sapphire
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What do I do though? In like the virtual date night?

sage blaze
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video games are a wonderful thing eh?

dapper sapphire
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Yeah we barely do that though

sage blaze
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hmm

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minecraft?

dapper sapphire
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I dunno if he has that..

sage blaze
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umm

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roblox?

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two player tycoons?

dapper sapphire
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He likes those war ones.. Uhhmm

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Uhh is it normal for guys to follow different girls who are like popular and shows like uh.. Body parts? in the internet?

sage blaze
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uhh

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no

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yk what we guys call those guys?

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gooners

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the worst of the worst type of guys

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the scum of dudedom

dapper sapphire
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So what do I do with him? I feel like breaking up with him and I don't fucking want to hes like my everything but now knowing like some weird and confusing parts of him its like "ew I'm actually dating this guy who is 3 years older then me and ruining my life with my overthinking and stuff" its like wow.. I don't know what to do.. But as the same time I don't have a heart to do it because I don't want him thinking he wasn't good enough or like.. Kill his self.. He lost his dad

sage blaze
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yk

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you can find someone else

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someone better

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you dont deserve a gooner as your bf

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no one does

dapper sapphire
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I can't say it I'm scared and for some reason I don't wanna lose him. I mean I would always told myself "oh yeah he's busy at work or karate he will text you later there's nothing to worry about" but its not even working the positive I have been saying to myself for so long. He even if he actually did he got me an stitch plushie which was kind oh my god I dunno what to do I can’t say it I’m scared to let go

dapper sapphire
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Where like people like.. Text them? To see if they are actually cheating?

sage blaze
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yeah

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like make a fake insta account

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make it

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something for gooners

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try messaging him

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if he gets interested in that stuff

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and wants more

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well..

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sorry to say

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but i guess his not the one

dapper sapphire
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But I don't want to do it I want like someone else to do that..

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I'm scared to face the truth abt him

dapper sapphire
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Tbh I just kinda wanna wait before I do or anyone does that because he did say that he was gonna come where I am in like a month so if he doesn't come were I am I will do it or anyone would do it but for now I'm just gonna talk abt him or rant abt stuff here hehe..wish me luck...ig 🙃

sage blaze
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Wishing u luck

dapper sapphire
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Thank you cloud

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Talking abt my boyfriend.../Ranting abt stuff

frail verge
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hate to break it to you but the girl he follows is an OF model

dapper sapphire
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He doesn't follow her no more

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But thank you

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But if he does again I will talk to him abt it

meager viper
# dapper sapphire I can't say it I'm scared and for some reason I don't wanna lose him. I mean I w...

I wanted to say that what the other person talking about "gooner" thing it doesn’t necessarily mean he’s bad it could maybe also mean he’s addicted to the websites and maybe can’t control it and it’s actually common some people even have it in marriages talk about it with him or something figure it out because of something like that doesn’t mean you have to break up (if you’re comfortable speaking to him about it ofcourse)

dapper sapphire
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Okay uhmm back because I wanna talk about him again... I keep thinking I am losing him again and he hasn't said "I love you" to me for like 4 days and it's really worry me and I have been the only one saying it to him and he's not saying it back it's really freaking me out I told my cousin and my friend and my friend said "talk to him or distract yourself" then my cousin said "I know your probably to kind to do this to him but be dry" I dunno what to fucking do I feel so lost rn but I kinda want to do what my cousin told me too do uhh 🫩

dapper sapphire
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FUCK NAH I'M BEING FUCK ASS DRAMATIC 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I GOT HIM TO SAY IT FUCK BRO I TOO FREAKING ATTACHED TO THIS GUY

dapper sapphire
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Fuck bro.. I uhh keep making things worse for myself (it's about me and my mom)

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Uhm

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So I was playing around with my cousin like fake fighting which I started then I hit his fist with my phone then I forgot and my mother saw and she was like "oh stop fighting with your COUSIN!" she turns around faces the front of the car then says "oh and put your feet down" which was already was and I got pissed off and like kick her behind her head which I really didn't I was like faking then she quickly turns around and went like all AUGH!! like mad which I would really get why then she said "what you do/did" then I lied then I told her "okay give me your phone" but i said no because I was talking to my friend and my boyfriend then uh.. She said "you don't really act like this only around your cousin" I stayed quite then talked back. Knowing I actually how do I say this? I act normal with my friends and cousin but like around my mother who is kinda strick and protected over me I act different. Also everytime I am with my cousin she acts so differently it's very noticeable she act silly or like cute whatever but it's like really not and like it's weird I even told her about it and she didn't seem to care??..

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I want my music right now it will really help me rn..

dapper sapphire
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Dude should I worry??.. He's playing mic up with some girl

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He's also not even saying I love you back to me again

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Im starting to think he's cheating or just distancing from me..

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She left but he's still playing

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Told my friend she said what if it's his sister

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What if its not though??

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This guy friends everyone he meets on roblox

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He even has his discord on his roblox bio

dapper sapphire
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What if he's starting to move on and I didn't even notice because how attached to him..

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He takes long to answer me back like either he's texting his friends or just busy probably even ignoring me he's always online he sometimes texts me just not like all the time it's like small or medium sometimes and some large 🙁

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I should had took 2 gummy sleeping pills so I could forget about this and move on with my day but I didn't..

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I'm just here on my bed watching Arrow I feel the gummy slowly kicking in

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Hate overthinking in long distance relationship..

dapper sapphire
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At least he still has the playlist he made for me it makes my heart warm up a bit..

sweet vault
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@dapper sapphirehello, maybe its a good idea to tell him how you feel? he will probably comfort you and reassure you that he still loves and cares about you

dapper sapphire
# sweet vault <@1279295178888314914>hello, maybe its a good idea to tell him how you feel? he ...

So @sweet vault like this? because I just wanna make sure before I like send it to him..

"Helloo I'mma just talk/ask questions if you don't mind but like

Is anything okay with you? Or at home? Or anywhere else out there? Because you seem to not act like you yourself a bit and like I'm starting to kinda get a bit worry by that. And also Is something going on? Because like when I text you back you just seem to like leave me on delivered or just go offline which I don't mind okay I'm just like curious/worry about what's going on.

Also is there something I showed be like warned about? I noticed that you have your discord on your roblox bio which I don't really mind like I said because I know your like adventurous and curious out there in the world and on online but is their something I should be warn about?..

Also I know you gonna like maybe, kinda hate me for this a bit but I'mma ask again are you cheating on me? I'm just wondering also because like I'm just starting to overthinking again.. "

sweet vault
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It sounds a bit like he's the issue

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Instead of asking him of there is an issue

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Maybe just ask him how hes doing

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Tell him you miss him

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And miss talking to him

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And that you love him and you'd really appreaciate if he told you that more too

dapper sapphire
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Do I just say that to him like normally or just make that to a sentence because like if I make that to a sentence i feel like I would make it long again.. And also I don't know how tbh

dapper sapphire
dapper sapphire
# sweet vault You should definitely rephrase it

So like this? Also sorry I keep asking for like reassurance I just need to know if I am doing this correctly

"Hi how's your day been going? I'm starting to miss the way you used to talk to me like before. And I would loved that you just tell me what's going on instead of ignoring it.. "

sweet vault
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But i still think it comes off a little angey/agressive in the end

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"Hi how's your day been going? I'm starting to miss the way you used to talk to me like before. And I would loved that we had a good conversation because I miss talking yo uou"

dapper sapphire
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Hmm.. Okay I will try that thanks

sweet vault
dapper sapphire
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Never mind I just feel stupid at my self for all of that..

hybrid sluice
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Well communicated. Technically a partial answer but you really deserve a better one. He doesn't have to tell you what's going on but he should at least say something like I don't wanna talk about it if that's the case. As for how the relationship is doing, really just dodged the question which is interesting. I would say you are owed a proper answer regarding something like your relationship status

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I can see how his response to you laying everything out would make you feel dumb, but you are doing all the right things here

dapper sapphire
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I feel so freaking stupid at myself

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I said sorry to him

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Kinda felt like I was making him mad at me

hybrid sluice
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Ah, now that clears things up quite a bit

dapper sapphire
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I will probably not be doing that anyways now..

hybrid sluice
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He cleared up the issue, so I would say there isn't a need for anything like that

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And my god that's.. quite a lot for a person to bear. Makes us remember we take our own lives for granted sometimes

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Doesn't make me feel much better about my own life but still

dapper sapphire
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Ahh

dapper sapphire
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Hope your doing well though

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You shouldn't be going through all of that..

hybrid sluice
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Thank you. We are objectively doing better than before but it's complicated and I'm still a shell of my former self

dapper sapphire
mighty lion
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Too many red flags. You should end the relationship.

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Know the difference between co-incidences and patterns.

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For your own good.

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Good luck

dapper sapphire
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I think i will be fine but I will still keep updating about it

mighty lion
dapper sapphire
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Uhh yeah..

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I told him about it

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Then he said that

mighty lion
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Just prioritize your own sanity

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And end it

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So you can heal

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It takes time

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Will be hard

dapper sapphire
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How about a break? That's what I was thinking.. But I dunno if he will be okay with that..

mighty lion
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And you will realize you should end it

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A break will do nothing

dapper sapphire
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Oh..

mighty lion
dapper sapphire
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..

hybrid sluice
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@dapper sapphire Our opinions are just that, opinions. Please do not feel pressured to take anyone’s advice, just use your judgment to make the best decision for you

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I made the mistake of being pressured to make certain decisions because of others and I can confidently say it made things worse

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Though based on what I know now the end result might have been the same in the end..

dapper sapphire
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Oh okay.. I was starting to overthink abt it when Cat said that

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I will just try to bush it off..

hybrid sluice
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I do think your previous issue was addressed. Just keep in mind what you’re looking for in this relationship. If you aren’t getting it, then it might be time to reconsider

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Basically is he meeting your needs. Though do keep in mind there should be space for people to not be doing okay too

dapper sapphire
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Oh alright thanks..

dapper sapphire
hybrid sluice
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I totally get that. Yeah, losing people is tough and it hurts like hell. It’s okay to think about what’s best for you and what you want too. If you want to stay, stay. If you want to leave, leave. So long as you’re not rude or hurtful, it’s okay to leave if you determine that to be the best option for you.

dapper sapphire
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And I never told anyone about it

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I feel disappointed at myself because I couldn’t say no

dapper sapphire
dapper sapphire
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Tbh I just want to be myself.

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I mean I am

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Just I feel like this is not me

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All of this is not me

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Some are

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Just some not..

hybrid sluice
dapper sapphire
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He did said like "if you don't want to do it then don't do it" but I still did it anyways..

hybrid sluice
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Gotcha. If you’d like to be better at setting boundaries and standing up for yourself then I’d try to work on that

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People share private stuff with people close them. I shared my most private stuff I didn’t tell anyone else in my case. Whether we think about it or not, we risk them knowing things about us if things end or if you’re really unlucky them betraying the trust you place in them.

hybrid sluice
hybrid sluice
dapper sapphire
dapper sapphire
hybrid sluice
hybrid sluice
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I would start by determining what your boundaries with people are, and this can apply to people beyond this relationship. If you feel the need to communicate boundaries ahead of time, I would start there. Of course determining what those boundaries are needs to come first

dapper sapphire
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Mmmmm

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Alrighty

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I mean I did that with my mom she didn't uhh do it or that?

dapper sapphire
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Am I or we lock in??? 😭 I just saw that not that long ago

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Talking about the ring also because we were talking a bit to each other

sweet vault
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@dapper sapphire a break might have a negative effect because its not always that it helps

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Sometimes a break is also a break from fixing problems and issues

queen helm
dapper sapphire
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Nevermind this guy got rid of the ring FUCK bro I though i was locking in also today I feel much better than yesterday which it good

dapper sapphire
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I dunno

sweet vault
dapper sapphire
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No no no we still together just that I thought the ring ment something he does have it on his insta though

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But he got banned but like 3 days ago he got unbanned

dapper sapphire
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Nvm he put it in his pronouns.. 😭

dapper sapphire
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Uhmm help?? What's going on..?

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I'm scared

hybrid sluice
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Well, I can't say I know what to make of that

dapper sapphire
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Uhmm

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😕

hybrid sluice
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I guess just have him update you on the situation after he talks to doctors or whatever

dapper sapphire
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Alright alright

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Update you later, Lord

hybrid sluice
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Right

dapper sapphire
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He's doing alright rn

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He's recovering

hybrid sluice
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Very good then

dapper sapphire
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Yes

dapper sapphire
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I dunno why but i just started to get this werid feeling like 3 days ago it's really starting to concern me and worry me a bit, I'm thinking if it's because my family, friends, or boyfriend. it's just been off and I feel like I have not been me a little I keep having attitude to my parents but when I am around people who I am close to it’s just.. Gone? No attitude but a bit of like "ugh.." my November has been very off this month if I'mma be honest..and with me and my boyfriend he did came but the thing was his mother won't let him out so.. Yeah I didn't really get to meet him but we have been okay with stuff and life, but I have a feeling he has much on his plate right now and yes I did ask if he was okay he said he was so yeaahh.. Uhmm dunno what else to say here..

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Oh and he keeps saying "ye" IT'S PISSING ME OFF I MEAN YEAH I USED TO SAY IT BEFORE BUT NOT ANYMORE AUGGGHHH!!! AND NOW I KEEP OVERTHINKING HE DOESN'T LOVE ME NO MORE WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FREAKING DO THIS!!

dapper sapphire
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Holy overthinking alert over here Jesus Christ WHY CAN'T I STOP OVERTHINKING IT'S BULLSHIT ALL OF IT I FEEL LIKE HE'S CHEATING ON ME NOW OMG FUCK OVERTHINKING DUDE THIS IS BULLSHIT!!

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And then panic attack they came back it's annoyingg!! 🙁

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All of it is annoying

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I'm probably too annoying

dapper sapphire
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I'm okay 🧍

dapper sapphire
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God.. Just reading people book life stuff on here is sad it's makes me sad and care for them but thing is I wouldn't know what to do because they are either older than me or probably around the same age I mean I know I have the Role on me, thing is I wouldn't know if my meaning would come out bad or nice to them. look I care, I do care like really fucking care where the point I start crying in my bed and just hoping that some of the people here who are dealing with bad shit in their life don't actually like commit into like dying or doing suicide. Like this one person (I'm not gonna say their name/user on here because I don't know if they will feel comfortable about it). Let's call them 'Alex' I'm reading through all the shit they are going through with their family and them actually wanting to commit to dying fucking breaks my heart. Look I know I shouldn't probably be caring about them because I am young and I wouldn't understand what they are going through but it still breaks my heart that they are going through this and them wanting to die. I don't want them to die but it's life though thats what I understand. learning from TV shows, movies, or even myself sometimes.. Some words could work for some people and some to others wouldn't , Ms Chére out. (not dead or anything just sleeping or watching YouTube)

dapper sapphire
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Do you think it would be hard to a an actor? I mean I had dreamt about it for 3 years or 2 but never thought about it until now because I do drama at my school now, thing is they were gonna do a theatre thing..it was about Willy Wonka and I wanted to do it so bad. Thing was I didn't had the guts to do it because I was scared and also because of this girl who is in my "friend" group just everytime she talks to me makes me feel uhm how do I explain it I dunno small like squish up together with all my sacredness and anxiety. like last time at drama.

Our drama teacher told us to partner up with some people and do some acting up on stage about a pizza delivery which was funny as heck until it got to us I felt scared but mostly confident to be doing it and then when I was done acting I felt like "oh my God I did, I freaking did it" I felt good at myself for doing something that I couldn't do. That was until it ended and that girl let's call them 'lily' (Not real name). lily came up and said "oh I thought you were not gonna do it" type thing if I remember she said then she hit me with the "I couldn't hear you". Dude LIKE COME ONN!! I felt proud of myself and she had the guts to hit me that I felt "oh" not a "oh!" a "oh.." yes the one with dots in it the one where you know you did something bad or just the person who did something wrong just ripped the shit out of your heart that you really loved.

I felt so disappointed at myself for that but the thing is that I was so confident too when I was up there on stage, I calm down and tried at least to use my theatre voice if I even had one out there, just to let people see that I'm not just a shy kid in a small group with speaking problems with being up on stage I wanted to show them that I could possibly had something in me that I didn't know or they didn't know that was in me but no when lily said that. All the bad stuff I could have think about all came back in me "was my voice low..?" or "did they even hear me..?"

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But I am glad now I am a MC I don't even know what it stands for but all I know that I am a announcer for like coming up stuff like music and steam but that's only when they have musicals coming up like a winter showcase I mean yeah I'm kinda scared for that because of lot's of people are going to be there watching me but I think I got it and for my lines they are kinda dumb but I like dumb. My drama teacher push me into doing it not like a 'mean push' like a 'confident push' into doing something I wanted to do even though I didn't show it. Im really fucking glad I did join. I'm just so happy and excited for doing something that I really wanted to do, Ms Chére out.

dapper sapphire
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It feels weird going to my cousins house now his dog died today. seems so lonely again. I wish I could had seen her one more time but she's gone ☹️..

dapper sapphire
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Uhmm so I kinda had arguement with my boyfriend yesterday because he thought I was a furry sence I hadded a zeraora pokemon pfp on and I keep denying it and he kept talking about it. Until later on we kept arguing then he showed me that one baby gif which was popular before on TikTok then I told him "bro thats so annoying" and then.. Uhh.. He send me another one, i said "are you fucking for real". Then he sended me a photo which meant he was mad if I'm thinking..then uh now he hasn't talked to me for about 20 hours which is about like the whole day and I had seen him online but not texting me I'm really fucking worried and I don't know what to do

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And I did text him like on Instagram.. you know sending him reels and to see if he's okay now but I doubt he his right know and. I Just wanna cry right now because I feel like all of that is my fault, I really don't know what to do

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Also I did see him play with someone people he met on roblox yesterday and today it kinda really bothers me..

dapper sapphire
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Never mind all of that never mind..

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Sorry everybody

tired jetty
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Hey are you alright?

dapper sapphire
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Yeah I'm alright a bit thank you for asking, matt

tired jetty
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Np :]

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🫂

dapper sapphire
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Okay so I'm backk uhh.. Honesty don't dunno if our relationship is gonna last but thats what I think and also because I'm oversensitive or Overthinking a lot. I mean he did unfollow all the girls from his insta account but on his tiktok he has just been following some but not like a lot I mean just a little. Just like today I was going through his tiktok following (which all girls do) then I saw this femboy girl? I dunno it was uncomfortable to see him follow other girls. I know, I know someone is gonna tell me to talk to him about it or either end it. But my dumb ass can't do it I don't have the courage to do it, what do I do? Or what should I do?. because once I saw that I was like "okay I'm done with this" and started to unrepost couple things, either I'm doing something stupid or I'm doing something right.

dapper sapphire
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I snaped

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Understood why just to end the conversation right there. too much to handle. But still that pisses me off and sorrow from him

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And for the drinking part.. Uhm.. You could say I did drink a bit of ||alcohol mix with others.|| From my mother drink that she usually drinks to fall asleep out of. I took it

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Only because I was having a anxiety attack and overwhelmed/overthinking a lot (it reallyed calmed me down) but I won't do it again I promise this is only once and never again.

dapper sapphire
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I apologize to him..

dapper sapphire
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He hasn't said anything back but I did see him online,.. I dunno man, I just feel like a fool but I know I shouldn't be because I told him about unfollowing other girls like 3 or 4 times.

dapper sapphire
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OKAY FUCK BRO I GO A DAY WITHOUT TALKING TO HIM AND THIS IS WHAT HE DOES!??

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I'M FUCKING TRIED

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I'M LOSING MY SHIT

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SHOULD I JUST BREAK UP WITH HIM ALREADY!??

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FUCKING HATE THIS GUY

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I think I'mma do it

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I have the balls too do it

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Okay so I don't I'm scared

dapper sapphire
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Never mind I have the balls to do it and I did it

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It will be good for my mental health and everything

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So I'm free I guess back to being single. Better then anything to be honest, now I could worry about me and my life then some boy dragging me down.

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||Hope he doesn't have the inappropriate photos I took for him..|| I'm so young I shouldn't be doing that in the first place, Jesus Christ old me what where you thinking!?? 😭😭

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Also that's was like my 3rd guy I ever dated 😭 holy shit bro when would I get the guy that is just right for me. Maybe women who knows also.. I'm not straight I never was I'm actually bisexual which I would hide it. But I am proud of it and not gonna change anything for me I like the way I am right now.

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Wonder how I would tell my mom about it though because she reallyed loved him but it's whatever isn't it? Guys will show their true self to you and either it could be bad or not.

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Also I could finally be my self now instead of hiding now and have more gifts for me as well which I will be sharing with my friend of mine and a keychain that I will be giving to my teacher or dad or maybe brother so yayy

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I will give it two days for my title of my huddle so people who reads this, knows about it a bit then I'mma change it.

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So get to see how my fucking relationship with this guy was, anyone who is reading this hi

dapper sapphire
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Well that's it. He was actually the truly best but not good for my mental health. we gotta move on.