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torn plover Aug 26, 2025, 7:56 PM

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Today i’m feeling a bit better. Still some stress but less than yesterday

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I will try to study tomorrow

torn plover Sep 2, 2025, 9:35 AM

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I haven’t posted here in a while because i’ve been feeling a bit better but i’m still lazy when it comes to studying i’m even thinking of cheating but i feel bad… idk i will try to study i should trick myself into thinking that i’m not studying but rather just reading some ‘fun facts’ haha idk how i’ll do that but i will try

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Also I forgot to mention that I have pcos and it messes up with my period like I don’t get my period for like a month or two and sometimes i only get it if i take some pills but i recently got it twice without pills and i’m so grateful…yes it might have gotten late a bit but at least it started without any pills Twice in a row and i’m really happy for that.

I had really bad nausea and cramps yesterday but i’m feeling much better now so i will try to study… i mean learn some fun facts haha

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Also I have to start exercising and dieting soon for my health (:

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I just need to make it seem fun! I’m thinking of subscribing to disney+ and exercise while watching my fav show :3

torn plover Sep 5, 2025, 12:21 AM

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Yay i subscribed to disney+ and i’m already enjoying it

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I have to buy a gift for my niece’s birthday. I really love seeing the joy in my niece’s eyes. I love her.

torn plover Sep 7, 2025, 1:39 AM

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Yesterday, I went to the mall and I had so much fun! I also bought a gift for my niece (: I hope she likes it!

torn plover Sep 7, 2025, 12:22 PM

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currently studying, and i’m actually feeling productive which is a good thing yay

torn plover Sep 7, 2025, 1:31 PM

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Ok so i studied a bit of the first subject and I reached a point where I cannot take any more info from this subject so i’m gonna now study my second subject

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Ok maybe I need to take a little break first

torn plover Sep 7, 2025, 2:46 PM

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I just finished doing my skincare routine 🫶🏻

torn plover Sep 7, 2025, 7:27 PM

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Aghhhh i’m exhausted I want to get over with the course I want to be free

torn plover Sep 8, 2025, 2:37 AM

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Today i’m gonna try to diet and force myself to study 😍

torn plover Sep 8, 2025, 11:30 AM

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Currently studying. Well i’m reading and trying to understand cuz this is what our prof recommends cuz it is about understanding and not memorizing

torn plover Sep 12, 2025, 3:20 PM

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Yesterday I studied a whole chapter and today i’m deciding to study the second one. I studied a bit but I will be going to the mall now and will continue later

torn plover Sep 13, 2025, 2:16 AM

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I hate my social anxiety

torn plover Sep 13, 2025, 7:13 PM

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Ok so i gotta lock in and start a glow up journey

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I always start but end up quitting grr but it’s ok I will keep trying

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I want to improve my health and my social skills

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And confidence ofc

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It’s gonna be a long journey

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But it’s gonna be worth it

torn plover Sep 14, 2025, 6:20 PM

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I went to the mall today and tried to eat healthier

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I also ordered coloring books online

torn plover Sep 15, 2025, 10:04 AM

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Today I had granola & blueberries with low fat berry flavored greek yoghurt

Grilled Chicken with potatoes and carrots

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I wont exercise today because I want to focus on studying

torn plover Sep 16, 2025, 7:40 PM

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I’m almost done studying i’m so happy that I was able to make progress (:

torn plover Sep 26, 2025, 9:03 PM

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I can finally relax

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I’m so relieved

torn plover Sep 29, 2025, 4:48 PM

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I want to stop taking my meds

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Im not sure but i feel like it’s making my appetite big and i don’t really want to eat much i’m struggling to maintain my weight and also i have pcos which adds to it

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I need to lock in! 😠 i can do it and i will

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I’m strong I can do it

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Im also thinking of joining an online therapy session which is kinda expensive but I feel it is worth it it lasts for 6 months

bleak grove Oct 3, 2025, 11:16 PM

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That sounds wonderful

torn plover Oct 8, 2025, 3:28 PM

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I feel sleepy most of the time

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Probs low vitamin d

torn plover Oct 9, 2025, 5:45 PM

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Today I went to an art shop and designed my own phone case (:

It’s not the best but I like the colors I chose

torn plover Oct 9, 2025, 10:20 PM

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I have just gotten my period

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I hope that my period is not delaying ever again

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I tried to exercise today and I was able to do it (:

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And tried to eat healthier

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I should continue that way or just try my best

torn plover Oct 15, 2025, 8:45 PM

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Hi so my ocd relapsed a bit but tomorrow morning i’m gonna call someone who can help

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I don’t want to relapse more 😔

torn plover Oct 16, 2025, 1:57 AM

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I’m so worried

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I’m worried about calling her but ik if I didn’t call her I will feel worse so I should force myself to call her

torn plover Oct 16, 2025, 8:14 AM

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I did it i called her the anxiety reduced but it is still there

torn plover Oct 18, 2025, 5:40 PM

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Ok so i’m planning to face my fears

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Which is starting a convo

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Ofc online

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Cuz i struggle with that too

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I will enter a chat room and chat with people

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Cuz i’m sick of my social anxiety

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Very sick of it

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I mean, I kinda can chat in this server

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I feel safe here

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But i’m talking about like in online games

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There’s chatting but i am too scared to chat

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But i will try to get out of my comfort zone

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I also want to face my fear of driving

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😔

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I will try step by step

rugged kernel Oct 18, 2025, 6:31 PM

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You can do it! Yay

torn plover Oct 18, 2025, 8:32 PM

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rugged kernel You can do it! Yay

I will try, thanks

torn plover Oct 20, 2025, 10:33 AM

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Nahhhh i keep messing up my diet aaaaaaaaaaaaa

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It’s ok i will try to be more active 🥲

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I just wish if calories didn’t exist

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Btw i grew my nails as a nail biter which is a big thing for me. I would love to have a manicure and pedicure it’s just so therapeutic 😌

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I’m still feeling bad cuz i ate the junk i mean on one hand i feel good cuz i enjoyed the food but on the other hand i feel guilt but ik guilt is bad cuz it can lead to bad decisions which I don’t want to fall in

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But it’s ok but like i’m scared to gain weight I don’t want to gain weight I will lose all my self esteem and feel ugly

torn plover Oct 20, 2025, 5:08 PM

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Ahhhh i’m so happy I found a new hobby and i’m currently practicing it

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It’s friendship bracelet making.
I’m starting with the basics cuz I want to reach the advanced stage where I can turn pixel art into bracelets!

If you’re interested the advanced is called alpha bracelets but before learning that you should start with the basic friendship bracelets which i’m currently doing.

If I made one successfully i’m definitely sharing on here! AAAAA IM SO EXCITED

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Haha i keep making mistakes but this is how we learn

torn plover Oct 29, 2025, 6:56 PM

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nvm fuck that hobby i suck at it lmao

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I got too stressed i bit all my nails off

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😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

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I was trying to grow them

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It’s ok …

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Ugh i wish i am good at this it looks really cool but i keep messing up

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I will give it another try i guess

torn plover Nov 2, 2025, 8:27 AM

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So i’m getting better in making the bracelets however recently i started getting depressed and wishing i were emotionless just to not feel any pain

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Im going through a very difficult time

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Idk how to explain

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But it’s been a while and i’m in this situation

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||I just sometimes wish that i’m dead||

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Actually been years

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😔

torn plover Nov 2, 2025, 3:03 PM

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My mood is ruined cuz i made a big mistake

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We all make mistakes but what i did was my choice and it was a wrong decision

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I wish i could go back in time and not do what i did

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😔

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Ughhhhhh

torn plover Nov 8, 2025, 4:21 PM

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I’m gonna try a new diet method cuz the one i’m on just doesn’t work for me

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I need a sustainable one

torn plover Nov 8, 2025, 4:48 PM

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This time I will make it

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And will try to exercise

rugged kernel Nov 8, 2025, 5:57 PM

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YAY

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 10:29 AM

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I hate it when my little sister treats me like i’m younger than her like be respectful

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😒

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Also i kinda feel lonely

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 10:57 AM

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torn plover Also i kinda feel lonely

Why so

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 11:01 AM

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rugged kernel Why so

I wish it was easy for me to make more friends

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I see others have it easy

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I keep comparing myself and it ruins everything

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 11:08 AM

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torn plover I keep comparing myself and it ruins everything

Comparing is a pain in the ass

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One shouldn't

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Life is much happier without comparisons

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But it's also important to take into consideration that what causes it

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:09 PM

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rugged kernel But it's also important to take into consideration that what causes it

Im comparing cuz others have it easy but i dont cuz of my social anxiety and i just im scared to talk to people i feel they wont like me

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:15 PM

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Mhm

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Like irl or online too?

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:22 PM

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rugged kernel Like irl or online too?

Irl mostly

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:24 PM

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Do you've friends irl?

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:26 PM

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rugged kernel Do you've friends irl?

Nope just op

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:26 PM

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Aw😭

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If you've some hobbies, as you told you've

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Why not join some circles related to them

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You'll meet people

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And usually it's easier to interact w someone if you've a very similar interest

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Conversations flow naturally

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:30 PM

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rugged kernel Why not join some circles related to them

I will try that im already in some groups(online) but i will try to talk there

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Thanks btw

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:30 PM

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No I mean IRL

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:30 PM

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AAAAAA

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irl is difficult for me

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🫃🏻🫃🏻🫃🏻🫃🏻🫃🏻

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:30 PM

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That's what you should try overcoming tho😭

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:30 PM

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Ik ik

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😭😭😭

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Thats not easy

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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Tell me one of your fav hobbies

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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coloring😭

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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torn plover Thats not easy

Not impossible tho Yummers

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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True crime !!

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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torn plover coloring😭

Look out for smtg related to coloring

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Like art classes

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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Irl 😫😫😫😫

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 1:31 PM

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Do you work?

torn plover Nov 9, 2025, 1:45 PM

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rugged kernel Do you work?

Still looking

rugged kernel Nov 9, 2025, 2:10 PM

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Nw Joy

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