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fathom oyster Aug 23, 2025, 5:39 AM

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Day 106
Still feel like shit
Honestly I have no real problems in my life
I don't know how it's gotten this bad
But whatever
We persevere
I need to become the absolute academic weapon I used to be 7 months ago
Gonna clear the backlog of the last month today
Hope I finish on time

fathom oyster Aug 23, 2025, 10:34 AM

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Weight that I've worked so fricking hard to shed

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Almost 20 pounds in a year

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It ain't easy

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Plus I'm prediabetic so it's extra tough 💔
I'm already on immunosuppresants for 9 months and metformin for God knows how long

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Aight enough whining

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Back to studying now

fathom oyster Aug 23, 2025, 11:51 AM

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This is so real

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Lmao not me doing this as if someone's gonna read this bs 😭

fathom oyster Aug 23, 2025, 3:38 PM

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I have a jacket (wow I feel stupid writing this shit)

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Anyways

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I have a jacket

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And my cousin wore it once

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It smells like her perfume

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My real sister used to wear it too

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I've spent the last 5 or so days in that jacket

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It's not even cold

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But I don't wanna take it off

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Thing is, both my sisters attempted ||suicide||

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So did i!!

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So it's like our little club haah

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Wait I'm supposed to put trigger warning and shit

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TW- SH, ED, SUICIDE AND UH✨ WHINING✨ WHICH MANY OF YOU HATE LMAO 😭

fathom oyster Aug 24, 2025, 3:20 AM

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Day 105
I WILL NOT CRY TODAY!
And I will study for the test tomorrow.
I will get enough sleep.
Also who the fuck was Maslow kidding when he came up with the need hierarchy pyramid?

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Do homeless people not crave love? Won't the hunger hurt less if they had someone?

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My bottom two tiers ie physiological and safety needs have been fulfilled, yet I crave the top 3 tiers.... simultaneously

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Maybe it's cuz I'm privileged or something and I don't know what true struggle feels like

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But I feel like I'll always crave love

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Too bad i don't plan on getting any

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Another thing

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If love is all brain chemicals doing their thing

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Then why does it genuinely actually hurt in the heart

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I feel like someone ripped my heart out goddamn

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Did not expect it to hurt this bad
Idk if I'll recover
But i brought this upon myself
So can't do shit about it
We ball

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Damn does the cold feel colder when you're sad or smth

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I'm sitting in 29 degrees and I'm_ SHIVERING_ lmfao

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I'll just go register myself at wompwomp.com!

fathom oyster Aug 24, 2025, 7:23 AM

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ALL NIGHTER TONIGHT SO THERE GO MY PLANS TO GET SLEEP

steep fossil Aug 24, 2025, 2:26 PM

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fathom oyster ALL NIGHTER TONIGHT SO THERE GO MY PLANS TO GET SLEEP

I struggled to sleep last night too

(Sorry if you dont want me replying here)

fathom oyster Aug 24, 2025, 2:26 PM

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Nah I don't mind

fathom oyster Aug 25, 2025, 11:41 AM

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Day 104
The test went well but I threw up before it which again leads me to the question - how has it gotten this bad
Anyways I've got a holiday today and tomorrow so I'm DEFINITELY going to finish all my projects (nothing can stop meee)

fathom oyster Aug 25, 2025, 1:00 PM

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They done gave me MORE meds on top of the ones i already had

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BUT a silver lining

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1 more injection and I'm DONE growing hair

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I feel like the nurse lwk hates me cuz why'd she JAB it in so hard 😭😭

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Its still bleeding lmao

steep fossil Aug 25, 2025, 3:35 PM

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Bless hugs

fathom oyster Aug 25, 2025, 3:38 PM

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Thanks lol it stopped now

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